Went for wine tasting yest.. 5 different wines from France - Rose. Sauvignon Blanc. Chablis. 2 Pinot Noir. 1 of the white and red were organic. Antonin was really knowledgeable.. Better than the other masterclass I went for. Coz at least he wasn't talking to himself. (Check: at least 3 glasses equivalent of wines.) 

Rushed over and met Oiying for Comedy Masala. The opening act and the one after were hilarious! The third was so-so. The highlight was Aidan Killian - not bad! Food (especially the criss cross fries and the pork grillets) were really good. (Check: 2 pints of Asahi Dry.) 

Then we walked around looking for place to drink somemore.. Ended up after 1 round at Brewerks at Riverside.. Chatted and drank till like 12.40am?!? On a weekday night! (Check: 1 bottle Thatcher's Rose.) 

Reached home showered and conked out at like 1.10am? And woke up wishing I didn't have to work at 6.30am. 

I must be crazy. ;P

Even though I know dreams are the opposite of reality. He was yummy nonetheless. ;) 

Man in army green. Super bike. <3 

He looked familiar.. But I can't place my finger on where I've seen him before though. Hmmmz. 

I'm still happy no matter what. Hee.. He made my Monday green. ;P

结果喝醉的时候.. 想到的人还是你. </3 

In a way I'm just glad I didn't share a lot of my past with him. As in those things that matter. And in another way he just proved that guys from boys school are the same. Especially that one that I stereotype. :) 

If that one comes true with Qi Yuan.. Then.. 

8 days to KL

16 days to Anilao

50 days to Malacca 

<3

The amount of alcohol *dy and I had over 2 nights - 6 hours. :P Of course the beers are not a one time thing.. Between 2 of us.. We had 8 cans. On top of all those.. I had 3 glasses of white and 1 pack of Chinese wine. :) 

Can't wait to be back to meet Gus and *dy again soon! And of course the rest of the Malacca family! <3

I deleted all our chats. Somehow or another. It's actually not painful. =) 

发神经的夜晚. <3

Just coz I texted and asked. He immediately came out and accompanied me for the next 21/2 hours. Even though he had to work today. <3 Thank you! <3

He replied. But short and curt kind. =/ 

So I guess... 

This is it? 

结果还是我 initiate 咯.. 

But well.. If he doesn't reply. I'll get the hint le. 没良心的家伙. Yet I'm so 犯贱. 

... ...

What he said before ran through my mind. That he doesn't like clinginess. Hmmmz.

Drinking beer with my 2 favourite people back home. <3 

Thanks jerk. 

I've decided to let go 

That you're not worth my patience and time 

I've tried to be patient, God knows I've tried 

But there's a limit to what I need 

All I need is someone with more initiative in striking up conversation, instead of answering with single word

Someone who tries to understand me and yet still adores me

I know I'm strong, but that doesn't mean you can leave me alone like that

I'm a girl too, I need the love and care I deserve

4 days

This's worse than going on a LOB where there's no signal 

So this is it

I refuse to let myself cower and bend to text you first 

You're no longer worth it

And I know this pain shall pass soon too 

PS. I had 2 mugs of half pints today alone. I know I'm nuts. 

I can't believe she did that in the open. O.O I almost choked on my lunch. What kind of power is that?!? 

You'll never know, never know how much you mean to me

How much I look forward to your texts almost everyday 

I'm still overthinking, over-reacting

That if I text you first, you'll find me to be an annoying bitch 

It's been 3 days since we last text, 3 days since I last curtly replied your msg

3 days since I last posted anything on social media

And coming from me, that's a lot 

If you still can't tell that something is bothering me, then I was thinking perhaps I should just ask you in the face

If your heart's been stolen

If you're seeing someone else

If I meant anything to you anymore 

Or I'm just a toy that you've grown tired of 

I told myself I'll be strong 

That from now on, whatever dives it may be

I'll go on my own, leave on my own 

I told myself I'm not going to initiate meetups anymore, that I'm going to stop caring about you 

Coz the more I allow myself to care, to ask

The more I hurt, the more I wallow in this sick rut 

I just want someone who is honest to me about who we are, who I am to you 

I don't need a constant report, just a text to let me know you're thinking of me

But I know it's never going to happen again 

I guess this's the hint, to tell me that we're over 

I want, but I can't

There's so much I want to say 

Yet the very core of me is preventing me from doing it 

Yes, I come across as overly chatty 

A nuisance, a bother 

Those are the reasons I told myself I should just shut up around you 

You treasure your peace and quiet 

But I'd love nothing more than just a simple text 

This's the longest silence I've had from you 

And with that post you had, I can't stop but wonder that someone else has stolen your heart 

Yes, I'm stupid, I'm dumb

I'm hanging on for something that I don't even know what it is anymore 

I never knew I could ever hurt like this again 

The pain, the agony

The tears that simply roll down every night 

I throw myself into work, into books

Telling myself that I'm overthinking, over sensitive 

But I doubt I am

If in truth your heart's no longer with me

Please, tell me, end my suffering

It'll take time for me to heal and move on again

But I know I can do it

And one day, thank you for it

I know I am stronger than this. 

Something is wrong with me. 2 working days and I finished reading 2 novels in these 2 days. </3

好久没那么痛了. </3

因为在生气. 所以不想理你.

Then it got me thinking that you actually wake up earlier 30 mins just to pick me up whenever we go diving. And that I still think it's not on the way. And then I got angry at MYSELF for being angry at you. Like what the f. 

Then I told myself I'm gonna lose myself in the book (which I did and finished it in a one sitting) and gonna ignore you for the rest of the week or so. 

And then. YOUR msg just had to come in. Somewhat like reporting strength. With that last bit of concern over my late night/early morning partying. Was super tempted to reply you 'you don't report to me' but I couldn't. So out of the 3 things you said in your msg. I only responded to your good night.. Still pissed at myself. 

And you. 

And for this shit I'm feeling. F. 

'Yes but, sorry, I don't wanna talk about it' is the most painful sentence. </3 

就你那一声叹息..

温暖了我的心.

<3