就你那么一句话.. 我的世界突然停了. </3 

Maybe it was a combi of seeing how it used to be like for me too. Maybe it was seeing the photo of you and the girl. Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe it's just the time of the month. 

I never understood how you can make me feel. 

How comfortable and right it just all seems when I'm with you. How it's such an easy thing to be me and how you can read me so easily. And sometimes I just hate myself for it. 

Told myself many times to be strong. To be independent. But at the end of the day. It just doesn't seem that easy after all. Why?? 

Hate feeling needy. 真的很讨厌这样的自己.

Been a crazy week (and slightly more) but fulfilling. Now off to bed coz tmr need to wake up at 5.45am too! =P 

My belated valentines' day prezzie. =P 

All my drinking kakis. Much love. Can't wait for our date next month!! =* 

It's been quite a while since I felt this happy high. Hopefully tmr's gonna be good as well! =P 

Alcohol in me is acting up plus lack of sleep. TatA people! =*

Lateandunexpected. Butsuperhappy. Thankyou. <3

I found the quote.. And I told him about it also. =X

I remember reading somewhere that it's easier to fall asleep next to someone you love/like.. And that you'll sleep very well too. That is super true. The sleep just now was horrendous. I felt that I was permanently awake and not sleeping lo. Wtf. And so worried she'll roll over to me. O.o 

Anyways. *o's that msg was so *omg sweet* Hahaha! =*

A funnily cute gift.. Hahaha. I laughed when I bought it. He laughed when I passed it to him. Coz I'm gonna be outta town tonight till tmr night. And I'm not gonna bring this to our Friday gathering! 

His reaction was so funnily cute just now too lo. Hahaha! 

Happy Valentines' Day *bl! No matter what our status may be now. =P

Ican'tbelieveistillrememberthequoteyouleftmewith. </3

The quote about that bell curve. </3

Woke up feeling down coz I dreamt that he msged me. Don't know why out of the blue. I didn't feel hurt. Didn't feel pain. Just sad. 

Then I msged him this morning.. And just that few replies from him made everything seems ok le.. And then I went back to nua. =) 

Today has been a totally nua nua day. Procrastinated till now and didn't get any work done. Sighz. 

3 days work week.. Looking forward to the weekends ba.

Been super long since I fell asleep sitting at the sofa. Just did and decided to call it a night. Shall wake up earlier tmr to do my pds instead. =P

If the secondment happens.. I've decided to go. The only person I can't bear to leave is *o.. Besides my 'family' and family of course. 

No.. Initially he was my reason for thinking twice. But izzit worth it? Nahz.. Maybe I'll meet my supposedly-knocked-down-Mr-Right there? =P 

Anyways.. While I'm still young ba. As for my all planned trips.. We'll find a way around it and still go for them. =)

Super random thing for *sl.. Hahaha! Just met him for like the 3rd time since my trip to Luang Prabang like what 7 years ago? =P

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And then he posted this on fb. Hahaha! 

He ignored but still texted me. And it was about something funny that happened at his workplace. So I reply as usual. As if nothing happened. Oh well.. 

Anyways. It's time for bed. Super shag. Good nightz world. <3

Actually today went all the way alright. Especially the bus captain. Then even when I was texting him about the UW housing. And then suddenly it just went wrong all the way. 

明明想. 却不敢. 

I really wanted to dive with him. And he offered in a way. But he didn't persist! And I know coz it's his friends I'll be left all alone again and I hate that feeling so I chose to go against the wishes of my heart and told him I'll go alone. 

It's not about the status. But it's even things like I tag him but it's not on his fb never mind. Others tag him and it appears. As if I'm those 不可见人 kinda person. Am I? 

And just coz I said no. Then he's like.. 'Oh.. Well if you change your mind..' What kinda fucking response is that? 

I thought I can move on and be happy and not let him affect my feelings. Seems like I still can't. 

I'm pissed at his straight-ness and pissed at my own stupid fucking trying-to-like-a-small-girl-who-needs-persuading persona. 

Arrghz! Stupid period. Stupid me.

Don't even understand why I apologized. I always think about his feelings and his awkwardness. Who's thinking about mine? 

Am gonna disappear from fb again till I can learn to control my own emotions.

Diving addiction lesson 1.0.2: Never ever start thinking of underwater housings coz when you see your camera sitting there under-utilized too. You start googling and realize that hey! It's quite reasonably priced for the Nikon's P300 housing and it's still easy to get online. *resistz temptation please*