2016 new year resolution was to hit 100 dives within the year. 

From Hantu and Sisters' Island within Singapore. Padangbai in Indonesia. Tubbataha in Philippines. Camiguin in Philippines. Tioman in Malaysia. Anilao in Philippines and the recently concluded Lembeh and Manado in Indonesia. I did it and more! :)

It's been a crazy diving frenzy in 2016 and meeting like-minded diving friends from around the world. 

Just the recent trip at Yos Dive Lembeh.. I've made friends with many different groups of people and also a group from Malaysia who 'adopted' me when all my dive buddies left for home and included me in their conversations and meals. :)

A big shoutout to all of you and thank you for making my (almost!) 2 weeks in Lembeh so much more beautiful! :D

To more safe diving in the years to come! :D

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And to *o. Thank you. <3

Oh no! 好像要生病了. :(

Because I couldn't stand it anymore. I asked if there was room available back at Yos and moved back the very next day. Now I'm happy again.

Enough. I don't need to live with your negativity and toxic thoughts. No more next time. If you choose not to speak and just 板着脸 then so be it. I don't need to entertain you. Can't wait for 23rd onwards when it's me myself and I.

Someone told me this during one of the lowest period of my life: "Things can be different, depends on when you look at it and how you look at it. 

Look at the refineries at day time when you feel lousy, the fumes disgust you. Look at them at night, being disguised by the darkness and beautified by the lights, they amaze you." 

When all else fail. Myself have the power to change. 

I know I'm still not out of that rut yet and it'll take more time. But when 2017 comes. I must be ready for whatever it may bring. 💪🏻

My therapy. 59 hours more. ❤️ 

#nofilter #nikonNikelite #weekendescapde #throwback #private #divingaddiction #vitaminsea #pulauhantu #hantukakis #thethingstheshifusaysanddo

Such a vivid dream! Woke up a little stunned. Ha! lllo.O

Glad to know you're doing ok. :)

又来了. :( 

Texted her to tell her I going home le and called a cab. Then she texted 'here liao' and called me. lll-.- Defintely not what I was expecting. 

Not sure if I should feel happy or otherwise. And she asked why I never see her email. lll-.- 

I don't what is happening anymore. :(

彻底疯了.

Drinking at 1.25pm by myself. And best. As my drink arrived the table in front turned back and looked. The uncles at the next 3 tables turned and stared. 

我变了吗?

I thought back to who taught me how to drink teh-o. ;) Suddenly feel so auntie doing it. Hahaha. 

Alone having brunch and enjoying people watching. (While debating if I should get a bottle of Carlsberg after this like the uncle at the next table.) ;)

Metime. Well spent. <3

终于哭出来了.

当习惯变成一种依赖. </3

我也想有个人陪. :(

How can anyone feel so much in such a short span of time? It's like 31/2h I feel my world has turned topsy-turvy. 

From sharing my RLP experience. And when one of them said he used to work with *bl in NS. To hearing what WT had to say. To what was shared at the table at the wake. And of seeing Da Jie. Till when she sent me home and when she ranted out her frustrations and thoughts and anger. And when I saw your super out-of-the-blue msg. And when I came out of shower and he msged me. And then her msg. 

She mentioned about me being in the middle. And that when I have to pass msgs. And about them affecting my past week mood that badly. :/ 

I'd rather she not care about my feelings and do what she wants/needs to do. I will learn to manage it on my own. </3

因为我有棉花糖! <3 

I guessed I was a controversy back then. But that was the past. Now's the present. 

I'm treasuring whatever I have now. Coz I know every time I'm happy. Some happiness will be forcefully ripped away from me. </3

Ps. She stopped on the road so that I could snap a photo. ;P

She sent me home just now. 

And we were talking as usual in the car. Then I was telling her I can't remember everything that happened on Friday. And I woke up with a hangover. Hahaha. So did she. She popped medicine the whole day and her blood pressure was up also lo. ;/ 

Was talking about the birdies and my diving and of work. :) 

And before that we were saying something about working early tmr. Then I was like 'means I have to wake up even earlier!' 'No need ah.. Just let me know and I can pick you up. 15 mins away nia..' lll-.- 

Almost at Ring Road le and she said something.. My response was 'life still goes on..' She paused and said my optimism is not my usual self. Like at zero or even -1. :/ 

Yeah it's true. Diving lightened me up a little. But it's still not me at my best. I just wish she'll stop worrying for a while. It's hard to pull away when the other party's treating you like that. </3

My temporary therapy. 

Went diving yesterday night. Nothing much to see on both dives. But came up from each dive feeling better. 

Am I ok now? Not thoroughly. But definitely better than on Friday night. 

Thank you to the 夜宵kaki and *o for asking after me. <3

Hopefully this is enough for the next 12 days when I fly for my 2 weeks therapy. </3

It has been a week of hell and testing my patience. 

Yesterday was the last straw. 

And I guess it was so bad that mum and her were trying to talk me down coz it was super obvious from my reply. And then *c pointed to me during the workshop and asked me what's wrong. So after everything was done. We went and smoked. 

I just blah out like nobody's business. Only thing was I'm glad my angry tears didn't roll down. 

And then *o waited to ask me if I wanted to have dinner. Went with Senior and her. And I got to drive. :) Had Korean BBQ at Duxton (well.. It was either that or my steak at my happy place) and I asked if I could drink.. ;) Hahaha. Senior said ok and so yeah I drank.. She shared a little with me.. Like 3 glasses of shomex while I finished the rest of the beer and shoju. :) 

And towards the end.. She asked me what happened to *bl. I just briefly said it as it is.. It seems like something she wanted to ask for quite a while. 

So Senior sent us back to office to pick up her car and she sent me back. 

During the drive (and under the influence of alcohol).. I guess I mentioned briefly about my sabbatical and also the events that's happening today. 

And out of 4 people I spoke to about it. All asked me to follow my heart but only she told me to tell them the truth. But I guess I don't feel like it. 

I've disappeared from them for the past 2 days and it was only by accident that I opened up the group chat but didn't response. 

The past week was just too much. I need my vitamin sea.

Again. 

Super tempted to fly aeroplane. Coz I guess what makes me happy is more important? 

'It's been said that we really only fall in love with three people in our lifetime. 

Yet, it's said that we need each of these loves for a different reason. 

Often our first is when we are young, high school even. It's the idealistic love; the one that seems like the fairytales we are all read as children. 

It's a love that looks right. 

The second is supposed to be our hard love; the one that teaches us lessons about who we are and how we often want or need to be loved.

Sometimes it's unhealthy, unbalanced or narcissistic even. 

It's the love that we wished was right.

And the third is the love we never see coming. The one that usually comes dressed as all wrong for us and that destroys any lingering ideals we clung to about what love is supposed to be. 

It's the love that just feels right. 

Maybe we don't all experience these loves in this lifetime; but perhaps that's just because we aren't ready to. 

Possibly maybe we need a whole lifetime to learn or maybe if we're lucky it only takes a few years. 

And there may be those people who fall in love once and find it passionately lasts until their last breath. 

Someone once told me they are the lucky ones; and perhaps they are.

But I kinda think that those who make it to their third love are really the lucky ones.

They are the ones who are tired of having to try and whose broken hearts lay beating in front of them wondering if there is just something inherently wrong with how they love. 

But there's not; it's just a matter of if someone loves in the same way that they do or not. 

And maybe there's something special about our first love, and something heartbreakingly unique about our second...but there's also just something about our third.

The one we never see coming.

The one that actually lasts.

The one that shows us why it never worked out before. 

And it's that possibility that makes trying again always worthwhile, because the truth is you never know when you'll stumble into love. 

#thethreeloves #katerose #mayitbeofbenefit'

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I've met the second love.. And I grow stronger and more independent because of him. :) No regrets. 

原来一年前的我也有同感. </3

Why must you make life so complicated for all of us?

I think there are things that she's not saying coz she doesn't wanna affect me. And I know there are things I am not saying coz I don't wanna affect her as well. And we both know how the stores and a particular BC and the managers are affected. Just coz of you.

I wonder how long it will take for you to wake up your idea. And I am really super tempted to send out the email just like that. RAW AND WITHOUT EDIT.

But coz wt says we must be professional. And jy says we must not stoop like others. makes us no diff if we behave like them. Then yx says why must care so much when those are the facts? *roll eyez emoticon*.

Seriously. Old school and never change. And thinking you are still the queen. I just wish jt will see you for who you really are.

Decided to disappear off posting on fb or ig for a few days till I cool down. If not I really don't know what I will post next. =/

Throwback to this fella. Made me wait for 2 hours. But surprisingly. For once I literally stoned for 2 hours. Watching the people around.. Feeling alone but not lonely. 

Met him coz it was his 21st la. And wanted to treat him to a meal at my favourite place. But he la! Beat me to payment this time round. And it wasn't a cheap meal lo. Given what we've ordered. >=|

Angry la. Hrmphz. 

But 算他有良心. Offered to carry my heavy bag for me (which of course warrant a straight no). And asked if I was angry. Hahaha!

Hello 夜宵kaki who is reading this. He said ok to meeting us for drinks the next time round! ;P

Sat here and looking out. I was reminded of the time we came here and watched movie. And where you parked your bike. The next memory that surfaced was the one that the bro came with me to watch movie. And the one with *m. Only when I left did I realize that *bl came here with me too.

Apparently he didn't leave much memory in me. ;)

More bubbles of happiness! :D

Sick sick sick.

How can you put Duterte with Brexit and Trump in the same statement? 

And let me tell you this. Duterte did so much for the country. Yes. As outsiders we may not see it and choose to think he is cruel. But listen. Listen to the people and the majority.

Brexit was something I didn't follow closely. So I shall not pass judgement.

Trump. Yes I don't like him and he came across as an arrogant airhead bastard (pardon my language). But I read this somewhere. That he connected with the working class in America. Which made up for a huge majority of USA. He connected coz he acknowledged the reality of this group of people. Clinton didn't. She chose to believe that all was well and rosy.

As us. Outsiders. We will never truly understand how Trump won presidency. But numbers speaks for themselves. Lesson learnt: acknowledge reality. Know your audience. And that is where and how you win.

Yes. You may say numbers can be rigged. Voters can be bought. Well let's face it. Trump is now president and there is no use crying over spilt milk. Move on people. Stop that slamming. Stop the shaming. You are just as good as the person you shame/slam if you continue to just be keyboard warriors. Period.

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On another note. She said I was 潇洒 on Monday. lll-.-

And met my Malacca family for dinner just now! <3

Yes I was crazy enough to do a solo self drive up to Malacca on Friday afternoon and back on Saturday evening. 

It was good seeing Gus.. Ah Chen.. Yalu and Ryan again. And meeting Wei. :) 

Crazy crazy weekend but well worth it! <3

She's really nuts. Saw her online and sending emails at 11plus pm last night. And the next email is at 6.34am. lll-.-

She is crazy. Talked to me while driving yest >:/ Then sending emails at 4.25am coz she haven't slept. >:/

I never quite realized how fast I can talk. Until when I was on the phone with her earlier and someone next to me commented and tried to count how many words I was saying per minute. ;P

Lee Sang Yoon. <3 

That song. Those memories. That must be at least 7 or 8 years ago. <3

Don't think too much. It was just coz the song came on the radio this afternoon and it stayed with me till now. :) 

Not sure how I'd react that night. But yes. I'm going Hantu diving this Saturday night. I can't be bothered with him. And yes. He's gonna be there. Seems years since we last talked but it's actually just since July. Oh well. 

On another note. 14 days without seeing her. </3

也因为喜欢

所以要学会放手

2 weeks in December. Hopefully enough time to close that door. </3

我就决定了疯逛那么一次. <3

Seriously lo. Must you be so happy to see that I'm there? Even people around me also suan me lo. :P

<3

'2011年1月，他選擇來馬六甲，過退休生活。

2011年5月，我租下老街小巷的小店。

我開店的時候，他來店裡拜訪我。

他說在這之前，他已經見過我一面。

「你在澆花，你跟我笑。」

什麼情景呢？

我想了想，想起來了～

我在前院澆花，他騎他的古董摩托車經過。

因為有噪音，我抬頭皺眉瞪了他一眼。

不管之前在新街的民宿，還是鬼門關小小的屋子，或現在的排屋，他的設計總是讓我驚艷！有他在的屋子，就有讓遊客魂牽夢繫的獨有靈魂。他離開的地方，不管之前多麼風光，如今都黯然失色。

連接老街的某些生意，他會轉介紹給我。他是我在老街生活時，尊敬的朋友和長輩。

今天完全放空讓自己放假，其中一站，找他聊天。

和他談事情，總是讓人覺得世事無風無浪、無雲無雨，那麼海闊天空、那麼與世無爭。

我們談近況、健康、手術、感情、保險、心事、擁有與放下……雲淡風輕。

人生的每個階段，會有不同的體會和感受。

然後，我願意聽他的鼓勵與勸告，勇敢一點，前往下一站。

謝謝你。'

Somebody wrote this and tagged him. 我有着同感. <3 Gus.. Thank you for making Malacca feel like home for me too. <3

Hahaha. She really got me the flumicil. <3

Coz the person we both texted didn't read our msgs. So we had to go out for lunch. And she suggested the mee hoon kway. My only condition was that it was to be from opposite the office de. 

So yeah. We walked over and had it. And I had my craving of bubble tea settled too. <3

Yes I drove to Malacca just for 4 hours and back again yest. 

And she texted to wish me safe drive. <3

Ps. And yes. I hitched a Mazda 3 yest. <3

When your legs feel like jelly and doesn't seem to belong to you anymore. :(

Suddenly thinking if I should even go Luxembourg. Maybe I should just do more cities in France.. Since I receive my Eurail already and I have extra travel days on it........

My least favorite place in the world. But ok la.. At least she texted. <3

6 years' anniversary. Hopefully more to come. 

Homemade sangria. 2 glasses and still not drunk in the tiniest. But caught a cold instead. :/

When your laptop decides it's time for a holiday. ;)

You know you're shagged when you fall asleep in 30 mins car rides and 45 mins bus rides and when you need extra monitor screen to compare data and when you're contemplating about working from home tmr.

With <3. 

Was having lunch on my own when a super sports bike caught my attention. 

The rider wasn't too bad looking either (and Chinese!) - until he decided to take a smoke. :/

Then I realized that I don't know any Chinese riders of super bikes who don't smoke. *f and *x smokes. And riders in general smokes lo. Until *him and *w came into mind. Only thing was *him is a Malay and *w is a Chinese. 

And I know you don't like being put into the same sentence as him. ;P

Happy day for many reasons. 

1) She came to office even though she didn't need to. 

2) I booked my accommodation for Amsterdam. 

3) She saved me food though I only had 1 bite. 

4) She sent me home today.

5) I booked my train pass for Benulax-France just now. 

6) And now we're on fb. 

<3

https://www.facebook.com/EliteDaily/videos/1279650645419898/

That cuddling doesn't needs to be a sexualized affair. That's it's just an emotional connection. 

And I miss that. </3

The power of sunshine. <3 

Stepping into it made me feel heaps better and my mood lifted immediately! <3

Found the giver of this book! <3 And for keeping me part of the journey home now! <3

'Someday you should just like hitch a Mazda 3..'

Yeah right.. ;) 

The best morning confession that I read off fb today.

Totally in distaste of such people. But sadly the way our society is. There's more of such people.

Brings me back to my own past. Hmmmz.

This is turning out to be a hell week. Why oh why... 

Ok la.. Still had bright spots today though! :) 

Can't wait for my long holiday in Dec. Where I can throw my backpack around like that too. 

Withdrawal symptoms hitting hard too. Not sure izzit coz of what happened on Sat. Or that I just wanna get away from certain people. 

Hates people who change their minds. And then say wanna go JB on a Sat but don't wanna wake up too early. And I know if we have to drive.. It'll be me again. Like what the fuck. I'm not in the mood to drive in JB on a weekend. Especially not this weekend. 

Planning for the sabbatical is killing me. But I've decided to scrimp so that I can splurge in HCMC. And hopefully Gus will hang on well till then at least.

<3 my travels.

我应该... ... 会再回家. 2016. </3

In a way. Still pissed at those stupid reasons given yest. 

Of grogginess. Of things that happened at home. Of not wanting to dampen the spirits. Of the wife not allowing him to come out. 

Next time. I refuse to plan outings like that le. Period. 

And I just realized how much I had to drink last night. Coz the mummy said I had alcohol stench on me last night. Even after I showered. And when I was counting how much to return *x. I realized we drank the most last night. 

Maybe coz I was feeling like shit. And that I should have bought the bus tix home instead. </3 

Drunk.. Happily drunk. <3

像一盘散沙.. 散了. 

A human can only hold so much before they break. 

Malacca trip was a good one this time. I guess I'm feeling like crap coz it's the time of the month probably. 

And I read this article this morning. About ghosting. Super good. 

My only comment? Rude. Plain rude. And probably gutless. 

Oh. 中秋节快乐 to the one who likes 冰皮月饼. :)

突然间又痛了. </3

Super bad withdrawal symptoms again. 

This has to happen on every trip that I'm back home. I almost cried again when I was in the bus. 

What does Malacca have that holds me? :( 

It's been a great 4 days.. Of local places. Friendships. Alcohol. I miss them all already. :( 

Hahaha! She's the cutest la! Corrected my Chinese.. Then after I changed.. Deleted the comment.. ;P

Yeahness! So tmr he say we buy ingredients and he'll cook dinner as promised! :D 

And Monday dinner also set liao.. Which means I only need to plan and pace myself out from breakfast onwards. Hahaha! :P 

And this's his creation for this week at Baboon House: 

Homemade pasta.. With eggs. Cherry tomatoes. Bacon. Sweet basil leaves. Mushrooms. Onions. And lemon peel for that tangy zest. Not too bad! :P Shared it with Gus coz was afraid it may be too gelak. :) 

到家了. <3

How can we communicate through emoticons only?!? This is super amazing la! ;P

Why izzit a 'social obligation' and not just 'meeting my friends'? Hmmmz...

Went out for lunch together today.. And then as someone else was talking to her and asking if she's free this Friday. She asked me across the table '我下个星期五在吗? 在做什么?' 

And surprisingly I could answer. Hahaha! And then I told her 'How come I remember your schedule ah?' 'Coz I have too much things to remember!' :P

So in class today.. My question during intro was: what was the last place I went for a holiday. 

I stunned.. Coz I couldn't rmb. Sir Richard said Malacca.. She said Philippines. So I said Philippines. But I thought it was Camiguin. Now scrolling through fb I realized it was Anilao! Hahaha! How come her memory is better than mine?? 

And her question was: what was the best thing that happened to you last week. So she shared: I went USS on Friday. Not gonna tell you who. But it was fun. Hahaha! 

And most of the time in USS we were taking the same rides except for the saucer one. :P 

Not sure what went on in my head earlier this evening in the bus home. But my thoughts were just wandering about and suddenly thoughts of *bl came into my mind. 

And I realized that within a flash.. It's been almost 2 months since we last contacted. But yet I don't feel anything. No sadness. No disappointment. Nothing. 

I guess in a way this's the best example of not being in love with the person. But in love with the idea of being in love. 

Ah wells. :) 

Anyways started back my 'Foodie goes travelling' blog in preparation for the sabbatical next year. So much work lo omg. Daunting daunting! :P

买给小孩子吃的. ;P 

因为只有她懂我躲在那里. <3

I was quite surprised that he remembered me! Whether izzit coz I stick out like a sore thumb in the community of expats and he remembered. Or that I'm really that memorable. He was like 'How come you're alone today? Never ask me pei you..' ;P 

I think I'm attracting funny people.. :P 

And she texted me to ask how was dinner and all.. <3

It's the thoughts that count. Be it the chocolate ice cream or wanting to send me over to Sentosa Cove. <3

Coz he said he had a feeling I'll end up with a girl in the end. 2 years down the road. 

Almost lost my cool today. 原来还有那么barbaric 的人. To the extent that I let her scream and yell over the phone and into my ear in public. And then I was just plain rude back. 'So?' 'What's your point?' 'Then?' And then she shuts up. 

野蛮人的待遇. Don't say you haven't been warned. 

Respect is earned. Not coz you said it. 

So I decided to fly aeroplane. And booked my slot for a floorball session next month end. This time not with the usual group though. 

Time to start hunting for a floorball stick if I'm gonna stick to playing! :) 

Feeling lazy. 

Debating if I really wanna head out to the meetup or just roll in bed.. It's so far away................ 

Dragons. Horses. Pigs. 

Recently a lot of bump-ins with these people. Hmmmz. 

And my mummy agrees totally with my previous post (somehow or another I got to telling her about it). 

And guess what? She is not against LGBTs either! She was super open about it instead and was happy for the 2 birdies who went and register their marriage in NYC! <3 

The only thing she was curious was 'why is their preference like that? Can explain to me?' O.o 

Hahaha.. I think I tried but failed. So yeahs.. She's ok.. I didn't tell her about my past (anyways that's in the past - I think). And for those friends that I shared who are.. She was ok with it too. Yeah-ness! :) 

And when I was saying that whoever my other half's gonna be. He's to understand and accept that my drinking kakis.. Diving kakis.. And malacca family are all guys too. ;) And she agrees.. Hahaha. I also asked why she isn't she worried when I hang out with the drinking kakis or go for Gus's birthday in Bali with all the guys. She was like '他们不会乱来的..' Yeah.. Coz she knows them all lo.. Not intimately. But by name or face and she trusts them and me. <3 Another load off my shoulders. <3

Ok.. Really time for bed now le.. Zzzzz

I like this statement: 'Even though you are a strong woman. You don't deserve to deal with his emotional baggage.'  

So I spent today sleeping in.. Woke up at 5.15pm just now and caught a show online. Had dinner and now nua-ing on the sofa. 

Random thoughts: maybe I should start practicing sleeping on the sofa? For the train journey next year..? 

Wanted to go for a swim follow by a haircut this morning. 

But the rain woke me up at 7.30am and then I was all like 'nahz.. I can't swim in the rain..' So I lazed back in bed till now. 

Now? I'm debating to go swim still? Or what about my haircut? Maybe swim today cut another day? Or cut today and swim another day? 

Decisions decisions decisions.

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In the meantime. I think it's still nap time. ;) No... I haven't stepped off my bed since this morning's rain. I am a lazy bum. :P

2 of them appeared in my dream. And that we were all going diving. O.o 

Weirdest combi of people in my dream. Woke up happy but a little shocked. Ah well. 

Дерьмо. That was his scent. I'm very sure. That long forgotten scent that lingered. </3

An old photo that popped up today. <3 

That was probably the last time someone I loved gave me flowers - and for no reason at all except coz I wanted it. And it was wrapped prettily too. I remember being really really really happy when I received it. 

*b did give me flowers too. But in a vase/container. Not a bouquet like that. *y got flowers delivered to me when I was at work. 

But somehow. The meaning of those flowers compared to this was different. 

I always know how impractical a bouquet of flowers are. But as impractical as they are.. I do enjoy receiving them from people who are more than just friends. 

Ah well. 

Just random thoughts on a Sunday night. <3

Slept after a overnight catchup session with the 夜宵 kaki at like 7.30am. 

Dreamt about you being my friend again somehow. Hope you're doing well. :) 

Less than 30 mins and 1 pint gone. 

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It's been a slight rollercoaster ride these few weeks. What with going with *qy to KL and then with the sotong squad to Anilao. 

Hanging out with guys really is so much less drama. I refuse to travel and dive with Tracy any longer. And this *h is driving me up the wall with simple mundane stuff that apparently he can't do on his own. Seriously. 

Went for wine tasting yest.. 5 different wines from France - Rose. Sauvignon Blanc. Chablis. 2 Pinot Noir. 1 of the white and red were organic. Antonin was really knowledgeable.. Better than the other masterclass I went for. Coz at least he wasn't talking to himself. (Check: at least 3 glasses equivalent of wines.) 

Rushed over and met Oiying for Comedy Masala. The opening act and the one after were hilarious! The third was so-so. The highlight was Aidan Killian - not bad! Food (especially the criss cross fries and the pork grillets) were really good. (Check: 2 pints of Asahi Dry.) 

Then we walked around looking for place to drink somemore.. Ended up after 1 round at Brewerks at Riverside.. Chatted and drank till like 12.40am?!? On a weekday night! (Check: 1 bottle Thatcher's Rose.) 

Reached home showered and conked out at like 1.10am? And woke up wishing I didn't have to work at 6.30am. 

I must be crazy. ;P

Even though I know dreams are the opposite of reality. He was yummy nonetheless. ;) 

Man in army green. Super bike. <3 

He looked familiar.. But I can't place my finger on where I've seen him before though. Hmmmz. 

I'm still happy no matter what. Hee.. He made my Monday green. ;P

结果喝醉的时候.. 想到的人还是你. </3 

In a way I'm just glad I didn't share a lot of my past with him. As in those things that matter. And in another way he just proved that guys from boys school are the same. Especially that one that I stereotype. :) 

If that one comes true with Qi Yuan.. Then.. 

8 days to KL

16 days to Anilao

50 days to Malacca 

<3

The amount of alcohol *dy and I had over 2 nights - 6 hours. :P Of course the beers are not a one time thing.. Between 2 of us.. We had 8 cans. On top of all those.. I had 3 glasses of white and 1 pack of Chinese wine. :) 

Can't wait to be back to meet Gus and *dy again soon! And of course the rest of the Malacca family! <3

I deleted all our chats. Somehow or another. It's actually not painful. =) 

发神经的夜晚. <3

Just coz I texted and asked. He immediately came out and accompanied me for the next 21/2 hours. Even though he had to work today. <3 Thank you! <3

He replied. But short and curt kind. =/ 

So I guess... 

This is it? 

结果还是我 initiate 咯.. 

But well.. If he doesn't reply. I'll get the hint le. 没良心的家伙. Yet I'm so 犯贱. 

... ...

What he said before ran through my mind. That he doesn't like clinginess. Hmmmz.

Drinking beer with my 2 favourite people back home. <3 

Thanks jerk.