An off day well spent. With a close friend. Good food. A movie. Some chillout time. <3

Random thinking: out of all the close guy friends I have. Only *d and *h starts out as platonic friends. The rest of the guys if I was ever close to ends up somehow as my other half for some time. Hahaha. I'm sure *d and *h will not be. For reasons clear to myself. =) 

so after that trip we went on. we have become closer ba. in then sense of friends and being the random people we are. even if in the middle of talking and we change subject we could still catch on. hahaha. 

met him and another friend for dinner on monday. and coz i juz realized i have 2 free tix to shaw cinemas for expiring 31st october. i asked if he wanted to catch Thor together. hahaha. coz we have to catch the movie before 5pm then the complimentary tix can be used. and he happened to be off! XD

but after that he needs to do his work. coz his deadlines are coming up very soon. so he wanted to find a cafe to do his work. i told him ok. i'll self entertain. not like it's the first time anyways. =) but i am not gonna bring my laptop. coz it's my day off. then he laugh. evil fellow. 

baby bro's in a relationship. happy that he finally found someone else after so long. nice girl. =)

me? nahz.. all the aunties from my pmo stores kept asking me. today or rather yesterday kenna again. aiyoz. 

but what was cute was when on monday we went out and the 3 of us were hanging around taka and chatting till like 11pm. he was saying his boss kept teasing him and asking him where was his gf. lll-.- coz his boss keeps saying that the one who travelled with him is his gf. like seriously. what's wrong with a guy and girl travelling together? can't we juz be platonic friends? and come on la. we're both solo travellers lo. 

juz realized the last time we went out juz the 2 of us was on latern fesitval. and this time. it's halloween. alamak. there goes my plan of seeing the fun of halloween this year! damnit.

就你那么一句问候我的世界好像变了个样. </3 

Walked around juz now and chanced upon The Royal Press. A different experience in Malacca. As I seat here having my late tea/early dinner and your msg came in. Surprisingly.

Had a good day today. After comms day went office to pick up some props for later and did some work. =P and then Hilmi passed me this magazine that I've been eyeing for some time since he left it on Mickey's table. =D 

Then met *d for dinner and we chatted for like 3 hours?!? Juz the 2 of us somemore. <3 

Then dropped by CM for a while and then it was back home. While waiting for the bus *h asked if he could call. Me being able to claim my phone bill to a max that I've never reached called him back instead and we spoke till he told me we'll talk later otherwise he'll end up sitting at his void deck talking to me! Hahaha. Cute doh! =D 

Yeah. So basically had a good catch up session with the 2 guys in my life. And then I met the bro's gf! Hahaha!! Looks decent enough and down to earth. So was grilling him a bit while texting *h. <3 

Kk. Gotta go sleep liao. Long day of team building later. Then it's back home and pack and ready to go for tmr! Too bad his weekend off is next week. =(

我学会了一个人的生活. 一个人独来独往. 爱做什么就做什么. 不需要在乎他人的想法. 无需顾虑他人的感受.  

My problem really lies with me. I can't commit. I don't like the feeling of being tied down. I crave freedom yet contradictory I want someone there for me.

This week has been a week of hell. Sunday off went out with the HGW girls. Then Monday and Tuesday FOR. Today settle the NUS thing is enough to drain me dry. Still pending CL3 case. And then tmr is CSV followed by Friday the bonding session. How to have time to plan and help out? 

Looking forward to Saturday and Sunday. Going back to my other home. Then Monday back to work and next week is packed too till 31st. I wanna celebrate Halloween! 

Next month is also hellish. I'm not sure how I'll survive till then. 

Juz now destress. Refused to read emails. Went Amazon and spent a good $156 on 7 guidebooks. <3 

Now need to get ready to go meet my travel kakis for a dinner date. My first proper meal of the day! 

Very randomly came across this and thoughts came tumbling into my head. </3 

Now on the bus heading to CM for FOR and there's this cute guy who boarded at SIM and he's sitting opp me. Not directly but an empty seat in between. The bus's not crowded. And he's those next door boy kinda cute. Hahaha. *washez my eyes* =D 

Too bad I'm in half uniform and not in a club. Oops! 

My first ever clubbing with my 2 ex bosses who have become my good friends. =D 

And for the first time ever out of work did I really dance on the floor. And while I was bobbing to the music when I was seated I was suddenly reminded of you. Of what you said about liking to chill at clubs and enjoy the music. As I was dancing I thought of *h. And how I was missing him and the chance to club with him. =) 

And oh! There was such a cute Caucasian and this other guy with that hat. Cute!!! Hahaha. No. The vodka with cranberry juice has zero effect on me. Damnit. My alcohol tolerance level seems to have gone up.. =P

My last adrenaline rush was months back. Heated cheeks. Wobbly legs. Shaky hands. A lovely feeling. <3

Dead tired. After falling asleep while texting him. Lost my phone in my bed. And woke up to a call at 7.30am that lasted till now. 10h. Bah. Dozed off in between but definitely not a good sleep. Slept 30 minutes a call comes in. Slept 1 hour 3 calls came in. Ah damnit. 

Am going back to sleep now. 

PS. I have yet to step out of my room since 7.30am. Neither have I eaten. Bah!

Hahaha. He came and disturb me and said after I got my new phone so quiet. He lazy month. I fully packed month. 

Finally squeezed in some time to spend for me-time for a movie. And funnily. He's catching the same show. Juz that he's at the other end of Singapore watching the 11.50pm show. Hahaha! 

Had dinner with the mother and siblings juz now. And as they were talking and after knowing that I'm catching a movie on my own. The mother said I'm the most high risk out of the BCs. Coz nothing can tie me down. Which I juz smiled and continue eating. It's true. I've nothing to lose. So why bother? 

Then met friend and had a good chat with her. Think she was tearing somewhat also. She has her frustrations too. But I'm glad she still opens up and shared with me. 

Sighz.

Juz now in the cinema the person sitting next to me (or her bf) is using that same fragrance as *h lo. Bloody hell. 

Addiction: breathing in your smell. <3

Cannot believe it. Started work at 8am this morning and ended/left office at 11.10pm. Came back showered and was on the phone with him till now. Best part? We both need to wake up by 5.30am later for work. O.o 

No idea what I'll do without this random pillar of motivation too. <3 

1 travel plan for next year firmed up. Left the dates and we'll see how it goes! Maybe we should juz muster the courage and head on over to India. Hmmmz. 

Ahhh! So random! Out of all dates today I have 3 dinner requests! Hahaha. Last one juz came in last minute from him though. Too bad! =P

And coz he thought I'm in a store he wanted to pick me up and meet for a while and send me for my dinner appointment. *beamz*

A beautiful sunset across the golf course at Warren Country Club. Met a friend there for dinner juz now at around 6pm and chatted all the way till 11pm! With 2 jugs of beer no less.. =P

Met a guy also coz of the shirt I was wearing thought I was a Filipino. Hahaha. And of the way we chatted. *s thought we were friends! =P

A lot of things came across my mind. From work. To quality of life. To my past relationships (though no names mentioned). 

I came away with a few thoughts in mind again. What do I want? The tangible or intangibility of life? Is what I'm doing what I love? 

Honestly? I know I still love and enjoy working for this company. Juz not my direct boss. That's why I want a change. And this is really no life. I'm not going to marry my job. I need a life. A quality of life not neglecting families and friends. 

I've sounding out to people to get opinions. From *d. *h. *m. *s and mum. 

I'm at a crossroads now. Thinking hard which direction to go.

Sometimes when things happen. Look inwards. That's what you always say. Yet are you? No. You're jumping to conclusions and juz defending yourself! Yarz yarz. You're always right. Never in the wrong. Tell me something new please. Seriously. 

And I am usually not demanding. But when I start to demand something. You'll be sure somehow or other I'll do what I say. 

This is the time I need someone next to me the most. No matter how independent. How strong willed I may be. I juz need someone here right now and whisk me away for the night. To anywhere. For food. To juz drive around. To stone. Juz get me out. I need a place to scream. To shout. To rant. 

I'm not someone who usually asks for things or people. So when I do. You can be sure that I'm already at my wits end and I can do about juz anything. 

What I wish for right now is someone to sit next to me and let me cry my heart out. *wishez my brain could stop thinking*

You. Juz stepped on my tail again. Remember this. How you want others to treat and respect you. Earn it. 

And you. I wonder what's your motive behind telling me all those things you said yest? Juz coz you don't want me to go? Sometimes the more I listen to you during meetings and work sessions I feel that you're very much propaganda and trying to twist my mind and me to become a second you. Unfortunately. At this point in time I still know what I'm doing and what I want. So no. I will not be manipulated. Period. 

I muz be thankful. Even though these people may not be genuine nor sincere. At least they bothered. 

From Steven. To William. Rejit. Victor. Eric. Jeslyn. They asked how am I coping. And there are many others whom I spoke to at one point or another (some coz got freebies. Some coz need help.) From Kuo Fee. Dorothy. Jane. KC. Boon Tat. Kyan. Audrey Ang. Eileen. Adren. Ginger. Jenny Yeo. Shu Yan. Linda. Chinny. Lawrence. Yao Chung. =) 

I guess that's my motivation for now. <3

And Victor asked me. 'How cone recently you're not travelling?' So I told him I exhausted my leave le. Hahaha. =P

And coz Steven was asking me about coping I told him honestly what I shared with Vikki. And while he was giving me tips Albert came back to the table. As Steven was leaving he said 'Personal coach ah.. So good!' Steven retorted to him that it's juz pointers. 

Sometimes it's true that when you ask you get. You don't you suffer lo. =D 

Then met Sam and *h for dinner and catch up. =) super heart. <3

Alamak. Itching itching now. 

Juz saw tour packages to destinations I'd give anything juz to go. Jordan and Israel. Persia. Romania. 

Ah damnit. 

True true! But memories are also the one thing that will change you despite all that you do. 

Anyways. After the 2.6 launch came back and slept and ate dinner and started doing up my new blog. The one for my love. =P

http://foodiegoestravelling.blogspot.sg/

Personal things will still be shared here coz yeah. There's things that should be kept the way it it. As for the rest of food and travel. Read on there! =) 

Note: I definitely do not have a flair of writing. Of using flowery vocabulary. I write the way I think. The way I talk. I juz hope I connect with people still. <3