I found an alcohol I'm allergic to. Souju. Like seriously. The rashes are appearing and I'm itching like nuts on my arms lo. Eeeee. Alcohol supposed to be my best friend! </3

Lovely place at Doota for coffee.. Or rather tea in my case. A place called Paul Bassett. <3

Now hungry again. And watching period drama. Seriously screwed. And oh! My legs don't feel like my legs now le lo.. Oh man.. =P

Some people are juz plain weird. But I'm glad I'm able to keep my emotions in check now and am professional enough unlike some senior people. =P

And yes. I've decided to close off the doors. For once and for all. =) maybe coz I've already decided like this yest. When *m told me his wife is expecting again. I wasn't too surprised nor too shock. I could still congratulate him calmly. =) 

Anyways. Gotta go sleep. Tmr is the last dance practice and need to crack head over the RMC games. Ahhhhh.

I've made up my mind. And I know for sure the upcoming trips will help much in keeping this promise. <3

生病了. 在排队看医生. 最想见的人还是你. </3

Sometimes I wished time had stood still at that moment we met. Then I wouldn't have all these problems now. And I wished that I didn't tell you my feelings then. 

Coz right now. I'm so so confused. </3

有一种莫名的冲动. 

好希望你会牵着我或抱一下我. Somehow I know I don't love you anymore. But deep down I know some feelings do linger. 

In order to maintain this friendship the way it is now and for you to remain in my life. Please forgive me for not telling you my thoughts and why I posted the way I did that night. 

I would give anything for you to be happy again. We both know this will go nowhere. So let's not start it now and regret later. 

... ...

好久没那么疯了.

Had dinner. Went drinking. And then played pool - barefooted. 

Juz woke up not long and feeling hot all over and a slight sore throat. Too much peanuts and too much beer perhaps? =P but 1 pint only lo.. And it's only Erdinger. Hahaha. 

Kk. Gotta run!

Always appreciative of how that breakfast can make my morning. <3

This basically sums it all up. 

And this is so very true. I've accepted the fact that I'll be transferring out and moving on to a bigger challenge. But my heart has not accept the fact. 

These 2 days I'm more than reluctant to walk out of store. And when I do and say bye to all the crew I know I'm tearing inside. And my tears threatened to roll. But for once I managed to hold them back. But today. Today I really teared. Especially when Abi was talking to me. She was tearing too. And when I was talking to Rommel. We both know the impact of my leaving and the impact of Sara's coming. I can tell he was holding back. So was I. 

I juz need someone to be right here like right now. Someone who could lend me that shoulder. 

I know after this another challenge would be to be able to handle things alone. Eat alone. Work alone. I'll be more of a loner than ever. And it's not really by choice. 

I try very hard to hold down my tears. But it's really tough. Especially when it's a familia place for the past 10 months. And I've been so used to having a roof over my head. 

I don't know how this will impact my social life as of now. But I'm hoping that it'll be positively. 

It's been a long walk here. 91/2 years with the company and with the different stores. From JSCC to CL3 to CCK4. To CM and ending at JCP. It's been a wonderful journey.

To the first outstanding team I've worked with at CCK4. *thumbz up* and to the next awesome team ever at JCP. I love you guys. You know juz how much I do. 

To the person I've met while at JCP. It's an even shorter-lived crush I guess. Things are bound to change everytime I move store and this's no difference. But I know it's killing me softly inside right now. It's been quite a while since I felt as such. 

Sighz. Shall head to bed le. Physically tired. Mentally drained.. 

Well. I never knew it was gonna be so short lived. Yes I knew it was gonna be a damn short crush and one that should neve have happen. But I didn't expect it to be this short. 

I'm already trying to live with the fact of my promotion. Now I've to live with the fact that you're no longer gonna be there for me any more. 

That's why I'm tempted to start my own fb page/separate blog on travelling. Good food. Irregardless of within Singapore or out of Singapore. But I'm not too sure how well received it may be. Or would it be useful for anyone? 

But I guess I'm more of a photojournalist. I like to take shots of places I've been. Documenting them down into my memory. I've no flair for words. Even though I've crossed the mark of the first 10,000 photos (that a photographer takes are useless - and I must say my photos do have a certain standard and simple flair to it =P) trying to piece them to ether takes time. And time is not something I have. =(

We'll see. Maybe a couple more months later when all settled down I'll be more free to start something new ba. 

For now? I'm super looking forward to my end of May trip to Seoul. My first ever major trip (read: long) to Chengdu/Tibet/Xinning/Inner Mongolia/Beijing. And then my next trip back home with a new travel buddy. We'll see how well it goes in September then. =) 

Gotta sleep liao. Another long day later!! 

Ahhh.. *v's going Bali after the next McCafe opening in JB! XD 2 weeks from now! =)

No longer a memory shared between *you and me. This has officially become my hideout and emotional corner. 

Because of my love for good food and travel. I'm super tempted to start a blog/fb page juz to share with others the things I've realized and found. 

Looking forward to the Seoul trip on 27th. And my Tibet trip in June. And am starting to plan my September trip. Juz not sure yet where to. 

This new mobile blogger interface seems much more user friendly and I ca separate/caption each photo individually. 

Ok. Had a chat with JR on Pidgin English and it's getting me interested to find out more. Ah damn it. A read before the sleep I guess! 

TatA world! 

Black Monday.

You want to have differentiation and then creativity. Yet you stifle the freedom of speech? You talk about sharing of thoughts yet you prohibit the sharing of opinions?

That's one. The other.

I never knew how thankful I should be being a Singaporean. Or maybe coz all along we've only one more outstanding party. Or it's also propaganda? The other party is only strong on certain areas.

I'm not a keen follower of general news and politics. Yes I read papers. I know there's an upcoming election. But this's the first I'm trying to find more info about the magical one that juz happened.

Apparently a blackout and money can solve a lot of issues. Even vote counts can change.

I'm grateful of the democracy (no matter how much) we have here. Coz comparing to my friends. Even though the effort was made there seems to be no change. Then where's the transparency and how can voting make a difference? I know of many friends who went back home juz to make that difference. Yet.

Quoting another friend from Penang. She was saying when people ask next where she's from. She'll say Penang (like it's a whole new country). Coz apparently the voices of the Penanglites are much stronger than the rest. 2/3 seats were won by the party they voted for.

But now I'm thinking. Does being Chinese or Malay make a difference? Coz the posts and articles I read are by the Chinese and Indian friends. None from the Malay friends. Hmmmz.

Deep thoughts. Black Monday.

Had a good day off yest. Went out with the bro for Tulipmania. The Mummy exhibition at Art Science museum. Drinks and dinner. And of course had brunch. Tea and more drinks in between.

Was really expecting the Tulipmania to be a much bigger event. Like the whole flower dome to be covered with tulips. But it was juz the atrium area. But I guess it's really better than nothing. And it made me so wanna go Netherlands! =P

And the myriad of colours that juz shouts out at you. The wonders and beauty of nature are really overwhelming sometimes. It was really an event that left me as a super happy kid. =)

Some pictures from the event. And I proudly announce. I'm no longer a virgin to Gardens by the Bay! XD

原来能在大厅观众中牵着手也是一种幸福. *heartz*