Officially: my last monthend in JCP. *sad*

It's been a great 8 months of doing monthend. First with Joey. Now Gavin. And this's the end of it. April monthend I'm closing. May monthend I'm in South Korea.

Tmr's the 60s launch and Rommel's on leave. So there goes my off day. I'll be in store till 11am. And 2nd M2.

Not sure if this is good or bad. But I guess this's the last time I'll be doing shifts like this.

For once on my overnight shift I'm not feeling emo. But having lots of mixed feelings.

I never expect to get it so fast. And it does catch me unaware. I will live up to expectations. Or at least will try my best.

Interesting article...

超喜欢你. *heartz*

寻找感情的港口.

Another phase in life. All I need is juz someone I can talk to every night. Someone that is out of Mac. Someone there for me to leave my feelings with.

2 fears: That I will never find that someone. The other's that I'll find that someone but I'll be so restricted in my freedom and independence.

Contradictory.

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2 weeks with him around. This sudden silence though expected is leaving me feeling more alone than ever.

What wouldn't I give for a msg from him?

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And then coz I told him about what's about to happen. I'm actually quite surprised you replied. And yes. Thank you for the encouragement back then. If not this may not even happen.

A drink. A write. I guess I'll be fine........

And the news is out.

To Hun Loon who hired me and still believed me today. To Kris who took me in when all the comments that were present were so negative and that I was seen as a hopeless case back then. To Yen Ni who really taught me the hard way and made me cry more than once over work.

I'm sincerely thankful for all the support. Guidance. And belief you all had in me.

To Mickey and to Jashida. 2 BCs who work very differently but whom have shaped my 2 years and coming 6 months of a RM with expectations. I respect them. Utmost.

To those who passed their wishes to me in a way or another. Thank you all. And to *d and mum. Thank you. For having dinner with me. For hanging out with me. To *m. I'm sorry. There's only so much emotions I can show outfront. To Maybelene. Your reaction was really one of pure and genuine happiness for me. And I remember you hugged me twice and air kissed me. Hahaha. *heartz*

I didn't disappoint. And I promise I won't.

But do give me some time away from all coz I'm in serious denial. And this close to crying out my heart. *in pain*

Guess who? Guess where?

I feel that I've lost too much to work. Even my mum doesn't show any emotions now. Or izzit coz she doesn't feel involved?

Building new memories? Definitely.

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God. I'm so screwed for tmr and next month. The dates are crazy!! And I saw a musical in July that I wanna catch! And that exhibition in May! OMG.

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Please be my strength. At least till I get over you. =/

Touched. Very much so. *heartz*

没资格.

必须戒掉这份依赖.

Forbidden love: 'Sometimes we need to take the risk of getting hurt in order to find out if someone is safe to love. - Jaye Lewis'

This is a love that will go nowhere. Not now. Not ever. =/

Another long day. But had a lunch date with *d. *beamz* and then a full of food and giggling session during meeting. =P

Then was online with *m also.

Now brain dead. Shall sleep and do work later on. =) tatA!

有种莫名的疲惫.. 和一种莫名的悲伤..

Went home with him juz. After another long day. And yeah.. He text me again. Sighz. *screwed up*

I guess I've become stronger. As I spoke tears rolled. But it wasn't as bad as back then when I cried so uncontrollably.

It was sweet of him to come by after a long day at work juz to keep me company. Talking things out really makes one feel better no doubt.

*m. Selamat. *heartz*

很久没那么放肆了.

I think I scared a lot of people with my silence. I'm sorry. But unfortunately I have no tolerance for people with zero initiative. And lateness.

Best part? The person I'm pissed at still is unaware.

It's been so long since I lost my temper like this.

I can't even make it pass the 1 year mark without pain. What is this?? I don't wanna go for checkup again. ="(

an 'egg'-solutely smooth NBD with my 2nd family - JCPians! *heartz*

eggs depicting my mgt team - courtesy of Rommel. =P

and i was crazy enough to date Tiwi and Angie to go for a jog round the park..

but we ended up walking to JGCC to return the safe key and walking back to store again. hahaha... and sights and playing along the way.. with a lovely bike.. =P

and before the run Rommel and i went to meet some of our PMO RMs and 1st Assts for a get-together brunch! love this group of people much!! *heartz*

great day out. now tired max. will get some rest in a bit! XD

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i thought with me back in Sin all the daily watsapp would stop. but it didn't. and yeah. today as definitely a happy day! =D

It's amazing how some friendships are. And how we laughed and cried through the good and bad no matter how much differences we may have. *heartz*

Especially love these 2 friends who never fails to make me laugh and feel loved much. *heartz*

And truly. I really love the bracelet!! *more heartz*

Finally time to sit down and wash up my wounds properly instead of juz slapping on moisturizer to keep it hydrated. =/ pictures of 3 out of 6 wounds. =/

It's been super long since someone made my heart fluttered as such.. And making me grin to myself like a Cheshire Cat. *beamz*

Even though I know he's married and it's never gonna be possible and that nothing will come out of it. It does feels nice to know that there's someone out there who cares (who's not juz a friend! =P). Who watsapp me while I'm overseas. And genuinely concern about my well being. And asks how's my day and all. *sighz contently* perhaps this's one reason why why I think Filipino guys wins hands down. Like what Mylene mentioned. Pinoys guys are generally more gentlemanly and takes care of the other half. And when I went out with *m that couple of times. Coz I had shoebag and whats-nots with me. Without asking he juz simply took those and started walking. =) maybe all I wanted all along was to feel pampered like that? I don't need a lot. Juz a soulmate to travel with. Indulge in good food with. Enjoy my life with.

I may not be the gentlest of lady nor the most elegant of all. But I'm sure people do change with time rightz? =P

This's the 2nd example. =) maybe... Juz maybe...

a few random pics first. actually wanted to document my travels. but don't have enough time la. tmr M1D. need to takeover store from Rommel le. =P

a halo rainbow in the sky without any rain at Punta Ballo beach. Sipalay.

an open air public bus ride from Sipalay to Kabankalan. Bocolod. *heartz*

of my fav writing with a beer in Villa Marmarine. Siquijor.

riding pillion without a helmet no less! Siquijor.

 and of my fav beer in a litre bottle! *heartz* Siquijor.

being a IJ girl and in a Catholic school for 9 years. churches do have attractions. San Isidro Labrador Church. Lazi. Siquijor.

the rice (?) terraces of Siquijor. riding a scooter by myself. *heartz*

along Rizal Boulevard on my last night. Dumuguete City.

and leaving for home. Dumaguete Airport. *juz realized this hair length looks good* =P

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to *m. the one who kept me company throughout my holiday. and showing that concern when you read about my posts. thank you. *heartz*

Reminder to self: never EVER transit in NAIA again. Seriously!!

Ba! Flight delayed for an hour. Hope I don't miss the connecting flight! *a sign to stay here longer?*

Shit. Am drunk.

'Leave nothing but footprints. Take nothing but photographs.'

I've left nothing but footprints and a part of soul here. I've taken nothing but plenty of photos. And cuts. And bruises. And jellyfish stings. And memories to remember by.

It's been an amazing journey thus far. To a country I've come to love and call home. *heartz*

I now fully understand why you were so against me learning to ride.

I rode a scooter today. And I fell thrice.

Cut myself against a rock the first. Bruises when I fell the second. And last one? Cuts and bruises on my shoulder. Legs. Palms. Knuckles. Feet. And broke the side mirror. Only good thing? Thank god I was wearing a full face helmet.

And embarrassingly. I burst into tears when everything was settled.

I wish *you would ask about me or even pick me up. =/

Ok. Change of plans. I'm gonna do something that everyone I know will scream at me for. =P

2 crazy Asian travellers left sitting at Ye reception listening to the waves crashing in the dark and tapping onto the free wifi while 1) being on laptop - him 2) reading a book and checking on Hayday - me. The rest? Long gone. XP

Anyways don't think I can get to Apo Isalnd after all. There's no boats heading there tmr. Guess I'll juz have to spend my time chilling here and probably head into town or something tmr ba. We'll see.

Gonna go to bed le. Coz the neck's starting to itch. And I have a mask I need to put on. =P

Oh! And I'm still so not replying the CM Reunion watsapp. Not interested. Ha! XP

An eventful day:
1) did a Siquijor island tour with a cute guide (who is married unfortunately =P)
2) rode pillion again with helmet!! XD
3) slightly sunburnt from riding in the sun without protection
4) drank my fav RHB with the guide at a makeshift restaurant on stilts overlooking the sea with people singing KTV in front
5) got stung by baby jellyfishes lll-.-

Later shall ask about the trip to Apo Island

Now shall read and write in my journal again after everything's cleared. And playing Hayday and fb! =P

High tides. Loud crashing of waves. Chilling breeze. *heartz* this is home where it truly is.. =)

And after much procrastination. Breakfast with a view. This. This is really life.. *heartz*

I'm touched that he cared enough to watsapp me still. Day 3 and counting.. *heartz* especially so when I'm in Siquijor..

Surprisingly he's the only I'm watsapping here.. =P

Lunch with a view.. Atop a hill overlooking the cove and sea. *heartz*

I guess I really could live like that forever eh? Saw 1/2 a halo rainbow in the skies too. And there was no rain no dark skies. Amazing the work of Mother Nature. *heartz*

Heading over to the lagoon and city in a bit. I should really plan for my license soon. It's a shame to come to beache with absolute wonderful dive sites yet I can't dive.

Although I love the underwater world. I guess I'm a little freaked out by the lives of the creatures down under. Hmmmz.

Phils: Sunsets to die for. Moments away from each other.. I'm home.. *heartz*

Clause: no photoshop is used on the photos.

Almost missed my connecting flight this morning coz I dozed off in the departure lounge and woke up with the start when I realized they were calling my name. lll-.- what a bad start! But thank god it was still before gate closing time with 10 mins to spare and I made it aboard the flight that only lasted 20mins. lll-.-

Journey from Dumaguete to Sipalay was long. About 4 hours by private transfer. Imagine if I took buses?? Chatted with the driver and then fell asleep like a baby on the rocky roads. =P

Came to Takatuka and had my brunch before checking into the room and falling asleep from 2.30pm till now.. Super shagged with the lack of rest prior to the trip.

Now sunbathing and letting the sea breeze sweep over me. Looking forward to dinner tonight. And planning for tmr. =D