It has been 4 months as of yest. And every single time I see you appearing on my newsfeed or in my notifications my heart juz races for no good reasons. =)

This is a friendship that will get nowhere unless we do meet up or travel. But like the book 'virtually yours' I go hope it doesn't reach the extent of where one disappears off the virtual world totally.

But whatever it is. It is nice as long as this lasts. =) a friendship in the current web of technology. =)

hahaha. a weekend getaway. and then *v juz commented something that made my night! hahaha! *happy like a bee*

Super love this pic taken by Jovi.. *heartz*

It's interesting how some people can meet at first sight and fall in love.

I never believed it. I only believe crushes on first sight. *j was the first. *v was the next.

But the difference was that I was in contact with *j and we meet and go out and we both knew it was mutual. But for *v it was different. We are in contact. But how to meet someone who is altogether in a different country?

I've dreamt of him twice within the same month. Doesn't seem like a good thing though the dreams were always pleasant ones and I never wanted to wake up from them. But then again. Dreams are always the opposite of real life.

Hmmmz.

*v: have a good trip! =P

All my drinking kakis! A couple more missing. =P but who I really wanna drink with is... =P

Needed a good swim the clear thy clouded head. Now off for a shower before Gong Cha-ing again and dinner with the family.

SOR 1 is getting on everyone's nerves. =X

Definitely need a destress.

Thought I was the only emo one today. Seems not that way! =)

Asked my friend to stopped here for a second to let me snap this pic. A tad dark but was reminded of you.

Reminded of the day after Forrest where we came here and sat chatting till the wee hours of the morning. I also remembered your gf calling you that night and how you walked off to pick up the phone.

I remembered me thinking if this was right. If it should continue. Though I tried to make it clear we should juz stay as friends. We were anything but it.

Thank you for the memories back then. Once in a while a walk down memory lane does make me smile.

Fucking brother I have.

Juz over a fucking pair of socks. What gives you the fucking right to yell and shove my mum like that? Happy that mum is crying now?!?

This is the reason why I hate being at home. Your eternal existence irks me to the max.

Wait. Wait till one day you have no more mum to yell and shove at.

Karma. I will wait to see that day.

Why does every other chick lit I read have to remind me of you and the past we shared?

This book all the more so. A person who appears and disappears as and when. But when reappears causes my world to turn upside down. No matter how long it has been. No matter how much things have changed. No matter how I tell myself to move on. It's always back to square one.

I do miss you somehow. But hopefully this time you've left for good. =/

Yest was supposed to be a good Monday. Woke up early and craving for Korean. So decided to have Korean for lunch when the msgs started coming in that someone (due for work at 7am but at 11am was still not in store) was not able to make it.

Pissed is the only word to describe it. And it may still be an understatement.

Took a cab down on an empty stomach and started work immediately so my mgrs could go home from overnight shifts.

I detest running shifts without knowing my people. Or without any planning. It pisses me off further.

But today I practiced DT and man! I got lost too! How can anyone manage to coordinate between hand and mouth movement? And brain! The DT crew are really good! *salutez*

Then cabbed home coz things not completed on time. $15 gone juz like that. ="(

Bought a meal from 7-eleven. And yeah. Time for bed.

Was initially super pissed this morning. But after a tiring day and looking at my pic on home screen. It made me feel much better. =)

TatA world!

After that last incident. After every transfer of store. I never learn do I?

Every relationship ends with the transfer of each store. From *her. *him. *y. *b. *someone. *j.

Maybe I'm really meant to be alone. =/

Only 1 guy in the world so far that I will do this for without fail. Either for his birthday or Christmas. And I know he'll appreciate it coz no matter how busy he is. He'll always take time out to meet me on my birthday. No matter how belated. *heartz*

After repaying my sleep debt and spending time surfing. I decided to head out to the pool though I know it's gonba be super packed.

No doubt it was packed. But was still able to complete my 20 laps in a bit under 25 mins. =) not the best yet but improvement from the last swim. *beamz*

And I came to this conclusion: if I'm swimming at my slowest and you're at your fastest yet can't overtake me. How slow are you really? *a tad cocky* hahaha. Coz I was overtaking everyone and someone was trying to out swim me but failed. Hahaha.

Then I saw this guy who looks like he could swim. Not your usual show offs. And man! He really could! Even when I tried to race him I was a good 2 body lengths away from him. Damn!

And now there's this tingling sensation on my cheeks that I super love. *beamz*

Walked over for Gong Cha coz I was craving their milk tea. =P and I thought how unhealthy I was till I saw that same guy ordering Mac. Hahaha. Nate I'm not that unhealthy at all yeah? =P

Eye candy for the day? Checked.
Excercise for the day? Checked.
Homecooked food for the day? Checked.

Next up after dinner would be my Nanny McPhee on Channel 5! Nothing's gonna make me leave my house later on! *grinz*

Juz feel like hanging out and nua-ing in a room like this. But nahz.. Think I'll be hardworking and waking up early for a morning swim later! Super long never excercise! =P

I agree that I may not that patriotic when it comes to celebrating national day. But when I see posts about how unhappy some of my friends are over national day. Posts like saying they are not feeling in the least patriotic coz the government is more for foreign talent than local. It strikes my nerves.

True I agree that to some point. But izzit right for those who have migrated and not contributed to the Singapore society to be saying that?

You know why government is for the foreign talent? Coz most Singaporeans juz want a 9 to 5 desk bound job. No shift work. Weekends off. No need to get their hands dirty. No need to face ridiculous customers/clients day in day out. So when there's industries who needs locals but coz the criteria of work doesn't fit the ones the locals want. These people criticize the government for hiring foreign talent.

So you think that without these foreign talents Singapore will survive? That without them you'll get restaurants and public transport on weekends? That you'll get even a roof over your head? Think again.

In the first place you yourself as a local is not contributing and so picky. What gives you the right to criticize in such a way about your own country?

No. I'm not pro-PAP. Nor pro-government. But seriously. Go out and travel more to those 3rd world or developing countries. You should be thankful for life in Singapore.

It no longer makes me envy those who says they've been to US. Europe. Australia.

Tell me you've been to Sulawesi. To Luang Prabang. To rural areas of Cambodia. To the outskirts of Philippines. The smaller towns in Malaysia. I salute you. Coz these places are usually not for tourists. It's more for travelers. And you see with your heart. Feel with with your senses. Then you come and tell me that Singapore is bad.

I really don't think much of these people who comment so much yet doesn't contribute back home.

Home is where the heart is. Home is where I truly belong despite my travels. Singapore. Happy birthday.

Damn shagged. Damn sleepy. Tiredness plus alcohol made me drowsy.

How I wish I had the courage (and chance) to call *you to send me back home right now... ="/

I don't know what I miss: the teamwork or the bonding.

Missing my ex cck4 clique. My ex MI PMO RMs.

It's so so different here when they act like besties with you in front of the BC. But you know they have their hidden agendas and will not hesitate to leave you in the lurch. You know deep down you are not close. Yes. Maybe it takes time. But isn't a month almost too long? How much can I adapt to all when it's me against the group?

I've thought it through and guess what? I'm juz gonna get the results I want for my team. I'll do what I need to do for the PMO. Nothing more nothing less.

Facts and figures don't lie. Even to my BC. I'll learn what I can for my own growth and that's it.

To each man his own. This quarter sales is in the bag. PAC another 0.6% to go. Turnover should be fine too. Only left TET..

I don't care. If it's results that she wants. It's results she'll get.

This's all I ever want. But I'm always afraid I'll bore the ones I love to death with my window shopping. =/

But then again there are 6 person so far I know I won't bore them (or at least they're kind enough not to say: bro and *y and mum and alien and shark and chili). =P

... ...

I've yet to reply *j's watsapp after that day. And I'm still thinking...

Time for bed. Tmr wanna start and end work early so that I can rest more and spend more time at home tmr.. =)

我的痛，我的伤。谁会懂？

当我寂寞、无奈时，又有谁来关心我、心疼我？

This's juz the start of a long journey. Things have to go well. There's no room for failure. No room for disappointment. No room for errors.

I need to live breathe work for the time being.

I wish I didn't need to. But I cannot give such results. No matter what. At JCP. It's a whole new ball game.

It's no longer about juz work. It's more than that.

... ...

I juz need a listening ear.