15 days more to:
1) learn gardening
2) learn kite flying
3) learn how to pitch a tent
4) learn about astrology
5) learn how to hoist a flag
6) practice shuttle runs
7) find new BFFs
Maybe it's not that bad after all..

To maintain the greenery. To destress to camp in the park. To learn how to read the stars and make it into a sales business. To upkeep the standards and expectations of those I respect. To chase after the birds and mice. To make friends with the ants.

Born in jurong. Die also die in jurong. =)

ARRGHHHZ! FUCK NEXT MONTH'S SCHEDULE! HOW TO DO WHEN THERE'S NO ONE TO WORK? FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! ARRGHZZZ! HOW TO SUBMIT BY TODAY??? FUCK!

Meeting chili in a while. I need a good cry.

Whirlwind of thoughts.

Juz yesterday morning I was telling *j about the movements. Then juz 3 hours ago. There's changes again.

Coz of 1 person. 5 RMs all shifted together. I got my initial wish. But am I happy? I'm not too sure..

It's another day of mixed emotions that needs calming.

What a morning.

I really detest the Italians. 4 yellow cards. How dirty is that play?? But like Karine says. Italy is truly the nemesis of Germany. *heart breakz*

Sighz. But it's coz of this Euro cup that I realized there's more Germany supporters out there. Or maybe coz my circle of friends has widen?? =)

And I've met a couple more die hard Spanish fans as well: Min. *v.

To Eddy. Sister. Karine. Sir Liang. We'll make it in 2014 and lift the cup!!

For now: I'll be rooting for Spain to win! No Italian please!! Vaya Espana!

"Quote from my blog:
我很少对人好，也很少让人太过接近我。因为我怕我又陷入一段无可自拔的'网'里。

Don't underestimate yourself. U are definitely someone who worth giving in for. At least for me, i really don't mind."

*j: thank you. Now it's all out in the open I guess we can all breathe a little easier. *heartz*

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2 person making me insomnia tonight. For good or bad. I don't know..

... ...

*w: thanks for your concern.

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Blogger is down. Shall publish later when I wake up..

I've decided.

Stay. Standby. And probably ask 'Why him? Not me?' My convincing of myself juz passed like that. Boss tells me there's a silver lining in every cloud. So did sister.

Where were you when I needed an ear the most?

*j. Sister. Boss. Thank you all for being there. But there's some things that should be said out loud or over the phone. Not juz through a msg.

Time for bed. Long day later. Thank you *j for the 41/2 hours of crap and dinner/supper! *heartz*

100% disappointed.
100% happy.
100% torn apart.
100% relieved.

100% mixed emotions.

And so the news is half out. Boss is leaving. Confirmed. 1st July. Next question on my mind. Who's taking over? Mickey still on leave. Today coming back. Will the news be out today then? 5 days to monthend. A ton of things to do and clear.

If it's meant to be. Please make it quick and painless.

But I'm not too sure how to take it if it is. I miss working under boss.. ="(

Suddenly missing having perfect eyesight. *heartz*

Epic fail. 20 laps in 30 mins. Super slow. Arrghz. Time to spend more time with the pool.

Still lying in bed debating if I should go swimming. I want to but my body feels otherwise. My brain is telling me to sleep but my heart is telling me to go.

Arrghz. Damn it.

And I'm hungry. And I wanna go buy stuff also. Eeeee!!

ok. been super long since i posted short reviews of the movies i recently caught. so here goes (with a little alcohol in my tummy again. =P)

prometheus. a bit plotless. but interesting concept of how aliens came about. and humans too. =) watched alone in imax 3d (and that was coz my sandals broke in the middle of orchard! so couldn't catch the earlier show!) got a bit freaked out by it though. *shiverz*

a simple show with outrageous circus acts. hahaha. laugh die me. caught this with *p that night at jcube. and we found the 'perfect' spots! 6 rows from the front! XD caught a ice hockey match as well after the movie and he was busy snapping away like no one's business. upload die me sia! X/

and a birthday movie with baby bro. *heartz* a show i don't mind watching again. didn't really like the female lead here. but man! was the queen and the huntsman good! a fantasy kinda show. and i like. =D

next show to catch would be dark knight and spiderman. hmmmz. =) am planning to watch alone. but *p is asking me out again (which i refused). and this *b is pissing me off. arrghz. was juz 'complaining' to *y about it. hahaha. so luan. luan die me. =P

yeah. next month should be nowhere outta town. max jb only. august going somewhere with *y. september i'm still planning. october confirm philippines. novemeber kl to find *v. december for my yearly pilgrimage to malacca. hahaha. yeahs!

planning for next year already. we shall see how it all goes ba! =D loves travelling! =D

ok. time for bed. wanna go swimming later! XD

Boss juz popped a shocking msg to me.

If there is a choice. Do you think I should stay or move on?

A lazy Sunday evening. A good read. An outdoor ambience. Only if there was a good movie to curl up to. With a can of beer in hand. XP

*v juz made my day! =D Okies. Time for bed! XD nightz nightz world! =D

Stupid bro! Drunk till 不醒人事! Friend called me to see if they can send you back! I'm working now lehz! Drink somemore! Drink die you!

i did it. 

"有时候，真的只是有时候，
拿着手机看着从前的聊天记录，
笑了，沉默了，鼻尖头酸了酸，
眼角湿湿地，但始 终没有泪水留下...

就差那一步，两个人就跨上了永恒，
从无话不谈到无话可说的境界，
从一开 始的不相识到不相认的地步，
幸福过，开心过，暧昧过，付出过，
曾经依偎他会是你的最终的选择，
但在故事结局的 时候，主角却变了人...

真的，想要和你说一句话，真的那么难吗？
已经不知道自己开口的第一句话会是什么 了，
你好吗？你还爱我吗？
或许在你给我机会的那一刻，我会忘词吧？

其实，无论最后我们会怎么 样，
无论最终的结局会是什么，
我还是爱你的，我还是希望你能回心转意，
我还是希望我们是朋友，我还是希望可以 关心你，
我还是在你身后默默守护着你的那个人...

如果有一天，我们真的无话可说了，
我还想 对你说，其实我还爱着你，
我还想告诉你，我从没放弃过你，
我还想对你好，只是我们已经玩完了...

如 果有一天，我们真的无话可说了，
请你不要怀疑我对你的爱，
你知道吗，沉默才是一个人最大的哭泣，
绝望的人，是 不会有任何表情的..."

... ...

Am watching 醉后决定爱上你. Super nice show that got me hooked lo. 24 episodes. 5 down 19 more to go. Heng today i'm off. =P

And I forgot my com's updating 4 hours later meaning now. So suddenly what I'm watching kenna cut off. lll-.- silly me.

I guess it's true. Why keep hoping for miracles to happen. Why keep looking back. Why keep holding on.

So what if we had a shared past. So what if the past back then held beautiful memories that can not be replaced. So what if we used to talk about love so passionately.

When now in the end. It amounted to nothing.

... ...

Coz of *b. Now when I'm out or chatting with *p. I'm afraid the same things will happen. I don't want that to. I don't want a repeat of a past that made me so miserable. That made me felt so restricted.

No doubt the 2 of them are different. But I can't shake the feeling that it'll end up the same. So I told myself. No matter how good or nice *p may be. I will not be with him. I don't wanna ruin another friendship that's so hard to come by.

And when I look at *y. Or when we go out for meals with the rest. I know we both are reminded much of the past we shared. Yes. I was the hurtful one to end it all. But I couldn't lie to myself any longer either.

I know now when we go out it's still a very grey area. There were things that happened the last trip that we both don't wanna admit. But we couldn't bear to let go. We're open in that way.

Yes I know I'm living with a tummy full of regrets. I also know I'm trying to let go. But I guess not hard or determined enough.

Every single time I wanna let go. Am prepared to delete all those that's left. Something will crop up to prevent me from doing it.

Why? I ask.

I don't know. Maybe coz it's still a regret so I'm not ready to let go. Once I'm able to let go. I'll then be ready to move on.

How long will I take? You ask.

I don't know. I only know time does not heal all wounds. It merely washes and numbs away all the pain. Till the point in time that I will no longer feel
any hurt or pain from you. And face you like a normal being to another.

So what do you know now? You ask.

What I do know now is. I will grab hold of every single opportunity that comes my way. Eat more. Travel wider. Throw myself into things I may never have taught of doing. Like mentoring. Travelling alone. And so I build a wall up.

On the way to store to grab some stuff and then to meet my lovely family for breakfast! It's been so damn long since we last dine together lo.

I miss talking to mum. Sis. *d. *heartz*

Things have definitely changed. All back to normal. Now's to move on le ba...

I have super strong love-hate relationship with kino.

Love coz I love their selections of books and magazines. Almost every trip I go I won't be leaving disappointed.

Hate coz I hate the fact that I don't leave disappointed. I leave penniless. Minimum spending in kino every visit is easily $50. Sighz. This's where my money goes.. =/ I need a money tree for this!

... ...

Went visiting juz now coz Eve's baby girl's born! 17 June. A Gemini too! =D so so adorable with dimple! And so so soft. And smells great too! Baby smell! XD I guess all the labour pain is worth it? But at the way Eve said it. It scared the shit outta Mich. Jieying and me. While Jon was laughing at us. Hahaha.

But whatever it is: baby baby. Soon you'll be able to join in our nomnom sessions and Ah Yis' all wish you'll grow up to be healthy strong and with a beautiful heart like your mummy and daddy! *heartz*

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Maybe kids are the reason why I don't mind 'accidents'. Provided it's the right person. *random-ness*

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最糟的不是爱上一个不爱你的人。最糟的是爱上一个不说爱不爱你的人。

Juz got back home. =)

Went for a movie date with *p juz. And then caught a ice hockey match!! Waaayy cool! Next is to catch figure skating! =D and went for a late dinner/supper and shared photos of his trip and my trip. =D

... ...

I missed the way we used to talk every night. I missed a lot of things that we did. But I guess missing is not doing any good any more. So I can't be the one who starts the conversation anymore. There's always that tone of rejection in it.

... ...

48 hours - 26 hours (in store working) - 12 hours (sleep) - 3 hours (meal times) - 1 hour (bathe) - 6 hours (travel time) = no time for other things.

There went my 2 working days.

Pictures speaks a thousand words.

Final total: 85.. Wanted to clear then off one by one while uploading my pics and sending emails.

But even after a 10mins nap I'm feeling horrendous. Even more shagged. 2 days back and I've put in 24hours into work.

Enough is enough. I blew my top today and comms like no one's business in the comms book.

Think I better head for a sleep before waking up later to send the emails and do the photos.

Realized. This is it.

I wish I could.

First day back to work. And my to do list is 71 and counting with 2 more days to go to lengthen the list. And yeah. I juz spammed Mickey's email. Coz no one bothered to reply her? And juz checked through several things juz now so ended super late.

The few bright spots today?

First. All my kids were good today. All came to work on time. No problems during work. All very guai.

Second. *p asked me out on Sunday/Monday. So I'll be meeting him after work on Sunday overnight means Monday morning.

But these few spots still couldn't cover the anticipation of a certain reply. Which never came.

Changed to my new wallet this morning. Hoping that with such a change I would be happier.

2 super bikes flanking my sides now. A Suzuki and a Kawasaki. *heartz*

I really wished you'd been the one to make my day. Coz I realized. After so long. You're the only one who could make me smile despite my weariness.

How do I tell you that I love you still?
How do I tell you that I care?
How do I tell you that you're the only that matters?
How do I tell you that no matter what happens you'll be the one I want?

Yixiu yixiu yixiu.

What I really want: for you to ask me out. Juz like before. To text me every day. Juz like before. To call me every other night. Juz like before. Not like now. When all seems so foreign.

If I can I would wanna turn back time to back then. And what would I do? Hold on when I know the feeling's still mutual. And not let go.

后悔已末及.

There's no way I can go back to the past. It's juz when I start thinking about things the past week. It struck me once again the cold hard facts.

And I hate returning home. Coz everything's really back to normal.

回到了原点.

Ahhh!! Nose bleed!!

And it's almost time to wake up and get ready for work. Today's Friday but I so smart. Put OMO shifts. Sighz.

And I guess things are back to prior to the trip already. It's a feeling. But it's quite accurate.

Friday. Surprise me please.

The luggage's still in Kunming???

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And now the luggage's left by the side after all the queuing to make the reports??? And slightly damaged too! Eeeeeeeee! I am so going to claim insurance and buy a new luggage sia!

I'm blogging this while in transit in Kunming. But no wifi so I'll only post this when I touch down.

Tired tired. Sleepy sleepy.

Supposedly boarding time is 2130h but now's 2209h still no news. Think of what time I'll reach back home sia. Tmr will be super shagged at work with legs that are super sore. Yikes.

So left here with my thoughts and random-ness.

I only know I need to be in store early tmr coz I've a week's emails and updates to catch up on. But I'm craving for that prata! How I wished Niqqi's still open. =/ now have to think of Al-Azhar instead le. =/

Been thinking quite a bit these few days. Of things. Of dreams. Of wishes. But too much thinking la. But at least I left the store in peace. Prepared to clear shit when I get back though.

'Save your heart for someone who cares.'

Bought the t shirt in Bangkok 2 weeks back under the influence of mum. Hahaha. But I like the font. The words. The colour. Pink!! XD

Ok. Sleepy! Can I like nap a while in the transit first? My eyes are like super dry and closing le. How to last back home? Hopefully I don't tell the cab the wrong address or forget to get down. I will so kill myself. lll-.- can I teleport instead? It'll be faster! XD

Heard that coz of rain the flight's gonna be delayed. Damn.

In a way thank god ba. Coz at least there's no one waiting at the airport for me.

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Time check: 2246h and still waiting for passengers to finish boarding. lll-.- what time will we touch down in Singapore ne??

Came down earlier to check out to use the wifi. =D

Set the alarm at 2.45am to watch the match. But once the alarm rang I changed the time to 4am and went back to sleep. Super shagged. Woke up at 4am and watched that dumb dumb Netherlands score. lll-.-

But at least Germany broke the code of losing their second matches! XD coz it's a score of 1:2 in favour of Germany! XD Gomez scored twice!! XD

And the Denmark vs Portugal one I only watched the replay. Too tired to catch the match. 2:3. Whoa! What a close fight!

So the chance of Netherlands going to the quarter finals is like slimmer. =( let's wait and see the other few matches.

Today going to 大雁塔 and some gardens. And my calves hurt like hell. Tmr still need to work. Oh my tian. Looking forward to my off on Monday. 3 days to go!

But time does pass very fast. I'm already going home and my holidays is coming to an end in another 6 hours' time. Flight's at 1850h. Touch down in the middle of the night. 7 hours of torture.

And then I think all things will change. Which I hope not. =/

Sighz. We'll see how it all goes ba. This has been a good trip so far la. Interesting places. Interesting tour mates. Awesome scenery. *heartz*

China ain't so bad after all. =)

I seriously think the china government is super encouraging people to have sex lo. Both hotels in Xi'an I see this in the toilet. lll-.-

Climbed that 华山 today is like wanting my life lo. Your guide tell us with buffer we can scale 5 peaks in 5 hours (both ways). They usually do 5 peaks in 4 hours. I tell you. We (Yi Fang. Her bro and me) scaled 1 pathetic peak in 5 hours (up and down). And the other in 30 mins. Wtf lo. Come down my legs like shaking and giving way le sia.

Tired die me.

And I found a new format for taking better pictures! But a bit too late le. Coz at 青海 I didn't know! X/ wasted! Super duper wasted! X/

Tonight shall sleep well coz went shopping at 回民街. =P and bought things for my mummy and baby bro. And many many for myself. =D postcards as usual la. =D

Shall skip breakfast tmr. Shall sleep till 9am then wake up to pack. Means I can watch Euro cup tonight!! Yeahs!! XD

Coz wake up eat lunch le ma. Then last 3 attractions before heading to the airport.

And I guess that when I'm back. Everything will change back to how it was before le. =/

Kk. Time for bed. Using lobby's wifi only. TatA!

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Stupid me. Haven't publish went to bathe le. So came down again to publish the post.

Okies. I'm watching the 2.30am match. Germany vs Netherlands! XD

Go Klose! Go Gomez! Go Podolski! XD

Last breakfast in 华山: machiam like in 武林大会. Ok. Eat full full so can die full full on the mountains. =D

Time for bed. Slight giddiness. Too much alcohol suddenly I feel. Oops! XD doubt I can last till the match. I'm back in a room with tv. So here I come again Euro cup!

England vs france. 1:1. Ukraine vs Sweden. 3:1. Both lll-.-

Okies. Forgot who's playing tonight. Time to sleep coz tmr need to wake up at 6am. To pack bag and get ready for breakfast and then to 华山! =D

*w..

Juz went out with Yi Fang to the shops opposite to buy some tidbits and fruits. And we chanced upon this superb roadside stall which we bought 5 sticks of mutton and 5 sticks of beef and 1 stick (4 pieces) of chicken wings and a bottle of 500ml beer. All for RMB21. Which is like S$4.20?? For EVERYTHING. Great!! XD and it's outdoor sitting. Lovely lovely! XD

The hiking trail tomorrow. =/ should I or should I not?

I want a life like that too. =/

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How do people know that he/she's the one to grow old with? That it isn't the wrong decision? How do people know that they will be spending the next (minimum) 50 years of their next lives together happily?

I think I've come to a stage where I do wanna settle down. But I fear making the wrong decision that I'll regret for the rest of my life.

So I chose to run away by traveling.

I juz realized.

Both times someone sent me off at the airport was the same person. First one was when I was leaving for Taiwan with Jovi. Second was this trip.

And the first time I remember skyping over from Taipei. And this time it was watsapping instead of calling.

I don't know why and can't remember why you sent me off the first time. I know the second one was coz I asked.

But if I vaguely remember correctly. Both times you asked me the same question: why no one sent me off. Hmmmz.

And *someone was the only one who ever picked me up from the airport.

Interesting eh?

Sitting here at the terracotta warriors place resting. Hot hot hot!! *but no wet wet sweat*

Another amazing part of history. Another amazing part of knowledge.

Sitting in the walkway early this morning. Eating my chips. And reading my book.

Watching the rural landscape pass me by. *heartz*

I really am fortunate to be born in a place like Singapore. No matter how much we complain or dislike it at times. I could never imagine myself living in a place like all these. Yes. No doubt the scenery's awesome. But living conditions are bad. Or maybe coz I've been too pampered by Singapore?

Gonna reach our stop soon. =) so hello to Xi'an in a bit! =D

Was spamming someone yesterday night. Till I became an alien (?.?) and *p was telling me his trip to Ray's wedding. =) time to plan for next year's trip real soon! =) anyone keen?

Lying in my bunk. Laughing to myself coz someone's half entertaining me while watching show and playing iPhone games? =P

But think I'll knock out soon..

And laughing with my bunk mates coz we somehow managed to lock ourselves in and were struggling to get the door opened! XD

In a train for a night ride to Xi'an now. Finally managed to activate my auto roaming. Coz I was super pissed at the hotel's Internet and international calling yesterday. =/

Spent yesterday night catching Euro cup again. =D coz no one I can call out to for a chat. =/ sad die me. Spain and Italy drew! How can??? Ireland and Croatia 1:3!! Wth??

Waiting for the train to move so that I can go toilet. Hahaha. Now sitting alongside the walkway.

Think it'll be a sleepless night? Anyone wants to entertain me? XD

Time for a long journey to 青海湖le. Bye bye to the wonderful wifi that allowed me to spam. And no more watsapp and email le. =/

Cannot believe it. I'm really actually awake to catch the match. Alarm set juz in case I doze off later so I can still get the results. =D

Jiayou Germany! *heartz*

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Fell asleep into the game. But I set alarm. Woke up cursing and swearing at the 0:0 score. And then cursing the Portuguese for such dirty play. Then Gomez scored! Through a header. At the 72nd minute! XD and I cheered. Hopefully I didn't wake my neighbours up! XD

15 minutes more. Will there be another goal? =P

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Klose is playing in the 79th minute. And on his birthday! Make it a goal please!! XD

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No goal from Klose. But Germany wins! 1:0! XD group of death match and Germany scored! XD

Now to find out the score of Denmark vs Netherlands later. Too bad later tonight most likely no wifi. So cannot spam my blog. Upset. =P

Kk. Time for bed! XD

No need sleep le. They're previewing Germany and Portugal now lo. And happy birthday love! *Klose* please take care of your injuries.

And I hope that Germany will win this match. *prayz hard*

Sleep now. Later wake up to watch the matches! 2 hours to sleep! XD

TatA world!

Ok. I know I am spamming my own blog. But China's network blocks Facebook ah. =/

*random-ness*

What if one day I told *you you are the one I mentioned in those 2 posts? What if one day I told *you you were the one I wanna go eastern Europe with? What would you reply?

I don't know how you feel about me. And somewhat I don't dare to ask either. I've had enough of rejections till now. So I guess I will never ask. And I'll never know.

Sighz.

Back at the hotel. Took a pic of the view. Superb. Juz that my iPhone doesn't do it justice la. =)

Continue watching basketball tournament. May sleep earlier today. After I write in my journal. =) unless there's euro cup tonight on tv! XD

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I hate my heart. Coz I'm missing you all over again. =/

Juz reached back hotel in 贵德. Switched on the tv and there's euro replay!! XD Russia vs Czeh. So tonight I'll be watching euro if I can! Think it's the Spain match tonight.. =P

Ashravin's playing! Ahhh!

Anyways. Plans changed. No Tibet. Coz of the 27 May incident. So now in Xinning. Tomorrow in Lhasa. Then to Xi'an. Seeing the terracotta warriors and climbing 华山.

Honestly? Super upset yesterday. So yeah. I bought beer to drink. And I guessed I did cry a little. =/ but free writing in my journal I did feel much better and am feeling much much better today. Hopefully it'll get better.

The views today were awesome. 连绵不断的山. 看得我心宽神怡.

But it did remind me of Philippines . And I do miss it much. Coz I guess the sea and beach was what attracted me most.

And so I'm looking forward to the trip in October. =)

I cannot stand Chinese food here. So not my style. Gosh. I have another 4 days to go. Hungry die me. Heng yesterday got supermarket. I bought tidbits also. =D think China is good for the scenery but not the food. And the toilets. Juz a hole in the ground. No doors. No flush. lll-.-

I think I need more travel experience. But not in China. More Asean or Southeast Asia le ba.

Tibet ne. I guess it'll juz have to wait another few years.

Ahhhh!!! Almost another goal for Russia!!! =/

Ok. Time for a nap. Then off for dinner and then back to sleep. =) the weather's super cooling. No need air con de. =D

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If I'm staying back at the same hotel as yesterday night. Would you let me call you? *random-ness*

Been in Shanghai Pudong airport since 5am in the morning. Now waiting for connecting flight to Xinning. Wanted to check in to fb but I think China network doesn't allow. =(

Didn't go out to walk in the end. Walked around the maze like airport terminals and slept for an hour on a chair in the departure hall. Hahaha. =P

Had my breakfast too. And also some shopping for books and postcards and magnets. =D

The other travel companions are 2 families of 4. Hahaha. They've met. And I met them but they don't know it's me ba. =P let's play mysterious and see how it goes till we touch down in Xinning.

Hourly rates at the hotel are a tad over my budget (unplanned) so I didn't stay. Damn. Otherwise I could have a better rest. =P

Kk. Shall continue reading a new book I bought on Tibet and pray for the best! =)

PS. Supposed to post this on the 1st day! =/

Heyz. Thanks for sending me off. For dinner. For the chat. Sorry I wasn't brave enough to ask for a hug. I'll see you when I see you kk? =)

Still debating with myself. Would you send me off to Tibet? =/

And my special day has passed like that. Without you realizing it. This shows how important I am to you. Whether as a friend or otherwise. Well done man. Well done. I have nothing else to say.

I wish you had msg me. But you didn't.

Happy birthday to me! =D

Happy traveling on 7th night to a new and exotic place that none of my known friends have stepped foot into! =D

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My wish this year? To stay happy. Healthy (flu flu go away...) and to open my mind and heart ba. =)

If he's mine he's mine. If we're not meant to be. Holding on does not help. =) but to be a tad greedy. Juz this once a year. I hope you'll spend at least a few hours with me. But wistful thinking once again I know. =) Coz it'll never come true. Juz like last year's. =)

But a wish's a wish! =D

Trying out this new blogger for iPhone. Works well for uploading photos. But the alignment seems a bit haywired. So if you guys see this kinda format of post means I'm blogging from my phone la. =)

It's been a super long time since I bought a wallet with someone.

Thank you to *y for the vouchers and *p for shopping with me for my long-lusted over wallet for the past 3 years. =D

Come to think about it. The last time someone went shopping with me for my white wallet and paid for it was also quite many years back. I love that wallet. And now it has become a travel companion. But I've decided after this Tibet trip. I'll retire it and pack it away into my box of treasures and keep the memory of it close to my heart.

... ...

I still don't know what to think or feel or reply.

Sick and working

I hate being sick.
I hate being sick on my off day.
I hate being sick on my off day and having to go back to work.
I hate being sick on my off day and having to go back to work while feeling like my body's gonna give way anytime.

my first prezzie upon turning 26! =)

something that someone bought for me that brought tears to my eyes.

it's not just the amount. it's the thought that you remembered after so many years. *heartz* (although the amount is still too much if you ask me.)

and yes. probably i will get that thing i've aimed for the past 3 years. =)

Sick

Surviving on 4 panadols. 1 honey lemon drink. 3 honey lemon strepsils. 1 hot tea with honey. 1 100 plus drink. 2 cups plain water. From last night till this afternoon.

Result? Scratchy throat and sexy voice. =/

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I hate visiting the doc.

Professionalism

You claimed that you are turly upset and disappointed at how the thing was handled and that we were unprofessional.

Guess what? Stop trying to gain people's sympathy. In the first place. Who's the one who lied and said she was always attached out? Who's the one that overrode my authority and without discussing with me immediately sent that brainless message to Mickey? Especially since you know we were both out of town? Who was the one who cc that message into the fucking store watsapp? And you call that professional?

I think I'm being professional enough to have sent you a personal message and asking if you wanna tell the team yourself or me to tell them.

Trust me. I could have done worse.

Don't try my temper. Coz you haven't been on the receiving end of it. Don't test my patience. Coz I have none. Don't act pitiful. Coz you won't gain an ounce of sympathy from me. Don't push your luck. Coz you're not professional yourself.

If you wanna go ahead and post that on fb. Let's see who sympathize with you. And if I am juz type one sentence of truth. Let's see they'll think who's more professional. You? Or me?

You're a fucking married woman yet you think like a kid. You're older that me (though by not a lot) yet you act like a kid.

And that's professionalism?

So next question. So what have you contributed to the store results? Nothing.

Wanna act professional and gain sympathy? Look into the mirror and think twice. You disgusts me totally.