i actually have tons and tons to talk about. like the trip to jb to find xiao qiang. the outing to top table and novena and back to store with beloved and mummy. and the olympics. of how i saw my 3rd aunt and weiying at work. and of course of cl3. =D but only 1 thing is on my mind right now.

i'm meeting *w again later for supper! =D

hahaha. i am a happy girl. coz there's someone who's concerned about me. (and picks me up from my home and sends me to my doorstep. and treats me to supper. and talks to me as freely as i talk to him.) =D

and guess how long have i known him? 22 days. and the number of days we talked before going out for supper together? 1 day. ah! it's a record! =D

but it seems like i've known him for years. *shrugz*

a heart full of love. full of respect. full of trust. full of happiness. to be torn away from a place i called home and planted in a strange place and hoping that it will flourish once again and be filled with more love and happiness.

my current happiness stems from working with: yi chin. auntie joon lean. assakin. kok hiong. winston. siew fong. auntie cheng geok. auntie bee too. auntie yun lan. wee boon.

but there are things that has gotten me worried as of late. things which i thought would not happen but it all happened.

perhaps it was a wrong move after all. coz it seemed as if others has built their happiness on me and i'm the one who has brought them all the current unhappiness.

tell me izzit wrong for me to move on alone without the rest?

okie. another photos galore. coz appraently blogger's photo uploads was not functioning those few days. =X anyway here are the photos as promised:

the first lot will be of my last day at work with the crew and riders lo. pics speak louder than words. so i'll not write too much. =D

of auntie fong leng and auntie koon lee. =D

another with auntie kwai sim. auntie koon lee. auntie choo keow. auntie norsiah and auntie fong leng. =D

one of the riders. azri. din. fadli. wan. norhan and frankie. =D

with marissa. =D

auntie seow lan. =D

with maha. =D

with xiao qiang. who refused to take a proper pic. hrmphz. =X wait till thursday! =P

and of the place i call my second home. the kitchen where i loved to sit and whilst away my time before mds started.

of the storeroom where i always go when i wanna cry. =D

the crew room where i used to take my break as a crew.

the mds station which became took over the post of the kitchen. where i would sit and write post shifts or eat. or where the riders used to sit and sing songs and sleep and eat. but not anymore. =X

the front counter. i miss the space man. cl3 is like cramped. =X

the managers' room aka pig sty where all the crew when mopping the floor doesn't mop and i've to nag and nag and nag at them to mop lo. =D

and the crew who came down and stayed throughout. my son. =D

my lover. =D

my son's elder bro. so also my son? =D

son's younger bro. also my son? =D

and the cake that the riders bought for me! =D i heard that darling was the one who bought it. adib was the one who came and asked if he can borrow the chiller. hahaha. =D so sweet of them! =D

5 candles to represent the number of years i've been at jscc. =D

and that's my darling. =D

and one pic with the whole group who stayed. =D adib. wan. fauzi. darling. fiq. my rezal. suhaimi. raziff. =D heart heart! =D

of the guys who wanted a pic of themselves. =D fiq. rezal. suhaimi. darling. =D

another with my darling. hahaha. =D

and another. =D

with fauzi. =D

with fiq. fauzi. darling. =D

with darling and fiq. =D

and my rezal! =D

with adib and wan. =D

with suhaimi. raziff. darling. =D

with wan. =D

i think i can safely say that my darling loves to take pics. hahaha. =D

was attached back to store that day. and some more pics. only this time was with my lovers only. =D

and like what i said previously. i needed to keep myself occupied so that i won't have time to think or care about what i feel. so i met up with beloved again for good food. =D this time was hooked at the rail mall.

that's the mushroom soup. ok la. i still like soup spoon's mushroom soup. any takers? =D

our drinks. too bad they didn't have peach tea. =X

the fisherman's salad that was so-so. i still love my ceaser. =X

my seafood marinara which i think was slightly better than pastamania's. coz there were more ingredients and flavourful without having me to add tobasco sauce. but the pasta were a tad too little. =)

beloved's fish pie with salmon lining the bottom. good. but not my kinda thing. =D

and beloved's sea bass. with the sauce it was really nice. i shall try it next time. =D

and coz we were craving for potatoes. we ordered the sauteed potatoes. wrong move. =X

and then i met up with the clique on the eve of national day for ichiban boshi at esplanade. coz dearest sha can only tell us that the place was good and cheap but she doesn't know the name. hahaha. and so we went lo since we like jap. =D

the salmon sashimi. good. but nowhere near the one xiao qiang brought me to. =) and being the 'creative director'. nelson was the one who arranged the sauce plate and chopsticks there. hahaha. =D

the chasoba for jovi. =D

the potato croquette with the spicy sauce and sweet sauce. as according to the server. =D we juz ate without caring. =D the chawanmushi wasn't too bad. =D

nelson's curry tempura. =D

and other sides of the salmon salad. california handroll and mini california roll. i think we have something against salmon. as if we have to have revenge by eating them all up. =D

the ichiban fiesta which was spicy but i liked it. =D and some more salmon don't-know-what. =D

jovi's curry enoki. =D

my beef kaminabe. =D

and sha's i'm not sure what it's called. but it was tasty alright. =D

and the side dish that came last. the mushrooms in butter soup. =D delicious! =D

and as usual we started our usual crap and laughs. but ended on a more somber note. coz we started talking about marriages. about settling down. about working. about the future. =) it really made me feel old talking about all those. like as if we were already on the end closer to teh 30s when we are not even mid 20s yet. sighz.

went and listened to the band performing at the outdoor theatre of the esplanade. they were good. but coz the company's good too. it was enjoyable juz standing there and listening with the breeze blowing gently. =D

had dessert at haagen daz at esplanade for dessert coz max the chocolate bar was full house. =X

ordered the fondue which came with 4 flavours of mini balls of ice cream. i think were cookies and cream. vanilla. strawberry and chocolate. with strawberries. green apples. bananas. chocolate wafers. chocolate cookies (which are teeth-breakers). and i think sara lee pound cakes. oh. not forgetting nelson's favourite. the nuts. =D

a pic with them. jovi. sha. and dumb dumb nelson trying to act as a passer-by again. haiyoo. =)

with jovi. =D

with sha. =D

and with mister 'creative director' nelson. =D

was really good meeting up with all of them. coz at least it meant that no matter how busy we may be. the friendships are still there. i don't wanna lose any of these friends coz they are hard to come by.

to find someone who truly understand you and be there for you is not easy. and with life being so short. i wanna treasure and cherish all these more. that's why my off days never seem enough for me to spend with all my loves.

at least 1 day for beloved. but beloved's one's easy coz she's almost always free if she doesn't have assignments or exams due. right beloved? =D

1 day for lovers and the young crew if possible.

1 day to go down store and stay whole day so i can meet everyone. minus that dumb S.

1 day to meet xiao qiang. whether izzit in sin or in jb.

1 day for the clique.

1 day for the jb gang.

1 day for couzin.

1 day for da jie.

and hopefully 1 day for him.

that's like 9 days gone? meaning practically all my off days. it's not gonna be easy. and since it takes 2 hands to clap. if i forget at any one point in time to ask you guys out. please please please date me kz? =D

cl3 so far has been good. coz in a way they juz mfy-ed. so i bring my knowledge over and tried to share it with them. especially the kitchen aunties. coz they are doing certain things wrongly. i don't blame them la. but i think they were very funny today. auntie ai lin and auntie see moy and auntie yun lan were saying that i was fun to be with. hahaha. that they want me to train them properly at mfy. so i told them ok lo. if they are willing to learn. i'm more than willing to teach. those who worked with me before should know me best. =D

and auntie alice and auntie bee too came and were arguing over how to present the food on the tray. hahaha. i was laughing at them lo. coz they were the cashiers and they all followed me to the managers' room when i said i'll show them the socs. meaning counter has only 2 runners no cashier. hahaha.

then hwa bin and sarah and wei tian were doing mds at one point in time and hwa bin and wei tian got confused over sarah storing the orders and all. hahaha.

then yi chin was damn cute la. coz he's a cl and a very good one in fact. so he was taking his own initiative running around helping out at all stations. from counting waste to expeditzer. to mds. to runner. to cashier. to chaser. to initiator. i juz put him anywhere and he's good at it lo. hahaha. then he kept chasing me off to break and asking how come there's no m2 manager. hahaha. when i went for break customers were in so i started helping out again and in the end what happened? i got scolded from yi chin to juz sit and eat and stop running about. that the crew can handle it. so i sat down in the managers' room watching the kitchen lo. then we were chatting while i did mds and he punched out and sat at the mds station there. then he started asking what shift i was working tmr coz i was chasing him off le. he works 7 days week. each shift no shorter than 8 hours. imagine that! =X no wonder he was saying he was tired.

but ok la. working with the bunch of them was fun. haven't really worked with the morning crew yet. so i still need time to get to know the morning part. the riders i'm not too familar yet coz i don't have much chance to interact with them. much less when i don't smoke. =X ah well. with the exception of wee boon whom i was talking to juz now. =D

tmr or rather later i'm overnight. no yi chin. no hwa bin. =X sighz. thank god on tuesday i'm working m1 and wednesday closing. which if i'm not wrong. yi chin and hwa bin will both be working. hahaha. i like! and i'm looking forward to it.

no more looking back. coz looking back will only cuase more pain and tears to me. i'm still in the so-called transition period and i need some time to let my wound heal. only thing is to look forward and pray that there are people at cl3 that gives me the motivation to go to work. currently yes la. assakin. kok hiong. winston. yi chin. =D

i think i can survive and make it through after all. coz annie is more like ern nee than S. someone who do what they say rather than juz delegate and not move at all. =D thou shall work hard on getting promoted fast! =D

let's all jiayou together! =D

ps. xiao qiang: let me know what happened to you today alright? i'm sorry i came online too late. anything leave me a msg in msn or tag me kz? take carez yeah? i'll see you on thursday! same time same place. =)