there. another outing with peepz to the pump room at clark quay for sunday brunch. =D

the lovely peepz. don't have a pic of pamela. =X

ok. the food! =D the starters had things like soup (potato and leek i think). salads with different dressings. sauteed mushrooms. prawns. mussels. yummy yummy smoked salmon. =D criss cross buns. croissants. apple danish. finger food like nuggets. hash browns. sausages. smoked chicken consomme. and hams. and that's only the starters! =D

look at the tableful of starters! =D

and the main course was even better! meats of all variety cooked in ways you can't really think of. fish. beef. lamb. pork. chicken. man. were we spoilt for choice? =D we had pork ribs dripping with smoky yet sweet bbq sauce. grilled barramunda on a heap of garlic mash (which wasn't that garlicky) and pork cheeks on a pile of pumpkin mash. and i had settled my craving by having a medium ribeye beef that was grainfed. yummy! =D *sighz with happiness*

desserts included chocolate fondue. jellies. bread and butter pudding. oreo cheesecake. fresh fruits. =D

and we went to the cookie museum at esplanade for some tea. =D

illegal photos coz they say can't take pics. but it was all juz too pretty to resist! =D

another good satisfying lazy sunday. =D

but then. on another note. i think i made someone explode that day. hmmmz. and the someone actually coughed out blood again and skipped dinner. shit. and after that we didn't talk at all. and surprisingly i didn't sms him like how i usually will to apologize when i'm in the wrong. sighz. but if this is the only way to make me let go. then this is the way i'll go. coz he refuses to let go. sighz. i've talked to both guys and girls about it. and their stands are really like 'girls' and 'guys'. so now it's not helping at all. i don't know what to do. coz as much as i want to listen to the girls. the guys makes more sense. damn it.

'it takes courage to select being with someone for the sake of being someone...'

but i didn't choose to be with him. coz i am not with him. yet... perhaps it's time to pick up where i left off. back to the past. back to my past life. my past self...

but i will definitely miss the times i spent with him. =X

... as the rain pelted down onto the heated pavement. sizzles could be heard as the cement rejoiced at the coolness of it all...

felt lazy again today. so i was blogging. blog-surfing. hwg-ing. reviewing. and surfing around. when i chanced upon this from jas's blog: "sometimes the simplest things are the hardest to make. juz as it is difficult to cook the humble egg fried rice. the simple first love is the most unforgettable".

i think i have been really lazy. i went to a chalet during my 2 consecutive off days. and it was really well-spent in my opinion. food. movies. books. magazines. and chatting. *winkz at beloved* but then again. i juz feel hard pressed for time during work. even on days off i get calls regarding work. which i totally dislike. off days are called off days for a reason. so the chalet came at a good time. =D

chatting to beloved and random thoughts juz popped up. events of the past. the present juz cropped up and started whirring in my mind. sighz.

i think i need time to sort out my confused thoughts.

a dinner so satisfying that i forgot that mummy's birthday's today. damn! =X

had the oportunity to go to absolute haven at prinsep street for a much looked-forward dinner with foodies of HGW and couzin. =D (but i'm sorry about the too dark photos. i juz can't seem to use flash on the food and spoil the ambience of the place. although i did it for the dessert la. =D)

anyway. special thanks goes out to panarai who arranged the session and to those who turned up. =D

as quoted from ratatoille. this post will be dedicated to the HGW kakis who went last night. "Give a shout out to SY, hiyak!, CRM, doggy and wife, weightyman and gang, starzdevil, and the 3 amigos." =D

the dishes yesterday night was a new menu preview and opening the menu left me spoilt for choice. =D the soup was the cream of rocket. but there were 3 choices of salad for starters. 5 choices for mains and 3 dessert choices. tell me how is one supposed to choose? =D

the cream of rocket was interesting. it was herby yet veggie like with a hint of butter. creamy yet not too overpowering. =D

torn between having panchetta ham and smoked salmon roll or duck breast salad with berry sauce. i decided to go for the latter after much hesitation. well. it wasn't as good as what i've expected. the greens were fresh and a good mixture. the duck breast was ok. the taste of the starter was sour yet refreshing. but somehow the presentation of the dish juz didn't enhance my appetite. =X maybe coz of the colours. green with dark brown juz didn't do justice to the dish. hmmmz. (the top is the panchetta ham and smoked salmon roll while the one below features the duck breast salad with berry sauce.)

main course was another trouble. between my favourite ribeye steak or a pork rack. i went for the pork rack after more hesitatation. =D oven-roasted yorkshire pork rack with herb potato. vegetables ratatouille. fresh mesculam salad served with coffee chocolate sauce. i was practically floating after the first bite into the succulent piece of pork rack. =D the bite sized pieces of herb potatoes were darn good. as was the vegetables ratatouille. =D tangy and it juz made me hunger for more! the sauce seemed more like for decoration purposes than for the meat. but then again. i wiped clean the plate from traces of the suace. i guess i'm one of the rare ones who enjoyed the combination of the sauce (as much as i dislike the taste of coffee). =D

the victorian creme brulee was a smart choice in my opinion. especially after i tasted couzin's passionfruit panna cotta which was too sour for my liking. the creme brulee was served cold which was quite a surprise to me. but imagine poking your spoon into the crust and hearing a satisfying crack. put a spoonful into your mouth and it juz melts away. yummy! =D (top: passionfruit panna cotta. below: victorian creme brulee. =D)

hahaha. overall a much satifying meal indeed with great company! =D

a lazy sunday afternoon...

was supposed to go over beloved's house to help her with wrapping her books. but then the lazy and too tired me postponed it to tuesday instead. =D so no disturbing me on tuesday! it's time with beloved! =D *beloved. don't say i don't love you horz!*

it's been a long time since i had spent a lazy sunday home. =D and i juz attended my neighbour's wedding. i love malay weddings! =D so full of happy chatter and music. =D

and now i'm so bored and didin't know what to do. so i'm here to blog a bit and to maple. =D hahaha. after so long and i'm finally at level 50. so proud of myself. =D

and here are a few pics that i took that day at coffee club with beloved and mummy. =D coz i finally was hardworking enough to transfer the pics using my bluetooth dongle. =D the drinks and the desserts. and yes. the glass of wine was mine. =D

and i went out that night/in the wee hours of the morning with a friend. chatted and all and only reached home at 0930 in the morning. =D

was a nice chat and it was all in great company. a couple of shots i took while we were there. =D the night sky and the morning scene. =D

i don't mind having more of these. =)

kk. off le. going to maple more. =D

tatA!

'it's not where you're from. it's where you're at.'

met up with the lol and shit-ass gang and the usual laughter and madness proceeded. =D had soup spoon for dinner with a lot of laughter as accompaniment. =D was a happy affair catching up and crapping as usual. =D

but then sha had to leave early so the 3 of us decided to go catch a movie. step up 2. =D but that was after the tons of camwhoring that was done in soup spoon. hahaha. what to do? the camwhore queen - jovi juz changed her phone ma. so she started experimenting again. =D

the movie was good. i love dancing shows lo. =D i watched step up before. so step up 2 was a must-watch for me too. i love the part dancing on the trampoline and the show down in the rain. whoa! i am impressed! =D

life has been pretty busy these couple of weeks with non-stop of work and much emotions to sort out and settle.

went our with beloved and mummy to have steamboat and to holland v to chill last fri. and i had my 'shabu shabu'. and i guessed it kinda grossed them out with me dipping half cooked beef in raw egg and then slurping it all down. =D yummy yummy! and guess what? i really think i can live without pork and chicken. but i must have my beef! =D hahaha.

chilled out in holland v's coffee club and had desserts and drinks. and guess what? i ordered a glass of white wine. hahaha. think i was really brave lo. =D but then again. i needed the alcohol ba.

work has been alright. the stress level's ok. it's juz that i am tired. mentally and physically. and trying to squeeze time out to meet people is draining me and my energy. =X oooh. but did i tell you what i had to eat for the past few days at work that made me happy? =D

i had air katira courtesy of my lover who bought it from arab street. =D it's much much nicer than the makanshiok's one. and i really relished every single sip of it. hee. =D

and then i had a bite (read: one fifth of the whole portion) of curry zest baked rice and a hot and spicy drumlet courtesy of someone else. =D hahaha. and the thing was that initially he only said to leave me a bite of the rice. i didn't know about the drumlets. but yes. it was yummy alright. =D

i am a happy baby. =D

no photos now coz i haven't transfer it from my phone yet. and i'm rushing to meet da jie for the dnd at zouk. my tian. zouk lo. =X

'Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love'
-bleeding love by leona lewis

till then. tatA! =D

*i miss naughty boy*

"coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous - albert einstein"

wanted to catch 'the leap years' on 29th. but coz of work it was postponed till yest. read a lot of bad reviews about it and was in fact a bit reluctant to watch it. but i guess curiousity got the better of me. so i went to catch it after reading the book for a second time.

'a person often meets his destiny on the road they took to avoid it - jean de lafontaine'

the first time i read the book i was moved by it. usually i don't read books written by singapore authors but i guess this is one that changed my life. i cried while reading the book. which is quite rare. i cried for the pain and loss felt by li-ann (the female lead). cried coz i was once like her and perhaps in some way still like her. the book touched me in ways i would have never dreamed of. and for a singapore author to have the capability to write a book that moved me to tears. i hold Dr catherine lim with utmost respect.

the second time i read the book. i knew what to expect. i didn't cry. but the story tugged at my heartstrings once again. a promise made impulsively. 'to meet every 29th. same place. same time.' 4 years is a long time. in 4 years a lot can happen. look at you. look at me. how much have we changed since 4 years ago?

i went to the movies with an open mind. well knowing that the movie would never be as good as the book. and perhaps as bad an interpretion as how da vinci code the movie was to the book.

as the story unfolded from a 1st person view. i was enraptured. mesmerised. and left to wonder if i am really watching a singapore production.

a promise to meet every 29th. where a guy has to agree to the proposal of a girl. to meet every feb 29th seems like a torture to me. once every 4 years. and at times 8 years. imagine the agony and pain it holds. furthermore when you don't know where the guy stays. how's his background like. or even his phone number. juz that impulsive and crazy notion of meeting him at the same place same time every 4 years.

'if you are not too long i will wait for you all my life - oscar wilde'

the movie has parts that were not from the book. a variation of sorts. although it still isn't as good as the book. it was good enough for me. a satisfied me stumbled out of the cinema hall. with that silly smile on my face while wondering the destiny and fate of my own life.

'it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves - william shakespeare'

sometimes. i feel that my life is unfolding in a way that the movie is. 4 years to change and try to move on. but when the date approaches. it seemed as if that i am moving. but not moving on.

'in 3 words i can sum up everything i've learnt about life: it goes on - robert frost'

life goes on. often not holding back juz for me. and then i struggle to play catch up with it. how many times have i paid dearly for mistakes i made? how many times have i played with fire and burnt myself at the end of it all? and how this latest event of playing with fire will get me burnt yet again. i know i will get burnt everytime i play with fire. but i never do learn from my mistakes. i'm stubborn in that way.

this time is no different. let's not go and examine the complexity of it all coz i think it'll kill me. it's killing me already and i guess i want it to end so i can start all over again with the scars as the only reminder that it ever happened.

ah well.