i actually uploaded a lot of pics from my few food eating trips. but in the end i decided not to post them all coz i am not in the mood at all and so i deleted that post.

life has been tiring these days. especially since i don't know what came over me to go and remove the tumour that was growing on my back. so yeah. i went. the tumour's out. i only shed one drop of tear during the whole half and hour operation. but now i can't really lift up my left hand in fear of tearing the stitches apart.

food eating trips have led me to places like RITS. villa bali. the charcoal grilled place in vivo. top table. ikea at tampines. hotpot culture at marina square. xin wang at marina square. wine hut. zi char at makanshiok.

enough about food. i realized it has been quite sometime since i blogged about my own life instead of turning this blog into a food blog. and new year was spent with da jie catching up.

yes. random mumblings again but i can't be bothered with what others think anymore.

i am tired. partly from rushing from one meetup to another before those going back to aussie are all gone. and what with work and what notz going on. i really wish that my life could juz end right now.

sometimes i wish that i could blog more. but more often than not. the thought of switching on the com and blogging turns me off. like totally. i don't understand the notion of me feeling this way. but it's juz dumb i guess.

i give up.

i give up trying to cheer people up when they are feeling down. coz no one cheers me up when i'm feeling down.

i give up trying to talk to my 1st asst. coz in ways more than one. she pisses the shit out of me and she doesn't deserve any of my respect. period.

i give up trying to arrange for meet ups. coz at times i don't wanna keep putting on a facade and telling people i am fine when i am not.

i give up trying to use my influence to get others to do the right things. coz simply put there's only so much i can do.

i give up trying to prove to others that i am good. coz i am not.

i give up trying to hold on to the friendship that was long gone. coz it's making me feel more tired than ever when i feel i've already done all i could to keep it there.

i give up trying to hold back my tears. coz they have decided to unleash themselves.

i give up trying to act strong. coz i am weak and need a pillar of strength which i can draw from.

i give up trying to act as if i don't care so much. coz in actual fact whatever you do or happens to you means the world to me.

i give up trying to change myself so you can accept me. coz this is me and this is what you get. packaged with all the vulgarities and tantrums there is.

i give up trying to make things go my way. coz life is not alwayz smooth sailing.

i give up trying to make friends with everyone. coz there is no way i can be friends with people i dislike.

i give up trying to keep the store and the people in one piece. coz it seems like i am the only one trying this hard to keep things working out.

i give up trying to make each day a brighter day. coz there is no point in doing it anymore.

i give up trying to find someone for me to pour out things and unhappiness especially about work. coz although it isn't difficult. it's juz how much i am willing to share coz the other party also has their own life and worries.

i give up. literally. let me take a break. hopefully by the next time i blog it'll be something happier.

.:i am no artist; i do not paint my emotions in the colour of pastels:.

hahaha. gonna be a long post. coz i'm going to blog about my hong kong trip (with many many pictures!). about disney naturally. about dini's birthday celebration. about meeting my beloved and 15 years' friend. sha's birthday. and about all the good food that i had!!! =D and of course work la.

ok. first should be hk first. macau has been done. so now comes the chunk of the photos for hk.

after staying at venetian at macau and feeling so pampered. we left for hk's ymca at waterloo street. and let me tell you this. with an algae green toilet bowl and juz as bad bathtub. and 2 hard and unbouncable beds. it was really a big turn off. thank goodness for the tv shows. like healing hands! =D

anyway. left for lan kwai fong since it was close to dinner time and both of us were hungry and itching to shop. =D lan kwai fong's like our ms. it's where all the nightlife and pubs are. went exploring and was quite surprised to see not much affordable food places. hmmmz. but chanced upon this place called 老地方. and it's more or less like our 茶餐厅 without the fanciful decor. and so the 2 hungry girls decided to order 3 main courses with drinks. =D what a big mistake. line ordered the dry beef horfun. and i went for my favourite e-fu noodles. and thnking that the portion muz be wuite small and comparable to singapore's normal nasi lemak size. we ordered another claypot curry chicken for sharing.

and this was what came up: (read: the shock of our lives)

and after eating we started walking around and discovered the longest elevator ride ever. from the foot of the hill to the midway. so we happily took it without even considering how are we ever gonna get down. =D and there started out our amazing race 1. to walk to the peak. =D and the smart us actually walked in the opposite direction and landed up behind university of hong kong. hahaha. at like 9plus at night. like filming a drama where 2 girls got lost in the night and thieves suddenly come out to attack them. ha! =D

but the lucky us found a bus stop and with our handy octopus card (similar to our ezlink card) we boarded the bus only aware that it'll bring us down to central. =D

and at central. i finally finally got a close up with my favourite building of all time. the bank of china. =D amazing race 2 and it landed me near it. =D

so we went on to complete our first night with the much awaited tram ride to the peak. =) was quite interesting. especially when the road up was super steep at certain points. and once we reach the peak. it was so chilly. like seriously. =X but was shiok la. and the view. man. breathtaking is the only word i would use. and we took one of the last train back to other hotel.

breakfast on the 2nd day was the best ever. dim sum dim sum dim sum! and it only cost us S$20 each for that number of dishes that we had. it was more than worth it. take a look! =D

off to the avenue of stars in search of handprints and the feel of stardom! =D and you know why that pic i was squatting down with the handprint? coz it's of andy lau's! and it happens that there were christmas trees there for people to hang their wishes on. and not wanting to miss out the fun. we did the same. =) guess what's my wish? =) (hint: something that i have been wishing all along but will not happen.)

and after that was the start of amazing race 3. we wanted to go repulse bay i think. in the end guess where we landed up at? non other than stanley market. it's somewhat similar to our holland v. with all those small small stores. we didn't eat there. only there to enjoy the sights. and i bought a sweater with a hood for like S$10 lo! =D and there was a mini-beach where i think they filmed the pilot show there. =)

dinner was fast food as usual. forgot the name of the place. but it's like carl's junior. big portions of food. what more can i say? =D

a few pics of our best buyings. my gloves and line's boots. =D

third day was disneyland and since we were staying at the disney hollywood hotel (too poor to afford to stay at disneyland hotel) we get to play for 2 days in disneyland. the hotel was a refreshing change from ymca. definitely. =D and we went over to disneyland (and spent a bomb!) =D let the pics do the talking and for me to take a break. =D rides. food. float. fireworks and us trying to be funny by sitting in baby chairs! =D eating orange ice in the lobby watching cartoons was an entertainment in itself. and the shows in our rooms were damn good. csi and cartoons! =D and supper was cup noodles lo. =D

next day was back to the dreary ymca and out to lantau we are almost immediately. to visit the buddha and the cable car! we-ll. first is tummy time at food republic at ngong ping. yes you saw correctly. food republic. =D food was ok. but ex. singapore's much better. 'nuff said. adn while we were eating we saw people form tvb filming. so exciting! =D and the various outlet shops caught our attention and we spent our time shopping. saw this very pretty roxy skirt which i tried on. but man. it was waaaaaay too short. i don't like. so we went esprit and did some window shopping and a bit of real shopping. and i tried on a few clothes before settling on the final buy. a nice nice skirt. =D shopping took up so much time till the point that when we reach the buddha (read: 45 mins bus ride) it was 6 plus but it was like sin's 10 plus. no pics! =X upsetted.

so we rushed downhill and to disneyland for one more round of fireworks! =) the disney train was soooo cool! mickey mickey mickey!

shopped a bit at argyle centre at mongkok and bought another round of clothes! =D dinner was at bistro delifrance near lady street. and it was ok. but my pasta has too much foreign objects for my liking. =X bought drinks and biscuits for next day's breakfast from 7-eleven. =D

tried our luck on day 4 for the buddha and this time round we really took a lot of photos! =D went po lin monestry too. burned incense. gave prayers and had a hearty vegetarian lunch. =D too bad the cable car was under maintenance. =X when we were so looking forward to it. =X

went up to the peak again to catch the sunset. and for the wax museum. time for pics to do the talking again! =D

the symphony of lights was nothing fantastic. a real disappointment in fact from what i expected. =X

last meal in hong kong was eaten at spaghetti house at argyle centre and it was ok la.

and a last few shots before coming home.

tell me i love hong kong! =D

now onto sha's birthday. happy belated birthday girl! now you're 21 already! and the celebration was nothing fantastic but a cosy gathering of her friends. =D i like the feeling very much. =D and i caught up with herma too. =D she's back with madi. really happy for them.

and dini's birthday juz passed too. had it at pizza hut with the usual amount of food we can pile on and on to jp's mccafe to chill and for twister fries too! =D

christmas dinner was spent with beloved and mummy at causeway point's jack's place. dumb dumb 15 years' friend couldn't join us. =X but the fun was in the meal and the presents and the catching up itself. =D my kinda gathering.

went disney naturally at anchorpoint with beloved that day. maybe coz i missing disneyland too much. the food's ok. nothing fantastic and on the ex side (budget: S$20 per head for juz a drink and 1 pizza) but i guess it was in the whole dining experience with the movies showing (think ratatouille and high school musical). the computer terminals with disny games to play and mickey mouse shaped pizzas! =D and the place juz made me feel like a little girl all over again. =D

random happy pics of work and dinner with marissa. boon siang. kanglin. dini and peishan at makanshiok's zi char. with the usual ordering of food. =D chilli crab la. sambal kangkong. hotplate beancurd. and so on... =D

went out with 15 years' friend and beloved 2 nights ago after my closing. =) for ba chor mee and the suddenly craving for fluffly made us drive all the way out to wcp for it. and had fun laughing and chatting. =D

new year was spent sitting in store and doing count down. while facing my crew schedule. how sad can life get rightz?

work's alright ba. coz i guess after breaking down so many times for that stupid bitch is so not worth it. learning to be strong and stand up for what i think is right. =D love my crew and riders! =D

ps. guess how long i took to complete this blog with all the uploading and writing with dinner inclusive? 8 hours! blearghz. killer killer.