hee. i had good food for the past few days. going to al-azah at bukit timah with auntie norsiah. syakila. nadiah. zul. hafiz. kanglin. dini. peishan. then to suki yatai at waterloo street with couzin and to tom's palette at shaw leisure gallery again for their ice cream. =D

i seriously think if i continue on like this i'm gonna get fat! =) and there's more good food at hong kong and macau next month too! =)

anyway. here's some delightful food to share! =D

here's my 2 lovers and i at al-azah:

there's the sweet and sour sotong. this was a dish that i enjoyed most during dinner. the gravy was juz tangy enough to bring out that ooomph in you. =) but i guess if you apply the gravy to lalas. whoa! it would be out of this world!

then there was the spicy beef and egg with onions. i didn't try the egg. coz i simply detest onions. =X but the beef was alright. but was really hot and spicy! the meat itself was tender enough. not overcooked at all. =)

and there was the mixed tom yam soup and kang kong belachan. the tom yam smelt spicy from where i sat. so no. i didn't attempt to poison mydelf with it. =D kanglin was like fanning herself after drinking one sip from it and it got me and dini laughing. =D the kang kong was good. perhaps coz it was cut into smaller pieces. unlike those at other places where it was all long and tangly. =) it made life easier for me at least. =)

this pic is taken quite badly coz of the lighting. the people there simply refused to turn on the lights even though that area we were sitting at was quite packed. =X but this was supposed to be the hot plate beancurd. i didn't get to taste the beancurd coz there were so many of us sharing. but the gravy and the mushrooms. the eggs. they were all good. =) yummy!

after that we went over to kap for dessert and some fries. and then i went back to store. =) what happened in store was a happy memory. coz it made me feel thankful again as to how much we've come so far as a team. =D and we were juz sitting outside and chatting for like 1 hour. and laughing our heads off at certain descriptions. =D

the day before i finally met up with couzin again. =D after so long! hahaha. so in order to compensate me. he did the research and off we were to look for good food and interesting places to visit. =D

what i didn't expect was that i had to climb moutains that day. and it wasn't juz one mountain. but 2. my tian. he was like attempting murder on me siaz.

that was the loooooong flight of steps that we took to reach the first mountain. mt sophia. =X

we visited the old school where there were a lot of art studios and this restaurant called recess over there. the place was really peaceful and i juz felt a sense of detachment from the outside world. =) the most interesting tenant there would be this place called sinema. a place that specializes in singapore productions. be it films. books. fashion. as long as it's singaporean. =) and being such a good talker as he usually is. couzin managed to get us to an inside view of their cinema. it's not very big. but it definitely felt very exclusive. and the sofas were damn nice. =) they have yet to start screening films. but they will be officially open to the public on 12 dec. =D at least that's what i remembered. think i'll go back again when more tenants move in and when the sinema starts screening local films. =) anyone interested? =)

then there was another daunting journey to mt emily. =D hahaha. i think we are nutz. but never mind. i like this nutty feeling. =) we passed by mt emily park where we spent a good half hour or so there. at the playground. yepz. at the playground. you heard me right. =)

there were families there with the kids and the sand was really clean and white. simply picture perfect. so i couldn't resist taking a picture. =D

playing on the swings with couzin and with him pushing me made me feel like a kid all over again. damn it though coz i was in a skirt. but ah well. who carez? =P and we tried standing on the see-saw and doing our own balancing act. =) hahaha. i think we really looked like 2 overgrown kids. =D

we tried to find 139 selegie. but no matter how we walked we juz couldn't find it. =X so to perhaps to comfort ourselves we ducked into this pastry shop along mackenzie. and man. the soya beancurd tart was good! the crust was thin yet crispy. and the filling tasted juz like soya beancurd. yummy-licious!

and there was this hidden find at waterloo centre. blk 264 i think. waterloo street. this stall called suki yatai. judging from the name it serves jap food la. =) it was good and cheap. although they supposedly close at 8pm. and we were there at 9pm we still got our food. coz the boss recognized couzin ma. he went racky that day i think. =D hahaha.

and i ordered the oxtail set with the miso soup and rice. S$6.50 only! =D what a catch! the beef was really tender. and the soup was nicely seasoned. not too salty like sakae sushi and all. really good. =) i really enjoyed my oxtail. =) and there was more to come!

a closer look at my mouth-watering oxtail. =D

couzin had the sashimi with rice thingy. i don't know the exact name though. paiseh la. coz he doesn't take beef. =)
and there was the plate of S$3.50 sashimi that was so fresh that it was really felt that the slices of salmon could juz break under the grip of the chopsticks. sedap siaz! =)

and on the house was the pickled baby octopus. and a small bowl of red wine. hahaha. yes. you saw right. RED WINE. hahaha. i think my couzin may be too charming already. hence the special treatment. =D our first taste of red wine at a commercial setting. =)

and then i brought couzin over to shaw lesure gallery for ice cream. at tom's palette again. =) this time i had the mango and granny's favourite while he had the summer berries and rum and raisin. i didn't take the risk of taking the rum and raisin coz i was working morning the next day. so i was afraid that i would conk out totally. but stole a bite from couzin's. and it was really rum-my. =) his summer berries was real sour though refreshing. but i prefer the sour-ness of my mango over his berries. and he kept taking bites out of mine. =( the granny's favourite is quite alright though not really my thing coz of the cocoa and dough in it. the mango holds the top position currently. =)

and some tid-bit we picked up. do you know in order to make the ice cream they uses 3 machines? that tom is not the name of the owner. but a friend who didn't think the owner could go far making ice creams? and that they are a couple who owns the parlour. but i can't recall their names now. and there are really weird flavours available. like pisang with walnuts. something close to jackfruit. and a flavour that has chilli padi in it?!? man. that is some kind of ice cream palour!

as usual we caught up with each other lives and all. though the next meeting will only be in jan coz we'll be in different countries next month. he'll be back on the 20th. and i'll only be back on the 22th. =( upsetting.

but i can't remember when did i tell him we'll go desaru together. hmmmz. stm. damn. but i wanna go perhentian islands. heard from him that it was really good. and cheap. =) so told him maybe can go next year lo. juz that we'll both be very busy. him with school. me with work. =X perhaps somewhere between 1st to 7th jan ba. hmmmz.

and i managed to get someone to give me morning call the next day. hahaha. =D

we-ll. sharon has officially resigned. and ziana by the end of this month. hui koon's coming over. and perhaps allan for 1 month's attachment. haiz. i don't know how the crew and riders will adapt to them. but i'll definitely miss the teamwork ann. sharon. ziana. peishan and i shared. =(

new management. new problems will arise. i juz hope that i'll be ready when the time comes. anything happens at least i know i have a group of close friends at work i can fall back on.

thank you to them. =)

ps. karin's back in singapore and i'm meeting her tmr!!! =D

"I am no artist; I do not paint my emotion in the colour of pastels.
I am no maestro; I do not convey thought through the conduction of song or choir.

My profienecy lies in the mundane medium of words, so let me give voice to my gratitude on the canvas of parchment, penned in the hue of pure prose.

Your help alone would command an ocean of my platitudes, but there is so much more of you that deserves my thanks.

Such as the hope that you have gifted me with in my greatest hour of need, at a time when Fate itself seemed to conspire against my every endeavour.

Hope springs eternal, they say. And it is this heated brand that thaws the numbing chill of defeat. A pilgrim can draw strength from the light of a lone candle, even if this taper's glow be made wan and guttering by the howl of a hurricane wind. The wine of hope could soothe even a soul savaged by life's dark trials, and it is a cooling salve that would seal even the deepest wounds.

And I thank you for the hope that you have given me, although the most ornate of words could never hope to carry the weight of my meaning. I mean this as a mere token of my appreciation, a flimsy fragment of the debt that I owe your kindness.

Years from now, may my words bring a smile to your lips as you gaze upon the well-meaninged rambles of a life that you have touched.

May your life be forever filled with the radiance of rainbows."

i happened to chance upon this piece of prose as i juz reached home after going to ikea with my 2 lovers. and you know how did this well-written piece catch my attention? coz it seemed like it was written in a hurry and it was juz sticking out from the thick stack of recycled paper. and unsurprisingly. there is only one person in my family who could ever be capable of using such vibrant and vivid diction. my brother.

the sentence which led me to finish reading this piece was none other than the first statement:"i am no artist; i do not paint my emotion in the colour of pastels."

an impressive read after so many years of leaving literature behind. so juz thought i'll share it online. =)

accompanied boon siang to his wsq on wed. after working for like 5 days straight. sighz. i feel lousy as a trainer. coz he failed. i don't blame him. he's a night crew forced to go for the wsq that tests on breakfast stuff as well. i'm quite pissed at maha actually. coz she never even teach him and juz put his name down. i juz thank god that at least brother was very initiative. taking his own time out to come and learn from ziana and me. haiz.

but that day was well spent. coz although he failed. marissa and i were there with him. then we went over to jurong point to have lunch and to meet kanglin. =D


we had a blast that day. having lunch at banquet while eyeing all those people walking around. =) saw david and serene. ann nee. rina and joanne. hahaha.


then off to the arcade to kill some time before the start of the movie. =) puzzle bubbles. time crisis. daytona. basketball. =)


and bee movie was the choice. =) it wasn't like totally fantastic. but ok lo. it's an animation after all. what can one expect? =) and with nachos and popcorn. i think the 4 of us are getting fat. =) and he called. =) hahaha.

worked for another day before my much deserved rest of 4 days straight. =) and i did a mean thing. i block certain calls. from certain irritants. =D


friday and saturday was spent at beloved's house with her couzin and bro. playing squash. pool. jingle. watching a bit of tv before starting on our maple marathon. =D


we were busy healing zombie lupins and getting enough cursed dolls for beloved's quests. =) 2000 to be exact. =) and she leveled up. =) that's us sitting at the departmental store in ellinia. =) i still think we look cute. =D

lunch the next day was at creation cafe at shaw leisure gallery followed by dessert at tom's palette. lunch was fine. certain worth the money's worth.


the place was not fantastic. juz your usual table and chairs. a place that reminded me of couzin though. =D but the set menu at S$11.20 per set consisting of a soup. a main. a drink was good. drinks are standard. coke. sprite and ice lemon tea for us. =)

soup of the day was unfortunately my detested cream of broccoli. but there weren't other choice. why do i say my detested? coz i dislike broccoli. =X eew. =X but thank god this soup was creamy enough to cover all the taste and smell of the broccoli. =) the unique thing would be that teh soup was served in a slightly deep plate. rather than bowl.

we ordered a side of potato wedges as well. coming at S$4.30 a basket it was crispy on the outisde and piping hot on the inside.

beloved had their salmon alfredo.

beloved's brother had their cabonara.

and being a tomato-based person. i went for their seafood marinara. hmmmz. what i can say is that this is a a cheaper alternative to pastamania's pasta and sides. the marinara looked small on such a big plate. but it was filling nonetheless. with seafood consisting of mussel. prawns. scallops. salmon. sotong. you could say it's a variety of seafood although in small portions. but still yummy. =D

dessert was ice cream at tom's palette. the selection wasn't fanstastic but the service is really thumbs up! they were friendly. offering you samples of their ice cream without being asked. and they were definitely not pushy. =D after standing in front of the selection like for 5 mins. i decided on the cinnamon-based apple pie and oreo cheese flavours. it is S$4 for a large cup. quite worth it in my point of view. especially when you get 2 flavours in a cup. the ice cream were unique. different in their tastes. but good for the price. =)

went sim lim for some shopping and to bukit timah hawker centre for food. i didn't buy. but there are some dishes that i would die for there. the satay bee hoon for one. =)


supper was my bro's treat. at 2am in the morning. we made our way to mac at fajar. =) and satisfied our hunger. =) and chatted a while before going to the fitness corner for some pull ups (him. not me!) and then home for more maple. =) and i synthesized my arc staff! like finally. =)


today is spent parking myself in front of the com. =) surfing and mapling. =) tmr will be my day out with couzin. =D so looking forward to it. haven't met up with him for a month le. =) not sure where to for dinner. but still. =)



and i'm going to chiong my rented dvds later. 不能说的秘密. yours mine and ours. and the art of seduction. =)


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work has been a killer. so much that while talking to adeq that day i cried. i didn't mean to. but i guess it's no use hiding how i'm feeling towards work any more.


i'm still here coz of the crew and the riders. definitely not for the management team. excluding sis and cl that is.

i alwayz wonder how much one can take. till now i still don't have any answers to it.


have busied myself in focusing on the collage for jie. getting all the pics of the crew and riders. i missed out one or two. but there is really no way i can take their pic. =( here's sharing some of my favourite few out of the lot:

ha! i finally put up a main pic although it isn't that sharp and all. and i finally figured out how to insert the title! =D

juz came back from supper with bro at mac. =) hahaha. we are 2 hungry fellows.

got my arc staff after so long. =)

stayed over at beloved's house for maple and fun. =D

shall update again soon! why? coz i'm busy writing reviews on http://www.hungrygowhere.com/! =D

hi all. please juz bear with the lack of pictures at the main display. i'm still in the midst of collaging certain pics together. =D will put it up soon. thankz! =D

in the midst of burning my thousand and one photos and videos during the afternoon. i came across so much memories that were lost over the years.

in particular pics at the zoo with gerald. beloved and many years' friend.
pics of the ig taken at the fish market and giraffe.
hong kong cafe and marina haunts with yinyee.
mac's crew outing photos over the years that i've been working.

sometimes i wish that i have the time to actually make the photos into a collage. a collage of beautiful memories. memories that will stand the test of time. i love making collages! =) ha. random blurting of sentences again. sorry. =D

my phone lcd screen was having some problem. bluish tinge to it. so sent it for servicing. and the bad news was that all the 100 msgs that were inside will all be wiped out after i get it back. booie! ="(

lovely lovely msgs from so many people that made me smile when i was feeling down. i simply hate losing msges. letters. pics. photos. blearghz. i remember what lover told me once. that no matter how i am feeling. there are alwayz others out there for me. and that i look the best smiling like this =D! =)

had a good day yest even though i went store to teach brother his wsq stuff. coz kanglin. marissa. dini and i spent a lot of time giggling and laughing away at ourselves and at each other. and it felt good when the 4 of us were sitting there and peishan and boon siang came over at times to disturb. =) it was a nice cosy homey feeling that i never felt for so long at work.

and it made me recall a picture of another day after work. as i was walking to the bus stop. the riders were all crowded around irwan's bike. frankie. raziff. rasid. irwan. elias. dan was on the phone near the stairs. saleem was parking his bike. they were juz standing there chatting. it was a sight that warmed my heart too.

there are reasons that make me wanna leave store. but there are reasons that are keeping me grounded too. although if the chance presents itself. i will grab it. i know i disappointed da jie very badly. coz she called and talked to me. an usually busy da jie took time out to call me. it reminded myself of the last time i made her this disappointed. that was when i told her i wanna leave with hun loon three and a half years' ago. i still have that picture painted vividly in my mind. the look on her face when i told her i wanna leave.

sighz. juz when i thought i could brace my heart for the next round of attack. i go out and make myself all soft again. sometimes it made me really hate myself. why should i falter in my decision-making when i already convinced myself that the decision is right?

i don't understand myself at all. am i really that unpredictable at times? i surprise myself at times too.

one year on and i still miss her... sighz.

i have finally succumbed to the stress. the frustration. the virus.
i cried for the things and people i will lose and have lost.
am officially declared sick and on mc for 2 days.
i hope i will never get well coz getting well will mean that the end of the the month is approaching and once again i will be left alone after 3 years of fun and joy spent at work.
i dread the end of the month. i dread the end of the year.
i simply dread the feeling of being alone all over again.
i dread the coldness of it all.