hahaha. new template. coz the old one doesn't work. still happy. =) gotta run. meeting daddy!~ =)

hello!~ i'm finally back to blogging again. =) after so long rightz?~ but i am so happy too. =) very very very very happy. i think everyone will think that i am crazy but i am lorz. =) and yes darling. i'm really happy. =) still am. =)

ok. updates first. =)

school: still nothing yet. =) coz SIP haven't start yet. 23rd will be my first day. =) kinda looking forward to it since i'll be working in an environment i enjoy. but then. i'm quite afraid of the outcome too. coz it's a place i kinda grew up in. i have no idea how and what they will think. but so far so good i guess. it could be worse too. but this's life. =) so we shall have to see how it all goes on my first day then i'll conclude ba. at least i don't need to start all over again. =)

work: things are alright lahz. but i'm gonna miss doing opening. transition. filtering. =( 3 more days of being a crew. =( ~*sobz*~ it's been 1 year. 5 months and 16 days of being a crew so far. and damn. i only got to know most of the youngsters better during this year. sometimes i wonder how come i didn't learn to juz enjoy all your company back then. =( hmmmz. but i do now. all my 7 flowers and tree branch and tree trunk. =) hahaha. the most recent memory would be that of us at peiwen's house for the bbq. =) so happening saiz. hahaha. i really enjoyed myself that night. tons and tons. let's do it again next time kz?~ =)

da jie has left store le. was intially very upset over it. but in this industry. people will come and go too. juz like one day i may leave jscc too. but managed to go find her that day at gek poh and met up with her for dinner yesterday night with gerald. =) really so happy to see her yet again. =) we met her at 530pm like that and only left mos burger at 8pm?~ hahaha. the whole dinner was funny in itself. =) or maybe it's juz me?~ =)

before that went out with gerald to watch movie. amityville horror. and yarz. i still can't seem to pronounce the title kz?~ and i never like to watch horror shows lorz. although this wasn't as bad as what i've heard about house of wax. =x but if you still wanna go watch horror shows next time. please be prepared to hear me scream kz?~ =) although i didn't scream yesterday. hahaha. =)

yepz. then went for the dinner. i don't know how you felt or whether da jie did mention anything to you in particular. she knew about all my past too. that's why she said some of the things that she did. hmmmz. =) but she made me think too. a lot. but like what i told you. we tend to think too much. =) can't help it lahz. tell you something else too kz?~ there were certain things she said that makes sense too. =) maybe it's juz my emotions taking over me but i almost wanted to juz cry then. don't know why too. maybe too much gan dong?~ =l

i never realized that being in a relationship is gonna be like this for me. i never dared to imagine that this day would come after so long and juz when i'm giving up. ha. =) but yeah. =) and 7 months is not considered a struggle. so don't think that way kz darling?~ not your fault that you didn't know either. i juz never thought that i should let you know. =) and i guess i freaked you out back then?~ sulan told me that you went to find her too. hahaha. i juz hope you don't care about what they tell you. especially about the 7 months thing. if the feeling's not there anymore juz let me know kz?~ i won' t blame you at all. honest. =) as for the time being now. i'll still stick to my promise of trying to be nicer to you still. hahaha. =)

if only everyday could be lived like yesterday. =) i would die happy. =) i used to keep counting the days that passed since i ever liked a person. but i guess i'm over the phase le. no more counting. =) i'm gonna live everyday like it's the last i'll be spending with you. don't worry about not having enough time to spent with me. =) i'm happy with the way things are. =)

i really treasured all the moments we spent together. whether you realize it or not. =) i keep remembering things that happened before i like you. when i like you but you didn't know. and things that are happening to me now.

and i guess i've grown too. in one way or another. like i could never say it out to guys about my past. coz i never know how's the reaction gonna be. but darling. =) i never expected your reaction to be as such. =) hahaha. =)

i know this's gonna be a long blog. but juz let me keep on ranting for a while more kz?~ =)

yesterday night is the best ever. =) i know you muz have been tired but you still kept me company. =) and listened to me talk. hahaha. =)

and i've made up my mind. i'm gonna tell my mummy about us soon. i don't wanna keep this a secret from her. i wanna be able to tell her that i'm going out with you when we do go out and not lie to her at all. i wanna be able to tell her the truth. when i tell her le i'll let you know kz?~ =) i'm crossing my fingers and hoping that it's gonna be good news. ~*cross fingerz*~

is this what love does to a person?~ hmmmz. =) am still on my way of finding out. =)

darling. do take carez of yourself kz?~ don't overwork yourself yarz?~ and sleep earlier!~ alwayz watch tv until so late. =( never die before izzit?~ =)

alrighty. will try to blog more often. maybe together during the submission of my e-journals for SIP. =)

take carez everyone. =)

- the world is your oyster. so spent it the way you want it. never live your life full of regrets. -