ha!~
i'm hungry. so i changed my pic at the top. =)
anyone who knows the code for lime green or can give me a crash course on creating my own blogskin. please approach me.
i need help!~ =)
your kindness is greatly appreciated!~ =)
ha!~
Friday, December 30, 2005
haiz. am in school for meetings. yet there are all cancelled. when i'm already in school. thank god i brouht things to do. otherwise i will so kill myself over it. =) i finished a couple of things within an hour so i'm quite proud of myself. =) yeah!~ =)
xmas was so-so. i was working. as usual. what's new rightz?~ =) but i like the prezzie gerald gave me. =) shall keep it a secret till i can upload the pics to my blog. =)
yesh!~ chinese new year is coming!!!~ =) so looking forward to it coz i'm finally going to drive!~ darling's helping me to book a car during that first day so i'm going to drive my family around!~ =) although my parents have license too. =) i LOVE my license.
the license to drive.
just like the license to kill.
hahaha. crazy!~
no lahz. other reasons i'm looking forward to next year is my graduation from TP. that BITCH is finally getting transferred out of my store. =) working life!~ (so i can get a car lahz. =))
but after working with the BITCH for like 4 months?~ i question my own intentions of continuing my career with mac. should i stay on because i love my job?~ or leave coz i hate the fact that the new managers are all so hypocritical people. people who are so fake and say different things to people. and pushes the blame away.
let me say this.
i want to stay on in this line yet i can't stand people who shrinks away from responsibility. don't ask me to sit on them . like you can't stand so you sit?!?~ =) hahaha. lame!~ =) whatever. roll your eyes people!~ =)
yarz. anyway. aiyarz. i feel like working in the zoo with my ex-colleagues. =( but NOT as a zookeeper kz?!?~ i know what you guys are thinking. =) but more of operations of the zoo. =) i love aninals. people and operations. so why not rightz?~ i'm waiting for my friend to get back to me about it. =)
that BITCH is finally leaving!~ =) this year haven't been as fruiful as the last as i had less commitments and all. but it's still an enjoyable year. =) minus the BITCH. =)
maybe i'll stay on at mac after all. i mean. i enjoy working here. so why should i leave because some small fry made me upset rightz?~ =)
oh well. =)
i'm going to stop here and get back to my semester paper before i get kiiled when i can't hand up on time. =)
ciaoz!~ =)
xmas was so-so. i was working. as usual. what's new rightz?~ =) but i like the prezzie gerald gave me. =) shall keep it a secret till i can upload the pics to my blog. =)
yesh!~ chinese new year is coming!!!~ =) so looking forward to it coz i'm finally going to drive!~ darling's helping me to book a car during that first day so i'm going to drive my family around!~ =) although my parents have license too. =) i LOVE my license.
the license to drive.
just like the license to kill.
hahaha. crazy!~
no lahz. other reasons i'm looking forward to next year is my graduation from TP. that BITCH is finally getting transferred out of my store. =) working life!~ (so i can get a car lahz. =))
but after working with the BITCH for like 4 months?~ i question my own intentions of continuing my career with mac. should i stay on because i love my job?~ or leave coz i hate the fact that the new managers are all so hypocritical people. people who are so fake and say different things to people. and pushes the blame away.
let me say this.
i want to stay on in this line yet i can't stand people who shrinks away from responsibility. don't ask me to sit on them . like you can't stand so you sit?!?~ =) hahaha. lame!~ =) whatever. roll your eyes people!~ =)
yarz. anyway. aiyarz. i feel like working in the zoo with my ex-colleagues. =( but NOT as a zookeeper kz?!?~ i know what you guys are thinking. =) but more of operations of the zoo. =) i love aninals. people and operations. so why not rightz?~ i'm waiting for my friend to get back to me about it. =)
that BITCH is finally leaving!~ =) this year haven't been as fruiful as the last as i had less commitments and all. but it's still an enjoyable year. =) minus the BITCH. =)
maybe i'll stay on at mac after all. i mean. i enjoy working here. so why should i leave because some small fry made me upset rightz?~ =)
oh well. =)
i'm going to stop here and get back to my semester paper before i get kiiled when i can't hand up on time. =)
ciaoz!~ =)
Friday, December 16, 2005
i miss:
marcus(medium)
nick
jeff
jacky
marcus(small)
xavier
christine
shinmin
kian hwee...
hmmmz. all the regular customers i met and know through work.
i really miss seeing them and talking to them.
i met kian hwee at jp's interchange and it was a nice feeling to see him.
same goes for marcus who shouted my name over the counter into the manager room that day when he came and got some food. =)
it's a nice feeling.
marcus(medium)
nick
jeff
jacky
marcus(small)
xavier
christine
shinmin
kian hwee...
hmmmz. all the regular customers i met and know through work.
i really miss seeing them and talking to them.
i met kian hwee at jp's interchange and it was a nice feeling to see him.
same goes for marcus who shouted my name over the counter into the manager room that day when he came and got some food. =)
it's a nice feeling.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
haiz. i'm so tired. i'm falling asleep on buses again and am nodding off now while trying to keep myself awake while waiting for my lecture to start at 6pm. sianzation.
was spending time thinking about my past again yesterday. i mean. it's like i was on the bus with nothing to do except to stone and keep myself awake. so i started to let my thoughts wander.
i thought back to the days in crez. my memorable first 3 months in ji. and how i'm gonna miss of the htm peepz once i graduate.
4 years have passed since i first stepped into crez. 4 good years i've spent there. laughing and crying my heart out with my friends. it's never the same again. although we still meet up from time to time. it's really different. circumstances have changed all of us and the way we behave and look at things. i could still remember snapshots of the time i spent there.
sec 1: going to take neo prints like they're free of charge. wearing our uniforms so nerdly. is there such a word as nerdly? =)
sec 2: knowing what it was like to love someone and get hurt like shit in return. ha. the 45 minutes laughing session we had outside the com lab in the evening with puimun, kaiting, vivien, shujun and some others. and laughing till i think all of us lost weight that very night. =)
sec 3: knowing sam and vidz and bel and the crazy bunch of them. hahaha. sitting next to vidz was pure madness. we were made to stand during class cozwe laughed too much. she's a councillor and she had to stand with the treasurer. how funny rightz? hahaha. we stood for half an hour i think. izzit? we stand and still continued laughing along the way. hahaha. and liking someone all over again. ah. that was painful. coz not only did i lose a friendship by the end of the year. i seem to have lost part of myself. smiling was a painful thing in itself. much less laughing.
sec 4: the year of subway. =) subway was my way of life. regardless of lunch or dinner. after school yinyee and i will just date each other and head down to orchard hotel. =) it was a nice place to chill and where many a time we spent laughing over silly matters and talking out hearts out. people thought we were together. but no. we were not. =) we were juz very good friends although i did something really stupid again. but so did she. =)
3 months in ji: fantastic. i never knew i could have so much fun even though i was 'grown up'. =) all the friends and classmates i had were a wonderful bunch. my og's' haha' girls had fun at escape on valentine's day. all 7 of us girls. =) and there was a class outing after we stepped into poly. with my class. at seoul garden. where else rightz? there's like hungry ghosts out there so what we needed was FOOD! =) i think stew's lameness has rubbed off me. oh no. =)
poly: it's been great all the while. meeting new people. learning to be more independent. and to be crazy! rightz lydz? but i'll really miss everyone. the 15 of us who went shopping crazy in hong kong and all the classmates and group mates i've been working with. not forgetting my ig clique. my beloved. hahaha. and sjcc too. all the friends i've made from shatec are not forgotten either.
hmmmz. after laughing with lydia next to me. i feel so much more alive and HUNGRY! hahaha.
was spending time thinking about my past again yesterday. i mean. it's like i was on the bus with nothing to do except to stone and keep myself awake. so i started to let my thoughts wander.
i thought back to the days in crez. my memorable first 3 months in ji. and how i'm gonna miss of the htm peepz once i graduate.
4 years have passed since i first stepped into crez. 4 good years i've spent there. laughing and crying my heart out with my friends. it's never the same again. although we still meet up from time to time. it's really different. circumstances have changed all of us and the way we behave and look at things. i could still remember snapshots of the time i spent there.
sec 1: going to take neo prints like they're free of charge. wearing our uniforms so nerdly. is there such a word as nerdly? =)
sec 2: knowing what it was like to love someone and get hurt like shit in return. ha. the 45 minutes laughing session we had outside the com lab in the evening with puimun, kaiting, vivien, shujun and some others. and laughing till i think all of us lost weight that very night. =)
sec 3: knowing sam and vidz and bel and the crazy bunch of them. hahaha. sitting next to vidz was pure madness. we were made to stand during class cozwe laughed too much. she's a councillor and she had to stand with the treasurer. how funny rightz? hahaha. we stood for half an hour i think. izzit? we stand and still continued laughing along the way. hahaha. and liking someone all over again. ah. that was painful. coz not only did i lose a friendship by the end of the year. i seem to have lost part of myself. smiling was a painful thing in itself. much less laughing.
sec 4: the year of subway. =) subway was my way of life. regardless of lunch or dinner. after school yinyee and i will just date each other and head down to orchard hotel. =) it was a nice place to chill and where many a time we spent laughing over silly matters and talking out hearts out. people thought we were together. but no. we were not. =) we were juz very good friends although i did something really stupid again. but so did she. =)
3 months in ji: fantastic. i never knew i could have so much fun even though i was 'grown up'. =) all the friends and classmates i had were a wonderful bunch. my og's' haha' girls had fun at escape on valentine's day. all 7 of us girls. =) and there was a class outing after we stepped into poly. with my class. at seoul garden. where else rightz? there's like hungry ghosts out there so what we needed was FOOD! =) i think stew's lameness has rubbed off me. oh no. =)
poly: it's been great all the while. meeting new people. learning to be more independent. and to be crazy! rightz lydz? but i'll really miss everyone. the 15 of us who went shopping crazy in hong kong and all the classmates and group mates i've been working with. not forgetting my ig clique. my beloved. hahaha. and sjcc too. all the friends i've made from shatec are not forgotten either.
hmmmz. after laughing with lydia next to me. i feel so much more alive and HUNGRY! hahaha.
Friday, December 09, 2005
hahaha. i traded in my phone yest. and went to buy a second hand one. but it's a flip phone so i'm happy. =)
hmmmz. school's been alright. juz busy with projects and the open house programs. cracking my head over survey questions. =( work's been the same i guess. nothing new. at least not till the new products come running through the door. =)
other than that. my life's been quite monotonous. eat sleep school.
going for my driving test (FINALLY!~) this coming mon. hope it'll all go well. can't wait for the hols when i can get at least a bit of a breather. =)
hmmmz. school's been alright. juz busy with projects and the open house programs. cracking my head over survey questions. =( work's been the same i guess. nothing new. at least not till the new products come running through the door. =)
other than that. my life's been quite monotonous. eat sleep school.
going for my driving test (FINALLY!~) this coming mon. hope it'll all go well. can't wait for the hols when i can get at least a bit of a breather. =)
Monday, December 05, 2005
hmmmz. sometimes i feel i'm out of touch with my friends. it's like i don't seem to understand their way of thinking anymore. they can go all out for others without sparing a thought for those who still love them so much.
i hate seeing my friends cry over someone whom i personally feel are not worthy of thier tears since they were hurt by that some people. hate it hate it hate it!~ =(
no brains one lehz this people. arrghz.
i love going to my cousin's wedding at the hyatt that day. so pretty!!!~ =) then i saw my eye candy too. and he came to talk to me too. =) hee. darling don't get jealous kz?~
alright. gonna go for my project meeting. stupid cpm. haiz.
=)
i hate seeing my friends cry over someone whom i personally feel are not worthy of thier tears since they were hurt by that some people. hate it hate it hate it!~ =(
no brains one lehz this people. arrghz.
i love going to my cousin's wedding at the hyatt that day. so pretty!!!~ =) then i saw my eye candy too. and he came to talk to me too. =) hee. darling don't get jealous kz?~
alright. gonna go for my project meeting. stupid cpm. haiz.
=)
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
ahhh. finally handed up my SIP portfolio. what a relief.
hahaha. first week back in school after the macau/hong kong trip. =) was fun there. had eggplants every day. XP hahaha. was happy walking around in senado square with waiyee. pris. queen. jennifer. =) bought a new top and skirt there. YES. it's a SKIRT. =) but it's a pretty skirt. =) it's a different place from singapore coz i guess the infracture was different. smoke was everywhere. LITERALLY. fumes and smoke from cigaretts were all around. even in the casinos. =X
the casinos were an eye-opener. different in all 3 that we visited. the first is the famous Casino Lisboa by Dr. Stanley Ho. second was Sands by the Las Vegas company. Steve Wynn. third was a floating casino. i forgot the name but it's one of the oldest in macau. =) interesting in the way the differences are shown. really contrasts aganist each other.
then there was the Fishermen's Wharf. it was definitely more of my cup of tea. and MAN!~ do i love those buildings!~ =) so pretty!~ the british buildings. the rome. the chinese. the vocalno. (although i don't know where that fits in!~) but my tian... ...
Ruins of St. Paul was fantastic. (i think i'm using up all my vocabulary. =)) the view was breath-taking from the top. i took pics from the side. the front. the back. =) and the burial ground was fasicnating although scary too.
And we let off fireworks!~ =) at the ah-ma temple. =) so cool!~ =)
the authentic portuguese dessert was like so. melt in the mouth. imagine evaporated milk. condensed milk and egg white all baeten together and let to freeze in the fridge for 24 hours. will be cut up and served like a cake with crushed cookies bits. Mmmmz... ~*smuckz*~
those were in macau. now hong kong.
ocaen park's new masterplan is unbeliveable. it costs like billions of dollars to come up with it. but it will only be completed in about like 7 years' time?~ but it's so kwel!~ =) was happy to learn that there are coming up with new plans to make the place more alive. =)
seafood dinner at Jumbo Floating Restaurant was the best meal we had had in days. =) NO EGGPLANTs!~ so satisfying. ~*yummy*~
then jiong the night for the nightlife. the shopping!~ the sales people are all very nice but too agressive for my taste. hmmmz. i bought HK$156 worth of chocolates. to keep. =) coz the presentation was great!~ =) so different from ours here. =) we went mong kok shopping centre. nu ren jie. hua yuan jie. I LOVE SHOPPING IN HONG KONG!~
okok. my tummy's calling. gotta do some other stuff first then i'll blog another time.
ciaoz!~ =)
hahaha. first week back in school after the macau/hong kong trip. =) was fun there. had eggplants every day. XP hahaha. was happy walking around in senado square with waiyee. pris. queen. jennifer. =) bought a new top and skirt there. YES. it's a SKIRT. =) but it's a pretty skirt. =) it's a different place from singapore coz i guess the infracture was different. smoke was everywhere. LITERALLY. fumes and smoke from cigaretts were all around. even in the casinos. =X
the casinos were an eye-opener. different in all 3 that we visited. the first is the famous Casino Lisboa by Dr. Stanley Ho. second was Sands by the Las Vegas company. Steve Wynn. third was a floating casino. i forgot the name but it's one of the oldest in macau. =) interesting in the way the differences are shown. really contrasts aganist each other.
then there was the Fishermen's Wharf. it was definitely more of my cup of tea. and MAN!~ do i love those buildings!~ =) so pretty!~ the british buildings. the rome. the chinese. the vocalno. (although i don't know where that fits in!~) but my tian... ...
Ruins of St. Paul was fantastic. (i think i'm using up all my vocabulary. =)) the view was breath-taking from the top. i took pics from the side. the front. the back. =) and the burial ground was fasicnating although scary too.
And we let off fireworks!~ =) at the ah-ma temple. =) so cool!~ =)
the authentic portuguese dessert was like so. melt in the mouth. imagine evaporated milk. condensed milk and egg white all baeten together and let to freeze in the fridge for 24 hours. will be cut up and served like a cake with crushed cookies bits. Mmmmz... ~*smuckz*~
those were in macau. now hong kong.
ocaen park's new masterplan is unbeliveable. it costs like billions of dollars to come up with it. but it will only be completed in about like 7 years' time?~ but it's so kwel!~ =) was happy to learn that there are coming up with new plans to make the place more alive. =)
seafood dinner at Jumbo Floating Restaurant was the best meal we had had in days. =) NO EGGPLANTs!~ so satisfying. ~*yummy*~
then jiong the night for the nightlife. the shopping!~ the sales people are all very nice but too agressive for my taste. hmmmz. i bought HK$156 worth of chocolates. to keep. =) coz the presentation was great!~ =) so different from ours here. =) we went mong kok shopping centre. nu ren jie. hua yuan jie. I LOVE SHOPPING IN HONG KONG!~
okok. my tummy's calling. gotta do some other stuff first then i'll blog another time.
ciaoz!~ =)
Thursday, November 17, 2005
i read this from a friend's blog and felt it was a very touching story...
"There was a girl who liked a boy. The boy liked her too. One day the girl was walking to class and heard someone call her name. When she turned around he was there...
"Wait up!" the boy called. She waited for a few seconds and let him catch up.
"You need something?" the girl asked.
"Yea... a favor." he said.
"Sure what is it?" she asked.
"Go out with me." he said with a gleam in his eyes.
"Ok... sure." she said, secretly jumping with joy.
He walked her to class and kissed her goodbye... then the late bell rang and he sprung down the hall to get to class. He walked her to class every day and kissed her every day and he was with her every chance he got.
Then days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and months turned into a year and he still ran to catch up with her. It was the day of their one year anniversary and he walked her to class and gave her a box and a kiss.
Then he whispered into her ear..."I love you." and left.
The girl opened the gift and it was a ring... a gorgeous ring. That night they were out at dinner to celebrate and all he surprised her again...
"You know how I said that I loved you?" he asked.
"yea?" the girl got really nervous.
"I really do you know I love you."
The girl didn't say anything and she knew he wanted her to say it but she didn't want to seem stupid so she stuffed food in her mouth. He didn't say anything but she could tell he was disappointed. They got done eating and while he was driving her home, at the red light he turned and looked at her...
"Why won't you say you love me? Don't you love me like I love you?" he asked.
The girl didn't know how to say she loved him more than she could imagine but she just didn't know how or when to say it.
"I...I...lov...."
BOOM!!!!!!!!!! A semi had hit the driver side and rammed them right into a lake.The next day the girl awoke and was in the hospital. All she could think about was if he was ok. So the girl got out of her bed and searched for him... but when she found him he was barely alive... seeing the one she loved near death made her drop to her knees and cry...
"I love you...I've loved you since the first day we met. I love you soooo much don't you leave me please don't leave me I need you here... I LOVE YOU!!!!"
With his very last breath he said "I love you too."
Then he was gone. A week later the girl was able to go home but she wasn't ready to face school yet. She went up to her room and found a note inside the ring box. Tears began to fall as she read the note.
It read: "I hope you like this ring. It was my grandma's. She told me to give it to the one I love and well I love you. No matter what happens to me I will always love you. If I died today I want to die knowing you love me... I won't leave this earth without knowing you love me. You're always in my heart forever until the day I die."
"There was a girl who liked a boy. The boy liked her too. One day the girl was walking to class and heard someone call her name. When she turned around he was there...
"Wait up!" the boy called. She waited for a few seconds and let him catch up.
"You need something?" the girl asked.
"Yea... a favor." he said.
"Sure what is it?" she asked.
"Go out with me." he said with a gleam in his eyes.
"Ok... sure." she said, secretly jumping with joy.
He walked her to class and kissed her goodbye... then the late bell rang and he sprung down the hall to get to class. He walked her to class every day and kissed her every day and he was with her every chance he got.
Then days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and months turned into a year and he still ran to catch up with her. It was the day of their one year anniversary and he walked her to class and gave her a box and a kiss.
Then he whispered into her ear..."I love you." and left.
The girl opened the gift and it was a ring... a gorgeous ring. That night they were out at dinner to celebrate and all he surprised her again...
"You know how I said that I loved you?" he asked.
"yea?" the girl got really nervous.
"I really do you know I love you."
The girl didn't say anything and she knew he wanted her to say it but she didn't want to seem stupid so she stuffed food in her mouth. He didn't say anything but she could tell he was disappointed. They got done eating and while he was driving her home, at the red light he turned and looked at her...
"Why won't you say you love me? Don't you love me like I love you?" he asked.
The girl didn't know how to say she loved him more than she could imagine but she just didn't know how or when to say it.
"I...I...lov...."
BOOM!!!!!!!!!! A semi had hit the driver side and rammed them right into a lake.The next day the girl awoke and was in the hospital. All she could think about was if he was ok. So the girl got out of her bed and searched for him... but when she found him he was barely alive... seeing the one she loved near death made her drop to her knees and cry...
"I love you...I've loved you since the first day we met. I love you soooo much don't you leave me please don't leave me I need you here... I LOVE YOU!!!!"
With his very last breath he said "I love you too."
Then he was gone. A week later the girl was able to go home but she wasn't ready to face school yet. She went up to her room and found a note inside the ring box. Tears began to fall as she read the note.
It read: "I hope you like this ring. It was my grandma's. She told me to give it to the one I love and well I love you. No matter what happens to me I will always love you. If I died today I want to die knowing you love me... I won't leave this earth without knowing you love me. You're always in my heart forever until the day I die."
Sunday, September 25, 2005
poison pen writing is only for the lowest of the low. don't understand?~ read more books then.
why be a parasite and feed off people's tag?~ still don't get it?~ check the dictionary.
why attack my true friends when you are so ashamed to even use your own REAL name?~ scared that they will attack you back?~
why do i need your concern?~ the fuckers don't even KNOW me. even if they do so what?~ BIG DEAL. do you think you really know the REAL me?~ what do you know?~
juz to bitch behind people's back. act innocent. act childish. act pathetic. slut around?~ correct me if i'm wrong.
people who have nothing to hide need not stoop so low as to hide your true identity. reveal yourself if you dare.
I DARE YOU TO.
don't like what you read here? FUCK OFF THEN.
and why am i writing this?~
I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYONE WHO HITS OUT AT MY FRIENDS ON MY BLOG.
why be a parasite and feed off people's tag?~ still don't get it?~ check the dictionary.
why attack my true friends when you are so ashamed to even use your own REAL name?~ scared that they will attack you back?~
why do i need your concern?~ the fuckers don't even KNOW me. even if they do so what?~ BIG DEAL. do you think you really know the REAL me?~ what do you know?~
juz to bitch behind people's back. act innocent. act childish. act pathetic. slut around?~ correct me if i'm wrong.
people who have nothing to hide need not stoop so low as to hide your true identity. reveal yourself if you dare.
I DARE YOU TO.
don't like what you read here? FUCK OFF THEN.
and why am i writing this?~
I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYONE WHO HITS OUT AT MY FRIENDS ON MY BLOG.
Monday, September 05, 2005
am i really happy any longer?~ the stress of everything is coming down on me. feels like those days when i was in sjcc and ig. but i managed to balance everything out. so i will be able to do it this time too.
"gone were the days when i was carefree and alone.
nothing could bother me back then.
i had a bunch of good friends who stood by me.
now?~
i'm alone still.
but left to fight this battle on my own.
i don't believe i'll lose it though.
i have enough power and destiny in my hands to control it all.
nobody will get me down.
nobody at all."
i'm done with everything and everyone. down but never giving up.
... ...
i'll be praying for that certain miracle to come where we'll be friends again.
till then. all of you out there. do take carez.
-the best medicine to treat enemies would be to treat them as your best bud and enveloped them with the love and care and concern they've never felt before-
"gone were the days when i was carefree and alone.
nothing could bother me back then.
i had a bunch of good friends who stood by me.
now?~
i'm alone still.
but left to fight this battle on my own.
i don't believe i'll lose it though.
i have enough power and destiny in my hands to control it all.
nobody will get me down.
nobody at all."
i'm done with everything and everyone. down but never giving up.
... ...
i'll be praying for that certain miracle to come where we'll be friends again.
till then. all of you out there. do take carez.
-the best medicine to treat enemies would be to treat them as your best bud and enveloped them with the love and care and concern they've never felt before-
Monday, August 15, 2005
yeah!~ i managed to get back my old blogskin after so long!~ =) happy. overjoyed. =) coz i've alwayz liked the boy boy there. =)
alrighty. time for my updates. =) think a lot of peepz are gonna kill me if i don't update soon. =)
work's been fine. but i'm tired of the place le. think it's time for me to move on?~ can't understand the calculativeness of some of the people there. sick and tired of hearing the same things over and over again. =x i'm gonna miss line when she leaves. =( loss of another good friend like da jie. =(
life's ok. couldn't be better i guess. =) passed my final theory on the first try thankz to my darling who went through the whole book with me the night before. =) today was my first practical lesson. let me tell you guys this. the feeling behind the wheel was soooooo SHIOK!~ =) i was like the greatest person around!~ =) hahaha. =) everyone's learning driving now lehz. like chinwei too. out of the blue siaz. =) so yarz. my books are with him. hope he'll pass on the first try too. =)
been real tired recently. with all the long hours of working and rushing about. =(
let's see. i've became a workaholic. everywhere i go. i'm sure to criticize the service given. opps!~ =) hahaha. =)
hmmmz. more thoughts?~
nothing now. really. juz felt like blogging so i did. =) yepz.
sudden urge to go back school. hmmmz. miss all the canteen food.
seeing twisters fries at work made me think of CNY. and all the happy memories in mac then. rushing to clear crowd with ant and jeff and line back then. the memories i once had but will never be real again. all those times where we could juz all joke around. seems like i've grown apart from all the youngsters since my SIP. you guys said you would be there. WHERE?~ i'm different. yes. that i know. but if you guys wanna talk behind my back. why not juz tell me in my face?~ i miss the time when i stayed behind till closing with the closers. with lee. then learning all the closing for certain stations with a certain fierce chinwei. =) opps!~ =)
haiz. but it's juz memories now. nothing more. nothing for me to hold on to anymore even when i get transferred away. i HOPE i do get transferred. i miss all the huas and jeff and lee and ant. even the scary chinwei. =l
alrighty. time for my updates. =) think a lot of peepz are gonna kill me if i don't update soon. =)
work's been fine. but i'm tired of the place le. think it's time for me to move on?~ can't understand the calculativeness of some of the people there. sick and tired of hearing the same things over and over again. =x i'm gonna miss line when she leaves. =( loss of another good friend like da jie. =(
life's ok. couldn't be better i guess. =) passed my final theory on the first try thankz to my darling who went through the whole book with me the night before. =) today was my first practical lesson. let me tell you guys this. the feeling behind the wheel was soooooo SHIOK!~ =) i was like the greatest person around!~ =) hahaha. =) everyone's learning driving now lehz. like chinwei too. out of the blue siaz. =) so yarz. my books are with him. hope he'll pass on the first try too. =)
been real tired recently. with all the long hours of working and rushing about. =(
let's see. i've became a workaholic. everywhere i go. i'm sure to criticize the service given. opps!~ =) hahaha. =)
hmmmz. more thoughts?~
nothing now. really. juz felt like blogging so i did. =) yepz.
sudden urge to go back school. hmmmz. miss all the canteen food.
seeing twisters fries at work made me think of CNY. and all the happy memories in mac then. rushing to clear crowd with ant and jeff and line back then. the memories i once had but will never be real again. all those times where we could juz all joke around. seems like i've grown apart from all the youngsters since my SIP. you guys said you would be there. WHERE?~ i'm different. yes. that i know. but if you guys wanna talk behind my back. why not juz tell me in my face?~ i miss the time when i stayed behind till closing with the closers. with lee. then learning all the closing for certain stations with a certain fierce chinwei. =) opps!~ =)
haiz. but it's juz memories now. nothing more. nothing for me to hold on to anymore even when i get transferred away. i HOPE i do get transferred. i miss all the huas and jeff and lee and ant. even the scary chinwei. =l
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
hmmmz... how to say lehz?~ i juz deleted my friendster account... saw no point in having one... =)
life's been alright lahz... work sleep eat... nothing else... my off days are spent out catching up with friends... like going to the zoo that day... shiok!~ =) hee... been travelling around singapore in the past few off days too... =)
actually nothing much i wanna say either... maybe not in the mood ba...
ah well... take carez all... =)
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i miss my darling... da jie... daddy... =(
life's been alright lahz... work sleep eat... nothing else... my off days are spent out catching up with friends... like going to the zoo that day... shiok!~ =) hee... been travelling around singapore in the past few off days too... =)
actually nothing much i wanna say either... maybe not in the mood ba...
ah well... take carez all... =)
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i miss my darling... da jie... daddy... =(
Thursday, July 07, 2005
yeah... been so long since i updated here... =) problems with my com and all... so all i could do was reformat the whole darn thing with my darling's help... hahaha... juz got the internet up and running a few minutes ago... =)
okie... here's the dued reflections... =)
school: my tian!~ was soooo good to be back for the classroom session that day and to see everyone else... although nelson wasn't around with his ever crappy jokes... =( went out with jane... cat... fag... marc... leigh to tm's pastamania after that for a chill out session... =) hahaha... need to save money for gold coast le!~ =) yepz... looking forward to the next session in school... too bad mensa wasn't open... =(
work/SIP: ok lahz... tiring but i guess shift's work like this... every off day i have... i'll be sleeping late then going out with people... =)
life in general: couldn't be better... =) serious!~ horz daddy?~ yeah!~ monday we're going to the zoo!~ =) then all the time when we went out together or even when he juz send me home... that's what i call quality time... =) yeah darling... =)
alrighty... short short blog... gotta run... see ya guys around!~ =)
okie... here's the dued reflections... =)
school: my tian!~ was soooo good to be back for the classroom session that day and to see everyone else... although nelson wasn't around with his ever crappy jokes... =( went out with jane... cat... fag... marc... leigh to tm's pastamania after that for a chill out session... =) hahaha... need to save money for gold coast le!~ =) yepz... looking forward to the next session in school... too bad mensa wasn't open... =(
work/SIP: ok lahz... tiring but i guess shift's work like this... every off day i have... i'll be sleeping late then going out with people... =)
life in general: couldn't be better... =) serious!~ horz daddy?~ yeah!~ monday we're going to the zoo!~ =) then all the time when we went out together or even when he juz send me home... that's what i call quality time... =) yeah darling... =)
alrighty... short short blog... gotta run... see ya guys around!~ =)
Monday, May 30, 2005
Monday, May 16, 2005
hello!~ i'm finally back to blogging again. =) after so long rightz?~ but i am so happy too. =) very very very very happy. i think everyone will think that i am crazy but i am lorz. =) and yes darling. i'm really happy. =) still am. =)
ok. updates first. =)
school: still nothing yet. =) coz SIP haven't start yet. 23rd will be my first day. =) kinda looking forward to it since i'll be working in an environment i enjoy. but then. i'm quite afraid of the outcome too. coz it's a place i kinda grew up in. i have no idea how and what they will think. but so far so good i guess. it could be worse too. but this's life. =) so we shall have to see how it all goes on my first day then i'll conclude ba. at least i don't need to start all over again. =)
work: things are alright lahz. but i'm gonna miss doing opening. transition. filtering. =( 3 more days of being a crew. =( ~*sobz*~ it's been 1 year. 5 months and 16 days of being a crew so far. and damn. i only got to know most of the youngsters better during this year. sometimes i wonder how come i didn't learn to juz enjoy all your company back then. =( hmmmz. but i do now. all my 7 flowers and tree branch and tree trunk. =) hahaha. the most recent memory would be that of us at peiwen's house for the bbq. =) so happening saiz. hahaha. i really enjoyed myself that night. tons and tons. let's do it again next time kz?~ =)
da jie has left store le. was intially very upset over it. but in this industry. people will come and go too. juz like one day i may leave jscc too. but managed to go find her that day at gek poh and met up with her for dinner yesterday night with gerald. =) really so happy to see her yet again. =) we met her at 530pm like that and only left mos burger at 8pm?~ hahaha. the whole dinner was funny in itself. =) or maybe it's juz me?~ =)
before that went out with gerald to watch movie. amityville horror. and yarz. i still can't seem to pronounce the title kz?~ and i never like to watch horror shows lorz. although this wasn't as bad as what i've heard about house of wax. =x but if you still wanna go watch horror shows next time. please be prepared to hear me scream kz?~ =) although i didn't scream yesterday. hahaha. =)
yepz. then went for the dinner. i don't know how you felt or whether da jie did mention anything to you in particular. she knew about all my past too. that's why she said some of the things that she did. hmmmz. =) but she made me think too. a lot. but like what i told you. we tend to think too much. =) can't help it lahz. tell you something else too kz?~ there were certain things she said that makes sense too. =) maybe it's juz my emotions taking over me but i almost wanted to juz cry then. don't know why too. maybe too much gan dong?~ =l
i never realized that being in a relationship is gonna be like this for me. i never dared to imagine that this day would come after so long and juz when i'm giving up. ha. =) but yeah. =) and 7 months is not considered a struggle. so don't think that way kz darling?~ not your fault that you didn't know either. i juz never thought that i should let you know. =) and i guess i freaked you out back then?~ sulan told me that you went to find her too. hahaha. i juz hope you don't care about what they tell you. especially about the 7 months thing. if the feeling's not there anymore juz let me know kz?~ i won' t blame you at all. honest. =) as for the time being now. i'll still stick to my promise of trying to be nicer to you still. hahaha. =)
if only everyday could be lived like yesterday. =) i would die happy. =) i used to keep counting the days that passed since i ever liked a person. but i guess i'm over the phase le. no more counting. =) i'm gonna live everyday like it's the last i'll be spending with you. don't worry about not having enough time to spent with me. =) i'm happy with the way things are. =)
i really treasured all the moments we spent together. whether you realize it or not. =) i keep remembering things that happened before i like you. when i like you but you didn't know. and things that are happening to me now.
and i guess i've grown too. in one way or another. like i could never say it out to guys about my past. coz i never know how's the reaction gonna be. but darling. =) i never expected your reaction to be as such. =) hahaha. =)
i know this's gonna be a long blog. but juz let me keep on ranting for a while more kz?~ =)
yesterday night is the best ever. =) i know you muz have been tired but you still kept me company. =) and listened to me talk. hahaha. =)
and i've made up my mind. i'm gonna tell my mummy about us soon. i don't wanna keep this a secret from her. i wanna be able to tell her that i'm going out with you when we do go out and not lie to her at all. i wanna be able to tell her the truth. when i tell her le i'll let you know kz?~ =) i'm crossing my fingers and hoping that it's gonna be good news. ~*cross fingerz*~
is this what love does to a person?~ hmmmz. =) am still on my way of finding out. =)
darling. do take carez of yourself kz?~ don't overwork yourself yarz?~ and sleep earlier!~ alwayz watch tv until so late. =( never die before izzit?~ =)
alrighty. will try to blog more often. maybe together during the submission of my e-journals for SIP. =)
take carez everyone. =)
- the world is your oyster. so spent it the way you want it. never live your life full of regrets. -
ok. updates first. =)
school: still nothing yet. =) coz SIP haven't start yet. 23rd will be my first day. =) kinda looking forward to it since i'll be working in an environment i enjoy. but then. i'm quite afraid of the outcome too. coz it's a place i kinda grew up in. i have no idea how and what they will think. but so far so good i guess. it could be worse too. but this's life. =) so we shall have to see how it all goes on my first day then i'll conclude ba. at least i don't need to start all over again. =)
work: things are alright lahz. but i'm gonna miss doing opening. transition. filtering. =( 3 more days of being a crew. =( ~*sobz*~ it's been 1 year. 5 months and 16 days of being a crew so far. and damn. i only got to know most of the youngsters better during this year. sometimes i wonder how come i didn't learn to juz enjoy all your company back then. =( hmmmz. but i do now. all my 7 flowers and tree branch and tree trunk. =) hahaha. the most recent memory would be that of us at peiwen's house for the bbq. =) so happening saiz. hahaha. i really enjoyed myself that night. tons and tons. let's do it again next time kz?~ =)
da jie has left store le. was intially very upset over it. but in this industry. people will come and go too. juz like one day i may leave jscc too. but managed to go find her that day at gek poh and met up with her for dinner yesterday night with gerald. =) really so happy to see her yet again. =) we met her at 530pm like that and only left mos burger at 8pm?~ hahaha. the whole dinner was funny in itself. =) or maybe it's juz me?~ =)
before that went out with gerald to watch movie. amityville horror. and yarz. i still can't seem to pronounce the title kz?~ and i never like to watch horror shows lorz. although this wasn't as bad as what i've heard about house of wax. =x but if you still wanna go watch horror shows next time. please be prepared to hear me scream kz?~ =) although i didn't scream yesterday. hahaha. =)
yepz. then went for the dinner. i don't know how you felt or whether da jie did mention anything to you in particular. she knew about all my past too. that's why she said some of the things that she did. hmmmz. =) but she made me think too. a lot. but like what i told you. we tend to think too much. =) can't help it lahz. tell you something else too kz?~ there were certain things she said that makes sense too. =) maybe it's juz my emotions taking over me but i almost wanted to juz cry then. don't know why too. maybe too much gan dong?~ =l
i never realized that being in a relationship is gonna be like this for me. i never dared to imagine that this day would come after so long and juz when i'm giving up. ha. =) but yeah. =) and 7 months is not considered a struggle. so don't think that way kz darling?~ not your fault that you didn't know either. i juz never thought that i should let you know. =) and i guess i freaked you out back then?~ sulan told me that you went to find her too. hahaha. i juz hope you don't care about what they tell you. especially about the 7 months thing. if the feeling's not there anymore juz let me know kz?~ i won' t blame you at all. honest. =) as for the time being now. i'll still stick to my promise of trying to be nicer to you still. hahaha. =)
if only everyday could be lived like yesterday. =) i would die happy. =) i used to keep counting the days that passed since i ever liked a person. but i guess i'm over the phase le. no more counting. =) i'm gonna live everyday like it's the last i'll be spending with you. don't worry about not having enough time to spent with me. =) i'm happy with the way things are. =)
i really treasured all the moments we spent together. whether you realize it or not. =) i keep remembering things that happened before i like you. when i like you but you didn't know. and things that are happening to me now.
and i guess i've grown too. in one way or another. like i could never say it out to guys about my past. coz i never know how's the reaction gonna be. but darling. =) i never expected your reaction to be as such. =) hahaha. =)
i know this's gonna be a long blog. but juz let me keep on ranting for a while more kz?~ =)
yesterday night is the best ever. =) i know you muz have been tired but you still kept me company. =) and listened to me talk. hahaha. =)
and i've made up my mind. i'm gonna tell my mummy about us soon. i don't wanna keep this a secret from her. i wanna be able to tell her that i'm going out with you when we do go out and not lie to her at all. i wanna be able to tell her the truth. when i tell her le i'll let you know kz?~ =) i'm crossing my fingers and hoping that it's gonna be good news. ~*cross fingerz*~
is this what love does to a person?~ hmmmz. =) am still on my way of finding out. =)
darling. do take carez of yourself kz?~ don't overwork yourself yarz?~ and sleep earlier!~ alwayz watch tv until so late. =( never die before izzit?~ =)
alrighty. will try to blog more often. maybe together during the submission of my e-journals for SIP. =)
take carez everyone. =)
- the world is your oyster. so spent it the way you want it. never live your life full of regrets. -
Monday, April 18, 2005
hellooo!!!~
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yes... i know it's been a long time since i really sat down and blogged... many things have happened and all... but i guess i'm still the same?!?~
school: now's the hols before the start of SIP... looking forward to it... => i mean... it's in the place where i have the most fun... => went for the dnd at carlton last week... => the food wasn't that fantastic but i had fun with all the people... => the activities were more interesting then the food lorz... =P went to chill at coffee club at cine there after that... =>
ig: stepping down soon... and man... am i gonna miss all these friends who have gone so far with me... we went through so much emotions together and i feel that it has bonded us together well... ~*sighz*~
work: loadz to tell... =>=>=> leelee's my da jie... we went to play basketball with the closers and nana on friday... hahaha... at like 1am in the morning?!?~ so technically it's sat... => ate ba chor mee with da jie at the newly opened coffeeshop at 1.30...=> been working loadz these few days... but having much fun over the weekends with most of the young crew working... => crap a lot and it was so noisy lorz... => i especially enjoyed my break yesterday with gerald... hahaha... coz we break at the same time and ate the same load of food... => first time saiz... so i was taking the food while he was getting the condiments.. hahaha... =>
yepz... been going out and taking neo prints and all... => suddenly feel overaged at the neo print shop lorz... => but haha... i did enjoy myself with all of them...
gotta run le... doing some stuff now... hee!~ =>
take carez kz?~
cheerios!~ =>
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yes... i know it's been a long time since i really sat down and blogged... many things have happened and all... but i guess i'm still the same?!?~
school: now's the hols before the start of SIP... looking forward to it... => i mean... it's in the place where i have the most fun... => went for the dnd at carlton last week... => the food wasn't that fantastic but i had fun with all the people... => the activities were more interesting then the food lorz... =P went to chill at coffee club at cine there after that... =>
ig: stepping down soon... and man... am i gonna miss all these friends who have gone so far with me... we went through so much emotions together and i feel that it has bonded us together well... ~*sighz*~
work: loadz to tell... =>=>=> leelee's my da jie... we went to play basketball with the closers and nana on friday... hahaha... at like 1am in the morning?!?~ so technically it's sat... => ate ba chor mee with da jie at the newly opened coffeeshop at 1.30...=> been working loadz these few days... but having much fun over the weekends with most of the young crew working... => crap a lot and it was so noisy lorz... => i especially enjoyed my break yesterday with gerald... hahaha... coz we break at the same time and ate the same load of food... => first time saiz... so i was taking the food while he was getting the condiments.. hahaha... =>
yepz... been going out and taking neo prints and all... => suddenly feel overaged at the neo print shop lorz... => but haha... i did enjoy myself with all of them...
gotta run le... doing some stuff now... hee!~ =>
take carez kz?~
cheerios!~ =>
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
i am so tired!~ dotz!~ and it's really been such a long time since i last updated. we-ll. this is juz to let you guys know that i'm not dead. juz burdened with stuff that i can't share with all. yepz. thankz to all those who were concerned and kept me in good spirits still. => here's a happy holiday to all. till i blog again!~ => ciao!~
Thursday, March 10, 2005
am i over the cliff yet?~ i wish to be.
can't seem to understand how emotional i am becoming. or izzit juz stress?~ hmmmz. i can't seem to be able to sit down and relax myself. yet i need a channel to vent myself out. maybe pool and k box?~ and how people seems to be more then themselves recently. i'm starting to dislike SIP. it's making me see and hear things that i don't want to.
another thing. why are others so ignorant to others' feelings?~ they think it's funny when they make fun of people?~ then when we do it to them they can't take the joke.
what's wrong with the world?~ why does everything seems not rosy at all now?~ or was it even rosy in the first place?~ why muz it be this time that everythingcrashes down on me?~
analogy:
i'm at the top of the world. standing on the mountain top with the wind juz blowing gently around. the scent of the pine wood was therapeutic. the clouds seems so pretty. like you can juz step on them and not fall through.
suddenly. i juz feel the lack of oxygen. the smell of the pines was suffocating. the wind grew stronger. about to blow me away. i want to be blown yet still wanted to live on.
i'm off the cliff now. hanging onto a branch by the side of the mountain for my life.
who is going to be the one who saves me?~ or will no one come at all?~ i wonder.
and then.
i juz let go.
the feeling of freedom from everything. the wind rushing past my ears.
i feel light for once.
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can't seem to understand how emotional i am becoming. or izzit juz stress?~ hmmmz. i can't seem to be able to sit down and relax myself. yet i need a channel to vent myself out. maybe pool and k box?~ and how people seems to be more then themselves recently. i'm starting to dislike SIP. it's making me see and hear things that i don't want to.
another thing. why are others so ignorant to others' feelings?~ they think it's funny when they make fun of people?~ then when we do it to them they can't take the joke.
what's wrong with the world?~ why does everything seems not rosy at all now?~ or was it even rosy in the first place?~ why muz it be this time that everythingcrashes down on me?~
analogy:
i'm at the top of the world. standing on the mountain top with the wind juz blowing gently around. the scent of the pine wood was therapeutic. the clouds seems so pretty. like you can juz step on them and not fall through.
suddenly. i juz feel the lack of oxygen. the smell of the pines was suffocating. the wind grew stronger. about to blow me away. i want to be blown yet still wanted to live on.
i'm off the cliff now. hanging onto a branch by the side of the mountain for my life.
who is going to be the one who saves me?~ or will no one come at all?~ i wonder.
and then.
i juz let go.
the feeling of freedom from everything. the wind rushing past my ears.
i feel light for once.
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
"You are Black Koala who has purity and sweetness of a girl. And no matter how old you get, you can stay youthful. Your attitude is very straight forward and bald. You have quick mind, and a sharp instinct to read the other person's mind. You are an active woman.Nevertheless, you also possess a motherly character. You are kind and can show consideration to others.You tend to be rather argumentative, and will not accept something that is unreasonable. It takes time to gain your consent. You are independent, and has a challenging spirit to achieve your objectives and ideals. Once you start on something, you will not give up half way, or show weakness.You know how to get on in life, and are a calculative woman. Economic wise, you've got your feet steadily on the ground.You are rather suspicious type of person. You don't tend to take every word of other person straightly. You try to read behind the lines, very carefully. You tend to get lost in your thought.You think high of sports and training. Nevertheless, you also think a lot about art, and are a romantic sort of person. Even after you get married, you can be successful as a professional."
this is me. in truth.
i'm beginning to question as to the purpose in my life. i am so so close to giving up juz like that. there's no point in fighting on anymore when i feel that my role in this world has been completed.
i have lived through so much. been through so much. and juz when i thought i could trust people like you to make the world a better place. you had to go and betray my trust and backstab the whole group of us. i warned them about you le. that's all. he's understanding. he cooled me down. he talked sense into me. assured me that the friendship will not change no matter what happens. so did she. they are the ones that i can trust at work now. the rest are juz regarded as colleagues now. nothing more.
MUTS was great. the committee was great. big thank you to my triplets for organizing it so well. had fun counting the starz with nelson. ha.
ALP was fun. minus the ELFS. went to makan at KFC with sha. nelson and jovi. wanted to play pool but it was crowded. so went k box instead. had a good time singing my heart out.
i am in depression mode. don't know how long it'll take for me to get out this time round. hopefully it's never. i don't feel like being happy ever again. what's the point?~ when i'm happy people take me for granted. never even have the courtsey to ask if it's alright to do things. they juz do it thinking that i will be fine. ass off.
then there are those who can't be bothered to do things themselves yet when they are the last to know. they ask why are they the last to know.
attitude.
i have been tolerant for so long. especially at work with her. i almost blew that day. but i chose not to. why?~ coz i chose not to become as unreasonable as her. i'll become a better person than her. lee and line are my role models whom i'll follow. they make mistakes too but they admit them. not blow their tops at others. you call yourself a manager?~ i think i can do better than you.
and guess what's the reason of me not being able to be topcat for parties?~ coz they've wanted to promote me for some time. juz nice came my SIP. chenie told me that. i hate it when i'm the last to know even when i ask. am i really that good?~ i doubt my own self and ablilties everytime i hear good things about me. why?~ coz i don't believe that i am such a wonder.
i am depressed.
i don't wanna live anymore in this world.
this is me. in truth.
i'm beginning to question as to the purpose in my life. i am so so close to giving up juz like that. there's no point in fighting on anymore when i feel that my role in this world has been completed.
i have lived through so much. been through so much. and juz when i thought i could trust people like you to make the world a better place. you had to go and betray my trust and backstab the whole group of us. i warned them about you le. that's all. he's understanding. he cooled me down. he talked sense into me. assured me that the friendship will not change no matter what happens. so did she. they are the ones that i can trust at work now. the rest are juz regarded as colleagues now. nothing more.
MUTS was great. the committee was great. big thank you to my triplets for organizing it so well. had fun counting the starz with nelson. ha.
ALP was fun. minus the ELFS. went to makan at KFC with sha. nelson and jovi. wanted to play pool but it was crowded. so went k box instead. had a good time singing my heart out.
i am in depression mode. don't know how long it'll take for me to get out this time round. hopefully it's never. i don't feel like being happy ever again. what's the point?~ when i'm happy people take me for granted. never even have the courtsey to ask if it's alright to do things. they juz do it thinking that i will be fine. ass off.
then there are those who can't be bothered to do things themselves yet when they are the last to know. they ask why are they the last to know.
attitude.
i have been tolerant for so long. especially at work with her. i almost blew that day. but i chose not to. why?~ coz i chose not to become as unreasonable as her. i'll become a better person than her. lee and line are my role models whom i'll follow. they make mistakes too but they admit them. not blow their tops at others. you call yourself a manager?~ i think i can do better than you.
and guess what's the reason of me not being able to be topcat for parties?~ coz they've wanted to promote me for some time. juz nice came my SIP. chenie told me that. i hate it when i'm the last to know even when i ask. am i really that good?~ i doubt my own self and ablilties everytime i hear good things about me. why?~ coz i don't believe that i am such a wonder.
i am depressed.
i don't wanna live anymore in this world.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
people have left me behind le... and they were all so close to me... why...?~ you said you would be there for me... there to know every emotion that i am going through... where are you now?~ excuses... that's juz so damn lame... you give them everytime without even considering the final consequences that will happen... why?~
i went and watched constantine yesterday after school with nelson... sha and jovi... was a very good show... really enjoyed myself... ate BK... then had an impromto game of pool at the pavilion... => really been a long time since i enjoyed myself so much... so much...
haiz...
i hate all these people... who acts in front of me... who thinks that that the world juz revolves around them... and them only...
i went and watched constantine yesterday after school with nelson... sha and jovi... was a very good show... really enjoyed myself... ate BK... then had an impromto game of pool at the pavilion... => really been a long time since i enjoyed myself so much... so much...
haiz...
i hate all these people... who acts in front of me... who thinks that that the world juz revolves around them... and them only...
Thursday, February 24, 2005
still in a good mood today... => i wonder how long this can last... => hopefully until the end of SIP...?~ oh... i told ant about it after all... => believes that as my shifu he has the right to know and after me sharing what i want in life with him... =>
yepz...
life's been a roller coaster ride these few weeks... didn't really get to rest enough... or izzit juz my fault?~ for the past few saturdays have been staying till wee hours of the morning in store learning how to clean the ice cream machine and the grill... => guess it'll all come in handy after all when i go for SIP... => gonna stay this saturday again... although i'm working all sunday mornings... =>
hmmmz... been thinking a lot... again... what's wrong with me...?~
talked for like what... 2 hours over dinner with my bro... my mum juz listening in... => it's been a long time since i felt connected to my bro... we talked about school... the future... careers... and theories about the mind... tarot cards... recarnation... => guess this is the good thing of having such a smart bro... => smart enough to understand the things that i was trying to put across... => hahaha... maybe it's not such a bad thing after all that he IS smart... hmmmz... =>
it made me feel good that i do have a listener and debater close to me... although he isn't in debate coz he loves running too much... =P ha!~
looking forward to the weekends coz i'm working at night on sat after my test and sun morning... chinwei's last day on sat... i'm so gonna miss him... my shifu too... => juz when i got to know him better... he has to leave...
which brings me to my next question...
why izzit that everytime i get close to someone and that someone who means so much to me... he or she has to leave?~ izzit coz they have served their purpose in my life?~ or coz i'm the one who's driven them away...?~
yepz...
life's been a roller coaster ride these few weeks... didn't really get to rest enough... or izzit juz my fault?~ for the past few saturdays have been staying till wee hours of the morning in store learning how to clean the ice cream machine and the grill... => guess it'll all come in handy after all when i go for SIP... => gonna stay this saturday again... although i'm working all sunday mornings... =>
hmmmz... been thinking a lot... again... what's wrong with me...?~
talked for like what... 2 hours over dinner with my bro... my mum juz listening in... => it's been a long time since i felt connected to my bro... we talked about school... the future... careers... and theories about the mind... tarot cards... recarnation... => guess this is the good thing of having such a smart bro... => smart enough to understand the things that i was trying to put across... => hahaha... maybe it's not such a bad thing after all that he IS smart... hmmmz... =>
it made me feel good that i do have a listener and debater close to me... although he isn't in debate coz he loves running too much... =P ha!~
looking forward to the weekends coz i'm working at night on sat after my test and sun morning... chinwei's last day on sat... i'm so gonna miss him... my shifu too... => juz when i got to know him better... he has to leave...
which brings me to my next question...
why izzit that everytime i get close to someone and that someone who means so much to me... he or she has to leave?~ izzit coz they have served their purpose in my life?~ or coz i'm the one who's driven them away...?~
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
hmmmz... i'm still in my happy mood... => though i can't believe that i really got in... => am really so happy that i smsed the people who are closer to me to tell them... => wanted to let ant know... but i think line would have told him soon... so i msged gerald too... then i told him about me wanting to go back after SIP but can't... yepz... nice knowing that there are people who cared enough to talk to... => really appreciated that... =>
there are times when i realized that what i'm doing now is the same as what happened during DAE... i juz came for hospi interview... didn't try for any thing else... and i got it... i wrote only to mac for SIP and i got it too... => how come i'm always so certain about where i wanna be?~ i wonder...
i went out on friday to BBcentral's mac to support jiamin who was going for the nsrs... hahaha... and i saw my shifu for badminton!~ => happy siaz... but he looked so tired... =<>
went over mos at westmall for dinner cum supper and we stayed till they close shop... heehee... =>
really enjoyed myself so much... =>
never felt so much since a long time ago...
but i liked it... =>
there are times when i realized that what i'm doing now is the same as what happened during DAE... i juz came for hospi interview... didn't try for any thing else... and i got it... i wrote only to mac for SIP and i got it too... => how come i'm always so certain about where i wanna be?~ i wonder...
i went out on friday to BBcentral's mac to support jiamin who was going for the nsrs... hahaha... and i saw my shifu for badminton!~ => happy siaz... but he looked so tired... =<>
went over mos at westmall for dinner cum supper and we stayed till they close shop... heehee... =>
really enjoyed myself so much... =>
never felt so much since a long time ago...
but i liked it... =>
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
juz when i thought i could be selfish for once and get away from all the hurt and pain that is being inflicted onto me... i have to open up my soul and heart for you to hurt me again...
why do i keep repeating the same mistake over and over again?~
went and watch seoul raiders on v-day... alright lahz... the people i went with were fun... =>
saw swee ying auntie who told me that penny auntie has been transferred over to pioneer mall le... never coming back... =X
went for the UAP course yesterday... enjoyed myself thoroughly... met up with people i once worked with... =>
why do people keep changing?~ or do i really hate change that much?~ people at work has now become the people i enjoy their company with... people who have problems and i fit juz nice in... all problems seem to juz dissolve when i'm with them... juz working will solve everything... i miss my friends at work already... i miss my working family...
why?~
why can't i tell her how i felt when those things happen?~
why do i keep repeating the same mistake over and over again?~
went and watch seoul raiders on v-day... alright lahz... the people i went with were fun... =>
saw swee ying auntie who told me that penny auntie has been transferred over to pioneer mall le... never coming back... =X
went for the UAP course yesterday... enjoyed myself thoroughly... met up with people i once worked with... =>
why do people keep changing?~ or do i really hate change that much?~ people at work has now become the people i enjoy their company with... people who have problems and i fit juz nice in... all problems seem to juz dissolve when i'm with them... juz working will solve everything... i miss my friends at work already... i miss my working family...
why?~
why can't i tell her how i felt when those things happen?~
Monday, February 14, 2005
today's v-day... and i'm going out with jiamin and anthony later... => to cck to watch movie and grab a bite i think... =>
working over the past few days of CNY... => happy working with the people i love most... => managed to even go 7-eleven with anthony and then john came and joined us... => met people that i thought i'll never get the chance to see again and all the chats i got from anthony... hahaha... my shifu!~ so is chinwei too... =>
finally learnt how to wash the ice cream machine... => and filtering too... => chinwei and gerald and kenneth and jeff thought me... although chinwei taught me more... =>
and i juz realized i keep getting burns and cuts during work... so much so that i think anthony's gonna be scared of working with me soon... =p hahaha...
it's been a terrific CNY with working 6 days in a row and almost falling sick in the end... juz had saffron today and i'm going for a course tomorrow for mac... haiz... =l
met up with my relatives and managed to talk to zhihao and his sis and their mum and another aunt... talked about what i'm ganna do with my life... => it's been great talking to them and they support me for once... => after asking me not to come into hospi... =>
but i seriously dislike my third aunt... she saw my burnt mark and she kept asking why i wanna waste my time working in mac?~ i mean... hello?~ your life or mine?~
i hate getting into conversation with people who do not understand my point of view or does not even gimme the time to express myself... so what if they are elders?!~ i'm getting fed up...
i know what i want out of life already...
yes... i'm limiting myself... i know that...
but when you have a passion and a dream...
you chase it!~
at least there are still people who understands my needs and wants... whew... thank god for them... =>
i'm skipping all over the place but this's juz my way of thinking... =l
viy!!!~ where is that girl when i need her?~ =x i'm beginning to dislike my saffron class le... or izzit juz my mood?~
and neslon... guess what?~
you've earned my utmost respect for you... =>
i don't know if anyone else has noticed though... hmmmz...
why do i suddenly feel that i'm not committed to school or studying anymore?~ that work is my life now?~ izzit really true that the comfort zone is there for me le?~ that i can't bear to leave the place that i am so comfortable in now?~ and why do i know that this is where i wanna be?~ hmmmz... tough question... but i've met someone alse who knows what he wants too... someone who follows his heart and does the things he deems are right and enjoys doing... => hmmmz... very pei fu him too... =>
yepz...
and i that boy boy took up so much space in my my inbox lorz... hahaha... he knows who he is... but i doubt he'll be reading this...
so yes... =>
anyway... it's gonna be a damn long day today... at least gonna enjoy myself with them later... =>
did this weird quiz and i thought the result was kinda funny... =>
i'm a pansexual...
hahaha...
alright...
gotta leave to meet my friends le...
take carez to all...
happy v-day!~ =>
working over the past few days of CNY... => happy working with the people i love most... => managed to even go 7-eleven with anthony and then john came and joined us... => met people that i thought i'll never get the chance to see again and all the chats i got from anthony... hahaha... my shifu!~ so is chinwei too... =>
finally learnt how to wash the ice cream machine... => and filtering too... => chinwei and gerald and kenneth and jeff thought me... although chinwei taught me more... =>
and i juz realized i keep getting burns and cuts during work... so much so that i think anthony's gonna be scared of working with me soon... =p hahaha...
it's been a terrific CNY with working 6 days in a row and almost falling sick in the end... juz had saffron today and i'm going for a course tomorrow for mac... haiz... =l
met up with my relatives and managed to talk to zhihao and his sis and their mum and another aunt... talked about what i'm ganna do with my life... => it's been great talking to them and they support me for once... => after asking me not to come into hospi... =>
but i seriously dislike my third aunt... she saw my burnt mark and she kept asking why i wanna waste my time working in mac?~ i mean... hello?~ your life or mine?~
i hate getting into conversation with people who do not understand my point of view or does not even gimme the time to express myself... so what if they are elders?!~ i'm getting fed up...
i know what i want out of life already...
yes... i'm limiting myself... i know that...
but when you have a passion and a dream...
you chase it!~
at least there are still people who understands my needs and wants... whew... thank god for them... =>
i'm skipping all over the place but this's juz my way of thinking... =l
viy!!!~ where is that girl when i need her?~ =x i'm beginning to dislike my saffron class le... or izzit juz my mood?~
and neslon... guess what?~
you've earned my utmost respect for you... =>
i don't know if anyone else has noticed though... hmmmz...
why do i suddenly feel that i'm not committed to school or studying anymore?~ that work is my life now?~ izzit really true that the comfort zone is there for me le?~ that i can't bear to leave the place that i am so comfortable in now?~ and why do i know that this is where i wanna be?~ hmmmz... tough question... but i've met someone alse who knows what he wants too... someone who follows his heart and does the things he deems are right and enjoys doing... => hmmmz... very pei fu him too... =>
yepz...
and i that boy boy took up so much space in my my inbox lorz... hahaha... he knows who he is... but i doubt he'll be reading this...
so yes... =>
anyway... it's gonna be a damn long day today... at least gonna enjoy myself with them later... =>
did this weird quiz and i thought the result was kinda funny... =>
i'm a pansexual...
hahaha...
alright...
gotta leave to meet my friends le...
take carez to all...
happy v-day!~ =>
Friday, February 04, 2005
haiz... had a damn tiring week so far... with handing up of MEIT project which is a great relief... => hmmmz... am i really that slacked too but gets things done?~ or have i changed along with them?~
and is quiiting really a way out and a solution for all?~ coz a lot of people seems to be choosing that route to take now... i believe it is a way out of the problem but not for long... problems will always be problems and they will always be there until you face them and solve them...
and i'm typing my resume and cover letter... FINALLY...
coz i can apply back to mac... but i still need to send them the things... hmmmz... wonder where they'll post me if i'm really accepted back?~ BP?~ i hope not... =<YOU start thinking that i'm a selfish and complaining bitch?~
we-ll... guess what?~
... ...
i don't give a fuck.
and is quiiting really a way out and a solution for all?~ coz a lot of people seems to be choosing that route to take now... i believe it is a way out of the problem but not for long... problems will always be problems and they will always be there until you face them and solve them...
and i'm typing my resume and cover letter... FINALLY...
coz i can apply back to mac... but i still need to send them the things... hmmmz... wonder where they'll post me if i'm really accepted back?~ BP?~ i hope not... =<YOU start thinking that i'm a selfish and complaining bitch?~
we-ll... guess what?~
... ...
i don't give a fuck.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
'You have a speed and agility that makes you capable of reacting spontaneously and with great effect. You're probably more physically oriented than most Geminis of the twentieth century, and may excel in several areas thanks to your adroitness. This may apply to a musical instrument, recreational sport, or technological tool. You may strongly identify with your family, nation, or ethnic ancestry.
In love, you may it difficult to settle into a committed partnership since you find so many people fascinating. Because of your family or cultural background, you may feel that marriage is appropriate for you. However, you are celestially scheduled for major lifestyle transformations from time to time, and this includes in partnership. In general, you get along best with Cancerians, Librans, Aquarians, and Pisceans.
In your professional life, you may specialize in an area that makes use of your dexterity, or your ability to think and act promptly. You will prosper in your career if you develop more than one marketable talent, especially since you tend to bolt when you get bored, or lack enough personal freedom. Since your lifestyle may undergo complete restructuring from time to time, flexibility becomes even more necessary.'
i think it's so true... except the part about who i get along best with... kinda wrong but ha well... this kinda things should be taken with a pinch of salt... =>
yesterday's captain's ball went fine... all were civilized... => i'm not sure about the badminton though... but i think it went alright too...
was really quite stoned yesterday with all thoughts running through my mind... reached school early but ended up spending 4 hours at teh sports complex with jovi and juz chatting and playing five-stones...
memories of my own childhood juz flooded me and i juz miss my childhood...
haiz...
and playing the trian game with nelson didn't help my mood...
hmmmz...
In love, you may it difficult to settle into a committed partnership since you find so many people fascinating. Because of your family or cultural background, you may feel that marriage is appropriate for you. However, you are celestially scheduled for major lifestyle transformations from time to time, and this includes in partnership. In general, you get along best with Cancerians, Librans, Aquarians, and Pisceans.
In your professional life, you may specialize in an area that makes use of your dexterity, or your ability to think and act promptly. You will prosper in your career if you develop more than one marketable talent, especially since you tend to bolt when you get bored, or lack enough personal freedom. Since your lifestyle may undergo complete restructuring from time to time, flexibility becomes even more necessary.'
i think it's so true... except the part about who i get along best with... kinda wrong but ha well... this kinda things should be taken with a pinch of salt... =>
yesterday's captain's ball went fine... all were civilized... => i'm not sure about the badminton though... but i think it went alright too...
was really quite stoned yesterday with all thoughts running through my mind... reached school early but ended up spending 4 hours at teh sports complex with jovi and juz chatting and playing five-stones...
memories of my own childhood juz flooded me and i juz miss my childhood...
haiz...
and playing the trian game with nelson didn't help my mood...
hmmmz...
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
yepz... almost one month since tha last post that i posted up... so much has happened and seriously... i'm quite tired with the world...
life since new year's day was alright... i went JP to rot and ended up watching kung fu hustle with gerald... yepz... was a good show and i can't deny that the company was good as well... => went over to BL mac looking for jiamin and while looking for her the countdown started... hahaha... it was like being in orchard road with the crowds... the lights... => a nice homey feeling juz crpet upon me and engulfing me in it... it was the first time i celebrated new year's day and it was a very memorable experience... =>walked back to store and grabbed some instant mashed potato and mushroom soup on the way from 7-eleven... => helped to keep the christmas deco that was still up and ended up laughing with gerald in the store room... => ha!~
went for NP's open house too... had fun looking around for people that i know and catching up with them.. had dinner at KAP with puimun and waiyee... then manmi came and joined us... => went shopping at cold storage for supper which was a very last minute thing and caught a cab to manmi's house to prepare... => a good supper if i say so with a quality time spent at the hammock enjoying the stars and the unspoiled night sky... => resolutions were made but i don't think i'll post them up after all... => quite personal... but i wrote them down le... => so let's hope that we'll achieve them this year kz guys?~ =>
projects and work have been keeping me busy and my nose to the grind...
meit is driving me nutz...
saffron's team week has come and passed... my god!~ i miss viy suddenly... =<>
my emotions are like a blender nowadays... with all blended into one... i'm feeling numb to things that are haapening around me and i juz crave for a break... i wanna take one... but somehow i can't seem to be able to part with certain things...
then there was the street soccer incident yesterday... i wonder how come people juz can't seem to control their tempers?~ and people who ought to be there weren't there to help... instead they chose to talk to others about their own problems when they can happily say that there is not enough committment from the ig... i mean... hello?~ what's wrong with you?~ preach but don't do...
am so bloody pissed off...
but i guess it's an event that teaches us that there are more bad things in life than what is expected...
really tired out yesterday but i guess the slurpee and cheese twistees i had from 7-eleven helped to boost my spirits a little... i wonder what that means?~ hmmmz...
no matter what... i'm looking forward to today's captain ball and the street soccer games... => i believe with those who were around yesterday and today... things shouldn't go that wrong... =>
i think...
life since new year's day was alright... i went JP to rot and ended up watching kung fu hustle with gerald... yepz... was a good show and i can't deny that the company was good as well... => went over to BL mac looking for jiamin and while looking for her the countdown started... hahaha... it was like being in orchard road with the crowds... the lights... => a nice homey feeling juz crpet upon me and engulfing me in it... it was the first time i celebrated new year's day and it was a very memorable experience... =>walked back to store and grabbed some instant mashed potato and mushroom soup on the way from 7-eleven... => helped to keep the christmas deco that was still up and ended up laughing with gerald in the store room... => ha!~
went for NP's open house too... had fun looking around for people that i know and catching up with them.. had dinner at KAP with puimun and waiyee... then manmi came and joined us... => went shopping at cold storage for supper which was a very last minute thing and caught a cab to manmi's house to prepare... => a good supper if i say so with a quality time spent at the hammock enjoying the stars and the unspoiled night sky... => resolutions were made but i don't think i'll post them up after all... => quite personal... but i wrote them down le... => so let's hope that we'll achieve them this year kz guys?~ =>
projects and work have been keeping me busy and my nose to the grind...
meit is driving me nutz...
saffron's team week has come and passed... my god!~ i miss viy suddenly... =<>
my emotions are like a blender nowadays... with all blended into one... i'm feeling numb to things that are haapening around me and i juz crave for a break... i wanna take one... but somehow i can't seem to be able to part with certain things...
then there was the street soccer incident yesterday... i wonder how come people juz can't seem to control their tempers?~ and people who ought to be there weren't there to help... instead they chose to talk to others about their own problems when they can happily say that there is not enough committment from the ig... i mean... hello?~ what's wrong with you?~ preach but don't do...
am so bloody pissed off...
but i guess it's an event that teaches us that there are more bad things in life than what is expected...
really tired out yesterday but i guess the slurpee and cheese twistees i had from 7-eleven helped to boost my spirits a little... i wonder what that means?~ hmmmz...
no matter what... i'm looking forward to today's captain ball and the street soccer games... => i believe with those who were around yesterday and today... things shouldn't go that wrong... =>
i think...
Thursday, January 06, 2005
it's my bro's birthday today... and waht a bad start to it... my mummy overslept and woke him up late... hmmmz... what a bad start to a new year for him...
this year suckz... what a bad beginning already... was working on the new year with people i didn't like and ended up crying... then everything i did seems to be wrong... totally wrong... i didn't do stuff that i should be doing... i didn't know that my behaviour has affected those around me... it really surprises me how much people know when you don't want them to know...
but i'm going to MIA for awhile i think... but i don't know if i can put everything down and juz let go... i don't wanna be one of those who MIA and never came back... i wanna be back...
if i'm not back by the end of the month... please help me...
this year suckz... what a bad beginning already... was working on the new year with people i didn't like and ended up crying... then everything i did seems to be wrong... totally wrong... i didn't do stuff that i should be doing... i didn't know that my behaviour has affected those around me... it really surprises me how much people know when you don't want them to know...
but i'm going to MIA for awhile i think... but i don't know if i can put everything down and juz let go... i don't wanna be one of those who MIA and never came back... i wanna be back...
if i'm not back by the end of the month... please help me...
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
i don't know how long i can hold out anymore... i'm really tired...
my perfect world seems to be crunmbling down right in front of me and there's nothing i can do to save it... ig and work are not as simple anymore... people i thought i was close to doesn't seem to be there anymore... and people i thought i wasn't close to were there for me when i needed help... what is the world coming to?~
my perfect world seems to be crunmbling down right in front of me and there's nothing i can do to save it... ig and work are not as simple anymore... people i thought i was close to doesn't seem to be there anymore... and people i thought i wasn't close to were there for me when i needed help... what is the world coming to?~
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