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Sunday, January 11, 2026
Sunday, January 04, 2026
Personal growth, healing, and purpose.
It was a tough 2025, where I decided it’s time to heal from past traumas and to keep myself grounded. I also lost my purpose towards the second half of the year, and it was a rough patch that I barely got myself out of.
2025 brought the most emotions with it, emotions that I could finally name and talk about. And it brought me people who were unexpected - people who checked in, people who cared, people who mattered.
In every season that I experienced this year - spring in Chongqing and Chengdu, summer in Liuzhou and Nanning, autumn in Incheon and Seoul, winter in Northeastern China, different reflections surfaced.
Dec 2025 was spent in a lot of meaningful gatherings, and also 12 days in 哈尔滨 - 亚布力 - 雪乡 - 牡丹江 - 长白山 - 吉林 - 哈尔滨. It was a crazy trip coz I was indulged in everything and everything 🤭 Travelling with my 家人们 and going crazy every night after sunset drinking, sleeping for 5h or less daily, and surviving the cold of -29C.
As I continue my journey of healing and self-discovery into 2026, I’m grateful for the people who were there even when I didn’t know I needed them, for the metime spent in nature, and for the opportunities I took for new experiences.
2026 may call for drastic actions and bolder boundaries, but it’s a year I wanna come out of stronger.
Live, intentionally.
Saturday, March 29, 2025
‘I love you,’ I said to her as we part, words I’ve never said before.
She nodded.
We won’t meet for another 10 years, but I know we will.
Sunday, February 02, 2025
Friday, June 14, 2024
Coz of the Shifu, I got the chance to go US and take business class that’s fully paid for.
New York City has always been a dream, since Nancy Drew and Hardy Boys’ times, and it was a shared dream between *her and me many years back to see Rockefeller Center during Christmas. We-ll, I didn’t really get to Rockefeller Center, neither is it Christmas, but sometimes, things are better left unsaid and closed in these circumstances. I thought I needed that closure, but turns out it was already closed, no need to intentionally close it.
Being able to see all the museums (especially American Museum of Natural History, 9/11 Memorial, Art Institue of Chicago) and attractions (like Moulin Rouge at Broadway!) in both places, and of course visit the Hamburger University in Chicago were dreams come true! 9/11 held so much pain for me, not coz I lost someone, but of the memories it came with.
I remembered I was in Crez, sec 4, when it happened, and it hit me then. When I saw the partially burnt and badly damaged fire engine, the tears just welled up. Perhaps just before that I had some unhappiness during the trip, and I didn’t quite say anything, maybe it’s knowing how dangerous the job was (all of Ladder 3 company lost their lives), or that it was related to that past of yours.
And the food in US is really not for me. It’s mainly cold, and I’m ‘definitely Asian’ like what *x was telling me 🤣 I miss my hot food in Singapore, my bed, my plants, even my bidet 🤣
And then as I was thinking of texting someone, received a text that kinda threw me off guard, or rather, caught me by surprised.
Alrighty, taking the next 3 days to rest and recover from what jet lag I may get, leaving my laundry and luggages to unpack till tmr. I’ve watered my plant babies, vacuumed the floor, ate dinner, now doing my massage before my eyes close for good for today I think 😴
Saturday, March 30, 2024
Wednesday, November 22, 2023
It’s been almost forever since I rode pillion on a sports bike, speeding in the cooling winds. Still as thankful to the 2 person who taught me to ride - *w, pang. And as I was riding just now, I suddenly recalled that *b rode too, and I sat on his bike multiple times too, but I seemed to have forgotten about it.
Saturday, October 21, 2023
Sunday, October 08, 2023
Sunday, September 17, 2023
Interesting how I’m not one for ‘wasting’ my only off day since I came back from Tokyo.
Gonna roam the streets today then. Thought of asking some for dinner/catch ups, but.. … yeah. 🤷🏻♀️
It’s been a hell of a week, and another hell of a week coming. And then another 2 packed weeks. Before I head for sake tasting for a break and then the flight out to Vietnam.
Need 🥃 to tide me over the 3 weeks!
Tuesday, August 15, 2023
Wednesday, July 19, 2023
It has been 2 weeks of crunch, going into the 3rd.
Crunch started after meeting 小乔 for Kbbq on Sunday 2 weeks ago. It went into wild work mode, class, then work coupling with prep for AFMG.
Had a quick break on Thursday night meeting Poly friends, a bad Friday night dinner at Fico (🙄) - reservation passed over from a friend who couldn’t make it. And just when I thought I had Sunday to wallow and mull over my own thoughts and the crunch, a comment popped up on my Fico post, which in turn led to my Sunday lunch with Pang.
It was his crunch week, and heading into a dreaded week. It was my crunch and still crunching, and I was looking for a way out just to breathe. So 误打误撞, we ended up cooking and drinking at my place for a good 6 hours.
Food was simple Jap, but happy food. Even happier with the drinks - beer, gin, whisky. And then there’s the company. We chatted about everything under the sun, from my Crez friends to his work friends to our lives to his recent travels. Never thought I could do a HTHT with just a guy (but then we did in Dec right 小乔? 🤭) and it had us looking forward to our trip together in Oct! Just the 3 of us (or maybe 4 if his friend really considers and comes along).
I promise yummy food, seafood, drinks by the roadside and just pure mind blank moments.
Sunday was definitely a good break from the crunch, and ranting it to someone who is so neutral, and doesn’t vibe negatively and kept all the remarks to himself 🤣
Here’s to surviving this week and the next!
Can’t wait for end Aug, am heading out for a leisure trip, meeting up with a friend from Hokkaido, made 12 years ago in Malacca! 😊
So much left unsaid ❤️🩹
Thursday, June 15, 2023
Sunday, April 30, 2023
Wednesday, April 05, 2023
Sunday, February 12, 2023
Monday, January 30, 2023
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
Friday, October 14, 2022
Still emo-ing. 😔
Emo-ing over the missed AFMG, emo-ing over gonna miss having the F2F session with my idol from US who’s in town, emo-ing that I stopped putting that smile or bringing that happiness to you, emo-ing over the left behind scars. 😔
The scars are not ugly, or huge, or painful, but it makes me sad everytime I put the cream on it. And I will just tear. 😔
It’s ok to be not ok, right? 😔
Tuesday, October 11, 2022
Friday, September 16, 2022
Friday, September 02, 2022
Woke at 7am, procrastinated in prepping for the immersion, finally got out of bed at 9.45am and started work at 10am. Ending work day at 1.03am. No power naps today, just 30 mins for lunch, 30 mins for dinner. 🫠
Not looking forward to the weekend with one New Look on Saturday and a working Sunday to pull the monthly reports. 🫠
Never felt so in the box before. Today must be that record.
This probably the worst week ever, worse that RLP.
Mon: 8.45am to 6.30pm, farewell dinner till 10pm.
Tue: 8.45am to 8.45pm.
Wed: 9am to 11pm with 2 power naps.
Thu: 10am to 1.03am with total 1 hour break.
Fri: 9am to (minimally) 7.30pm.
You. You will bring me out for happy food on Sat. Don’t ask me to decide. I cannot. And I don’t want Ippoh again. 🫠
And don’t you dare come and tell me work’s not worth it and chill. Unless you’re gonna 养 me (and I’m high maintanence I know), if not, your advices are not welcomed.
Monday, August 22, 2022
Thursday, August 18, 2022
Wednesday, August 17, 2022
Friday, February 04, 2022
Tuesday, January 11, 2022
Tuesday, December 28, 2021
Friday, December 24, 2021
Sunday, December 05, 2021
First 2 months of hell and getting used to the role.. Which isn’t too bad, given that I took 2 months just to get things into routine. Or rather 1 month for things to get into routine, 1 month to adjust.. 3rd month was back to back of classes, whether I’m a facilitator, a participant, or coordinating it with external partners. 1 more to go for the coming week before I officially close the classes for 2021. 😂
Papers for the house signed end of October, reno started after Deepavali. Both toilets hack + tiling all completed. Hacking of a room’s wall done. Kitchen hacking done. All electric works + air con trunking done. Blinds measurements all completed. Met the carpenter last week to discuss the details of how wide the doors, how many drawers, etc. So once carpentery completes, it just left with the cleaning up and varnishing of floors, and I should be able to move in before CNY. 🤞🏻
Hahaha.. And I’ve friends who 不请自来 already. 🤣 I told *o.. These friends who auto come are those that I’ll have invited anyway. 🤣
So they are the ‘family’ including of the drinking kakis, random friend, birdies, Mr Wong and Ah Bee, sotong, and my immediate family la. The rest sorry (not)! 😂
Anyways, at work since most are back to routines (and trying to manage underperforming, underachieving people), I told myself to take a break by catching dramas again. 😂
Sunday, October 10, 2021
Weekends are the recharge. This weekend was almost perfect.
Celebrated Oktoberfest alone yest at Brozeit with 3 different beers and got myself a Oktoberfest Erdinger mug after chatting with the host! 😆 Shopped for stuff for the house.. And then met Sam for dinner and drinks! 3 beers, 2 welcome cocktails, 2 cocktails. And was still sober enough to be driving. 😂
Had lunch at the recommendation of Mr Wong and Ah Bee. 4 of us went but sat apart (like of course) and it was so good! And met Jack there too! 😄 Such a small world! And it was alcohol diet too of sake. We shared a bottle, one of *o and my fav. And then Jack opened another on his own and had Fiona to bring over to us. 😁 And thank you for Mr Wong for treating us to the lunch! Next month’s lunch at Yoshi’s on us!
Loads of work due but I decided I shall multitask instead tmr during the calls. 😂
Looking forward to next Sat’s sake masterclass with Joshua and Jack again. And of course the restaurant week dinner on Fri.
Was telling *o earlier over dinner/supper how much my social circle has changed. And not in the least upset about it. Lesser drama is good. Work drama is killing me. 🙄 And that with the house coming up, my expensive meals for the months has gone down.. Hahaha. Instead of 1 to 2 every weekend, it’s down to 1 per month. 😂
Looking forward to getting the keys this month, just that am facilitating class yet have to go HDB to sign the documents. 🙄 Fingers crossed that it’s during their prep time rather than my faciliting time. 🤞🏻
































