ok the clock read 20 days to ord but well in fact its just a 5 more working days for me? its amazing how i endured this past 2 years, from an innocent young teen to a more fit n matured intellectual? o wells no one can foresee all this i guess.. a chapter of my life gonna close down soon n i will yet welcome a new spring of life probably out in the workforce.. talking about work, hmm been finding lol. hopefully next week i attc can go work earn $ hahah just found 'Temp PACKER @ IMM 25 26 nov" hmmm shall consider.. work work money money den holiday rite dun u agree? we should all work towards our DREAMS. i wanna travel around n see the world in a bigger picture ;)).. o yea. i miss taking neo prints.. the vibrant colours and the photogenic me inside.. lol bu yao lian las. ;X shalll take one soon lol/

jus back from a tiring day touring the city. morning went polyclinic report sick wasnt feelin too well with flu n sore throat. wells i admit i wanted to try get 3 days attc so i can book in sunday but den again whats fated shall be so ended up with 2 days attc. have to head to neesoon camp for dental.. had a last taste of the melted cheese burger at the canteen there where the uncle told me sadly its the last week they are selling the burger as complaints have been made by the neighbouring stalls.. dun dare to think of how to survive in such a competitive environment. he even tried sell lobang to me hmm.. took 980 to town.. weather was outstanding hot la.. had lunch at cafe cartel where service was relatively cui. but i had a full lunch there.. perhaps i dun have much of an appetite also.. den we went singing at kbox rather than partyworld as its cheaper. hmm sore bit dry din sing too much lest for 'ai qing nv shen' me dedicating to the 2 other bitch club members absent from the gathering haha. spent time walking aaround orchard in the rain which is abit sian. i din have mood also just felt kinda down n low these days. the scary feeling of loneliness.. i dread it. well i managed to find some comfort in watching tvb dramas 'tang xin feng bao' but it got rather emo as the show drags on. to my frens, im sry tt i have been cold or not understanding to u guys this days..

woa lately have been watching n chionging hk dramas just finished 千谎百计. the conclusion i draw form this drama is 一百万个人就有一百万个贪念，一百万个谎言！so dun believe in what others do or say easily.yups now watching ; wu dong quan cheng' n 'tang xin feng bao'. time is an abundance these days tt i dunno how i should spend this time.. seeing some of my frens ord makes me feel sad, well nvm its gonna be my turn le in 30 days time~

woa. the date is drawing ever so near but yet i feel time is moving ever so slow like a snail crossing the great wall of china.. i dunno if everyone feels this way, a part of me hope to get out of this regimented organization of SAF yet there are certain things which i cant seem to let go for now.. i will miss my bunkmates.. the fun.. the food at the mess.. the times our team did duty at the standby bunk.. well.. my NS liability is coming to an end, its time to draw down the curtains n yet i am reluctant about it.. but as the saying goes, time will be a healing factor, as time passes by memories will fade and all n i really wonder who in the coy will even rmb my existence and appreciate me as a true fren who will share his weals n woes tgt. i dunno n im afraid of knowing..

putting aside all these, as i m enjoying my leave this few days, have been looking arnd for jobs, wa quite hard to find one man.. hmm hope i get a well paid n a job that i enjoy by then when i ORD. its been a while since anyone invaded my ' gan qing shi jie', shld i say my heart went frozen since 2yrs ago? i wonder whose FIRE could melt the ice in my heart i await..