It has been a while since I've updated this neglected blog of mine. A lot have happened in the last 2 years and I've entered into my last 30s year last month, hitting the big 4 in no time. Sigh...age is just a number but it's a number that stress people especially when health condition is not great, aging is REAL with grey hair spouting our everyday, less energy to do much except working to earn my living.
Time flies, here are we in the second half of 2021. Looking back the last 6 months, I'm guilty of not giving myself much time to self-care and take care of my health. In the past, most of us used to have overseas holidays at least once or twice a year to rejuvenate ourselves from work. We are all human and definitely need to take time to rest for the longer journey ahead.
Work from home routine during the pandemic was (and is) brutal, with blurred line between work and personal life at home. Not to mention about the extended hours we spend to reply some emails into nights. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining and I do find my work exhilarating and fulfilling. However, my work routine also left no time for self-care mentally and physically. I know of friends who have managed it much better than me, having no issue switching off and enjoy their personal time to workout and spend time with their family and friends. I hear you, everyone has a choice and I'm aware that I've the choice. It didn't daunt on me until I had a heart scare few weeks ago with the condition call Vertigo, my body gave up and doctor couldn't provide any remedy except asking me to rest up. It's a signal that my body is sending to tell me to stop and rest, after days of working extended hours, barely had <5 hrs of sleep for straight two weeks. I told myself I cannot go on like this as I've been doing working such extended hours for 1.5 year now, it's damaging my health and mental state for sure. Yes, I am tired, very very tired to be exact! I don't know how much longer can I endure such lifestyle without the freedom to go out to have fun, travel and meet up with friends like in the past. I felt my world has been locked in a empty space during COVID-19.
Though many envy my flexibility to work from home for the long time, saving up lots on time, transport and dining outside. Have anyone wondered how much more interesting our lives were pre-COVID? We can meet our friends for dinner, go for a movie, sing ktv and have meals with our families freely. Where have all the freedom goes? I feel suffocated at times though I understand the importance to do our part to control the pandemic as a country. I've seen so many countries struggling to manage COVID at the beginning and many have already loosen up on travel advisory as well as public engagement given that we've fought the COVID-19 war for 1.5 year now. I miss the interactions with colleagues and friends, I miss the freedom to go anywhere we want in bigger groups, I miss not having to wear masks everywhere we go. Thinking back of the pre-pandemic days, I realised we have all taken small things in life for granted, including dining in a hawker centre with family.
I know COVID-19 maybe here to to stay, it could evolved to be a common flu where it will never go away over a long long time. I wonder when is the day that we can resume our lives like normal, going to work normally and have more time to ourselves and our family and friends. COVID-19, are you done yet? Can you just pls leave the earthlings alone and let us lead our normal lives pls??
Last Sunday, I had my first dose of Pfizer vaccine jabbed. Thankful for no major side effects and I'm looking forward to my second dose vaccine 4 weeks later. Even knowing that vaccine doesn't provide 100% defense against the virus, I'm still grateful for our government's arrangement to have free vaccine for everyone in Singapore to reduce the chance to get serious fatality if COVID hit us badly one day. The process to get vaccinated is seamless though I've waiting for a long long time for the last group of Singapore citizen to be scheduled for this vaccine. Everyone in my family were vaccinated long time ago because my Sis and BIL work in healthcare industry.
My life has really been just work and work since the 1st day of WFH arrangement in January 2020 during my last job in red camp, no joke to be working 100% at home for the last 1.5 years. Literally feeling like a freelancer now. Diet has been bad with all the food deliveries since I can't cook anything decent, weight has been adding because of the lousy food I take and lack of exercise including walking (my house is just 92sqm, not much space that I can walk around except from workdesk to toilet). I'm totally leading a SEDANTARY life at home, pls don't ask me why I'm obese now.
Dreaming of using my travel budget saved for the last 1.5 year to see Aurora Borealis in Finland some day when the border is open again. It's one of the many things that I want to do in my bucket list. Prior to the pandemic, I've tried to convince myself that its just "lights" in the sky and it's not worth spending so much money to go so far to see them. Now I think otherwise because what if I die tomorrow in my sleep and I've not witness this magical lights that I've yearning to see with my own eyes. Can't wait to see it some day!
Till the next time I have the mood to write down my thoughts. I should really pick up writing blog again so that I've records of my life and feelings when I'm gone. Recently watch a very meaningful Korean drama call "Move to Heaven" which illustrates the professional of helping deceased to clean up their belonging for their loved ones. Why do we human only see those details and start to treasure a person when the person has gone to heaven? Life is very short, yet most of us are constantly working to meet our ends without appreciating the little things in life and spending more time with our loved ones more. I'm again guilty of devoting my entire life to work, which is why I've signed up for part-time course on Digital Marketing which has just started. Good luck to my self-improvement journey!
