Thursday, November 12, 2015

心情物语

My last post was in March...it has been 8 months without postings on my blog and honestly I do miss doing this. During the MIA period, many things have happened, one of the most major milestones is got married on 14 Jun 2015. If you asked me, what do I remember from that "special" day, I don't really remember anything except that its a very very tiring day. Many ladies would say the day that you got married will be your happiest day of your life, I don't agree. After wedding, life goes back to the same routine life where we stay in our parents place as we have not moved things over yet. Moreover, he has to start his new module just the next day after our wedding so we also didn't plan for a honeymoon.
 
Only in July that we moved into our new place at Capeview, many would think that one should feel most exciting to move into a new place. Again, I didn't think so and its a more inconvenient location for me to go anywhere compared to my mum place. Didn't feel that married life is any difference from single life, we still lead our own life and get busy with our own stuffs. As usual, I am busy with my work and he is always rushing assignment and exam. Till now, married for 5 months, I no longer feel the need to go for honeymoon, especially the emotion is not quite right.
 
Just last weekend, caught a movie call Our Times 我的少女時代, which I cried coz of the emotions stirred up during the movie. Honestly, since young, we have so many inspirations such has getting into a good uni, secured a good job and have the most perfect marriage. I wonder how many has achieved these? I am probably the most flopped person who didn't accomplish in any of the above coz I didn't do well for uni, always struggling for busy jobs and didn't really get into a perfect marriage. Suddenly, I feel that I have wasted this life for being such a failure in life. Yes....totally period and emo after watching the show. 我要的幸福呢?Really need a happy pill to cheer me up but seems like everything and everyone is dragging me down.
 
Really love this song by 田馥甄 Hebe Tien "小幸運 A Little Happiness". Very meaningful lyrics for sharing. Hoping for a happier life totally...
 
小幸运
电影 我的少女时代 主题曲

作词:徐世珍、吴辉福
作曲:Jerry C
编曲:Jerry C

我听见雨滴 落在青青草地
我听见远方 下课钟声响起
可是我没有听见你的声音 认真呼唤我姓名

爱上你的时候 还不懂感情
离别了 才觉得刻骨铭心
为什么没有发现 遇见了你 是生命最好的事情

也许当时
忙着微笑和哭泣 忙着追逐天空中的流星
人理所当然的忘记
是谁风里 雨里 一直默默守护在原地

原来你是 我最想留住的幸运
原来我们 和爱情曾经靠得那么近
那为我对抗世界的决定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一尘不染的真心

与你相遇 好幸运
可我也失去 为你泪流满面的权利
但愿在我看不到的天际 你张开了双翼
遇见你的注定 她会有多幸运

青春是段跌跌撞撞的旅行
拥有着后知后觉的美丽
来不及感谢 是你给我勇气 让我能做回我自己

也许当时
忙着微笑和哭泣 忙着追逐天空中的流星
人理所当然的忘记
是谁风里 雨里 一直默默守护在原地

原来你是 我最想留住的幸运
原来我们 和爱情曾经靠得那么近
那为我对抗世界的决定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一尘不染的真心

与你相遇 好幸运
可我也失去 为你泪流满面的权利
但愿在我看不到的天际 你张开了双翼
遇见你的注定 她会有多幸运

Sunday, March 29, 2015

My Last Respect to Mr Lee Kuan Yew

28 Mar 2015 - I have finally managed to pay my respect to Mr Lee Kuan Yew at the Parliament House, the last day before he sets off his last journey. After many days of "struggles" and "procrastination" due to the extremely long hours of queue for the past few nights. I did not sleep well for 2 consecutive nights as I woke up every 2 hours to check the status of the queue at Padang, hoping that the crowd get lesser in late nights and I was totally wrong! In fact, the queue hours got longer at night than in the day when everyone is working. On Friday evening, the was even a closure of queue until 6.15am the next day, I was worried as I know there will be many people who are like me who did not manage to make their way down from Wed to Fri and Sat is the LAST DAY to do so. Therefore, I made up my mind to make my trip down alone after meeting my ID to handover my new place in the morning. No regret for this decision and I am glad I did not miss this chance to express my gratitude to Mr Lee personally. Though I have never met him before, he is certainly someone whom I respect a lot since young.
 
 
Honestly, I felt so much at ease after my visit to pay my respect to this great Founding Father personally. The process to Padang was not easy, I have arrived at Padang at 1.40pm and took a super long route from Padang to Floating Platform then Singapore River before arriving at Parliament House. The distance is one thing, the humidity and crowd was really quite horrible. I was especially irritated by some ignorant uncles who kept talking non stop about anti-govt issues under then hot sun and a bunch of young teenagers who were busy discussing what to eat for dinner after the queue. In my mind, I was wondering if they are sincere about paying respect to Mr Lee? Without these people, probably the queue will be faster and more bearable. I paid my respect to Mr Lee at 4.30pm, about 3 hours in total, not as scary as what was stated on FB of 5 hours. Phew....Thankfully, I have made it there and no regret for queuing for 3 hours to pay my respect to Mr Lee. The advantage of visiting alone is the ability to walk faster and squeeze through the crowd at my own speed. I was literally speed walking and enjoy the sceneries along the way, coupled with very friendly volunteers and military folks who was ushering, offering food, drinks and umbrellas to everyone. I must say they are the most amazing organizing committee who have sacrifice so much time under the hot weather for long hours to make this possible.
 
As of 10pm, 442,297 people have paid respects to Mr Lee Kuan Yew at Parliament House. 125,450 condolence cards were collected..Truly an amazing record which Mr Lee has created even at his departure. Thank you Mr Lee for uniting the nation once again and proves that we all appreciate your lifetime devotion to create Singapore from a fishing village to a first class country in 50 years. No amount of words can express my gratitude for Mr Lee for his brilliant vision and effort to make this happen. Without Mr Lee, there will not be a country call Singapore in today's world map. The entire week national mourning is also a reflection week for me as I have taken time to watch the historical documentaries which share what Mr Lee and his team has done to create Singapore. Mr Lee has cried on national TV when Singapore was separated from Malaysia and 50 years later, the whole nation mourn for his demise. Frankly, the 24/7 reports and documentaries on Mr Lee and his achievements and life stories were quite overwhelming but I must say it was also a crash course of Singapore's history and how we have evolved over the years. Personally, I did not know so much about his efforts in many areas such as HDB, education, bilingual society, green city, world-class airport, non-corrupted govt etc...the list goes on but I believe not many Singaporeans of my generation and beyond know all these achievements of Mr Lee. Maybe MOE could set Mr Lee's story as a history chapter to allow the future generations to know him better from now on. His legendary stories and admirable determination should be passed on to everyone Singaporean.
 
Beyond those national matters, I have also got to know Mr Lee better in terms of his true love towards his wife and family. He once replied to a report's question of what matters to him most, he said "My Family and My Country". This shows how much he cares for Singapore, he take Singapore as his big family and he's responsible for everyone's well-being in the country. Such a heavy burden he has got on his shoulders indeed. Total salute him for his sense of accountability for the country. Even though he was the top most respected man in Singapore, he remained frugal and stayed in a simple house instead of Istana. He lead a simple family life with his wife, 2 sons and 1 daughter, who are all very respected people today. His personal life stories really amazed me of how he has led his 91 years and remain concern of the country even before he was admitted to hospital on 5 Feb 2015 in SGH due to pneumonia. Based on his officer, he refused to get admitted to the hospital in the middle of the night as he did not want to wake the senior doctors up to treat him. It is indeed very thoughtful for a top leader to think so much for everyone including his doctors, he has shown so much love to the people around him. Not forgetting sending birthday cards to his regular cobbler and anyone who has served him long enough to establish a relationship with this most respected Founding Father. He has taught me one important thing: Never take anyone for granted. Everyone regardless of which level should be treated with respect and care, which make one more sincere and happier in life. Truly, if everyone could learn this attribute from him, Singapore will definitely become a happier and more gracious country to live in. Thank you Mr Lee for being such a role model to us and teaching us the basics of life. :)
 
 
This week of readings on all media platforms really exposed so much worthy information of Mr Lee, which is rarely talked about in the past. It is a pity that we only know him better after he is gone. I have been reading faithfully on his FB and CNA this week, I must say I have gained so much knowledge and good values from Mr Lee. His extraordinary life has definitely made an impact to me in one way or another. I hope to be as resilient as him to handle challenges in life and always have courage to be different to create an impact in any aspect. Some good reads about Mr Lee can be found on his dedicated page: RememberingLeeKuanYew and His 10 most significant speeches and The Soft Truth of LKY. There are too many meaningful articles and videos of this great leader but let's take time to digest his stories and apply his values in our daily lives. I am sure he will be glad that we adopt his positive values and help to make Singapore a better place for everyone.
 
Lastly, I would still like to thank Mr Lee Kuan Yew for devoting his whole life to Singapore. We will be forever grateful to your contributions and sacrifice for the nation. Though you may have become history today, your spirits will remain here to spur us on, we will continue to improve Singapore and make you proud wherever you are. We are so blessed to have you as our leader, globally recognized and known to be a great man. May you rest in peace now after working so hard your whole lifetime, hope you will rest well and reunite with your loving wife Mdm Kwa in another world. Once again, big thank you for everything that you have done, Mr Lee.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Tribute to Mr Lee Kuan Yew (1923-2015)

23rd March 2015 - A memorable day for all Singaporean as we have lose our Founding Father, Mr Lee Kuan Yew, at 3.18am in Singapore General Hospital. Though the news of Mr Lee being hospitalized has been circulated for several days, whole Nation has been wishing him to get well to celebrate SG50, Singapore's 50th birthday, with us on 9 Aug 2015. Regrettably, Mr Lee has left us to join his beloved wife this morning quietly, without alarming everyone. Till his death, Mr Lee chose to leave quietly and peacefully, with greatest honour and respect from the whole Nation. A friend once mentioned there is an old saying, the ideal time to leave the world is before breakfast, as that means he has left leaving the full three meals for his descendants.
 
Woke up this morning and saw the news of his demise in the middle of the night, already feeling very upset and thought that I should be able to handle his death well. I am so wrong...Today is the first day of National Mourning and news feed and media are stirring up too much emotion. All the old documentaries of how he has fought to bring Singapore to who we are today. His strong determination and courage to go through the hurdles to create a little island to a developed country. Mr Lee's admirable vision, selfish sacrifice, passion and strong responsibility to give Singaporeans the best, he had far exceeded his duty as a Prime Minister, 1959-1990. 



In Memory of Mr Lee Kuan Yew, 1923-2015
http://www.rememberingleekuanyew.sg/
 
In an interview with Mr LHL, he mentioned that Mr LKY has treated Singapore like his personal responsibility, he is a father of the Lee family but also the Founding Father of every Singaporean. Even after he has stepped down from the Cabinet, he continued to encourage Mr LHL to challenge new ideas and motivate him to make Singapore a better place for everyone. No word can express my appreciate to Mr Lee Kuan Yew, thank you for devoting your whole life to build Singapore, creating a country where we call Home - a country that is small but outstanding. A country that is peaceful, clean, organized, uncorrupted govt, world-class education system, airport and a sustainable govt system to run this country. Mr Lee is a visionary leader who has seen through Singapore’s independence in 1965. Without him, there will not be Singapore today, a country that enables businesses and plays an important role to the world economy. It is Mr Lee's dedication, vision and shrewd decisions have led us where we are today.
 
The period of National Mourning will start from Mar 23 to Mar 29 (Monday to Sunday) and a State Funeral Service will be held at 2pm on Sunday at the University Cultural Centre, National University of Singapore. The State Funeral Service will be followed by a private cremation at Mandai Crematorium. I will definitely want to pay my last respect to Mr LKY, an irreplaceable remarkable leader.
 
Mr Lee, Rest in Peace and may you become an angel and continue the journey with your wife at the other end of the rainbow. You will be deeply missed and forever remembered by everyone.  I will share your outstanding stories with the future generations and you will continue to inspire Singaporeans.

Monday, March 02, 2015

心情日记

Happy Lunar New Year! It's March 2015 already, the CNY is coming to an end very soon. This year's CNY is especially meaningful to me as it will be my last CNY celebrating in Mum's place as I will be moving to new place after wedding in June. Lots of mixed feeling as I have spent close to 30 years in this place where I went through my education, grow up with my sister, having dinners with my parents and of course many other fond memories in my mind. My Papa left this world in my current place as he has requested so, I can still can remember every scene on that day that he has left us 8 years ago.
 
Perhaps as I grow older, I find CNY becoming a less interesting festival where everyone has to meet up even though we only meet once every year and not familiar with one another. This year coincident with the weekend and we all enjoyed a longer CNY but yet I find it so draggy and boring for the 4 days. *Sigh...* Don't know what's wrong with me but I just didn't like to meet people nowadays...too many questions and too many unnecessary comments. As usual, my friends who are 90% married no long organize gatherings often since they have their own families and kids already. Totally understandable and I realized that I don't have many friends around anymore...Haha..Amazing when I can meet people I know almost everywhere I go. I guess its just different level of friends, even my closest gfs hardly meet me nowadays as we all get too busy with our work and personal lives. Is that really the way we should lead our lives?
 
Truly, I feel that my life now is only work, home, reno and nieces...Every weekend is about shopping for stuff for new home, spending time with mum and playing with nieces. Wanted to spend time on myself and yet don't know what to do..wanna meet friends and no one is free to meet me. That's life! Counting down 3.5 months to the big day and I didn't feel the excitement at all. Not quite normal but I guess there are just too many things yet to be done such as Meeting-the-parents dinner, Guo Da Li, gown fitting, food Tasting, An Chuang, etc....the list goes on. Reno has been progressing slow due to CNY shut down period, should be able to complete by end Mar I hope! Need to move on to other preparation for the wedding. Jia you bah!
 
As for work, hasn't been feeling the zest to cheong for work recently, perhaps really burnt out for the last 1 year. Need to spur myself up with more energy to create more excitement at work. I guess there are too many uncertainties at work and the whole company seems to be very low morale... really need to stay positive and keep going! Look forward to the preparation to the launch of new office early next year, got to plan out a series of activities before that.
 
Recently hasn't been at a tip-top condition and getting very emotional,  probably due to lack of sleep and constantly experiencing neck as well as backache. Health hasn't been good, been having flu and sore throat on and off recent months. Need to take care of myself more before all my spare parts give way. Haha.. Urgently need to lose 5kgs before June, seems so difficult coz I don't have the motivation to go exercise! Not sure how I can do that, just have to watch my diet and force myself to exercise more regularly from Mar onwards!
 
2015 is really gonna be another challenging year for me, hope all things will fall in place in time to come! :)

Monday, January 05, 2015

It's 2015!

Again.. I didn't manage to write more for 2014 and we are already on the 5th day of 2015. Seriously think time is just passing too fast and there are too many things to be done. I must say it was a good break for me from work for the Xmas and new year holidays. Honestly.. the work pace has definitely slowed down for the year end which has just passed, definitely less stressful and less OTs. Happy that I have got another person to help out in the team, I realized that I prefer to work in a team than being a individual contributor because having a team will spark off more new ideas and of course share the workload together.
 
As mentioned in the last post, 2014 has not been an smooth year for me as there were lots of challenges and down time. Nevertheless, I am glad that it was over and moving towards a more exciting and hopefully happier year 2015. This year, I didn't set any resolution as I know I won't keep to it anyway. Haha...Just hope to slim down by at least 5kg to look my best on my big day in June and lead a healthier lifestyle by eating more nutritious food and have sufficient rest. I believe all these should contribute to a happier stareo somehow.
 
2015 is definitely gonna be a memorable year for me as I am stepping into another stage of my life together with MP. Though sometimes I think I am not that ready to settle down and not to mention having a family next time, I guess its part and parcel of "growing up" bah. Recently has been busy running around to kick start the renovation of our new home. Frankly, it just boils down to budget! Many decisions can be simpler if budget is not so much of a concern. Frankly, comparing quotation from different vendors can be a frustrating and time consuming process, I guess I am just lacking of patience to do all these...Really need to learn to take things easier and lower expectations of things.
 
As we enter the new year, I hope that everyone would be able to find closure within themselves for any unfinished matters last year, move on and embrace what's ahead of us. Thank you everyone who has helped me in one way or another in the past year and let's remind ourselves to treasure our loved ones as much as we can. Bring it on, 2015! :)