Nice Song from Fish Leong...

I used to listen to Fish Leong's songs in the past but somehow lost track since I stopped buying CDs and no time to download songs. Recently been listening to online music and happe ned to come across this song - 会呼吸的痛 which was released 2 years back. It is very meaningful and made me cried..getting abit emotional but its just a nice song to share with my readers. Click here to view her mtv http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVr_cM_d55I.

歌曲：会呼吸的痛
歌手：梁静茹
专辑：崇拜

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

Work, work and work.....

It has been a very busy and down week.....Been drowning myself in work to make myself feel better. I have set my personal record since PC days in the new company - 11.30pm! Haiz....perhaps I can really work better without phonecalls, meetings and endless emails coming in after work bah. I am more productive at the wee hours when I can focus to think and plan my work. I am NOT a workaholic, I hate myself for doing nothing but work too!

Well.. it has been a shitty week but at least I am looking forward to the company shut down from mid dec onwards till next year to have a good rest, but dun even know if I will still be going for the long waited trip. Very lost.... Perhaps should start to do some alternative planning already. Am I still in time to plan for a good holiday? Haiz......I am sad..need to cheer myself up.

Its year end but I dun sense any joyous mood at all. Think something is wrong with me.....:(

Sharings on PMS

Personally, I really dislike the TIME of the month because I will behave very differently before and during period. I don't know about other woman..but I hate the inconvenience and discomfort which comes with period. During period, I will get easily irritated, sensitive, tired, cramps etc.. Out of curosity, I decide to check out on PMS and here's what I have found from Wikipedia:

PMS- Premenstrual Syndrome: A collection of physical, psychological, and emotional symptoms related to a woman's menstrual cycle. Such symptoms are usually predictable and occur regularly during the two weeks prior to menses.

More than 200 different symptoms have been identified, but the three most prominent symptoms are irritability, tension and dysphoria (unhappiness).The exact symptoms and their intensity vary from woman to woman. Other PMS symptoms includes abdominal bloating, cramps, breast, swelling, stress, insomnia, mood swing, acne and fatigue!

The list of PMS is SO SO LONG.....My goodness, its so painful to be a woman!!! This post is specially dedicated to ALL the MAN reading this. Its for your general knowledge and to understand woman better. Please sympathise with your wife, gf, mum and female colleagues if they behave weirdly or have mood swings coz we DO NOT WANT to experience all these too! A word of advise: Guys...its wiser to be more sensitive and give in to the ladies during this period of time in order to reduce unnecessary conflicts. Haha :)

Well....given a choice, I want to be a man next life!!! :P Save all the money to doll up, shopping, facial etc and most importantly NO PMS!

2012 Movie Review

Last weekend, I have watched the long waited movie - 2012 on Sunday! Not easy to book a ticket over the weekend coz seems like many people have planned to watch that movie already. The movie is quite long...2.5 hrs but I would say that its really a awesome show and fantastic effects! Though its a typical disaster movie with quite expected plot, I still think its worth catching this show in cinema for the very impressive effects such as tsunami, volcano eruption, roads cracking apart and earth sinking...Hehe...I just into such effects movie bah. My bf and I both enjoyed the movie alot! Story wise...its very similar to Noah Ark in bible where selected people survived in this disaster and they started a new world after 21/12/2012.

After the movie, I was just thinking...21/12/2o12 is actually NOT that far from now. What if the prediction of the end of the world really come true?? I doubt so but there again, we must always treasure each and everyday to be happy. Since it is something that we cannot even avoid, might as well take it in our strides? No one lives forever anyway right? If it really come true, I just hope that I am with my family and loved ones at the last moment...Haha..emo right? Really nothing much to ask for if I know I will leave this world the next moment. Pondering?

Anyway, I have started my new job for a few days already, been very very busy going for trainings, meetings and executions. Frankly, this job is not really what I want but its something that is not too mandane as each event is different. There are lots of challenges in this job but I do hope I can manage them well and prove myself well. Sadly, as I am new to most of systems there, the learning curve is really quite steep. Nevertheless, its good to learn new things and make things happen. I enjoy the feeling of achieving objectives and simply being useful. At least, I feel there is a direction for brand new day ahead every morning! :)

New Beginning

Year 2009 is coming to an end as we step into Nov. However, I am having a new beginning in Nov in a new job. I am moving on to a new full time job in marketing with a conference event company. I know this news may come too sudden to many who may have thought that I am doing pretty well with GE. Nevertheless, I must say that I have learnt a lot in terms of knowledge and skills from being a FA with GE for almost 2 years. However, this career is really all about how long you can sustain yourself to prove your ability as there is no fixed pay and the commission is like a roller coaster ride. To be frank, I really find it myself unable to sustain the expenses as I have depleted my savings and I have my set of financial commitments. :( It is painful to convert GE to part time again coz I have converted to full time to give my best shot. It is sad to say that I have failed to do well enough to stay in this career...but I do hope to continue servicing my clients as far as I can by doing part time. Apologies to all my clients out there..Sorry to have disappointed you in one way or another.

I am looking forward to the new beginning in the new job next week as I foresee many challenges and responsibilities in this new position. Looking forward to the normal lifestyle to have a job and be home for dinner with my family. I think I need this kind of balance between work and lifestyle. Although it is definitely better to be your own boss but you must be willing to be give up your personal and family time for your clients, including burning your weekends. Haha..I guess one of the happiest people for this decision is my mum coz I have finally found a proper job as she always think they FA is not even a job. Haiz....

Anyway, there are bound to be pros and cons to be employee or employer, just a matter of whether you are ready to uptake the challenges. Good luck to me for this new beginning…

Tribute to Michael Jackson - THIS IS IT

I have just caught the movie - "THIS IS IT". This movie will be showed exclusively for a two-week limited engagement around the world. It is a rare, behind-the-scenes look at the performer as he developed, created and rehearsed for his 50 sold-out concerts. Personally, I like his few hits like Heal the World, Black or White, Smooth Criminal, Man in the Mirror and many more.. On the same day, I bought his compilation CD - The Essential of Michael Jackson to show my support for his passion for music and environment. Decided not to get the THIS IS IT CD as it does not have as many nice songs as the compilation.

To be frank, I am never a fan of MJ, but I really feel that he was very talented and good person after the movie. Being a king of the pop, he did not show any form of arrogance during the rehearsals. Through the rehearsals, I have seen how talented he was in terms of rhythms & beats, music production and of course his dance skill. I am indeed deeply impressed! :) I do not know his background much but I did not really appreciate him due to his many negative rumours and plastic surgery. In fact, I do feel bad about that coz he was just another normal person even though he was the king of the pop. Despite his achievements, he was just a simple person who had evolved to be a superstar by situation afterall. MJ was fortunate to find his direction and emerged to be the renowned superstar worldwide. He has million of fans out there who appreciate his music.

What's more, he has been very much into conservation. He wrote songs about saving our mother Earth and has shown so much passion to remind everyone of us to take action now before it is too late. With his meaningful music, I believe many started doing something to be environmental friendly.

MJ was one of the most talented and influential entertainers of all time. His unique contributions to music and dance, along with a highly publicised personal life, made him a prominent figure in the music industry for four decades. He passed away on 25 Jun 2009, but I believe he will always live in the memory of his fans all over the world.

Meiling and Gordon Wedding - 3 Oct 2009

Finally got time to pen down some thoughts and upload pictures for Meiling & Gordon's Wedding held on 3 Oct 2009, at Marina Mandarin Hotel. I was pretty exciting for this wedding coz I was the mandarin emcee for the dinner...Quite stressful but definitely an enriching experience with my english emcee, Mervyn Ho. He was a good emcee partner, tried to calm me down even though he was quite nervous due to the big crowd that evening,think they have invited more than 30 tables lor = 300 people! Gosh~ The best thing is the video montage was not ready on time and we got to last minute change the sequence of the program during the dinner. Luckily, we worked out the programmes and everything went on smoothly after all. Thanks to the banquet staff for staying so calm and helped us to plan out the sequence.

Anyway, the morning gate crashing session was super duber funny! We all have our fair share of angpow and laughers coz the brothers are so spontaneous..Haha!!! Check out the video by the videographer: http://lighthousevideo.wordpress.com/2009/10/03/wedding-video-for-gordon-meiling/

I shall let the photos do the "talking" of the memories:

7 pretty jiemeis in the morning

The loving couple - Meiling and Gordon with their "agreement" Pretty bride in Gua with the jiemeis

7 pretty jiemeis at the dinner ~ Great teamwork!

It was indeed a tiring day from waking up at 6am till mid night for the wedding day, its all worth it coz I have seen this couple from friends, dating till marriage since NTU days..Quite alot of "gan chu" especially when I was watching their wedding montage during the dinner. They are so so loving despite so many years of dating. I can really feel "love is in the air" from the couple at every moment and truely very happy for the both of them. Hope to see little gordon or meiling soon ah...then we can be the Godmother liao! The couple subsquently went to Europe for honeymoon, envy sia! :) Wishing the both of them happily forever after....

Congratulations to Sis & William!

Enough of sad or emotional postings recently, here is a happy news to share: My sister has accepted William's proposal last week, she is getting married le!!! :) I am pretty exciting about it coz I have seen so many friends getting married recent years and now my sister! :P

Also, Xerene has also accepted Gavin's proposal recently, another bride to be. :) Hmm..think more and more people are going to get married liao..Stress~!

I am glad that she has found someone who loves her so much and takes care of her for life. Really very happy for the couple! Waiting for them to set the BIG day..Hehe..need to slim down and prepare for their wedding day lor. Congratulations my dearest sis! :)

Meiling's Hen's Nite on 12th Sep 09

Last Sat was one of my best gfs - Meiling, Hen's Nite. We went to The Pump Room at Clarke Quay and it was a fun night with the spontaneous girls, food, beer, wine and of course missions for Bride to Be (BTB) to complete for us. :P Meiling was super "onz" for all our requests which made the hen's nite absolutely fun! :) Think she will never forget that night of things that she has never imagine that she will do in her whole life. Hehe.. I did not take many photos so have to wait for them to transfer to me. Here is the solo photo of the funny BTB:

Looking forward to her actual wedding on 3rd Oct 2009! Another NTU sister getting married le, I will be her mandarin emcee that night..Hope everything will go well. :)

Just an emotional posting...

Recently I have been feeling extremely lost and lethargic…I don't know why??? Perhaps because my biz has been slow and everything else are not looking good. Its not that I am negative, but please teach me how to be positive when everything in my life is rocky! ;( Really need to reflect and find my direction in life! You know….I really really feel that my world is collapsing and I am such a failure in life! Whatever it is, I still feel blessed to have supportive friends like roomie Joyce, shifu MQ, buddy Vivien and dearest sister. Thank you.... :)

Today, I have met a long lost friend from JC days – JX. It has been so long since we last met and I really enjoyed listening to him and the many years of updates in his life. Though it was suppose to be a prospecting meeting, we have not even talk about insurance! Simply coz we have too much things to update each other for the many many years. I realized he has matured and changed a lot over the years, for the better of course. Listening to his “dramatic” story of how his gf and him braved through the “line of dead” made me realize that true love do exists. I don’t know why but I can feel his love for his gf so much when he shared the incident..maybe he is really a good narrator bah…Haha. :)

Hope JX don’t mind I share his love story over my blog. On one fine day last year, his gf – May was down with pneumonia suddenly and was subsequently warded in hospital. Her condition deteriorated in a short 12 hours and her organs started to fail! :( The doctor told JX that she might not make it over that night…JX broke down and refused to accept the fact. He prayed and stayed by May’s side, waiting for her to gain her conscious. May was only 25 years old, healthy and sporty, it was such a sudden blow to her family and JX. He didn’t go to work and stayed by May’s side day and night for 2 months and miracle really happened! May recovered fully and even the doctor said that it was a miracle! During the 2 months, JX did a lot of things for May..e.g. helping her to find 300 blood donor when she was having internal bleeding, handled all the hospitalisation and insurance issues. Kudos to him! Knowing his character, I would think that he would have went crazy for almost losing his most beloved gf. Well, he did it and now they are preparing for their wedding in 2010! I am just so happy for the both of them….being through so much traumatism and finally get to settle down happily ever after.

Do you think this is a true love story?? I think so...and I can never imagine such drama story to happen to my friend. I feel so sorry that I wasn’t around when he were so down and troubled. I guess I was not even in his mind at that time coz we have lost touched for so long. Maybe that’s the difference between friend and close friends?? One will always think of their closest friends when they are in trouble. Just like one will always think of their loved ones when they are leaving this world….

I enjoyed JX’s love story alot and I must say true love do exists! :) Just an emotional posting here…Hope everyone will learn to treasure every moment with their loved ones and never take your family and friends for granted as you never know when they will no longer be around for you.

相逢是一种缘分，相知是一种过程，相爱是一种幸福 。。。

珍惜生命的每一分每一秒，身边每一位爱你，疼你的人。。。

Long Waited Bangkok Trip (9-12 Aug 09)

Went to Bangkok over the long weekend of National Day - 9-12 Aug 2009, with my dearest 3 woman - Mum, Sis and Roomie Joyce. The trip was definitely fantastic coz I must admit that woman really can SHOP! Haha.. :) If changed to guys, they would probably given up. I was pretty worried for the service apartment that I have booked - Centre Point Service Apartment at Petchaburi. The place is extremely spacious and clean, very satisfied with the service and the crews. There is a mini kitchen which provides all the utensils, water boiler and a big fridge. Haha..not like I am going to stock up stuffs in the hotel over the few days lah. Its a very decent place to stay if you are also on budget...per night is about $89. The breakfast spread is good too, can have very full breakfast before going for shopping exercise! Hehe :)

4 Women at Airport to Bangkok!

Our beds in the Service Apartment

Only 1 cup is mine lah...My fav Ice-Cream!

First day, upon checked into our service apartment, we went to Chatuchak since it only opens on weekend and we arrived on Sunday. Actually really find Chatuchak not a great place to shop, given the mess, crowd and HEAT! That place is really poorly ventilated and I doubt I will want to go back again when I visit BKK again. Then we went to MBK to continue our shopping objective! :P Didnt get much things in MBK except a jersey for Jerome. :( Still empty handed after a days of shopping. In the evening, we had sumptuous Japanese food at Fuji Restarant at MBK, very affordable price, its like bento meal at $10 per pax! :) I personally find the Jap food there quite nice, nicer and fresher than Singapore lor.

Day 2, we went to Platunum Square and Platunum Shopping Mall near our service apartment. Its only a 10 min walk to the shopping mall, excellent location! These 2 places are really paradise for girls and woman...many levels of endless shops..its SCARY lor. Haha..Roomie don't seems to be interested in the type of clothes there, so she abit sian. :) Hehe..Mum got plenty of stuffs there, sis and me got some T-shirts and shorts there too. Very cheap lor..THB100 is about S$4! Then we went to Central World shopping mall, which is more up class than the rest. Things there are not cheap, but there is this Zen department store having some mega sales going out. After that, we went to Som Boon for our seafood dinner! Yummy to me but the rest dun think so lah..its very cheap too, S$68 for for 5 dishes of food and superb service.

Dinner at Som Boon Seafood Resturant

Day 3, we went to Siam Square and Siam Paragon, which is also a shopping paradise! Roomie likes Siam Square alot and bought quite a number of things there. Haha.. Finally! Mum, sis and me also got some stuffs there..think this place sells more quality things than chatuchak and pratunum so more worth for money. Then we had our lunch cum dinner at KFC at Siam Paragon, the KFC there is really less oily and more crispy than Singapore. Nice! Plus they have many other varieties like fried rice and other chicken menu..quite a pity not in Singapore.

3 of us in our cutie smiley tees

Day 4, we had our yummy breakfast at our service apartment and checked out already. SO SAD!!! But our hotel crew very nice, they got us a bigger taxi as we have 7 luggages to bring to airport! Haaha..mind you, we arrived with 4 luggages only. Steady right? :) Oh ya..we went Massage for the 3 nights in BKK..super SHIOK! Cheap and good massage near our service apartment.

Self-taken by Roomie - At the custom to leave BKK

Well, I must say this trip was really fun and enjoyable, got to SHOP till dropped and had lots of good food! Mum has more stamina than I thought, she really accompany us to KILL all the shopping malls. Kudos to mum! As for roomie, great roomie as usual but lousy dun dare to watch gross movie in our room. Haha...Weak leh roomie. Must train you liao. Sis also quite stamina..never complain just SHOP and SHOP. :) Looking forward to another BKK trip! I realised I am quite a shopaholic hor! :)

Cycling Trip in Malaysia

27-28 Jun 09 - I went to Pengarang, Malaysia for a cycling trip with my agency as our half yearly review. The experience was definitely unforgettable coz of all the adventure and hardship. The last time that I ride on a bicycle was when I was in Primary 5 or 6 during a sch excursion. I had a terrible accident and flew out of the bicycle coz of wrong braking. It became a probia to me and I have never ride a bicycle ever since then. This trip has really made me overcome this probia as I have no choice but to ride the bicycle on my own for the whole journey of 60km was indeed a challenge to my stamina.

On 27th Jun, we met at Changi Ferry Terminal at 7.30am and rented the bicycle from Singapore! Hmm...i must say this is surprising coz I was expecting to rent in Malaysia. The next thing is we got to carry our bicycle onto the ferry to Pengarang! Upon reaching Pengarang, we started cycling to the hotel which was like 20km from the arrival terminal! GOSH....started shaky and keep losing the balance..i made it to the hotel unscathed! The worst thing was it started to rain soon after we started cycling from the ferry terminal! SO....we rode in the rain and eventually rode to a sunny place - Auto-dried up of me and my backpack! During the journey, I keep asking myself "Why am I doing this? Is this a military training?" Haha....quite regretful actually. :( End of day one already aching all over, butt cracking and sunburnt! The sun was scrotching hot even though it rained.

After that, we went for lunch and CONTINUE our cycling trip to one of the beach 5km from our hotel...Almost fainted when I got to know we got to cycle again! Best thing was the beach has nothing fantastic and we got to cycle back another 5km!!! Brillant idea right? Practically cycled for whole day from 1pm to 6pm on day one. Day 2 is simple, we had breakfast and CYCLED by to the ferry terminal which is like 20km away...This time really feel legs breaking and butt painful...no strength to go on anymore. Nevertheless, NO CHOICE...pressed on and cycled all the way back! Again, the weather was super duber HOT and keep perspiring non-stop during the journey. Arghh....horrible experience! Worst..I had a minor accident and injuried my left leg again..Bad scarring again..GOSH! :(

The only consolation for the trip was the meals! Yummy seafood and lobsters for lunch and dinner for both days...PLUS durians for supper..quite sinful eh. I guess we really need the energy to cycle throughout our trip. Also, my room mates were quite fun and had a good chat with them.

Looking back, it was really an achievement for me!!! It was really a unforgettable experience that I have made it through a 60km cycling trip! :) My "presents" for the trip are many bruises and of course the ugly wounds on my leg...Haiz...

Part of my agency force in action!

Still can smile coz its break time!

Cant deny the nice scenary along the way -ULU!

Yik Hong Wedding at Penang

Few weeks ago (30 May to 1 Jun 09), I went to Penang with the ex PC gals (Xerene, Seow Hui, Ina, Jo) to attend Yik Hong' wedding with Mr Eng. The whole trip was very fun coz of the companion..we practically eat and shop all the time when we were there lor. Haha..definitely relaxing and take our mind off our work totally. Though the time was short, we all had a good time catching up and shopping! Haha...side note, I was forbidded to buy shower foam as my housemates are all ready to lend me their shower foam. So blessed and yet so deprived lor! :P

I did not spend alot on shopping but mainly on eating. Haha..coz most of the things there can be found in Singapore as well. Also, the air tickets to Penang directly has already cost quite a bit for the distance. Too bad that we book much earlier before budget airline started flying to Penang directly. However, experience on Msia.Airline was quite ok, coz they offered quite decent food and not too jerky.

As for the wedding, I would say it was a simple and sweet one. Yik Hong was gorgeous and the couple really made a great pair! :) The funny thing during the dinner was the uncle who kept going up to sing weird songs which are not relevant to the wedding. Haha...we were quite "amazed" by his courage. Here are some photos taken during the trip:

At the apartment we stayed

In the morning of the wedding day

Ready for the wedding dinner

The lovely couple - Mr and Mrs Eng (Yik Hong)

Anyway, here is the pic of the Gucci bag as requested by the few of my faithful readers.

Birthday Celebrations

My 27th birthday has just passed...really feel old as I approach 30s. Mathematically, I am in my late 20s lor...Seriously, I really feel age is catching up with more fats accumulation, less fit and less capacity to stay up late. Gosh...Dun really want to grow old! :( Scary....

This year's celebration is quite special to me coz its the first birthday that my bf is celebrating with me. Hehe...Yeah, we are moving towards our first year anniversary soon! :) We had a simple dinner at Sumomo restaurant at Prinsep St, its a nice cosy place which allows customers to cook our own okonomiyaki on the hot pan. The food are quite nice but not many varieties. After that, we went to catch the championship match of Man U VS Arsenal at a pub. Man U won the championship! :) My bf has bought me a Gucci bag as bdae present, happy but also feel bad coz I know its not cheap. One more item down from my wish list.

Prior to my birthday, I met up with my roomie (Joyce), shifu (MQ) and sis, my regular kakis for bdae celebration. We went to KeppelBay for our dinner, but it was a ridiculously expensive dinner at a japanese restuarant there. I really find the food average only..portion small until pathetic. Really nothing praisable for this place except the very authentic japanese ambience.

This plate of Pork costs $60!
Pathetic veggies costs $28, crazy!

Joyce, Me, Sis and MQ

The 3 ladies and professional photographer MQ

On the actualy day, we celebrated at home with Mum, Sis, William, Joyce and Jerome. Had our dinner at a zi char near my house but still very happy with the simple and cheap food. Simplicity can be so beautiful and heartwarming too. :) I guess its good to be contented with what we have in life. Here are some pics taken:

My bdae cake from my sweet mum!

God-daughter and daughter of Mum

Birthday wishes: Bless my loved ones and myself with good health and to be successful in my financial planning career. :) Jia you!

Life as a Financial Advisor

It has been 2 weeks that I have started work at Great Eastern as a financial advisor. I guess its just very different from normal 9-5 job. I will report at 9.30am every day for 3 months for a 90-days program conducted by my agency managers. Its a sharing session where all the new planners will share the common problems or objections that we face at appointments. Quite useful as I get to hear from other new planners though I am not exactly that new in this biz. Hehe :) One thing I must complain is the heavy laptop that I have to carry everywhere I go....getting dislocated arms already lor. Must get used to it man! :(

After that, I will usually meet my friends for lunch near my office or other locations. Then I have another session of training in the afternoon from 3 - 5.30pm for 2 weeks. This is call a Fast Start program where new planners get to know the agency better and learn the basic sales cycle. Very interesting and it is like a crash course to learn about the biz. On one of the days, we stayed back to learn about making cold calls till about 9.30pm. Quite scary coz think everyone of us have call resistance and dont know what to say to a stranger. I think it is still better to stick to my friends and referrals since the element of trust is there already. Even if not interested also wont hang up on me, right? :( Any friends interested in all kind of insurance, retirement planning, medical plans and savings plans, pls help to refer them to me. Thanks in advance! :)

These 2 weeks were busy but I always feel that I have not achieved anything. Maybe bcoz I am not used to non desk-bound job bah...plus the income insecurity. I guess its natural to feel weird bah..plus mum nagging about not getting a stable job..quite stress lor. Need to work harder especially when I am more equipped with professional skills and knowledge along the way. No pain, No gain!

Oh..My Mum was down with lung infection last week and it is worrying Sent her to A&E for thorough check up after few days of bad cough, fever and unable to consume food. Phew...lucky it just lungs infection, nothing serious. Felt really relieved and hope mum will recover fully very soon.

My Last Day and a Jobless Week

Haha..this week is my "jobless" week as I ended my 2 years services at M-One.. (intentionally spelled wrongly in case google found this page). Hehehe..to be frank, being "jobless" is not fun at all coz I find myself very aimless and I am "robbing" my own bank account everyday! However, I must say it is a good break for me as I have been working like a mad dog for the past 3 yrs plus of working life. Why I say I am robbing my own bank account is because I spend when I go out or buy things at shopping. Quite stressful to spend without a job leh.. What did I do ah? I went to do facial, spa with mum, shopping, rebonded my hair and praying for Qing Ming Festival.

6th Apr is my father's birthday, we prayed and bought alot of his favourite food to offer. Interestingly, I feel "connected" to Papa when I prayed coz I have all been too busy leading our life and often forget to pray to him. His death anniversary is coming..Time really flies....I miss you Papa. :) Hope you are well "up there".

Prior to this week was quite “hell life” as I was servicing notice, almost do OT everyday and worked till 10pm on my last day. 2nd Apr marked my last day with the company. To be frank, I dun feel as sad leaving the company as compared to leaving PC 2 years back. Perhaps the bonding is not there or I have think long enough to come to this decision. The stupidest thing was my direct boss, JH, actually scrutinised what I brought home and ensure that I delete all job related documents from my thunbdrive before I left. Ridiculous lor.....I resigned with dignity lor, not like I am sacked with 24 hrs notice..what makes her think that there is anything that I need to steal from the company when I am switching to be a Financial Planner? WTH...pls pardon me. She is really a damn paranoid woman lor..insisted that she has to leave with me on my last day for security reason, OMG...super pissed off!!!!! I felt like beating her up lor...made me leave the office before my bf came to fetch me. She will never trust anyone and always gan cheong about everything, no wonder all my colleagues call her GCS - Gan Cheong Spider! Hahaa :P I really felt very insulted and unappreciated after this incident and I think she is not even worth to be my EX boss, lucky that I am no longer working under her.

Except for GCS, everyone else was nice to me and many of them treated me to farewell lunch for the past 2 weeks...quite fattening though. Haha :) I will definitely miss many of the nice colleagues there...especially Camelia, Apple, Serene, Kathleen, Jeffery, Kim Hok, Wee Seng, Edna, Que Kai, Catherine, Joon May, Lorraine, Jasmine, Wilem, Guan Hong, Hao Jie etc etc..Really must thank them for all their help and fun in my 2 yrs there. Without them, I think I will not tahan 2 yrs already...Haha...coz my bosses all quite "good" to me ah.

Moving forward, I must work very hard to be a good and ethical Financial Advisor. Need to prove that I can do it and give my family a better life! :) Jia you!!!

Transition to be a FA

Trying to cope with the transition period during the last 2 weeks in my job..Lots of backlog to clear and need to do a proper handover as company has yet to find a replacement. Haha..so I will be handing over to my boss! :P Good luck to her doing all the shit job i am doing. Nevertheless, I must say its pretty stressful as my boss wants me to complete like everything that she can think of..regardless of existing or future planning...really kiasui or rather kiasi lor. I am not superwoman lor...Bless me to get through these 2 weeks! :(

At the same time, I must admit that fear do creep in as I am moving closer my "self-employed" days as a financial planner. There are SO MANY people around me who have shared discouraging words about how bad is the economy and how difficult to be a financial planner without a fixed pay...blar blar blar... Endless rumblings around me everyday and of course adding on to my stress level too. There are many thoughts running in my little brain..worrying about many things like and many "What if...blar blar blar?" I always thought that I can overcome all these worries. Maybe I am wrong in one way or another...the worrying feeling is too overwhelming after working for about 3 yrs plus in the corporate world. Can't help but to feel abit lost now but I know its part of the transition period to a non fixed salary job.

To add on the stress...there are many issues which causes problem and unhappiness in some insurance cases that I am handling now. Trying not to be emotional and must always put my clients at their best interest. It can be quite draining mentally and physically actually. Well...this is part and parcel of my new career.

EO, since you have finally made the decision to give it shot, just do your best and there will be no regret! :)

New Gadget - Nokia E71

I have bought a Nokia E71 yesterday by chance. :) Coz one of my colleague was leaving the company and she has not used the staff benefit to buy a handphone so she offered me to get the handphone that I wanted. Happy but its extra expenses! Especially when I am going to be jobless soon! Not cheap leh..I paid $398 for it! Well..I think I will need a business phone with more applications in my next job as a financial advisor, so take it as an investment bah. Still can't bear to trade in my SE C902 so keeping it as my spare phone, SE's camera is still the best!

I have been using SE for the longest time so now have to re-tune back to using a Nokia hp again. The functions and applications are indeed much more extensive than SE but the camera REALLY needs to be improved even though it has 3.2MP. Disappointing images lor. Sobz...I guess in life have to give and take abit lah...since the phone is more powerful, shall sacrifice the camera function from the old hp. I will be using both anyway since I will be keeping 2 lines for the time being. Exploring time!

No more dilemma..Decision made!

Today I have done one of the most courageous thing - tendered my resignation at my full time job! Yes...you may think that I am crazy or wat..why do I tender resignation when everyone else are trying to keep their ricebowl. Hmm....I am not crazy but I think I have tolerate enough shit for 2 years there and I wish to pursue my career in Great Eastern Life after so long. Yup...I joined GE in Dec '07 and time really flies..without knowing..I have done it part time for 1 year plus already. Been through a year of dilemma and madness busy..sorry to those who has been listening to my grumblings and career decision..esp. my sis and bf. I think it is high time to make a decision on my career, not that young anymore!

With the support of my sis, bf, roomie and sis's bf, I have decided to throw the letter yesterday but my boss was on urgent leave. So...throw today lah! :P Took me so much courage to tell her coz we were really swamped with work the whole day. In the end..I have msn her to tell her that I need to pass her my resignation letter today coz I have dated it effective today. Haha...quite funny right? Well...somehow have to find a way to tell her my decision. We had a short conversation and I told her how "promising" I see myself in the position and I think I should move on for a career switch. Pretty disappointed by what my boss has said to me but i shall not let it bother me anymore. She is one of the major reasons why I am leaving anyway! :) Lousy boss I would say..dun even know how to respect her staffs.

Ok EO! Pack up your baggages and move on! Life will never be the same again in my new career. Looking forward to the challenges as a financial advisor and proof that you have made a right decision today. Mama...I will do you proud and drive you around in my new car one day!

Jia you X 3 !

Marley & Me - A touching movie

Last weekend, I have watched the movie - Marley & Me, with my Roomie Joyce. Starring Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston as a newly wed couple who adopted the badly behaved but much-loved dog - Marley. Marley bites on everything and eats non-stop, they have so much problem taking care of him but they have never thought of giving it away. I am indeed impressed by their love for Marley. :) That's the power of love between human and dog!

If you wish for a good cry, do consider to catch this movie. *Remember to bring some tissue papers*. I would say the director have done a great job in touching the hearts & tearing the eyes of his audience. Joyce and me have both cried and my eyes were all swollen after the movie. I don't think I am over emotional but I was indeed very touched by the story. After the whole wrecking mess that Marley has done, the family of 5 still love him so much till the day he has to be put to sleep due to old age.. *Sob sob* However, just a word of caution, pls don't adopt a dog because of a movie and abandon it after getting sick of the companion. If you want to adopt a dog, be a responsible owner. :)

After the movie, Joyce and me got a "scary" experience finding our way to car park at Paragon. In the end, we scared the security and they got scared by us too when we met at the cargo lift! Super funny but definitely not something very safe. Ladies, if you do drive and park in some weird shopping centres which are inaccessible, pls try to get someone to be with you or call someone.

Mum's Birthday

Last Monday was my mum's birthday, sis and me decided to call for a small celebration with a few close friends and our bfs. But..it was a Monday, so practically everyone of us were rushing to clear our work and knock off on time to go for the dinner celebration. The funny part was.....who was able to reach home earlier to fetch mum! Haha..in the end, sis's bf, William managed to fetch mum and sis and reach at abt time. *Applauses* We went to Pow Sing Restaurant at Serangoon Garden, the food are quite nice especially the chicken rice, worth trying.

After a yummy dinner, we came back home to "lou hei" for a better year ahead. And yes..the lou hei was happening and we still managed to finish a cake after so much food. Hehe :)

Here are some photos to share...I am glad that mum really enjoyed herself.

Me, Mum and Sis

Yummy food...

Happy Lunar New Year!

Today is 大年初一 (first day of CNY), this year is quite different from the previous years..simply because this is the first year where Papa is not with us to celebrate CNY. The feeling is just so different. Mum, sis and me did the spring cleaning all on our own, realised that Papa has done so much in the past despite his age. How I wish I can tell Papa that I miss him alot and hope that he is around to celebrate CNY with us. Nevertheless, I know he is well in heaven, watching our whole family. Not meant to be superstitious, mum has dreamt of Papa smiling and looking very happy a few times already. I am really glad about that.

Jerome is not in Singapore as he went back to Malaysia to visit his relatives, quite sad as I really enjoy CNY and hope to have all my loved ones around me at this point of time. Come to think of it, its also better since I will spend time at home with mum so that she won't feel lonely at home when sis go out with her bf. :)

Last week wasn't pleasant and disappointing as I got to know that I am not promoted ONCE again. Well, boss says that there is a promotion and increment freeze, and yet there are a few unworthy people who got promoted and increment. I am not red-eyed but I think its fairer to promote people who contributed last year. There are people who chit-chat whole day, msn, facebook, go drink coffee and do nothing got promoted. There are people who went for 2 maternity leave for 7 months and got promoted...What else can I say? I guess I am just not political enough to get promoted every year. Near to 2 years in M1, I guess I have seen enough and suffered enough...Shall make the decision soon and move on for a greener pasture soon! :) Wish me luck!

Wishing all readers a happy and prosperous Ox year ahead! Stay healthy, happy and blessed throughout the new year. Cheers! :)

In loving memory of Li Kai Yan

Kai Yan - my dearest brother whom I have known through friendster near to 7 years ago has just passed away on the 18 Jan 2009. This came very sudden as he was still looking well when I visited him 3 weeks ago... He was diagnosed with lymphatic cancer 1 year plus ago and he fought the battle with cancer bravely. Regardless of how painful or how tiring it was, bro has never complained and always put on a smile whenever I visited him at hospital or his home. Being a patient, he never failed to cheer up his family and friends who visited him. I really have to salute to his positive attitude towards life.

Kai Yan is only 26 years old, he was a very positive and cheerful friend and brother of mine. He was one friend who will always encouraging me no matter what I do…always accommodate my busy schedule to meet up. ..always leaving sweet notes on my blog to encourage me…always praying for my safety no matter what I do… It is very painful to lose such a great brother…

To my dearest Bro – Kai Yan, you will always be in my memory forever. I know you are in good hand with God now...Though I am not a Christian, I believe you will be well taken care by Him. You have fought well in this battle and we are all very proud of you. Your strong will to live on despite the illness is a role model to many out that. I will remember your favourite phrase - Praise the Lord for everything, good & bad the way we perceive it, for we know He has a perfect plan for us in our lives.

Stress = Strain

This is not an entry on science...Just a feeling that I wish to share at this moment.

Cant agree more that stress can lead to strain because I have been experiencing this for the past few weeks. Been busy crazily at work and got some problem with the new policies closed recently. Haiz.....endless problems and work. With the tremendous stress level, I have been feeling tired and having headache...all these lead to "strain" in relationship at home and at work. I am so tired....tired of working so hard and underpaid. Is life always that unfair? Or am I just so unlucky? I really wonder.... How to be contented when everything seems to go wrong???

Not really looking forward to the CNY coz have not even buy any new year clothes since mum says that we are not supposed to celebrate CNY this year. Gosh.... :(

New Year Resolutions

Okay..I know this comes abit late but better than never rite? Yup..new year = new hopes. I need to make some new year resolutions to make my year ahead more meaningful.

Career

1. Decide on the date to join GE full time as Financial Advisor
2. To continue to learn and progress in my current job

Family, Bf and Friends

1. Spend more time with Mum and sis
2. Spend quality time with Jerome - Plan for next holiday trip!
3. Meet up friends like Joyce, Mingqiang, Vivien, Qing, Meiling, Li, Chun, Xerene, Seow Hui, Jo, Ina etc..and many other long lost friends more often to catch up.

Personal Upgrades

1. Read ST newspaper at least 3 times a week
2. Read more books on character building, motivation and financial issues
3. To learn how to use Photoshop..Shifu will be my teacher! Or read from books
4. To attend more trainings at GE and master more product knowledge

Health

1. Eat more healthy food e.g. fruits and vegetables (Less feasting!)
2. Exercise more often..try to go jogging at least once a week (Anyone interested?)
3. Sleep earlier to have at least 6 hours of sleep..I got to wake up at 6.30am everyday!

Personal Outlook

1. Wear contact lenses more often..try to wear to work everyday
(Hehe..coz I have used company's claim to buy lots of contact lens since Jan but never use!)
2. Wear more colourful clothings coz kenna complaint too dull with my clothes
3. Exercise more to keep slim...getting fat!

Phew..that's quite a long list to complete for the year. Have you set your new year resolutions and goals already? Pen it down and work towards them ya?

Present for Myself

Yoz...Got a digital camera for myself as my year end present..have been thinking to get a camera since 2 years back but always hold back coz I dun always carry a camera around since I already have 5 MP in my handphone. Anyway, even though the bonus shrunk alot this year, I have decided to buy the Canon IXUS 85 IS, 10 MP digital camera (click for reviews)! Also can take more picture for my gatherings with friends and future holidays!

Hehe :) I am soo..happy! 1 item striked off from my wishlist.

Oh ya..Happy New Year to everyone. Though economy may not be very positive, we must keep our mind positive ya? Hope everyone will be blessed with good health and great wealth in the year 2009! :) Keep smiling !