Emptiness

Recently has been feeling quite "empty", maybe because I am dead busy at work and life has been really boring.....Its all about work and home from Monday to Sunday, has been bring work home to do almost every other day...and I know its not worth working so hard in this company. Frankly, I see everyone else rest and relax all the time..just shoot some emails and mention some new ideas, it is me who do all the proposal and execute them..GOSH~~~ Really feel being bullied and have no say in everything! I dunno how long I can take this kind of working life....not learning anything but just helping other people to get their job done. This feeling really sucks!!!! Pardon me here....need to vent out some frustration.

Also, I have been too lazy to visit the gym and my cardio class, lazy bum!!! Well, I guess I need a companion and motivation to really do exercise regularly though I know there is no one to go exercise with me now. Not even someone to motivate me to go for my classes...waste money. Haiz...luckily I did not sign up for the professional gym which are definitely more expensive!

Maybe I am too bored...been craving to go for KTV and bowling but again no one to go with me. It has been such a long time since I go for my favourite KTV...singing really helps to relieve some stress and unhappiness lor...especially the songs can depict how I am feeling now.

Anyway, I dun like all these feeling. I MUST BE POSITIVE!!!!

A meaningful story about life...

Today I met up with my bro, Kaiyan. To think back, it was funny how we get to know each other. I knew him through friendster and we "clicked" quite well after quite some time talking on msn since my uni days. It is nice to have a brother like him coz we share the mutual platonic friendship and I really hope he will find someone who knows how to treasure him too.

He shared with me a meaningful story about life today..Here is how the story goes:

One day, a teacher was teaching his class a lesson about life. He brought a big empty container ask his students if the container is full? Whole class agreed that it was not full. Then he put in few big stones and asked the students if it is full. Some say yes and some say no. Then he put in some pebbles to fill up the gaps between the stones. He asked again and some of those who said no say that it is full now. Then he poured some sand into the container again, some students said it was still not full. Then he poured in some water and finally every students agreed that it is full now. But the teacher told them no, he can still pour in a cup of expresso into the container.

What is this story trying to say? This story is trying to explain everyone views life differently and have different expectations in life. Different priorities fill the lifes of different people. The few big stones could means major things in life such as health, family, friends, career, love etc. The pebbles, sand and water means the smaller things in life that make up your fulfilling life. Some are contented with just the few major stones while some needs more pebbles and sand like luxury, comfort and fun to lead a fulfilling life. It is just a matter of perspective and I really appreciate this theory better now. As for the cup of expresso, it means no matter how busy or fulfilling your life is now, there should always be time where you should take out some time to catch up with friends over a coffee occassionally.

Life is all about sharing happiness and sadness with people around you..including your loved ones, family and friends. While you are busy with you work, studies or dating, do remember to take some time to look at your surrounding and breathe in some fresh air. Learn to appreciate life better from now on.... I will learn to place the major stones properly in my life too. Cheers!

Just tired!!!!

No idea why...I have been feeling very tired recently, especially the recent few days. :( Almost wanna collapse liao. Even at work also cannot really concentrate to think.....and the worst thing is there are so many meetings going on this few days. Argh..... ;( On the long journey to work and back home, I will just "knocked out" and sleep all the way from point A to point B without disturbance, getting stiff neck already, so unhealthy! Oh...it will take about 1 hr 15 min for me to travel to work though there are chargable bus service from my area to office straight. Still very tiring to take so long on travelling~~~ Hate it!

Company is organising a charity carnival on this friday for some homes and charity organisation. The best part is I am extorted to buy all kind of games and food vouchers from different depts for the carnival since 2 weeks back. Pocket has a BIG hole now...then my dept even best!! Force us to buy $75 worth of goodie bags and make us sell them for charity. The contents of the goodie bag not even worth $10 lor..with outdated magazine and useless vouchers. Anyway, no choice still have to sell them to recuperate the costs.

Hope I am be recharged and dun be so tired anymore. Practically dragging myself to work and thinking hard of how to solve my problems at work.

Adapting.....

This weekend is one of the most boring weekend since a year back... been lazing around at home doing nothing but sleeping and surfing net. Well, I seldom stay at home during weekends last time because I will try to spend more time with bf since weekdays we seldom got the chance to meet. Now that we have decided to go on our separate ways, I am learning to adjust myself to life being alone. Now there is no one to take care of me, talk to me and share my life with... kind of feeling lost now.... It is definitely a sad decision because both of us have put in a lot of effort to make our relationship works...but eventually it did not work out.

Anyway, if "you" are reading this, thanks for everything that you have done for me, including tolerating my willfulness and all my complaints. Though there are many ups and downs in our relationship, I really enjoyed the happy times we had together and I will always remember them for life.

I guess I should be picking up a new hobby or meet up with more friends to kill my time now, else I will sure rot to death at home. Hmm....well..I will adapt to life being alone and be a stronger EO from now! :)