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Sunday, October 02, 2011
I should be happy getting in to a school that i have always wanted to be in. I should be motivated, focused and passionate about it. But I am losing my dream... my motivation my passion one by one it is slowing leaving me. What is left is a empty heart that fears and confuses I do not now why? Am i having a depression Am I too selfish to think only about myself? I need help... Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Am I too spoiled or am I just too f***up. Why is it so difficult for me to fell happy and content.? Haiz! Today I am suppose to feel happy but I wonder why i feel so f*** up now. Trying so hard to make myself happy, is not that no ones want to celebrate with me, but I am the one who trying to run away from all people, locking myself up alone. Even if I see one I still feel so miserable, wanting to be alone, I feel so depress and down. I have no idea why am I feeling this way, so discontent so spoiled, so rotten and so unpredictable. Sitting alone at the corner of the bookshop, I found some peace, away from the normal routine and huge responsible, I try to ask myself why. What can I do? I always have want I want, why am I still so unhappy about. Why do I feel like a cup that cannot be filled? Trying so hard to run away. Today is my 22nd birthday, I feel so immature and useless, always making people around me upset. Stupid useless person. Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Perhaps when you really want something, that thing will never come to you! I should learn this well!!!! JUST GO TO IT AND KICK THE ASS. SICK of depending on others!!!! Certain things is now in my mind all day long! HOW DO I GET THE MONEY I NEED! F*** feel so poor now and I really hate this feeling. Although I know money is not everything but it seems to me now that without money you have nothing at all. The day will start by spending money, and it will not end till the next day. Practically, we are spending money 24 hours, and if you say money is not important, give yourself a hard kick and bang the wall! I wonder if this is a sign to DOD, or I am getting afraid about my future. I am not complaining that life is tough in Singapore ( I believe everyone is facing the same problems we are facing around the world), but the problem is the quality of life or do we even have life? Are we like mario chasing coins the whole life? I AM STRESS NOW knowing that I will be sponsored for my education and thinking about how much I will have to spend without an income frighten me! YES INDEED I AM F***ing stress! What to do, I am living in a place where everything seems to have a value attached to it. Without money is live a FF character without mana! STRESS! UPSET! DEPRESS! BUT this will only make me hungrier and determine to prove who the hell I am!... MY tone is bad today! =( Friday, May 06, 2011
I am really stupid...Till today still so dumb. Believing in human capacity to love is a stupid things to do, yet i cannot help to feel this way. STUPID STANLEY.... SAD...what can I do? Never the first.. Tuesday, April 19, 2011
真心啊！真心啊！ 为什么我越来越感觉不真心呢？ 有的，都是自保。 但你付出真心时。。 咳！好多感想但咳！没力写下 我相信真心，但有时我觉得的好累，因为付出了很多但得到的是。。。 咳！ ＝（ Thursday, March 24, 2011
Feeling so depress... WANTING IT SO BADLY... The more you want it, the more you will never get it.... This is what i am feeling it right now... Detachment work? I dun think so.... The more you never get it, the more depress you will get... You want to forget it, but you will realise the more you want to forget the more it will remain in your head. This will make you want it.... But the more you want it the more distance there will be. So what? lose hope totally? Perhaps there is no hope HAIZ =( Monday, March 07, 2011
Have been thinking a lot recently, Is good that I gave myself time to reflect and think.. Many things are going on in my mind, so much so that I find that my mind has reached its limit. I was wondering why am I thinking so much even there are nothing there for me to do. It frustrates me! I watched a number of Ted's videos today, (again) thought about so much things From love to war. From past to present. From present to future. These videos made me asked myself who am I? Am i good enough? Sometimes i feel that we cannot get away from substitution effect ( A normal natural phenomenon). You think you are good enough only to realize that you can be substituted any moment, or realized that you are planned to be substituted. The rule, "survive of the fittest" seems so emotionless but this rule cannot be taken away in this world ( Life and death follows this rule) Haiz....no mood to continue |
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