I'm a ticking baby time bomb...

Well, here we are folks. My last week of pregnancy. WOW. How do I plan to spend it? I have a few appointments for my final attempts at enjoying “me time” for I know this will no longer exist:) I have a mani/pedi, Facial, getting my hair done and a dentist appointment. Lets hope these babies really plan on staying put for another week! I’m obviously anxious for the arrival of our babes, but Im starting to allow myself some fears as well. I really cant say I will miss pregnancy at all, but the thought of not having them with me always is scary. What if they have trouble and have to have breathing/feeding tubes? What if they get sick? What if they have to come home on oxygen or a heart monitor? What if something happens to them? What if something goes wrong with the C section and I have to be in the hospital longer? What if we don’t have everything we need? Obviously you cant leave me home alone all day with my thoughts because it stresses me out:) I have tried really hard to not think about Labor and Delivery. Because so much is unknown and I’m having a C section anyway. But what if I do end up getting to deliver them and I’m not prepared enough for it? Deep breath. I know, I know….everything will be fine stop worrying and just relax. Well see mother nature is sure smart, preparing you for motherhood by not letting you sleep through the night. Even for fatherhood, Stephen is having insomnia too! Poor guy. But please.. we get it…. just let us enjoy our last week of sleep for the rest of our lives! Then I wouldn’t have all this time to think and worry and read things I shouldn’t. My doctor actually told me not to read anything or listen to any opinions about labor and delivery! Haha I could also go on an on about all the wonderful things I cant wait for… Like hearing them cry and seeing Stephen hold them and probably cry too:) Or just sitting and staring at them. Dressing them in all their cute little outfits and shoes. Being the one to comfort them. I’m actually looking forward to the game of deciphering their cry codes. Learning each and every thing about them. How they are different and how they are similar. Seeing who looks like who. Oh my goodness its just going to be so much fun. Ready or not. Happy Halloween everyone!