Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Holidays: Halloween
Carving Pumpkins!!!!
Every year Kevin carves Pumpkins with the kids. They love the idea of getting all dirty with "pumpkin guts"; but when it comes down to it and they actually touch them they want nothing to do with it. But it still makes for some cute pictures.
Every year Kevin carves Pumpkins with the kids. They love the idea of getting all dirty with "pumpkin guts"; but when it comes down to it and they actually touch them they want nothing to do with it. But it still makes for some cute pictures.
Five Years, Three Weeks, Five Days...
Sleep training is beginning today. Alekzander has not slept through the night in his own bed in over a month. So today I decided to lay him in his bed still awake and see how long I can hold out before I go in there to get him.
It is very difficult to share my bed with a toddler; and I knew that this would be very difficult for him because he is very stubborn. Right now he is not crying he is screaming at the top of his lungs!!!
On another note, we recieved results for Elysabeth's test. They found something on her EEG. We are waiting to hear back from the Neurology department from TCH in order to recieve more details as well as how we are going to proceed with the finding.
It is very difficult to share my bed with a toddler; and I knew that this would be very difficult for him because he is very stubborn. Right now he is not crying he is screaming at the top of his lungs!!!
On another note, we recieved results for Elysabeth's test. They found something on her EEG. We are waiting to hear back from the Neurology department from TCH in order to recieve more details as well as how we are going to proceed with the finding.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Projects: Elysabeth's Room
So Elysabeth officially got her own room last weekend! Originally when Zander was born they shared a room and nobody was sleeping! Inevitablly one or the other woke up in the middle of the night always waking the other requiring two parents to get out of bed (one for each kid). The system was not working for us. I was very reluctant to utilize the room we had set up as an office as one of the kids rooms because its on the side of the house that faces the main street of the neighborhood. But for the sake of sanity I had to give in.
We had already built and moved into the room a hand-me-down Pottery Barn bunk bed given to us and the matching dresser. However the room still housed Elysabeth's old crib (that we moved in there for Zander to sleep in before we switched Elysabeth over), my desk with Kevin's computer (that included two monitors) and the shelf with both printers and all the networking boxes.
After taking furniture apart and moving it into the garage and rearranging the furniture to make it hers I wished I would have taken a before picture...but sadly I did not. So here are the after pics:
The toile fabric is from her nursery. I always intended for elements from the nursery be used in her big girl room.
My friend Susannah made this for Elysabeth for her christening. It's a magnet board!
I made this to hang Elysabeth's play clothes. Super easy to make... One piece of wood and 4 drawer knobs.
I painted the wood (we bought it at Home Depot; its supposed to be for house numbers) black to match the magnet board. I got the drawer knobs at Target. Simply drilled 4 holes in order to insert the drawer knobs, added hanging hooks to the back. I'm thinking that I want to add something else to it but I haven't figured out just what yet. Any ideas or suggestions feel free to comment below.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Five Years, Nine Days...(Part Two)
There is a certain level of worry that comes with being a mother. You always worry that they are sick, you worry that they will be smart enough, pretty enough, stable enough...that they will attend the right schools, choose the right career and choose the right person to spend the rest of their lives with. It's a level that is manageable knowing that your baby is safe, healthy and comfortably resting in the next room even if it is for the time being.
The fact that I may never have this normalcy in my life again is something that is both mentally and physically exhausting. The fact that everyday I will live with the worry that Elysabeth will have another seizure, that I won't be there to take care of her.
This is all a very scary thought!
The fact that I may never have this normalcy in my life again is something that is both mentally and physically exhausting. The fact that everyday I will live with the worry that Elysabeth will have another seizure, that I won't be there to take care of her.
This is all a very scary thought!
Five Years, Nine Days...
This has been Elysabeth's get up all day. She is wearing shirt and pants...normal so far. Then she's wearing a tutu on top of her pants, her Minnie Mouse shoes (she calls them her ballet shoes) and her Mardi Gras crown from last year. It's quite spectacular!!!
Five Years, Seven Days...
So the date probably doesn't match the title...but it's been an eventful couple of days. On day 7 (October 27) we had a very scary moment with Elysabeth. She had a seizure. I took her to school that day because it was the day of the Halloween Parade at school and since I missed all school activities last year I decided that this year I wouldn't miss anything. I took Alekzander with me because I thought it would be cute; they are dressing up as Woody and Jessie from Toy Story.
Elysabeth took a nap on the way to school. When we arrived at school I took her out of the car and was finishing to put her Halloween costume on and she couldn't keep her balance. When I asked her what was wrong she told me that the "ground was rolling". I thought she was just being silly. I finished tying her chaps and grabbed her backpack and lunch kit. That is when I noticed that she wasn't looking at me. Her head was turned toward the left and her eyes were turned up and towards the left as well. At this point I thought she was still playing around with me. I kept telling her to look at me that we were running late, if she didn't hurry we were going to miss the parade.
By the time we made it across the parking lot I realized that there was definitely something wrong with her. She'd dropped her lunch kit and her backpack was falling off her back. I picked her up and carried her as I pushed Alekz stroller across the street and up the sidewalk and into the school. When I arrived to her classroom the children were all lined up and ready to leave for the parade. I told the teacher at the door that there was something wrong with Elysabeth but I didn't know what it was. Immediately one mom called 911 another pushed Alekz's stroller into the class room. Shortly there after Elysabeth started throwing up. The paramedics arrived and assessed her, took her to the ambulance checked all her vitals...everything was normal.
They took her to the emergency room at St. Luke's Hospital (Tx. Children's), all the assessments reveled nothing. Everything came back normal. They observed her for about 3 hours as she napped and suggested follow up with her pediatrician the next day for her to request further testing to be done.
All in all...we really don't know anything else. We have a CAT scan scheduled for two weeks from now and still have to schedule one additional test called an EEG.
That had to be by far one the scariest moments of my life. I'm still so scared for her, I don't want to loose sight of her for even a moment. I can't imagine what I would do if anything were to happen to her.
Elysabeth took a nap on the way to school. When we arrived at school I took her out of the car and was finishing to put her Halloween costume on and she couldn't keep her balance. When I asked her what was wrong she told me that the "ground was rolling". I thought she was just being silly. I finished tying her chaps and grabbed her backpack and lunch kit. That is when I noticed that she wasn't looking at me. Her head was turned toward the left and her eyes were turned up and towards the left as well. At this point I thought she was still playing around with me. I kept telling her to look at me that we were running late, if she didn't hurry we were going to miss the parade.
By the time we made it across the parking lot I realized that there was definitely something wrong with her. She'd dropped her lunch kit and her backpack was falling off her back. I picked her up and carried her as I pushed Alekz stroller across the street and up the sidewalk and into the school. When I arrived to her classroom the children were all lined up and ready to leave for the parade. I told the teacher at the door that there was something wrong with Elysabeth but I didn't know what it was. Immediately one mom called 911 another pushed Alekz's stroller into the class room. Shortly there after Elysabeth started throwing up. The paramedics arrived and assessed her, took her to the ambulance checked all her vitals...everything was normal.
They took her to the emergency room at St. Luke's Hospital (Tx. Children's), all the assessments reveled nothing. Everything came back normal. They observed her for about 3 hours as she napped and suggested follow up with her pediatrician the next day for her to request further testing to be done.
All in all...we really don't know anything else. We have a CAT scan scheduled for two weeks from now and still have to schedule one additional test called an EEG.
That had to be by far one the scariest moments of my life. I'm still so scared for her, I don't want to loose sight of her for even a moment. I can't imagine what I would do if anything were to happen to her.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Five Years, Two Days...
I miss having friends and I miss my friends I do have.
I don't have a lot of friends; real friends, my friends...not friends of happenstance because we happen to have kids the same age or they are the girlfriend or wife of a friends of my husbands, or work friends who I only really talk to at work. But my own friends that I have things to talk about with, things in common (other than our kids). Someone that I can share my thoughts with, my insecurities with. Someone I'm not trying to compete with about whose life is better, whose kids are smarter or more advanced, or whose house is bigger or car is newer; someone I don't second guess even for a minute. Someone that provides uncondintional friend love!
Most of the time I'm too busy with kids, husband, home, work; life in general to notice these people missing from my life. To miss this connection. But when I have down time it really hurts when I realize I don't have that person in my life. I don't have that person to have girl time with.
I want to have that...I need to have that!
I don't have a lot of friends; real friends, my friends...not friends of happenstance because we happen to have kids the same age or they are the girlfriend or wife of a friends of my husbands, or work friends who I only really talk to at work. But my own friends that I have things to talk about with, things in common (other than our kids). Someone that I can share my thoughts with, my insecurities with. Someone I'm not trying to compete with about whose life is better, whose kids are smarter or more advanced, or whose house is bigger or car is newer; someone I don't second guess even for a minute. Someone that provides uncondintional friend love!
Most of the time I'm too busy with kids, husband, home, work; life in general to notice these people missing from my life. To miss this connection. But when I have down time it really hurts when I realize I don't have that person in my life. I don't have that person to have girl time with.
I want to have that...I need to have that!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Five Years Into It...
I probably should have started this blog three months ago when our fifth year began. But truth of the matter is that I didn't have much to say. Things at home have been hectic and crazy as they can be only in a household with two working parents and two rambunctious toddlers.
Elysabeth just turned three and is in her second year at school (MDO) and she LOVES it!!! She is so excited to go to school every day; I hope this excitement lasts well into her teenage years. Alekzander just turned one and is as boy as any boy can be. He loves to climb, headbutt, run, and hit; all things that boys love to do! It's so fun to see them interact. They love each other more than words can describe; but their personalities certainly clash. They are going to love each other and hate each other just the same.
I guess in reality what prompted me to begin writing this is the sadness that came today thinking about the five years that haven't been. Today is Kaylie Elizabeth's fifth birthday; our angel taken from us too soon. And that made me think about what I have, what we have and what we don't.
"I cried and watched you pass away. Although I loved you dearly, I couldn't make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me he only takes the best."
This has been by far, with the exception of her first birthday, the most difficult one yet. When this morning at work I typed the date for the first time my stomach sank. I felt this incredible sadness overcome me. It took all I had in me to not breakdown right there at my desk. And after that all day long every time I looked at the date on my calendar or had to write out the date I felt that lump in my throat form.
The saying that time heals all wounds is quite true. I find that with each passing day and each passing year the hurt in my heart for her is less and less. That is not to say that I don't miss her and don't wish every single day that we had her with us. I just think that the everyday tasks take precedence and there are days where I just don't have time to dwell on her absence. There are days when missing her and wishing she was here makes me feel guilty. I can't help but wonder if she was here who wouldn't be... And there are other days when not thinking about her makes me feel guilty, for not missing her on that particular day.
I love my kids and couldn't imagine my life without them...all three of them. Having Kaylie and losing Kaylie got us to where we are today. Five years later, a wonderful marriage, a beautiful princess, a sweet little boy, and an angel in heaven watching over us every day! I can't imagine anything better.
Elysabeth just turned three and is in her second year at school (MDO) and she LOVES it!!! She is so excited to go to school every day; I hope this excitement lasts well into her teenage years. Alekzander just turned one and is as boy as any boy can be. He loves to climb, headbutt, run, and hit; all things that boys love to do! It's so fun to see them interact. They love each other more than words can describe; but their personalities certainly clash. They are going to love each other and hate each other just the same.
I guess in reality what prompted me to begin writing this is the sadness that came today thinking about the five years that haven't been. Today is Kaylie Elizabeth's fifth birthday; our angel taken from us too soon. And that made me think about what I have, what we have and what we don't.
"I cried and watched you pass away. Although I loved you dearly, I couldn't make you stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me he only takes the best."
This has been by far, with the exception of her first birthday, the most difficult one yet. When this morning at work I typed the date for the first time my stomach sank. I felt this incredible sadness overcome me. It took all I had in me to not breakdown right there at my desk. And after that all day long every time I looked at the date on my calendar or had to write out the date I felt that lump in my throat form.
The saying that time heals all wounds is quite true. I find that with each passing day and each passing year the hurt in my heart for her is less and less. That is not to say that I don't miss her and don't wish every single day that we had her with us. I just think that the everyday tasks take precedence and there are days where I just don't have time to dwell on her absence. There are days when missing her and wishing she was here makes me feel guilty. I can't help but wonder if she was here who wouldn't be... And there are other days when not thinking about her makes me feel guilty, for not missing her on that particular day.
I love my kids and couldn't imagine my life without them...all three of them. Having Kaylie and losing Kaylie got us to where we are today. Five years later, a wonderful marriage, a beautiful princess, a sweet little boy, and an angel in heaven watching over us every day! I can't imagine anything better.
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