this feeling of self rejection is hitting on me more.
ive got to move on and forget about those inner thoughts within me.

its affectin me.
its affectin my friends around me.
its affectin my ego.
its destroyin nic.

yet i dont know how to express it.
its seriously eatin me up.

im sorry to friends whom Im not even contacting though I still care,
though I still remember you.

Its really not that I have moved on happily and thrown the past behind like some tissue.
Its just that i lose my confidence in myself in this friendship.
any get what i mean?
sigh. not that i dont wana try. im battling still.

how i hope im just like any normal teen.
where you think like the majority.act like the majority and feel like the majority.
im just like.different with a parallel ego.
....

just an ordinary guy.//


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