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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

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Schools up and rockin.
Im finally a JUNIOR this year.
Yeah. Year2 in TP, how time flies.It feels sad cos im 1 year nearer to leaving TP.
When year 3 really arrives, Im sure I wouldn’t be able to hold back the tears like how I did in FOC . TP really is, a place which glows with the aura of belonging to me, along with many other shots of feelings. Leaving it detaches us from a zillion things, the experiences ,the fun times, the rah rah times, the stressful times, the hi-bye times, in school.

Many things are changing man. My class for one has been split up. Not gone yet, but the feeling is gone. Its like weird, the emptiness of 5X2. the sight of aisha not with Gerald, the absence of pacesetters farabi and grace, the cool yet funny yet dependable teck hong, the noisy yokai…and it goes on.. yeah. Most importantly, no more josh and lex. It’s a whole new class now, sandy’s in my class. So is chang yong. That makes 3 GLs!haha.
A-N-T-O-R antor antor antor! Haiz but this class feels separated . C116. oh man, I miss u guys sia!!

My beenox freshies are settled down in their classes too. Or rather, in the process I guess. It’s Jason’s birthday today (freshie), haha. Happy birthday to you man ! The wish he made out loud really touched me. Haha, beenox, even though we would be in tp for these 3 years, beenox shall never disappear from our hearts. Haha, I know it might sound abit naïve but I believe . it might be true that after a month or so, beenox might seem to have vanished. MIGHT. Just so suddenly, meet ups may cease to exist, not even dinners. But we’ll still remember beenox ba. For I, remember argon till now.

HAHAHA. So much for this input. Shall prepare to sleep now. Im truly exhausted these days ><.

8:21 AM;

Friday, April 21, 2006

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been isolating this blog for long enough so heres another feed

Today marks the end of my orientation days and yeah, bye to cheering, bye to meetin new freshies and bye to all introduction to tp.

fow/foc has been a hella fun experience for me.
I love you freshies man. where love here indicates a feeling beyond any descriptable word

It is you guys who made it a HELL YEAH for us GLs, without u guys , esp those freshies who stood up and lead, there woulndt be fow/foc.
THANKS ALOT

Ive learnt some skills from this camp , definately.
An ability to come out with my own cheers ..hmm, perhaps this is still under implementation haha.

I guess I didnt realy show much leadership in fow/foc , my fault on that. its like since there were ppl like jason and xingyu and all that, it sorta CORRUPTED my mindset of having the luxury of sittin back.

haha but seriously I adore you guys. Leading cheers, gettin everythin ready , setting the flow, bringing up the spirit of freshies. teaching cheers. almost everything, its never an easy task. for these 2 days of me being an OL, i somehow realised that. Too dependent on all other GLs to get things going.this time I didnt have jason, kai nor any other GLs with me and somehow i took more of the lead to manage up the class 141. hmm. cant say i did a good job, i made my best effort to remember all their names and access em. still, Short termed memory shoots in relentlessly ><. lead them in some cheers in day one. etc etc.. but seriously, when it comes to ice breakin or things similar to that, i seem to have a surge of confusion flowin through my mind.duno what to do sia. makin em rah rah is hard, but i believed quite a few tricks ive learnt from jason came useful afterall.

summing up, I love u c141g freshies too man! Thanks for ur raping at the end of the last day ><. u make my day HIGH AH

went for jam and hop with some beenox fow freshies.
sent her home.
came back to tp to meet sw for supper.

a long one i should say. guess we just talked and talked
then we went to tp bus stop at around 2+am, talked till 3 i presume?

dad called up
taxi-ed home.=P

as u can see im falling asleep typing this.

cik ko fi faa~~
go fifa langaa
o ma le le
** the besta!

A-N-T-O-R
antor antor antor!

SIAM!

12:39 PM;

Saturday, April 08, 2006

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sailing across the ocean.
harsh winds may blow.
unconcious of the path it creates,
time brings all back in place eventually.
bitterly,peacefully.

though the wind continues to bang,
against the sail of my raft.

im sorry this was a double-edged blade.

12:02 PM;

Friday, April 07, 2006

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does x-1 make a difference?

1 isnt even under the same family group as x.

where x would be a positive number of more than 1 for sure.
relentlessly, x-1 makes no difference at all.

to some people, x-1 means something. they think too much.
to some, inadvertently,x-1.... it means nothing at all.

x-1 continues to be a positive value.
no sweat.right.

12:50 PM;

Thursday, April 06, 2006

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I dont understand how people can ps others and continue with life nonchalently.

I wonder how many upteen times ive been thrust into a PITIFUL condition without any warning.not that I didnt have other appointments.

Oh did I mention its as though Im the one who brought out any outing to be ps-ed? xD

its time to move out of your stupidity nic.
wake up.
FUCKING WAKE YOURSELF UP THIS TIME.
Yes, move on non chalently.

if this is my BAD habit,
ill CORRECT IT.not say things like WHAT CAN I DO.
isnt the fucking answer fuckingly obvious...
yes?

so, the question. what am I to some friends?
can you spell dirt to me at least?

10:25 AM;