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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

title:{ teachers day celebration}

just wanna wish every teacher a happy teachers day. went back only to bhs today. feels wierd abt not going back to stamford this year but things have so changed i dun tink much teachrs are left there anyway. the gang would cease to exist also la? Or maybe joseph, sheena, bla bla bla went.

Juz rushed around sch ba. hai. ok, it feels wonderful to be back but I feel wierd with ppl lookin at me with wierd eyes cos im wearin a coat. guess sec sch is so damn diff from poly ba. its like i feel damn normal in poly. but oh well. sigh. I miss all those 4e1s. its damn nice seeing em again. real nice. krystelle especially. and lucas. long lost. haha be sure to go chill out during our free time for this year. Once again didnt see ryan-_-. maybe thats a characteristic of libra. dua ppl de ba. =
snap a few pics. then went to novena for lunch. met sn, i thnk this is the first ever outing wif her alone like a fren fren outing after so long.lolz. so yeah, kinda enjoy it. shes so pro la. compare to months ago and her standard of gf n dm now. real good. i salute her. =]]]

went marina wif fong ,nic n sn. traces came later too. played awhile. =)

DDR sux there

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then went parklane

then went ps.

haiya , it was enjoyable but for now im lazy to type.
jux thinking about a number of things just now. made my mood all confused and knocked out. Sometimes i am wondering why the doubt in people about me. isit me that doesnt have the ability to do it? if i agree now then its a fact. but i wont. but it might not change. I cant imagine what i have been doing all this while, aiming for nothing. why am i not someone i really wish to be. why do i not achieve what i really want to. many things infact still do linger on in my mind. I cant catch up with time. I dowan to lose. I hate competitions. I hate having to compete..I hate losing. I start to hate the people whom i lose unknowingly. I hate forced stuff on me. I hate people who only sickeningly care about themselves, think they have all the problems in the world to flaunt and I hate it when people drag me into situations where im not even involved in. jolly well freaking stay off my road i dont need people of this genre. I also hate people who insist everything they do is right comon fuckin think it over everyone's feeling and case before you come to conclusions and make decisions. I hate people using other's ideas and making them your own i hate people commenting about others so freaking loudly when you dont even understand that person that well to that FUckin extent yet. I hate people who only jump to conclusions without solely confirming something . I hate people who non stop ask me to learn from others this and that. Hate people telling me to do this and that, treating me like some freakin shit. Im jealous of everything I see. YES. IM THIS KINDA PERSON. SHOCKED?

7:39 PM;

Monday, August 29, 2005

title:{ cmathssss}

woke up late today!! cos slept late la.ok is i konked out while on msn and tryin to do maths. anyways, tat sent me the Boys Be OST le. miss that show. songs damn nice. shall listen later.hahaha. then do my cmaths. maybe revise 2 chapts of iiso first.

Shengtat helped me in cmaths today. lucky sia. i completely missed those lectures.lost.lolz. he at first teach like damn hiong la. very fast come out wif a solution le. omg. guess Uni ppl like him all lidat de O_O but i believe hes a hiong version!

so now my barrier for P&C has weakened! and im startin to like maths all over again. HAHA. then after workin out those p&c questions we chatted awhile. damn funny la, tokin bout old stuff. then he asked me how i got to noe the DM gang. brings back loads of memories sia, link back to how i noe ppl like suet, traces, ryll. then the initial meeting of terry which started it somehow.

very wierd. things juz turn one round and we're in a different sort of life now. every one of us. traces is busy with jc *trying to mug* and also gf addicted now.so unlike her last time. suet is with kenneth alot more now as well as studyin for Os i hope so? I still remember the times we go out as cousins juz playin drums like its our live.haha tt moment was damn nice. relaxing. ryll has her own life now too. As for my case. I was with marcus throughout sec3, followed by karadx , ryan and jori for quite sometime later last time, studied together, erm forced to dotA together during Os? =X but still enjoyed. then jori wud come over to my house for night mugging also. then also watch teh Go!Go!Go! show.lolz. And now all are scattered, marc onli once in a while might contact, maybe cos he's in my first msn contact. he like taisetsunamono still.lol. he can pass basic le.woot.

karadx still in contact. haha hope this continues la. ryan, argh. didnt see tt stupid guy for ages le. hope he's not hookin too many girls? if not his head shall roll down bhs =X. yea, he and jori are damn busy ba, national canoeists. maybe will clash into u one day. hope so lol.

ya as for me, theres josh n lex ba. my 2 best bros in tp. i feel its fate for a fact. meeting lex in may? before sch started at PS. then he being in the same class when sch started. then josh sitting beside us in orientation. the first guy i socialble wif. =S fate . FATe.FATE.LOLS.

i think the only two peeps hu still linger by my side after all these are fong and karadx. and albert.lol. pei sometimes too. yeah.its cool cos i nv wanna miss u guys. Bleah this is mushy! X

i end here .

gonna project CMATHS now. Ja ne.

ii wanna pass mad blast adv. ;_:

12:38 AM;

Friday, August 26, 2005

title:{ virgo jie bday}

had a hella a time today! well not exactly la, its just that the sensational fact that im free from projects for this year! YAYNESS! and here comes my one week "Recess" . to study for exams. Must aim for an A for IISO!! CMAths also! high aims =X. hha. i hope for a Z la. but I havent reached that standard much yet.. got a feeling overall will get Bs.. not really reaching what kelvin says about average As. Guess this first attempt kinda screwed. but i shall strive next sem.

Its virgo jies bday today! happy bday ne. ! Stay beautiful always =X. hahahahaha. hope u like the watch. (da cheryl gonna kill me =X). Had cake. not bad. haha. Im juz too happy and high today. met siew fong at ps also. and ritz was there too. machiam a typical sat. though its friday.

haha. btw i wish to blog about this. disgusting behavour of my bro k. lex kidnapped my laptop to lure me to 7/11. disgusting? post ur comments on my tagboard! =X WAKAKAKAKXXX

Ok now as for my current aim . I guess i have to improve the stuff I do ba. first a major thing, my designing. need to work on that more, cos alot of my assignments and the things i design dont really suit and fit under the design concepts. rather.. or shud i say. crap. my visual lit, digiIMG , the work i produce really is crap.. cos from a designers point of view, they will be really laughed at if they carry my sort of work around. so, yeps, improve! gotta jie qu more to designs by professionals to analyse .

Another aspect, my training to relax myself at all times. Many a times i feel that i cant make it due to stress and tension in me. many things i fail to accomplish due to a mind blockage. well, train.

a minor one. I hafta learn how to frikin insert music in a java app!! anyone readin this who noes how to use sun.audio to insert music pls msg me!!! I bu gan xing can.

as for creativity of mine, its still not there yet. Cultivate ba. i need to notice things around me more, cant miss so many useful details around me. I believe it can be cultivated.

ok thats all i cud think of for now to improve myself.! Recently i realise im actually half a virgo! shocking man. but urgh. shudve guessed earlier. I do have characteristics of a virgo. juz a little , mixed with leo. well, hope leo characteristics surpass virgos. arghhhh

bye guys. ciao.

1:55 AM;

Thursday, August 25, 2005

title:{ reopened}

pardon me here cos my skin doesnt mean anything.hahas juz desperate for a skin and using any acceptable skin i come across. shall change it soon. hahas.

oh yea. am i a perfectionist? O_o. no ba. im not virgo! xD

4:25 PM;

Monday, August 22, 2005

title:{ Revival! =D}

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WAS TYPING A SUPER LONG POST WHEN THIS HAPPENED>>>> MY STUPID FINGERS ACCIDENTALLI HIGHLIGHTED THE WHOLE TEXT AND TYPE AN I! BLEAHHHHHHH!!! NO MOOD LE. GO AND DIE BLOGSPOT. U DUNO HOW TO IMPLEMENT AN UNDO BUTTON? USELESS PIECE OF SHIT.

6:42 AM;