Been tied up to work lately. i rather how i feel. dont know why im stressed , physcically or mentally.

Its like theres no ending to the projects. and so many plannin processes involved before you carry out doin a project. then with a super un-needed full-time in sch time-table. haiz. everythings so hellish. 1hr breaks all the time. sigh. how i wish at least one day there would be a end sch at 11am kinda thing. at least one day?
term tests are coming as well. alright i reali gota confess. i thnk my PRSP is a goner.? Have this feeling la. anyway tried searchin for pass year exam papers juz now, the thing is that my course is new. no past yr exam papers.wtheck...
and another thing that adds on to my stress is perhaps the fitness test thats comin up in 2 weeks time. I really love DB, but yeah i thnk most likely, ill be kicked out . right? incompetence says everything =[ then my E2 jap exam is coming. in 2 weeks time. jerome and I dont know if we can make it this time. haiz.anyway good luck dude. study hard


Another thing I guess.. really dominant, is that im tinkin abt her. like maybe everyday? its like clinging onto me le i guess. sigh. everything happens too fast. to be true. i really dont like rushing things. I hate it. but you gotta admit it, things are capable of changin in a split of a second. actually used to crap around and talk with her, now i see almost a stranger. sigh. 2 different worlds i presume. need to move on one.The thing is I dont really have a clue of how to go on from here. I feel stuck. just like grapsing for air. im drowning, wheres the exit? I dont know. Its a room, with 4 walls. no matter hw u bang, nothing moves. nothing at all...sigh.but anyway, hope shes gettin on fine in sch.haha i know she is. =] all this time i thnk we slowly become strangers, but hope we're still good frens man. seriously. yah


ok enuff bout that. can i ask u guys something? do i act cute? -_- . seriously, ive nv purposely meant to . i mean , i really dont. I dont see why I should. Perhaps sometimes I have this blur look, but SERIOUSLY THATS NATURALLY THERE.I dont want that look either, Ive never wanted it alright. Sometimes guess im really that blur. CAN I HELP IT? I CANT. U THINK I WAN IT THERE? NO. I dont. ITS JUZ IN ME. acting cute.. its not done on purpose. why should I? I dont understand why some people would categorize me as acting cute? Tell you guys what im feeling right now alright. IM FEELING FUCKED UP. WHATS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM. FUCK OFF


Im beggining to understand what siew fong meant by poly being complicated. it really is, if u probe into it. Wide array of people. some are amazed at things people from your secondary school dont even care about, that one , it shocked me really. people all look at you with different ways, just like acting cute. its like your not doing it but people feel so. nah, nthn i can say about that. many parasites around too. thats what i heard. theres still many more. complicated.

To think I once thought not probin too much would allow me to stay on the surface. ill enjoy it much more that way.


dont know why im so pessimistic these days. Everything seem to be turnin tables on me. Sometimes I wish I could be alone somewhere calm and cool. I need a break.

In the bus wif lex. juz went Mary Brown for "dinner"along wif melody and carol. I think we're the noisiest there la. super. lol. its crap crap and crap all d way.

training today , hmm alright. the intensity has gone up again. haha i really have to train hard. in case u guys did observe my nick. its that i dun wanna say goodbye when i dun mean it. it refers to dragonboat la. i really love it. but i fear..ya noe,hahas.sigh

ok, my running today i thnk i was 2nd. 3mins lidat. Jackson raced with me after i came in first for my first round. err, but i thnk my stamina also faling la.he got wait for me de.juz a motivation.lolz.

pullups is still die die. help. todays rowing is like 10mins non stop each time. xiong le. but sometimes when i feel the row then i feel alright.other times i seem to lose the feel.


term tests are comin up! like damn fast la. hope can excel. not hope ba, muz. muz remember what kelvin told me.lol.oh my stop reach le. later!

really tired now but im pushing myself to blog anyways. shan't let this blog rot.

IISO is really calling me to study it. i dun tink i could produce much answers should i be given a ques. haha. sigh. im always like that la

Jap final exam is coming soon too. like 3 more weeks... this comin sat would be the last lesson of my elementary II! + 1 week revision and last week of exam! mann.

Ok, shant bore u guys wif work work n work. ive got more to add de.lol

today met domonic.he seems so happy in design le.. =X or maybe im crapping.maybe ba.
then slacked with Eze bro at the 7th floor.waaitin for argons to cum pay the $16 lol. abit lame.cos no1 came xD

Oh ya, its full moon tonight. Eze is really happy i noe.lol. anyway caleb talked about the full moon today durin training also. haha wierd la, its the first time i notice moons xD lol. especially knowin when full moon..like.uhh huh? =X

oh yeh, during training today the last 2 rounds of running around the track was on ur own speed. my timing was 2min 16secs for 2 rounds! lol. ok la not sooo fantastic but alright la.


then got re-united with this guy called kenneth from my pri sch hus also in DB.had been wantin to ask if he was from stamford for quite long now. he beat me to it.lolz. juz as i was abt to ask he asked first.haha. at least my pri sch ppl remembers me =X *jump for joy*

ok. NITES PPL. *JUMP TO BED*

Im so into it. yeah.its poly life gettin into me. everythings different now. New people new environment, new things to study. not enjoyin everything but im feeling all good. =) -randomness again.-lOL

Ok ciao. 5am le.. wth! hope im soooo not gonna be late to meet shawn before 8.45am at pasir ris later on to see brandon's biker trials. =X Haiiz but as usual.aiya heck. MUZ WAKE UP ON TIME! this is my test.LOL ganbatte kudasai =X

went to sentosa for 4e1's "reunion"today. onli got alison ,angel,bernice n mei huey when i met up at harbourfront wif em-_-

went to siloso. kinda wierd le..we didnt bring anything.no mats.no radios,no food! then me n bernice went kayaking first while waiting for the others the return.

Quite fun man.kayaking rocks. i feel the energy! juz like dragonboatin.hah. anyway,soon after xin li n benny arrived.followed by tristan. then sorta chat lai chat qu. krystelle came soon after

the rest hu were supposed to come did not turn up?hahas.but oh well.still a nice outin la.thou sianzing all the way


oh yeah! theres this moment when krys n ali wan me go in water! then..tristan attacked from behind.then all attack.then!! my hp was in my pocket...;_;

so this time ive experienced chao po's misery last time. Jon's misery aso. sumore hu?lol.so sadded


later on had to rush down to parklane to meet my family for steamboat bbq at marina bay.celebratin my mums bday! so sorry i was late man.i feel my incompetence w/o a hp more and more.



anyway.losin the workin hp sorta made me realise how important my hp contacts is man. im so afraid id lose contact.so afraid once tt contact is lost ill nv reach tt friend again. thats my fear these days.its disturbin tt even though in the same sch,u dun realli get to see ur frenx all the time.imagine w/o their contacts even. could it mean tt one day u'll juz completely forget tt person? no man.i really aint wantin that.i dont wana forget peeps.all of u out there are important to me.
sighhh. alright.time to like re-gather contacts.arghhh.

4am now. juz thought id drop by to post something. just to relieve i guess?what's been on my mind lately

Dont know why but im feeling really wierd inside lately. abit sad.yet im still alright.

abit lonely. but my friends are with me.?

so i really dont know what im feeling. perhaps its her. mayb its work. or life?

This feeling comes and goes all the time.dont know why but yeah its always comin back. ive tied over that barrier.so its got nthn to do with tt now.so i really cant understand? but its juz like me sometimes to dissapear suddenly. cos theres times i need to be alone.

perhaps its that fitness test thats comin up.
the 6months have really killed my body.sigh

anyway i just feel a type of unsureness.and emotional-loneliness. Aint no remedy I know of.
Anyway finally found this song. Shoulda Woulda Coulda. this song's kinda close to my heart yeah. heard it from a dedication from some girl on perfect10 last year.during my O levels .was studying bio.her message was to do our best in anything we do. no regrets.no nuffin.juz go on with life since we've walked so far.theres no turning back.

as i said.close to my heart.liked the song man. remember she was havin P.o.a that day.wish she got gd grades too man.

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alright.juz being random for sometimes.hahas.heres the lyrics:

Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda
Written by Beverley Knight & Craig WisemanAs
featured on 'Who I Am'


People say that together we were both sides of the same coin
That we would shine like Venus in a clear night sky
We thought our love could overcome the circumstances
But my ambition wouldn't allow for compromise

I could see in the distance all the dreams that were clear to me
Every choice that I had to make left you on your own
Somehow the road we started down had split asunder
Too late to realise how far apart we'd grown.

How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more
Now " Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

People ask how it feels to live the kind of life others dream about
I tell them everybody gotta face their highs and their lows
And in my life there's a love I put aside, cause I was busy loving something else
So for every little thing y ou hold on to, you've got to let something else go

How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more
Now " Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

Fool if I would now forsake the opportunities are fate
I know I'm right where I belong
But sometimes when I'm not so strong I..

How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit moreNow
" Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool


How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more
Now " Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of time
Coz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

Im reeeaaallliiieeee enjoyin poly life! At least whenever I walk around, I see one familiar face at least. At least. i dun feel so alone. and theres josh n lex wif me.so yeah. not forgettin c116. and fellow argonites. love u peeps. u make my life complete.=]

Didnt blog yesterday. too much stuff on my hands . Currently flooded wif assignments and projects. soo much.arghh. sometimes i wish it was juz paper work done wif a pen-_-.


Yesterday after sch went to library.tried to finish up those projects.then went down to meet hilda. took my cam along later to to catch fleetin moments . slacked awhile wif fendy & shawn too.then they went off 4 their chalet. then lex n josh also came down.went dinner wif lex wif hilda accompanyin=X. had salad bar again.salad bar nv fails to impress! EGG IS so nice man

then sent hil to the busstop. wanted to head back to library but saw chee keen again , wif his daughter?LOL.then got caught le. accompany em to bus stop then follow cheekeen to mary brown. cosss..... hes treatin me drink =X . anyway, came back library arnd 8.30. then like 9+ still at library when e music turned on. and we kana chased out!!!! PAISEH!!

ok.whata brief post.but alrights la. Happy bday SN [8thjune]

im frickin down with flu. and feverish feelin. feel kinda weak now.guess its the late nights again. im juz addicted.cant do much =

Went to get my digicam today. then went for drum lesson. nice song we jam today. called shy guy by diana duno hu. hahas rox. i like drum lessons alot de la.. i juz dun like James to have PMS sometimes. he's got a bit of a wierd temper.// sighh

Then went to see this gig? inside the yamaha shop.lol. then went up arcade.ryll wanted to play guitarfreaks 11th mix. then went down.ddrmax2 awhile. I passed tsugaru heavy.yahoo. i thnk tts an acomplishment?

Wanted to go queensway to get my trainin clothes but decided on fareast in the end. so ryll accompanied me and walked to fareast. met frances. haha she was workin.givin out flyers. we all had initiative de. took a bunch and walk off.xD.

Anyway. was realli gettin more n more sickly.i reaally. wana go trainin tmr.sigh. ive been missin it like for 4 days le. i wanna go. hope i can tmr

Bought a black tshirt.then a few wierd stuff from some shop after tt. then we headed home. yeah.im still feelin sick. shall go rest now. *prays hard tt ill make it to trainin tmr.


-peaceout-

Today was a rather short day. cos i practically slept away the mornin.LOL. promise myself tt i wudnt do tt tmr. kk

went for jap class. i cud catch up sia. lucky i studied. jerome's hair today damn short sia!! when he come in class the teacher noticed.then every1 laf laf.=X . but hes still the life of our class la. youngest ma xD

He's still very into guild wars..keep askin me buy then play and join his guild.lol. i wonder when i can buy ;_; brokeedd

Then after lessons went for pinky nic's gig at youthpark.opp cine. dammn cool.coombination of cosplay n stuff wif gigs.the gig went well man.i like the first song by his band still...nightmare by lunar sea i thnk. Andrew was the drummer.also cooll sia! COOL!. and nics hair today,power! added volume.lolz. that Ivan guy help him style de. i thnk. so cool lo.pro.


me and kelvin after the gig

anyway went cine and ate this lousy jap food for dinner.3.90 nia.bleah. i thnk ill prefer mensa xD

saw avril from argon. sucha small world man. the good thing is we remember her she remember us.waha. then cheryl HAD to take pics upon seein her.

Oh yeah i bought 3 pairs of specs today XD. thx joseph n ryll for accompanying me.wakaka. k la ill scare every1 off from mon onwards wif me new specs =X. ryll got her new hp today.the ze feng one.WAHLAO so good. *xianmus. xD

so.as usual .snap snap snap. xD



spec/sunglasses mania!


headache liao.better rest. NMM,Visual Lit & digiIM.projects. here i come tmr. i shal destroy u.!!

But first.need to get the materials-_- poly is damn ma fan la

Alrighty. ill end here.go sleep le..shall bid goodnight to the DM mass conver group now.. =)

*missinusuddenly.hm.m.

-peaceout-

Today is sucha wonderful day. oh yeah but first. damn sorry for ps-in lex n josh in the mornin. duty called at IT fair to settle my stuff =X

bought an NEC laptop today. hope it walks the rest of poly life with me.
haha
so ill be like visitin YMCA more often soon ? I miss that place somehow. its the place i zhou huo ru mo. gave it all out to do well for my Os. and the place I enjoy peace n quiet calmness when im lonely and out cold. I guess? It somehow or another had become my 2nd home durin secsch.. or rather 3rd home.hahas. could still remember my fav thing to order when studyin. MCFLURRY. yeah tt explains y i dun eat tt anymore now.lol


Ok. anyway visual literacy was alright this time round.not too bad. had abit of fun. Lex is really hyper these days. SOMETHIN MUZ HAVE GOTTEN INTO HIM. I wonder what O_o. posessed ba.. hai.so ke lian. =X cos he's sick in the mind le.he even wear like so anyhow yesterday lo.=X

me n josh

ahh haikals cummin!! =X

our final group product after all tt madness xD

then after visual. went to meet the argons for the dinner thing. So nice man. I love argon ah. its like a gatherin of an old class lidat. nice. waited for everyone. calista was last time come. she went to bathe sia! LoL? And Bel today see me n jack me the first time i see her.walao. dun like her le . chei.

Then yiling n jasmine came along and urge us to vote for them in the SU thing.lol. i shall. haha 12 ppl to vote lo. so many. Anyway went to white sands to eat. snaps alot of pics on the way.thnx to hildas cam.waha.

me and lester in the bus.me lookin like retaaard !


snapshot at 2nd bustop.lol.wierd face mania



we ate thai food. niice. but the tom yam kinda turn off.its damn nice la, but i was losin my voice n had sore throat and cough.arghhh. it was sadness.

After dinner we went macs.LOL. hungry ghosts . no la actualli its onli me calista n alan. =X we bought the CHEAP COUPON meal sets. like. yeahh. xD

then took alot of snaps again. etc..

me and cal.macdonalds anyone?


Toshiba..buy! Im the promoter.lol


Argonized foreverr``.love you guys.


after tt we went up arcade for awhile. played DM.8 mix? lol. bass was spoilt.bahhH!! not used to auto bass. anyway its a lousy arcade .dun go there.lol


ok now im likin this laptop so much.xD 4am le... better sleep. tmr got jap to catch up. Im so lovin my life . waha. I love Argon. I love c116.Love my bros. Love my frenx. Love my family. everything`` yeahh!


-peaceout.-

Nowadays very tired sia. think its the lack of sleep despite heavy activities. recently have been visitin the library like no-one's business.Lex wanna play his com mahh. lol

When you're with him you wont need to scared lack of songs de. his com is on like a jukebox 24/7.

Slept at the couch there at the tv section.mwaha finaly got a seat empty there. damn tired la. i think thats the nicest place to sleep lo. but got caught by sercurity guard.lolz


Today is kinda like.err. foc. 2nd day. i muz have had tt f-off look on me.lolz. cos im tired.i tend to become abit on the side of A.S-antisocial

sadd le

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Im missin DDRMax suddenly. been mad about the sobakasu song.lol. its damn nice la heavy mode. other songs also nice. but sobakasu song nicest =X

My class 116 is gettin more and more united day by day. damn happy. realy.
Its like all thanks to IISO.haha. i love my class man!!


We go everyone in a big group nowadays.similar to 114 ba.lol. but in terms of unity.114 wins still.oh well

theres this sickenin thing today,i wore IT sch shirt. and guess what that was dress code for class 114 today! feel so paiseh sia. xD Im still c116 ok!

look retard here sia me -_-. took in the toilet bfor training
Anyway training today again. still feelin the aches .but anythin la. its the mindset thing again. Need to train it into a habit ma. but this trainin kinda shag again. but it seemed to relieve the tenseness of the muscles this time.lol. 1 month from now im gonna have the fitness test. ill train hard.

Go DB go!


-I lie awake.i drivemyself crazee``--


*plannin a 4e1 reunion outing soon. sentosa anyone? xD we'll rock it all there at the beach*

just an ordinary guy.//


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