No siree.

I'm a troublemaker. I told you that come what may, I'd stay by you, but you didn't take my word, and now you're regretting.

Natalie
Fifteen.
Human-Rights Activist.
"Piss off."

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009 | 9:51 PM

New addition!

Okay, so I guess the kecoh-ness of having a second "sister" living with us for 5 days a week for a few months is start to get to me.

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Alright, so my day was crazy thanks to the people in my class, Mrs Kow, the hardworking excos that stayed back to help (:
Stuffs happened, things happened, but usual same-ol same-ol stuffs (besides having countless tuitions and practicing TYS for trigo which sucks a bunch.)

I've cut my fringe, layered my hair. DAMMIT NOW IT SUCKS.

Okay, I'm getting bored of word-blogging, I shall start my pLog. (Photo-Blog) People, feel free to grab. I know Mariam's been waiting for the few photos.

My past few days.

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Picture perfect; awesome lighting, centralized image, shutter speed...perfect (:

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Lost hippie in between rock-mafias. :D

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Break a leg, or two.

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Sweet bitch.

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Supermodel-to-be + Brace = bimbo besties :D

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Hanging ~~thongs~~tongues.

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What!?

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I couldn't stop once I started.

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Rather cheeky little fellow, a mini-stalker.

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In awe of a bread-smelling lookalike keychain.

Buenas noches (:

Monday, June 29, 2009 | 9:00 PM

SHAM-WOOHOO!

Hahahaha, I love my juniors la kay. (Kelsey, Marilyn, Nazirah, Inqa, Felicia, Huisi)
Nazirah! Thank you so much for the sweet gift and card (: (L) yaaaa!

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So..................... almost got into a bitch fight in school.
What a joke it would have been, I know you have many people siding you, but how many can actually prove what you did was right? Pssssh, thanks Mariam/Syahirah/Azura for cooling me down. New semester, new tricks, new dirt, new you, even worse. Hahahaha, yeah I got worse, whutevaaaaa. :D If you were the one that knew what we know then you'll agree with me (:

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faizul -homework day / says:
*haish!!.should have came to me!then i could hug u!=)
NATALIE. says:
*if dont want how?
faizul -homework day / says:
*then lyk that uhs!
NATALIE. says:
*Hahah, you know I love you (:

At least I'm attached and I don't deny or "babygirl/babyboy" anyhow.

Piss off.

Friday, June 26, 2009 | 8:14 AM

I miss you girls heaps, where the hell are you when I need ya?!

So I'm up early and I'm wondering, is there Netball today...'cause I'm supposed to be the one spreading.
Honestly I don't know, coach didn't text me.
If Nazirah, Marilyn or any other Netballer knows if there's training today, pleaseplease tell me or something.

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Imran, I needa talk to you about something. Its serious. (well, to me la)
Siti & Liting, we meet up soon okay? Its been ages! We need to do what we do best!

Michael Jackson, the king of pop has passed on at the age of 50.
Kindoff a shocker when I first heard what happened on the radio, but he's very influential from a child star to the king (if not for the works of Chris Brown, Usher, Neyo) and we've gotta live up to that. (despite all the child molestation cases and him turning white) :D
Truly a legend indeed, the last one standing, has finally fallen.
R.I.P. and in his honour....

I have H's iPod, F's PSP with me, I can sooooo forget about doing my homework!
Goodbye, I need to talk to you.

Thursday, June 25, 2009 | 9:54 AM

Fantasy vs Reality.

When it comes around and just knocks you down.

My past few days, who I'm with, what I am.

I really should mix with more chinese friends, what happens when I'm of age, and there's no one to play "I've Never" with?
But then again, I've grown up around my malay friends since.............forever.
Kindergarten was still the same mix, primary school, secondary school, some outside school friends are also malays.
But then again, I guess its good.

Oh well......................... I still want to go to the zoo, damn badly ):
I'm headed to United Square to watch Iqbal's performance, then Transformers with Baby. (So much for telling myself to study, nevermind there's tuition today. THANK GOD.)

HAZMAN, MEET AT TANAH, I WANT TO BORROW YOUR ____ KAY, text me!

Alrighty, I'm off.
Goodbye!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009 | 8:44 AM

Whatever-schmever.

I currently have 200+ photos to upload on....... Facebook and the uploaders are killing me.

Okay, so its Wednesday, which means ZOO trip.
However, change of plans, we may not be going to the zoo.
And again... ):
I feel like a small brat 'cause I may not be going to the zoo.

Okay, I have got to get off the computer and go wash up and meet people.

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Babyboo, thanks for the favour. (:

Monday, June 22, 2009 | 7:27 PM

Hypocritical.

Okay, so now I'm the hypocrite? OKAYE. Suke hati kau la.
Just stop using the past on how I felt as a thing to bitch about now 'cause I am god-damn-freaking attached, how many times do I have to emphasize on that.

Funny eh, how you can trust someone and that person turns their back on you.
I know you read my blog and everyone has access to it...

Haiyaaaaaaaaaaa, problem la dey.
I already said right, if I don't wanna talk to you after the letter, I CAN HAVE IT MY WAY 'CAUSE ITS MY LIFE.
Azura used to say "Have it your way." when the 3 of us were talking about people.
Pasal ah, now I'm saying it to you.
Also, why no show for Netball on Friday, HMMM tsk.

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Whateverschmever, its no use brooding over the people who've turned your back against you.
I can't fully place my trust in anyone anymore, thanks ah babe, I finally know now. (:
I have a clear mind right now on who I can feel alright with and who I can't.

Yeah, I do bitch about the people I'm with or around with but you know I try as hard to stay in the middle unlike.........tryna get involved (hahah, you may think of it as complete bullshit, but like I said, MY LIFE) and its pointless to continue gathering people to believe silly rumours or gossip that isn't even half true.

I WANNA GO TO THE ZOOOOOOOOO! (wednesday faster comecomecome!)
CHUBBY BUNNY TOMORROW BAYBEH! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :D

SitiN., I need to talk to you about stuffs, we shall meet when Liting gets back!

Sunday, June 21, 2009 | 12:35 AM

Pause, Rewind, Slow-play.

Alrighty, so I'm back on the computer after..... 2 days or so (?) of no updates, sorry readers.
I don't have much access to the computer right now, stuffs going on at home, place is in a mess.
So right now as you may be reading this, it is currently 12.13am on the 21st June 2009, which is a Sunday.

Many stuffs have been happening to myself lately and like which pretty much explains the moody, emo posts blahblahblah.
Not to worry, I'm doing fine.

Although I have one thing to add......here it goes.
Look girl, I trusted you, told you stuffs and you turn your back on me and back her sorry ass up? Daaang girl, that just ain't the way to treat your friends. Yeah, bitching about me behind y back or right in front is perfectly fine, but taking sides and putting on a mask to conceal your hidden intentions? Nuh-uh, not the right way to go. Okay la, I'm done and now I know I can't trust you and my secrets are no longer safe right now.

OHYEAH, this is starting to bug me so I'll just say it on my blog since so many freaking people are bugging me and assuming nonsense.
Yes, I've been hearing nonsense which obviously people think I am still feeling that way.
I can say I am very happily attached with Faizulhizam and (hey girl, this is for you) I am over what you did, STOP ASSUMING I AM STILL NOT OVER AND USING THAT AS AN ALIBI.
Think about it, if I was still brooding over it, I wouldn't be attached. Pakai otak sikit luh, like what someone would say.

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JYEEEAAAHHHHH.
So it was Orchard again today with Hazman and Faizul and I caught DMTH. AGAIN!
And Siti N told me stuffs and I am going to the zoo next Wednesday!
OMG okay, I'm tired, bye.

Thursday, June 18, 2009 | 10:25 PM

You won't change.

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Wordy post up ahead, so yeah, you've been told, let's see how well will you scrutinize this post and start blabbing to your "BFF" Best Friend Forever.

For whatever you've done, for how many times you've ticked me off, never once did I flare up right before your very eyes. I'll just put on that brace face of mine and tell myself everything's gonna be alright. But is it really, gonna be alright? You have the guys, you have the girls. So when I get straight to the point and be straightforward with you. You tell others, "Why is Natalie doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this?" Please change your ways of handling situations wait, please change the way you think about me first, if you're gonna tell someone that you want to make things right or want "things to be cool" between us, then stick to it. Don't dawdle about and suddenly twist your story, tryna make it seem as though I am the sole cause of the tension that sparked. Girl, please.

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You know how its funny and ironic that whenever my mouth itches to start bitching about a certain someone, I would actually refrain from doing so. Unless I'm in the presence of......, yeah I ain't like you, who copy and squeals on others. What are you trying to do really? To prove that you are a good friend? To prove that you actually care for that friend? Or just to further trampled on the weakened vine that symbolizes a fragile and weak friendship? Biology baby, plants need turgidity to stay upright and are lined with lignin. In this case, lignin is the bond and turgidity is the friendship. Surely you, being a smart one would get my drift by now, won't you? Please, even though one of the party is my close girlfriend and the other is also a good friend, you don't see me trying to "better" the friendship between both of the parties. Hey, three's a crowd so it'll just be better if you didn't both you know. I didn't butt in and neither should you. Just sit on the fence and not poke your nose anymore further okay.

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Clarifying matters, I don't wanna create a big hoo-haa about what happened today. I didn't say anything about anyone so yeah, DO NOT ask me to apologize for whatever happened today. I've explained myself to bimbo bestie, anything not happy find her.

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They say this is the age where you'll start to find your true friends and yeah, I am beginning to see that. Bunch load of wise tattle-tales actually prove true. No matter how much I used to bitch about any one of them, I know who they are now. Once again, I do not take them for granted. Believe it, diss it, hate it, whatever. Its the truth.

That sums up my wordy post and my mum just brought back Ikea hot dogs, that lightened up my spirits a little bit and I'm off to the phone with baby now.

Goodbye.

I'm gonna break.

With stuffs going on not at home but amongst my train of thoughts, I'm a complete emotional wreck.

Also, Sorry Sorfina on being the last to know but you know I love you still (: (WELL I THOUGHT YOU KNEW, didn't you check my FB?)

Taking braceface to a whole new level.
(L) ya.

So yeah... I still have the urge to be single, after 8months of single, how can I not?
But no worries, me and F are going great (:

I'm currently feeling moody right now, probably because of Facebook and Blogger photo uploader dying on me and my body running on an almost-empty tank.
The only thing I want right now with me is you and your hugs, falling asleep on you again.

If you haven't been following my photo albums on Facebook... I shall just give a quick update of what's been happening the whole week from where I last stopped posting about.

Wednesday;
Early morning match with Broadrick at 8am sharp.
Met up with Nazirah and Vanessa at Mcd's for breakfast although I was late, as usual, sorry babes. Inqa caught up with us on 10 and 4 of us got our tired sleepy heads to Broadrick, meeting Ashley and Kelsey along the way. We played the game, I was sorta on form compared to the day before, WE HAD A GOOD TOUGH MATCH AND A GOOD GAME (: and I went to the airport to have brunch with F and we headed down to Parkway thereafter. Had frozen yoghurt and I got Liting's birthday present, a Pokemon comic. Borders for magazine browsing and I got reallyreallyreally tired already, I just wanted to go home.

Thursday (Today);
Woke up early to meet Mariam for breakfast and off we went to school for the exco meeting. Eventually, there wasn't any meeting but myself, Syamim, Mariam, Syamil and Syahirah went up to the sports hall to watch the floorball friendly. Stuffs happened, I was disturbed non-stop. But its all good. Lunch with Sorfina, Mariam, Syahirah and Syamil at Food Culture and afterwards airport again, this time just to kill time, no money spendage, which is a good thing. Thanks baby. Tuition was cancelled, so I could go home and sleep.

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3 Express Literature-elective students:

Homework found online under the "Homework" section.
Its pairwork BTW and I need a partner so yeah.

Au revoir.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009 | 12:15 AM

Hoedown Throwdown

I am sooooooo obsessed over the beat and dance, like its stuck in my head!
Zig-zag, cross the floor, shuffle in diagonal.
When the drum hits hands on your hips, one foot in 180 twist!

I want to watch Hannah Montana The Movie again!

I feel like plucking my braces out! But then again, I love them!

Monday, June 15, 2009 | 10:03 PM

Third time's the charm.

A strong feeling I'm not gonna count how long we've been together.
Classmates, Best Friends, what more can you ask for? (:
Surprised or what eh? (L)

My baby posted this up and its really sweet of her to do so.
congrats to you and F :) everyth's gonna be alright, i swear 'cos me gonna be thr for you, as always. 3rd time alr, make it right, i knw you will (: iloveyou! and don't repeat the same mistakes! hehehe lovelovelove, and don't ask abt when imma gonna get. :)
Not really able to comprehend at first read but still, thanks for that paragraph baby!
So when is it going to be your turnnnnnnn? HMMMM. Hahahah (: I miss you one helluva lot.
AND WHERE IS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT?!
Promise I won't make the same mistakes as my past r/ship and I'll also be there for you alright?

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Alright, so I caught Ghost Of Girlfriends' Past today with Faizul, Syamim and Faris.
I rate at a 4.0/5!
Its a definite must watch, especially for those with boyfriends/girlfriends.
No, it ain't a chick flick, its really meaningful and also at the same time a dash of humour is present.
Gosh, I have watched sooooo many movies this month, making it to.....4 or 5?
Hahah, damnn these movie people do know how to make us spend our money!
I didn't fork out much money today 'cause syg paid for my ticket and drink, hahahah lovelove you!

The Olympus SP-565UZ, my new "heavyduty" camera!

SP565 Pictures, Images and Photos

Okay, so it ain't a DSLR, trust me, if it were I'd be damndamndamndamndamndamndamn elated and probably still jumping right now, but its not.
Its just a normal digital camera that has sooooooome functions of a DSLR (except the manual focusing part), that's pretty good in capturing natural light and realistic pictures the only bad thing about this is that... I don't know how to work the video mode and image stabilizer yet!
The good thing is that I have 2 cameras now and my sister has none 'cause my mum spoilt hers, okay I am mean.

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Okay, netball tomorrow don't wish to think too much about it.
I have starbucks date with Nazirah tomorrow!

Imran, don't think I can make it on Wednesday, I forgot I promised my friend an outing. :S I'll text you.

Liting, do you got moolah? I don't wanna go out with money and you don't have any okay.

SitiN., baby I miss you la eh! I wanna go to the Zoo, I wanna go ECP and blade, I wanna go ice-skating and we have so many stuffs to tell each other about!

Its 12.57pm, I just got home still sweaty in my uniform from PW management and I am supposed to meet Syamim and Faizul at Bedok MRT at 1.30pm!
Oh crapppp, and I have got to go.

OHYEAH, I HAVE A NEW CAMERA, ITS COOL AND CUTE for a heavy duty body.
You wanna see it, click on "new camera" up there. ^^
Haha, brag much!

But before I go, I have things to tell people.

SitiN., I WANNA TALK TO YOU, I NEED TO. I'LL CALL/TEXT/RUN TO YOUR HOUSE AND TELL YOU TONIGHT OR SOMETHING.

Hazman, yes I want my present! Hahaha, did you get it?

You, EH STOPPIT LA "SIAK", you think playing with people's hearts, feelings is pleasurable for you? Think TWICE. Congratulations, I think you just gained one more reason that I hold a grudge against you.

Ally, I AM BUYING MARSHMALLOWS, THE HALAL ONES FROM..... somewhere!

Marilyn, text me about 22nd okay?!

Nazirah, cepat! I am going to start craving Starbucks sooooooon!

Saturday, June 13, 2009 | 9:42 PM

What can I do?

Ya la, I know we just met up just now, but stillllllll........

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We're missing each other already?! Hahahah, awwww (:

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I can finally heave a huge-ass sigh of relief because I got over things.

Okay, so I think I'm getting sick, REAL sick.
I feel so tired everyday despite getting my adequate hours of sleep.
I've been eating my vitamins and vegetables and every other thing in moderation and the last thing I want is to fall ill and miss out on my date on Monday.

Time check; 2132hours.

I'm just gonna wrap up with a few things to post here.

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Liting, if you ain't free on Wednesday, don't say I didn't ask you out alr.
Hazman, I know you'll be reading this, when you get to Singapore you better text me okay!
Marilyn, sorry I didn't reply you on MSN, I have stuffs going on.

SITI MARIAM, WHERE ON EARTH ARE YOU? TEXT ME!

I wanna try and make someone feel bad.
'cause of your late reply......
WE CAN'T GO TO THE ZOO AND I WANT TO GO TO THE ZOO.
I have not been there since I was shorter than a metre rule.

Whoever, whatever, whenever, wherever else, I'm just too exhausted already.
Goodnight.

Friday, June 12, 2009 | 7:13 PM

Continue playing.

I dare you to, see how long you'll last in this game.

Yes, my crazyshufflegiler syg sees it already, luv you babe!
See, not only I noticed!
Even your current good friend, just that she keeps quiet about it.
Babe, you just made my day even happier by telling me that!

I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY, HIGH AND CRAZY AND IT JUST STARTED.

Firstly, my netball babes and the movie screening!
Secondly, my syg who I miss alotttttt!
Thirdly, MARILYN WHO PROMISED ICE CREAM DATE WITH NAT!
Fourthly, my crazygilershufflemonkeyjumpstyler!
Fifthly, I AM GOING TO THE BEACH AND MAYBE MEETING MY STARBUCKS FRIEND!
Sixthly, I PLAYED CHUBBY BUNNY AND I GOT 6 MARSHMALLOWS IN MY MOUTH!

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SYAMIM AZMAN HOT GOSS OFF THE GRILL, STARBUCKS ONE DAY OKAY OKAY OKAY!

The Hills Have Eyes, SORFINA YOU BETTER COME TO MY PLACE TO WATCH AGAIN!
Luv you! (L) (L)

Azurararara Ally, next time I'll buy the halal marshmallows! SOOOOOOOOON!

SitiN., I AM SOOOO OVER CRUSHES AND INFATUATION AND HIM!

This is a very crazy and disorientated post.

Thursday, June 11, 2009 | 10:26 PM

BABY WE'RE BACK!

Yes, I love my hair today!

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Okay, so today was Drag Me To Hell with Faizul, Syamim, Hussain and Shafiq!
I kept covering my eyes with my small-ish hands and hoodie.
The fly is disgusting and there is alot of ORAL in the movie!
Its a good movie, I give it a 3.95/5 rating because of the suspense.
I love the twist in the movie and I shall not spoil too much of the movie (:

BK after DMTH, Shafiq went off first.
I ate a little, Syamim ate a meal.
Went home by bus with Faizul, the other 2 took the train back home.
It was a long 1 hour plus ride to Bedok from Bugis.
Got my chubby bunny marshmallows for tomorrow.

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- I didn't wanna let go.

NICOLE is it?
Thanks for your "critical" tag and I do admit I did delete it and I banned you also.
Hello, this is supposed to be a people-friendly tagboard, not somewhere where you type stuffs about my boobs/tits? Not nice, right?
You're probably a first time tagger on this blog and you don't seem to realize that all my taggers don't use profanities like yours.
(:

My computer is overheating!
There's this funky smell coming out from it.

Naaaaaaaaaaawh ):

So far, all's good.

Time check; 09.30am

Alright, so I'm up early and I just phoned my mum she seemed in an alright mood.
She wants to invest in a printer and I may just be able to land my hands on a new music player!
My mum's not acting her age...................... hmmmmm.
Mum - "Saturday's gonna be superduper packed."
Me - "Yeah, wait, did you just say superduper?"
Mum - "DUH, of course!"
Ohmygeez, she sounds like me, or vice-versa.
Take a guess on how old she is and you'll probably be surprised.
OHYEAH, and she asked me to take $100 loan from my daddy for the GSS!
I totally forgot to get up and ask him! :( (Nevermind there's Saturday!)
I can't wait. I can't wait. I CAN'T WAIT!

So yeah, anyway I'm gonna make sure I don't get angry, stressed, sad today because my gut tells me that everything's gonna be fine today.
We'll just see about that soon enough.

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I feel bad for skipping training today though.
Like what coach said, "if you say yes, its a commitment." and I had to break that commitment.
Okay, I shall come an hour early tomorrow before Netball and contribute something for the party tomorrow.
Damn I feel so bad.

Okay, time check; 10.20am
So I managed to dig out some dirt on you, player betol!!!!
Wooh, okay now I'm like...... entering bitch-mode. Eesh, cannot cannot.
Don't flirt flirt around ah, baby baby all. Tsk!

I'm off to go scout some......... stuffs and find out more dirt!
PEACE!

I'm not gonna be so stupid to let you use me.
YOU THINK DAMN FUNNY AH DISTURB ME?
Sorry sikit, I don't find you the least bit amusing.

GET A LIFE.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009 | 11:44 PM

NATALIE. says:
*AND I AM LIKE SUPPOSED TO HIT 160CM BY JUNE!
NATALIE. says:
*OHCRAPPPPPP
time machine says:
*aww?
time machine says:
*LOL!
time machine says:
*HAHAHHAAHHAHA
time machine says:
*I CANT BELIEVE YOU HAVE A SCHEDULE TO HOW MUCH YOU GROW.
time machine says:
*WTH NAT.
time machine says:
*WTH.
NATALIE. says:
*DUH
NATALIE. says:
*ITS TO MAKE SURE I AM STILL GROWING!
time machine says:
*HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
time machine says:
*FUNNY SHIT.
NATALIE. says:
*WHAT
LOL
time machine says:
*nothing.
time machine says:
* LOL!
NATALIE. says:
*i bet i'm like the first friend you know to even have that sorta schedule
NATALIE. says:
*betol2 nye schedule dont make, then I make this type of schedule.

Nonetheless, I love you baby! <3

Life's a climb.

But the view's great.

You may hate Miley Cyrus, but listen to her song and understand the lyrics.

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Unpreparedness is what really tests us all.
In life, we're always caught off guard but one thing's for sure, I was ready.
Ready to do whatever it takes.

If I could... I would.

If I could... keep you much much much longer, I would.
If I could... turn back time, I would.
If I could... get into your head, I would.
If I could... change your mind about me, I would.
If I could... stop crying because of you, I would.
If I could... have one wish, I would.

If I could express how I felt in a manner that you can fully comprehend, I would.

If I could show you how life's like without you, I would.
If I could press pause on EVERY single thing that goes wrong, I would.

You don't run with the crowd, you go your own way.
You don't play after dark, you light up my day.
You got your own kind of style, that sets you apart
That's why you capture my heart.
I know sometimes you feel, like you don't fit in.
And this world doesn't know what you have within.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009 | 11:05 PM

Better off alone.

Like how the song goes, "I belong to me.."

Okay, so........we're gonna see each other tomorrow, and neither of us knows how we're gonna react.
Serzly, what grave sin did I do?
I'm gonna stop my procrastination and just do it, like how s.f. told me to.

In certain limelights then, we're tight as hell but now, distance is what separates us.
You kinda understand me and it sucks one helluva lot to lose someone who I can actually turn to especially when I'm close to breaking down.
But nevermind, if we're not gonna be as close anymore, its your decision and I respect it.
I can't make any qualms about it, I just have to keep wishing and hoping for something, someone else to turn to now.

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I've decided not to read that email in the end, I don't wanna hurt myself any further but I already expect something like "oh I don't wanna be close to her anymore."
I'm in a rather dampy mood now, but you know what, I'm actually tryna cheer myself up.
By listening to s.f., thinking of the happy times with my mates.
There's only one reason why I can be so affected by certain people, and its....................... (for me to know, you to figure)
One thing's fo sho, I miss you okay.

If you're gonna hurt me, then do it quickly.
'cause I'm tired of crying if you ain't gonna stick around.
What hurts the most, is being so close to you.

- Life's what you make it, so let's make it right, come on and be strong.

Bear with me now, I have the urge to picture-fy my blog.

I just realised that Liting doesn't smile with her teeth.
And I sooooo love my brace-face :D (Didn't I just say that in my previous post?)
Ohmygeez, I am going to start being a little to self-obsessed with myself, AGAIN!

What you think about this?
I've been holding it in now I'm letting it flow.
What you think about this?
I'm gonna do my own thing yeah I'm flying solo, so don't tell me how's it gonna be.

- Shawty got lips, shawty got class, shawty got hips and shawty got ass.