No siree.

I'm a troublemaker. I told you that come what may, I'd stay by you, but you didn't take my word, and now you're regretting.

Natalie
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"Piss off."

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Sunday, May 31, 2009 | 9:25 PM

Express Yourself.

Big big big thanks to Kway Li Ting for being our photographer yesternight!
I still owe you your present, nghhhhhh!
Siti/Liting, ECP soon okay? :D

I just got home from collecting the dictionary from Liting at KFC and it handing to Sam and guess who I met that was with him..... Andre! (Siti, his hair is like....... long and mop-ish)
He could recognize me but I couldn't recognize him and he was like "Is that Natalie?" and we talked a bit, thanks for waiting with me for the bus! :D
Liting, Sam says thanks for the dictionary, we (and I quote) "saved him" from failing chinese.
All the best to all Chinese O Level candidates like Sam, Vanessa..... eh, whoever else that's taking the paper tomorrow.

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There's exco meeting tomorrow at 2pm (?) to 3.30pm (?) and I am not sure what is going to be done again, are we just going to sit about, or is something concrete going to derive from it.

The only way I can get through you besides SMS is via splashingbuckets
Anyway, the 2nd week of June holidays I wanna sleepover at your place since my mum's like.......... going (hiyakdushhhh!) on me almost everyday.
During weekends we can go to the movies or to bowl or ice-skate or something with your sibs/mum/uncle/aunt.
Also, we have yet to run movie marathons and ICE-SKATING + Rollerblading.

Susan Boyle lost out to a group of young street dancers in Britain's Got Talent.
Nevertheless, she's going to get signed on, even at the age of 48!

I have this "dent" in my left cheek that's too far off to be a dimple.
Which is kinda foreign to me (?) but I knew I've had it all along.

- Its damn stupid that he's changing his attitude, JUST BECAUSE you're not giving him an answer, even though you promised. Bitch or what?

Not just a pretty face.

What's up readers!
So lemme just update about yesterday night.

My initial plan was to have a small cake and a large poster size photo collage/card and surprise Siti at her house in the evening.
But it was rather impromptu and Liting told me that they were going out.
Plan B was to surprise Siti at the place they were going out at with card and cake still, but Liting told me they were watching Monster VS Aliens 3D at Orchard Cine.
Plan C was still to surprise Siti with a card and watch the movie, but OBVIOUSLY Liting sucks in keeping secrets and surprises, so Siti kinda knew.
DAMMIT.
We walked around Orchard after "parking" Liting at Kinokuniya and the Kindness CheerFest was on and apparently, Bedok South was participating. (Y'know, those people in yellow? Yeah, them.)
The sales were good everywhere and Cotton On was tooooooo pack to even enter.
Me and Siti turned back, got lost in the bookshop and picked Liting up and headed to Cineleisure.
It was also veryveryvery packed but thank god we got the tickets already.
So, after the movie we headed to Shaw house McCafe and sat there for over an hour, taking over 120 pictures.
Mainly, there was me and Siti in it, Liting helped us take them pictures.

:D

Saturday, May 30, 2009 | 2:56 PM

Something's going on... and I wanna know how and why.

You were the one that made me strong, you made me stand up on my own.
With every cruel intention you helped me find my independence.
Yeah it's all because of you, that I have the strength I do.
To turn my pain to passion instead of crashing.
Boy I'm thankin' you.

Siti turns 15, finally!

Cheyyyy, dah besar eh!
I bet you thought I forgot about your birthday because I didn't text/call you or whatever.
NOOOOOOOO, I remembered it alllllll along.
Anyway, I just want to say a big word of THANKS to you.
For putting up with all my bitch fits, fights, pettiness, craziness and so very much more.
I love you sooooo much and even though we're not in the same school and never use to be close in primary school, look where we are now.
We confide in each other, compare guys together, have common topics to talk about.
Heck, it would be damn fun if you were in my school y'know.
Anyway, I miss you one helluva bunchload and you still owe me a 3-month old present!

With loads of l o v e s from me to you (:

Labels: Siti's 15th Birthday

Short skirts and T-Shirts.

We rock la seyy! But I'm like, the smallest/shortest whuteva!

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Okay, its the first day of the holidays and I am already missing my homies.
Ya, you know who you are.

Yesterday, being the last day of school, no one was in the mood to study.
Nevertheless, I sat through Literature and Math lesson and the remaining 2.5 hours were going, going, going, gone.
There was training yesterday, but a quick one however, we ended before 4.30pm.
Mainly we just played a game and square drills and that's basically all.
Changed, disturbed other people and headed off at about... 4.45pm with Sorfina and I decided both of us walk to a bus stop before school, she kept complaining how her ankle hurt and I pretended to be spiritual and philosophical and visualized touching the bus stop.
That poor dear, she only remembered she had no 55cents to take a bus and I didn't have change at all.
We rang Ilmi and Kane in hope to borrow a mere 55cents but none was home. (Hahaha, pathetic!)
So I accompanied her to Tanah Merah instead and we were talking about boys, it was a good talk okay, I realised things that I should have long ago, but its okay, I'm gonna be single like.... for a long time, right Sorfina? (:

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Okay and syg got me soooo damn worried, get well soon (:
I'm sick myself, eeyurgh, I had the virus my parents are having.

Thursday, May 28, 2009 | 10:58 PM

Gave you too much.

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I'm home from PTM, but firstly...........................
Thank you soooo much to my syg F for coming to school today and accompanying me till I finished PTM, being there for me with hugs and sending me home.
Love ya loads and I so owe you one bigbigbigbig time.

Secondly.........
I love you Sorfina Fadzlon and Nur Azura Ally, thank you for the hugs.

So yeah, I'm home from Parent-Teacher meet, it didn't went as well as I imagined it to turn out.
My dad went, instead of my mum but it didn't make things better.
I did improve on some subjects and I didn't do well for some others.
My dad wasn't happy about the 29/100 and I had a 30minute lecture in class after the session, it was so obvious my dad was lecturing me. (Someone's parents kept looking at me like never see lecture before.)
Yeah..... and I found out I didn't get a C for English, thank god.

So for the benefit of Liting who wants to know my results, here it is:

English - 61.6 (B4) I'm soooo not happy, I dropped from 76.5 in CA1 to 52.7 in SA1.
Chinese - 48.1 (D7) No more hope already.
E-Math - 44.0 (E8) This is worse, from a 69 in CA1 to a 29 in SA1.
Chem/Bio - 64.9 (B4)
SS/Lit - 62.4 (B4)
Pure Geo - 60.4 (B4)
POA - 73.9 (A2) From an 82 in CA1 to a 69 in SA1.

L1R4: 18. (I can go to RP!)
L1R5: 25. (JC no hope.)
My grades seem to be staying at 60+ mark.
I definitely improved in SS/Lit, from a 58 to a 65 (without combining) and so did I in the Biology paper, I got a 36/50.
Studying for Social Studies really did pay off, a 35/50 when I thought I would fail the paper veryvery badly, its good for someone who always fail SBQs, SEQs pulled my marks up!
Geography was a shocker, Mrs Hawazi pushed my marks up by 1 point and I got a 60 instead of a 59 (that was reflected on my exam script) in my report slip, a C5 to a B4, but I deserved it, I studied my ass off for that subject from an E8 to a B4, BEAT THAT, beat that improvement!

I promise promise to do well for my next exam/test.
No more E8s, D7s, C6/5s ~~and B4s~~, I hope.

Whoa-oh, I got my IC today and daaaang I look so funny.
Nghhhhhh, I have school tomorrow but syg's coming buuuutttttt the shit part is that there is Netball tomorrow which I don't feel like going.
Parents are being total mood dampeners, I still hope 31st is on.

DANISH FAWAZ AND SITI MARIAM; 31st we're still on? Meeting at Orchard or Outram (?) and BRING YOUR GUITARRRRRRRRRRRRS!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 | 8:44 PM

Back and damn shag.

I'm sad because I lost my specs..................................... ):

Eesh Starbucks Friend, I should have not gone home 'cause apparently, my mum took away my mattress to disinfect.
Now I have no bed, no mattress, I only have my wet sleeping bag and the floor.
Naaaaaaaaaaawh, I want to sleepover tonight at someplace. (should've tried Liting)

Anyway, I'm back from camp and I'll try my best to summarize eveything as short as possible.
'cause Somebody asked if I was gonna post about camp and some people read this blog like some story book!
FYI; I got 2A and Group 2/Indiana Jones (IJ) with Syahirah and Ally as our trainer and my fellow brace-face (: (she reminds me of me with Braces!)

Day O-N-E: Tent-pitching and settling the campers down already made most Excos a little tired.
Not much bonding done with (IJ) because I had Station Duty for Kayaking with Cheuk Hin for 4-5hours after lunch, it was super tiring, we had to bring the kayaks out from the store and down to the sea, which was a good 5minute walk.
Mind you, the kayak ain't light, plus with Cheuk Hin as your buddy, you can't get far with carrying it.
Other than carrying, I got to kayak.... TWICE!
I got to swim but I didn't capsize ): , my buddy would most probably wet his pants if I did since he was already struggling with the paddles. (I'm so mean, I kept grabbing the paddle from behind and he'd freak!)
I found out my English marks during dinner, 52fucking C6, I was like," How the fuck did I end up from A1 to C6?!" and now I owe Mr Mike 20cents for my profanities.
Okay, we had night hike and I volunteered with Mich.K to stand in the jungle and wait for a good 1-2hour for people to show up.
It was tiring standing and squatting amongst the bushes and we scared the shit outta ourselves when we starting imagining white/black/hooded figures and hearing footsteps, when there's no one within a 10m radius. (You try uh, stand alone for god knows how long. :S )
And apparently, I missed out story-telling session with Jack and the 1st Wave excos because I was standing in the jungle scaring myself. ):
I was already so tired for the Song session, I fell asleep on Mich.K while everyone else around was singing," I caught a baby bumblebee, mummy mummy come and see!"
Then...................we freshened up and I slept soundly like some dead log, I didn't care about the other people sleeping.

Day T-W-O: (IJ) has Kayaking first thing, but I didn't go for it of 4 reasons.......
1) I found out I had hurt my left shoulder and I got Anwar to check if it popped out or not.
2) I got swopped of my Kayaking duty due for Rock wall Belay after lunch.
3) I listened to my CCA Chairman. (:
4) I've gone Kayaking twice the day before. (kasih chance la dey)
Soon it rained and it was Campfire prep, (IJ) was so unresponsive after me shouting to try and hype them up................. but they were like this....................................................................... yes, that.
Ally had gone off to somewhere else, I abandoned (IJ) after I made my stance on their actions for talking back and taking advantage and they merged with Maverick/Group 1 -Trainer, Gavin.
The super hyped/loud Trainer.
It rained, I talked to Nazirah bout stuffs and I went roaming around, it stopped raining and I was up for Rock Wall belay with Faizul!
Belayed for 4hours and I flew up manymanymany times but the really sad part is that the harness hurt me badly because everyone has to fall during rockwall, resulting in a sudden jerk.
Imagine that, and multiply the yank by 80 times and me/Faizul got pretty high when we got yanked somehow because of the groups that kept making us laugh.
I have bad-ass rope burns and blisters but its okay, 'cause I'm gangstaa. :D (hahahaha!)
Okay, then.......... dinner, campfire wasn't much joy the spirit and spontaneity and like the only good part was the dancing-king thing and the excos?
The performance was kinda shotgun and slip-shot, nevertheless there was something....
Sleep was kewl, evey exco slept in the canteen and 5 people kept observing how a few others slept and what every happened.
By 1.30am most excos had K.O. and that was when Shafiq, Sheila, Liyi, Arnold, Raudah started to talk about people and how they sleep and GET DAMN HYPED giler-nak-mampos!
Me and Faizul were up listening to Misteri Jam on Ria 89.7fm and I got so freaked by the silence and sound effect, but not the story till I buried my face in my jacket and he thought I freaked like madly and I'm on the losing end of the tickle war.
We were crapping nonsense and bugging for a massage till 2.40am when both of us wanted to sleep and so we did.

Day T-H-R-E-E: Area cleaning, striking of tents tired me, Sorfi, Amalina and Sheila early in the morning.

There was some............ things going on, I kinda forgot what it was about already.

Anyway, bade our goodbyes to Wani and Saiful, off we went back to school.
Exco de-brief, I met up with Starbucks Friend and off me, Sorfina, Amalina and Sheila went to QiJi for lunch.
We talked about stuffs, laughed one hell lot and so damn much more, a definite must to do it again and I headed home with Sorfi.
That's all.

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Wokay, that was a really long post.

Sunday, May 24, 2009 | 6:43 PM

Nothing, but a game.

Okay, I'm so in love with Ashley Tisdale's new single, It's Alright, It's Ok.
Its a really motivational and hyped song that just makes you wanna sing-along and just move.
(Well, for me it does)
I am soooo buying Mario Vasquez's album the next time I'm at That CD Shop and one bunchload of other R&Bs.

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So, tomorrow's sec 2 camp and I am half-half on my forward looking towards it.
I reallyreallyreally hope I get those really fun people in my group.

I didn't update about the camp training which all "you-inquisitive-readers-who-wants-to-know-whats-going-on-with-my-life" reads about.
Well, it was fun on the way there, at the place it was great, Wani's so far the best camp chief ever okay, EAST FOR LIFE BABY.
Uh.... Things happened, alot of drama-mama going on.
Belay school was a-w-e-s-o-m-e, everyone flew and Mariam (being the lightest) flew superduper high.
Other than that, training wasn't all boring and I am definitely putting down "sports and leisure management" for Poly courses. (:

UHM, YES BITCHING.
Tsk, naughty naughty girls!

Nawwwh, my mum's bugging me to get off the computer so that my sister can use it.
Me no likey, okay.
Goodbye.

YouTube vLogs!

Since I'm on a cold war and I have the time and computer in my hands.....
I was youtubing for almost the whole afternoon and I found a number of new vLogs to subscribe from..
Just watch it. (:

Shane Dawson's lame for some of you, but also he's kinda cute, blue eye-d.

Russell Peter's super racist, but funny.
If you're the type that can't stand racists, don't watch it.
You'll probably be damn pissed and ticked off.

Labels: Youtube vLogs

Friday, May 22, 2009 | 11:52 PM

Well, Ilmi was eliminated, so him being known as Obama, he had to make a speech.
So, here it is.....................

I am veryveryvery sorry I kept shaking and you have to turn up the volume to listen to the way he says "I need a moment" somewhere in the middle.

So.... just for laughs?

Labels: Caught on Camera Part 2

No, not right now.

I can't be missing and thinking about you at this time, not right now.
Awwwwwwww, I miss you heaps and heaps and heaps and I'm proud to call you mine. (for now)
Yarghh, I miss you so much, that its a crazy kind of love.
):

PW Project Managers.
(Don't ask why everyone's pointing to Ilmi, apparently he's popular)

Labelling ourselves as..

Umar is reallyreally cute on the extreme left, Muza Joker in the middle,
Mr Obama/Popular at the extreme right.

Ya, so we stuck each other's labels on each boob. HAHAHA
P.S. Enlarge the photo to read the notes,
Look at Amalina's purple sticky which says "Great Boobs Grapper."
Mine has "firm not bossy" stuck on it and Syamim has "Words can't bring you down" labelled on her.

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So today was unofficially the last mentorship programme.
I don't have to miss anymore Post Exam Activities.
My team didn't get me a medal, which sucked real badly, 'cause I really wanted to play but I couldn't.
I can finally declare war with M/F! (I miss them heaps)

Nghhhhh, I'm still thinking whether I should go for the training tomorrow or not.
I can't get over my morning drama, my mum's just out to ruin my life.
Eeeeeeeeeeesh, I hate you.

Okay, I best be off right now.
G'bye.

So you are jealous?

Hahaha, soooo unbelievable and farcical.
Like, whatthehell? Just because I'm talking to him, FUNNY LA. (eh, Syamim?)
Nyeh, I just felt like posting this up.

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Okay, so I won't be going for the camp, I think.
I'm supposed to be a good-girl and listen to my mum, if not I'm gonna be suspended from Exco. (Youch!)

Oh yes, an update on me for those people like Siti/Liting...
I flunked Math (I do not take A Math), a 29/100.
How pathetic and sad, my mum will flare up even more.
But on the other hand, I scored 71/100 for Biology.
:D But its not the combined score yet.
I'm bugging Mr Mike to tell me my english marks but he ain't budging, he's gonna bring the papers to camp on Monday night! (I probably won't do well this term)

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Wokay, 3D did great for Olympic Games Day, even though I wasn't there.
I heard everyone stood up and cheered for the boys floorball when they went up for first placing.
AWWWWWWWW, that's damn good.

We're good, we're going to Hollywood baybeh!

I've been through the pain and the sorrow, the struggle is nothing but love.
I'm a soldier, a rider, a ghetto survivor.

Thursday, May 21, 2009 | 10:53 PM

You favor her, so much.

I'm looking for a place to stay, probably at a friend's.
Melanie finally succeeded in making my mum chase me out.
I'm not budging yet, why should I?

Wrapping this up and I am going on a cold war with them both.
Thanks alot, I'd rather die tonight, than see the both of your face and starting to fight with you.

I'm for real, someone kill me, 'cause you are the worst mother and sister on earth.

Takin' back my love.

Look, I really don't care if you want to tell whatever's going on between us to your girlfriends, guyfriends already, go ahead. I've stated my point in the letter and from what I observe, you don't seem to be taking what I said to heart about the second part on giving guys false hopes.
You know, the letter was actually scaled down on harshness? 'cause your good friend told me "jangan sangat teruk to her", yes, he did and for the sake that someone actually asked me to be less harsh (which I was not even in the letter, daresay I was?), I eased up. You of all people, should know me, I am one very very mean bitch and I will not be nice to anyone that I dislike. I'm over-expressive, I wear my emotions on my face and I don't hide them under fake smiles, no way like you. Okay la babe, like what your good friend said, "Just let it all out this once, if after that you don't want to talk to her I don't care." So yeah, nice knowing you, 'cause it is gong to take alot more adhesive to get us stuck with each other cause I know now, I've gone really far from you all and everyone knows it, I don't think I'm going to turn back 'cause one told me "Just keep walking forward and not look back, Natalie."
I don't wish to go on any further.

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Some people just are so nosey, they want to know who I'm attached with, whether I'm single or not, who used to be my ex, who's my current boyfriend. Geez, just get a life will you?

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And you, why are you so insecure? Oh wow, just cause I'm with XXX you start to tell everyone and ask everyone what's going on? You take us for granted and you treat them like precious jewels and I can't believe that everyone really thinks you are, what you are infront of them. How hypocritical and two-three-four-faced can you get?

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Why do I bother being nice to people, when in return I get an awkward feeling.
I've said it, you know it, you can't trust anyone until you trust your own self especially at this phase of growing up.
For those who keep believing that you can trust someone wholeheartedly, please take a looking beyond your own perspective.
No one needs to paint a bigger picture, 'cause you've got to do it yourself and that's how things work.
Yes, I'm still growing up and learning many more new things, overcoming challenges and learning to stand on my own two feet and all you readers should do the same thing.
Don't be contented with how things are going for you, it may be short lived or it may drag on later, but eventually things will not go your way.
Its a simple "wear-and-tear" philosophy, once its torn, you've got to get a new one, you can patch it back, but it won't be as strong as ever.

Ah fuck it, MelaniefuckingTanfucking decided to rat out on me.
I have sooooo much anger in me, I really just need someone to hear me out and offer a really genuine hearth warming hug.
Someone, like you.

I never found anyone, who fulfilled my needs .
A lonely place to be, and so I learned to depend on me.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 | 11:11 PM

Oh my god, I just reached an awesome hit of 150 visits to my blog in 22hours.
:D Thank you Nuffnang!

Oh well, here's something to ease up the tension and a reason to let you go "wth" at.
Just watch it.

Pay attention to the laughter, I could have let this run longer,
but you'll just hear them laughing and laughing and laughing.
This is classic ROFL.

Getting into the momentum of the Wii Nunchuks.

Labels: Caught on Camera Part 1

Against the odds.

Don't blame me for wanting things to go the way I want it to be, 'cause I've been keeping in it for so long.

One, I've had enough problems with my mum not supporting me for ANYTHING I do for school now, be it CCA, leadership or for the teachers. No more support and do you know how demoralizing that is, to come to school everyday, knowing your mum doesn't care, just as long as you are present and do not cause trouble? Its a harsh and cold pang straight to the heart. Its not that I'm being defiant by not talking to you, I know that I if open my mouth, I'd just have that one-of-a-kind tone. Isn't it best to just shut up?

Two, I'm tolerant to certain extend of teasing. But I have a boiling point also okay, I'm sorry I lost it, but that is the joke of my lifetime. I'd rather work alone, than with him. I'm not like you, who thinks I can accommodate to anyone, No, I'm not. Fuck the person whoever came up with the idea of drawing lots, think this is lucky draw ah, can't you just leave the 4 cores to do it themselves instead of you? Annoying plus noisy bitch, yes I said it, BITCH. I don't care if you hate me la, cause me no likey you too, ESPECIALLY when you try to take charge and eeeeurgh, I don't want to talk about you now. (: Sorry, you don't deserve this.

Lemme just clarify shit, if I hate you, I hate you and if I don't want to talk to you forever, I won't and neither do I want to be ordered around by you. (Take note, the You-s are referring to other people). I'm not sorry, especially after you tried to "sound wise" for what you wrote on my birthday card, fuckyou.

- Are you actually jealous that I have XXX? :O (XXX doesn't mean anything explicit, just a name of something) Go figure. GO.

Stop trippin', I know you got a man.

adlykhem95@hotmail.com said (5:57 PM):
*yo
adlykhem95@hotmail.com said (5:57 PM):
*i win bcos of u,u sent me 100 chips then nw dahh bnyk

Hehehe, kewl la seyyy!

NATALIE. says:
*Chinese? Malay?
faizul says:
*mixed.
faizul says:
*hehe=)=)
faizul says:
*she talk to me i smile only..hehe
NATALIE. says:
*PFFT.
faizul says:
*hehe=)=)
faizul says:
*i smile,then she smile.
faizul says:
*LOLs!!!=p=p
NATALIE. says:
*ohwhatever,
faizul says:
*hehe=)=)
faizul says:
*nAT jealous already./
faizul says:
*AHAHAHAX!
NATALIE. says:
*YA LAH.
NATALIE. says:
*I could have met like some hot malay guy or some cute chinese guy.
faizul says:
*lolss!
..........
aizul says:
*So?!?!?

faizul says:
*aahahahxx!
NATALIE. says:
*nghh, shutup okay.
NATALIE. says:
*Im alr jealous enough.
faizul says:
*ahahahaxx!!=p=p
faizul says:
*Woohoo..tmr CPIB..ahahax!
NATALIE. says:
*OHMYGOD, SHUTUP.
faizul says:
*hehe!!=p=p
NATALIE. says:
*I hate you la syg, HAHAHAHAHA
faizul says:
*ahahaahxxx!!p=p
NATALIE. says:
*so SHH.

Nghhhhh, jealous much!

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Okay, I survived day one of Project Management.
That Kenny person is starting to fur-reaaaaaaak me out.
Well, my group-mates were the best mates in that whole course.
Me, Amalina, Syamim, Ilmi and Muza - We rock arse, especially the 2 guys.
Singing, laughing, more singing, more laughing and gay-ing.

I could've been to Temasek Poly today and CPIB tomorrow.
EEEEE, NO FUN.

Okay, I'll continue later.....

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 | 9:02 PM

Palawan Beach, Sentosa!

So me and Amalina finally got our tanning date done.
The sun was great, there weren't many people there.
We saw sooo many people we knew, a coincidence to meet them.
First I saw Haziq(Semut) on the way to Harbourfront, Imran, Syafiq, Hidayat, Radin, HaikalD. and some other 4H guys were there at Palawan Beach, just 20m away from where we were tanning.
We cross-jurisdictions with these 2 malay guys, one had really awesome afro hair (like afro-afro) and another one had those "natural-celak-look" when we were on the Monorail to the beach, on the tram to Palawan, on the tram back from Palawan.
(But the one with the "natural-look" was good-looking okay, he didn't look like a typical mat-rep)

Okay that aside, let's talk about tomorrow.
I am so not looking forward to PW-training-courses on the 20, 21 and 22.
Because there is you that I hate, but thank god there's people I know and love.
The shit part is that....
I can't go CPIB.
I can't go Temasek poly.
I can't participate in Olympic Sports Day Interclass.
I can't play soccer.
I can't fool around with Mariam and Faizul and play paper-wars with them.
And- HOMG, I CAN'T START THE WARRRR.
Okay, this may seem really lame, but its actually fun, especially when you can maki2 the person who aims the pellet at your badge and actually hits it more than once. (The teacher wouldn't care)

And yes, from Wednesday to Wednesday, I will be paaaaaacked, deadly jammed packed.
3 consecutive days of PW training - (Wed, Thurs, Fri)
1 day of Sec 2 Camp training - (Saturday)
3 consecutive days of Sec 2 camp. - (Mon, Tue, Wed)
Fuck, I only have Sunday free and I have obligations to attend to.
EEEEEEEEEEE, ME NO LIKEY.
Then how can I catch up with Starbucks Friend and Siti/Liting?!
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW DAMMIT.

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- I don't like this, one bit at all.

Since I can't sleep.

I gave in to Insomnia, so I spent my whole time awake thinking (and not depressing myself)....

Being single is not a bad thing, at all (:
You can feel infatuation.
You can fall in love.
You can text many others.
You can do crazy things.
You can be wild with other guys.
You can show off anything to anyone.
You can do anything, except give them false hopes.

AND...
It is soooooo much more fun when you have besties/good friends, true?
Yeah, the sad part is that I miss having a boyfriend.
No specific person, just miss that feeling of having a company there with you.
(awwwwwww)

- Men are like street cars, another comes along every fifteen minutes, the trick is to not let one run you over.

Plus, the Megan Fox rumour is sooooo bull-crap.
She is bi, a strong bi it doesn't mean she's a transvestite.
Please la, you have to be dumb enough to believe a Hollywood gossip/celebrity rumour blog of that, and if Megan Fox was really a transvestite, it would be splashed alllll over www.perezhilton.com.
Ellen would definitely interview her, as Ellen supports Homosexuality and these sort of things.
Hey, she's gay, what can I say?

Okay, I have a really early meeting tomorrow.
Au revoir!

P.S. Natalie, stop talking to all these boys, you'll just end up in some tangled up web.

Monday, May 18, 2009 | 10:40 PM

OH-EM-GEE.

Can you spell H-O-T-N-E-S-S, tell me?

Okay, I know I have no say in this matter, but its beginning to BUG ME alot, AGAIN.

Look babe, I know guys find you attractive/hot/sweet blahblahblahblah (I do not need to go on).
But if you don't like him just tell him straight (or over the SMS) and STOP giving other guys false hopes!
I've already told you it is SUPER annoying that I'm supposed to help that guy even though I'm not the least close to you now, I TOLD YOU, I WROTE IT DOWN FOR YOU, DO NOT DENY.
First it was S------, now its S-----, tell me who else more, HMM?
Eh come on la, brape lelaki kau nak message2 ni!
Eeeeeeyurgh, sabar Natalie.
Anyway, if you ever chance upon this or if anyone who's willing to tell her this.
TELL THIS TO HER OKAY.
I don't care if you hate me for this, I serzly CBF-ed to think the whole student population will hate me for posting this up, but you think fun ah, pretend to helphelp all when I don't even want to.
This is just fucked up, serzly.
This is going to take more than a acorn to drop on your head to wake you up.
I am still waiting for my reply, you know, you know?

I sooooo agree with Sma on his blog post; "girls as friends as super awesome,but when you chase them it's like a waste of time"
I'm not bi or anything, but its true, serzly.

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Okay, enough of ranting, I feel bad.
On a lighter note, the Mid-Years are over!
and I have exco-meeting tomorrow. (Malas nak pergi!)
and I am going tanning tomorrow.
and I am having a MAJOR catch up session with Starbucks Friend.
and OMG YES, I CANNOT WAIT.
and that was alot of "and"s.

and I have got to go sleep.
Awwwwwww, you said "sweetdreams" in that way again.
Love ya b.friend(:

Fishhlips. (typical of you)

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow.
If I fail, if I succeed, at least I'll live as I believe, no matter what they take from me, they can't take away my dignity.
The greatest love of all is easy to achieve, learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all.

Holla' if ya hear!

Yes, I bought those super cute sandals and its freaking cheap okay, twentyfour bucks only, you know you want it, you know you do.

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I'm on Youtube now, checking a thousand and one videos.

Zara Larrson's still the best amongst ALLLLL the young singers be it on Britain's/America's Got Talent or X-Factor, she has the whole package!

Super adorable and you have got to give it to them for their utmost confidence on going onstage infront of National TV (:

Sunday, May 17, 2009 | 3:22 PM

I'm out of time and all I got is four minutes.

Okay, so alllllllll my plans that was planned have been broken.
Siti can't make it for Cupcake Surprise.
Liting watched Angels and Demons with her friends. (I knew it)
I have PW on 20.21.22 May till 4 in the afternoon.
The last thing to ruin my final plan is Tanning with Brazilian after Exco.

Underground/Rising artistes, work best if they sing their own songs and not remake them from famous stars, unless it works like Ne-Yo using the tune of Little Bit's Forget About Me for Miss Independent or Jesse McCartney writing Bleeding Love and handing it over to Simon Cowell, who in turn, gave it to Leona Lewis to sing.
Yes, these aren't copy, they're bought with a Price.
But still, underground R&B's better than ever. (:

- Gotta get out from here, far away from you, yeah I'm going, cross country.

This is freaking funny, but serzly, we should do it sometime soon.
Anyone willing to take up the challenge?

With Whitney Houston being amongst the most powerful female voices, finding a ten year old who can match up to that feat. Its greatly commendable, true?
P.S. If you want the translation on the judges critique, click on the video links.

Hi world.
I'm currently on Youtube, searching for vLog ideas and so far only 1 has struck me........
I've slept a whole 12hours and I am supposed to be in my room, studying Pure Geography for the last paper.
I know I have one more paper, but my mind feels like its already gone.
Stop procrastinating and start doing Natalie.

Oh geez, I have church at 5pm, which mean I should be ready by 4pm.
I have an hour and a half to study and the rest of the evening after 7.30pm
I am hoping and wishing and hoping and wishing I pass my overall.
Just to pass overall, I'll be satisfied.

(:

- You're too good at playing stupid, I can't match up to you.

Saturday, May 16, 2009 | 11:32 PM

Just Enjoy It.

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OH EW.
My mum just "scotch-tape-laminated" this bug, it is sick.
Yet I have the desire to post the picture up.
So here it is...............

Ya, okay its a Bedbug.
A FUCKING BIG BEDBUG AS A MATTER OF FACT.
Its the size of a thumbtack head, YES THAT BIG.
Apparently, this is not the culprit for the "mozzie rashes" I get.
There is a BIGGER BUG somewhere in this house.
Ewwwwww, I am sooo grossed out.
I shall stop.

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Yeah anyway....
Mohammed Danish Fawaz and Siti Mariam Bamadhaj,
if you are reading this;
Both of you text me, like serzly soon, we all are busy people or leave me a Facebook wall post.
We three, have got to get together, then both of you will meet and make music.
Yes? and I will be the blonde tryna work the recording device.
Okay set.
31st May 2009, Sunday?

I dread this, I really dread this.
I don't feel like going for catechism classes anymore.
I'm not exactly a good Catholic, I have broken more than three grave sins.
Going to class and pretending I'm pure just seems so wrong.
Okay, this spells reconciliation.
This is so not fun anymore, God help me.

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No shit, Man Utd won the Championship Title.
No worries, they won't hold the title, for long!

When its not possible to trust anyone anymore, I mean it.
When I say I trust you despite not trusting anyone, I mean it.
If I pledge full trust in you, I mean it.
So don't abuse it and use me, ever.
If you do, you will be sorry.
I mean it.

I'm Studying!

When you have webcam, insomnia and time in your hands.

My title soooooooo contradicts my photo caption.
Nyeheh so recently I have been a "good and studious" girl.
Yes, I have been studying, the only way facts can enter my brain is if I write them down on a decent sheet of foolscap and then highlight almost the whole page and take 4hours to complete one chapter.

Okay so thanks to Mariam and Faizul for sitting thru the whole time while I'm studying.
I've hit the library 3times in a row and I feel like a Liting.
Liting; just so you know I've been studying myself, which I found it quite alright actually!
and sorry I didn't post you a birthday wish on this blog 'cause I didn't come online 2days back.
But I still called you up and wished you.
:D

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Anyway, 7 papers down, 1 more to gooooooooooooooooooooo.
Oh Em Gee, we're almost done!
I think I'm dropping Pure Geography, its too much for me to handle, just look at one chapter. (Faizul can be my witness)
I'd need 16hours to finish just 4chapters.
Do the math yourself ay.
Monday come quickly and I would definitely need someplace, something, someone or somehow to release that exuberance building up in me.

- Its hard to trust, when you've been gunned down by lust.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009 | 8:54 PM

Whatthefuck is wrong with Youtube, serzly.
Its removing ALLLLLLLLL the official videos of Ne-Yo, Chris Brown and SOOOOO MANY MORE.

Okay, I am soooo switching back to Imeem to look for them videos.

Now and Then.

Happy 15th Syg!

Cheyh, dah besar seyyyyyy!
Anyway, love ya and STOP attacking and disturbing me with Mariam okay?
Big already, must learn to stop playing around.
(hahaha, look who's talking)

OKEHHHH, 4 papers finally down.
3 more to gooooooooooooooooooooooo.

I am soooo fe-lunking my Math and POA.
I actually expect a U-Grade.
Both POA and Math the second section are the killing papers.
Like fagxzxzxzxz, I don't know what is a reflex angle and I didn't bother doing "Trading/P&L Account".
Did you hear that?
28marks just flew out the window and crash landed on the concrete ground.
God bless me.
On the other hand, I am confident for sciences, I hope.
I concentrated one hell lot on Science and to me, Biology was done with much ease.

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I was being a total b**** towards ya'll today, I'm really sorry.
I just canNOT stand her, SOOOOO MUCH.
But I'm really sorry guys; Ilmi, Jianchao, Iman and Faizul.

AND HOMG, I JUST READ AZURA'S BLOG.
AND GOD-DAMN, I LOOK SOOOOO EW THEN.
I mean like my god, have you seen me then, SOOOOOOO EW OKAY.

Like, look; 2007 versus the day before.

Okay, I think I better buzz off and get started on my Social Studies.

Much much misses.

Monday, May 11, 2009 | 11:07 AM

I'm R.E.A.D.Y. to...

Yeah, another reason why we're both "sisters".
(L) You looooads, and No, I'm not bi, puh-leease!

Okeh, since I'm up early and both my study dates cancelled out on me for their own reasons and I've got nothing to do right now besides awaiting for the incoming texts from two other people....................... I am sooo used to getting cancelled upon, it kinda sucks to know that. OH WELL.

I think I shall get started on Zul's blog, when I'm done, I am soooooo going to SIT DOWN, and start studying.
I'm ready for tomorrow's Biology paper, uh-huh, listening and studying really pays off okeh, I managed to clinch and average score of >60% for CA1. :D
As for Chemistry, I'm 60% ready, my only help cancelled on me last minute, but no worries, I'll find a way, somehow (:

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Okay, for those who think I have been wasting my life by playing around with whatever is within my reach, I HAVE NOT.
I have been studying, just not infront of you.
I'm not dumb, neither am I mentally challenged, neither am I a bimbo.
So what if I take some time to register my thoughts, so what if I'm in 3D, that's me.
Its not a matter of class, its the subjects you take, HELLO, I could have taken pure sciences, I was just half point away from the cut off mark, I just couldn't take A-Math and I'm taking Pure Humanities, Geography to be precise, so beat that.
To whoever that thinks like that, I can safely say I am sooooo much more better than you in more than 2 ways.
HAH, TAKE THAT.

Geez, how hard is it, to ask someone for help in Chemistry.
NYEHHHHHHHHHH, I am not going to do well tomorrow if I don't understand the chapter on "The Periodic Table".
AND OMGEE, I HAVE SOCIAL STUDIES TO STUDY, I'LL NEED ALLLLL THE BLESSINGS I CAN RECEIVE, A-MEN.
Someone, whoever, don't cancel out on me again man.

Okay, I have got to stop ranting and start on the blog, goodbye!
I hear the thunder, don't tell me its going to be a wet day again.

- I don't wanna say goodbye to you, it's the last thing I wanna do, but I won't be sad now.

Sunday, May 10, 2009 | 10:25 PM

I'm D.R.U.N.K.

Okay, this is the craziest picture taken evaaaa.
I kinda felt drunk and I look like a slut with my bra peeking out.
(OOPS, DID I JUST TYPE THAT OUT?!?) HAHA.

Honestly, I couldn't care less about the negative/insulting comments about my blog posts.
What I have typed, can be something shotgun, at times, I don't even understand half of what I have been ranting about.

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Nostalgia just kicked back into my system.
I miss you my dear.
ONE HELLUVA LOT.
):

Peace.

Saturday, May 09, 2009 | 4:44 PM

I'm happy for who I'm with now.

At least, once is a while, I know I can count on you to lend a listening ear, right?

ALLLLLL THE BEST FER MIDYEARS HOMIES! :D

'cause with you, I go ke-raaaaa-zeeeeeeeeee baby!

(L) (L) You.

Okeh, I'm missing a lot of people right now.
I'm missing my crazy juniors, I'm missing my seniors, I'm missing my crazy toots, I'm missing my crazy babes, I'm missing my crazy partner F/M. (merajuk ah!), I'm missing my guyfriends.
AND IDK WHY!

The creators of Youtube are brilliant.
I am going crazy over the wonders of it.
From Russell Peters/Stand-up comedy to new R&B Songs to nonsensical celebrity gossips to movies.
Even though its not all that good.

Okeh, I serzly need to go out right now and study.
I can't study at home, anyone going to study tell meeee!
Oh yeah, there's always someone to ask out, right right righttttt?
Then again, I feel like playing a round of poker.
OHMAAAAAAN, okay, poker after exams, for now study.

I'm soooo distracted with Youtube, Ilmi's iPod, MSN and this blog.
I now have to be wary of my posts' contents because I received an average traffic of 60views per day.
Geez, and people, if you got anything to comment about, posts/pictures/whuteva, LEAVE YOUR NAME.
Anyway, I think I know who you are......

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faizul says:
*nvr go anywhere?
NATALIE. says:
*uh.. no.
NATALIE. says:
*I didnt even know today was a public holiday or mothers day or whatevr
faizul says:
*lols!
faizul says:
*2daes vesak day.
faizul says:
*tmr's mothers day
NATALIE. says:
*OH
faizul says:
*yesh!=)thats why on monday holiday syg!=)
NATALIE. says:
*OH OHMYGEE.
NATALIE. says:
*HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH, I didn't even know today got Holiday la! I thought monday no school cause like... the school dont wanna open!
faizul says:
*LOLss!!!=p=p
faizul says:
*Joker!
faizul says:
*=p=p
NATALIE. says:
*HAHAHA, CLASSIC BLONDE MOMENT OF THE YEAR!
faizul says:
*Yerps2..
faizul says:
*=p=p
NATALIE. says:
*;D ;D
NATALIE. says:
*Ohwell, Natalie pe.
faizul says:
*Tau pun..hehe
NATALIE. says:
*Hahah eh busted!

Am I that dumb of a blonde online? Geez! Hahahahah ;D

the only way you can overcome an exception, is to go against the rule.

Friday, May 08, 2009 | 11:27 PM

OMGEE, I MISS YOU GIRLS HEAPS.

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Okay, study date with Liting today!
I am already in my weekend mood, even though I stuck through 3hours on Chemistry.
Liting hasn't studied the chapter on "The Periodic Table" yet and I am soooooo dead!
But thanks for helping me with the bonding theories and methods.
Love yaaaaaa.
So I met my long-lost-haven't-seen-in-ages-twin-sister.
My surprised paid off :D You didn't expect me to be there.
Anyway, don't forget our plan ;D

Priceless Humour.

If its my business, its mine, not yours.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T.
Eventually, things will turn out right again mate (:

Thursday, May 07, 2009 | 8:34 PM

You take US, lightly.

Yaaa, I wasn't in the best of mood today, especially in class.

I have ERP to do and I am in deep shit.

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I'm heading to the library tomorrow, anyone wanna accompany meeeee?
I can't wait till exams are over, I can go out as much as I want.
The sad part is that the other people I wanna ask out probably don't wanna go la.
GURHHHHHHH.

I lost it today during class.
Thanks alot 3D.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009 | 9:50 PM

Heads over heels.

I want nobody, nobody but you.

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Okay, first things first, I'm really bummed out my my English Comprehension, I failed.
This kinda sucks because I have never failed Comprehension before, which is my strongest element in English.
As the saying goes, there's a first for everything.
Gee, I better start pulling up my socks and stop copying answers from Faizul and the answer sheet during class time.

Secondly, I am also peeved because of you.
Come on mate, if you're in a bad mood don't need to give me some shit attitude okay, I swear upon my body I didn't even do anything to you.
GET A LIFE, SO WHAT IF YOU AREN'T UP TO YOUR GOOD SPIRITS, I ALSO FEEL THAT WAY, BUT I DON'T EVEN TAKE IT OUT ON YOU.

Thirdly, I miss a hell lot of people.
Siti, You, Liting, You, Marilyn, You, Kelsey and You.

Fourthly, I don't want to entertain you, who are you?

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I am effing blur today.
I walked to the canteen and I couldn't find my class, I had to ask Mr Rosk to announce where each class was, and Azura waved at me and it took like(?) 10seconds for me to realize that it was her and she was waving at me.

Okay, I'm tired and the Sony MP3 is giving me a throbbing headache by crashing my Mozilla.

- Nobody wanna see us together, but it don't matter, no.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009 | 8:42 PM

LEFT OR RIGHT PARTING, Left is the top picture.
Nyehhh, help meeeee decide!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOAH-OH..

BINDS IS POSTPONED, HOW SAD.
'cause of Swine Flu.

Speaking of flu, I have the flu, BANGS flu (Inside story!)
hahahah.

Heheh, okay.
Goodbye.

and since there was a picture of me in hysteria.....

Here's something off my Youtube account, REMEMBER THIS?

I love ya babe, ;D

Pulut la, kuat kuat.

Oh OMGee, since when did I start listening to songs by SLEEQ.
LAGU GEREKKKKKKKKK!

OMG, COME OVER MY PLACE SOOON OKAY, WE HAVE GOT THINGS TO DO!

Okay, I've got something that's really annoying me right now but I won't say it out.
But my dear friend, I've said what I've been bothered by, I hope you really get that in your mind.
Anyway, sorry for raising my voice when I was talking about that, I was just so bugged out.
Yah, no grudges, I think.
I don't know, we have got to talk it out.

And you, I am not going to entertain anymore nonsense coming from you, okay?

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Studying with Iman, Ilmi, Jianchao and Zul is hard.
The Setans keep disturbing, but I managed to finish my whole chapter on Indices ;D
Horny and Pure table, my asssss la.

Okay, I best be off, anyone up for webcam-video call?
MSN MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
:D

Monday, May 04, 2009 | 11:39 PM

OMG, FIND ME!

I used to like the guy at the second row, right in the middle.
CUTE KANNNNNNNN?!
Haha and the third guy from the left had a major crush on me.

Labels: Kindergarten Days

I love you, but....

I'm flying solo and still staying strong.

Just when I got the hang of staying single for a good 6months...
I'm experiencing something new.
I've never felt like this before, I think I'm falling for you.
My heart melts whenever you say goodnight and sweetdreams at the end of the day.
You use the weirdest of ways to start up a conversation with me and whenever you crack a joke, it never fails to stretch that brace smile on my face.
Everytime we talk, there's something to joke about, to laugh about and to smile about.
The mere sight of you just cheers me up instantly, let alone mention when we talk.
Then again it could mainly be infatuation.
Ohhh, there goes my heart.

This feeling's great, something... special.

- The joy that the heart yearns for.

I told you so, but...

OMGEE, its another one of those genuine smile pictures again!
Really, really, really love this picture (L) !

Alrighty, I just got off the phone with 41 other people from 3D.
Yes, remember to bring the things tomorrow!

and I am happy because I just patched back my broken zipper for my Ripcurl bag.
YAYE ME ;D

One subject down, 6 more to go.
English paper 1 was horrendous!
I could not brainstorm any ideas so my section one was pure nonsense, I chose question 1.
Section two was done with more ease and when I finished paper one, I had a good hour more to go, so I decided to redo my section one, I chose question 4 this time.
And thank god I did because when I re-read my first choice, it did not make ANY sense at all.
Paper 2 was not as difficult as I expected.
I was smart enough to figure out that the 1 mark questions require TWO points and not solely one, if one point, zero marks. ;D

Yeah anyway, the chinese listening was a total disaster, it was difficult to comprehend and I barely understood one of the passages.

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Okay, my sister is really beginning to bug me, ALOT.
She's leading an alter-ego of mine, she uses a highly similar name as mine on her Facebook which I can't see why she can't use her own name, her MSN's similar to my old MSN email (attitude something) which to me is FUR-REE-KEE as I don't think that we are alike each other, firstly, we don't even look alike?

Here's my proof;

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okay, I best be off I have Chinese to stone at.
Video-calling's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better than typing online.

- Everything happens for a reason, we just gotta learn to move on and accept it. (You taught me that mate, and I've got it etched in my mind)