No siree.

Saturday, February 28, 2009 | 8:46 PM

Dejo que las oportunidades de deslizarse y, ahora, lamento.
Extraño a mi mejor amigo.

Its for you because I know you read my blog, go figure.

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My mum finally fixed the wireless at Bedok North and here I am eating out from a tub of ice cream infront of the television, balancing the laptop on my laps without getting it dirtied by ice cream sploshes, drowning out my sorrows in a way that can kill my tonsils and not to mention, gaining an extra pound of fats.
I am so starting my running tomorrow or when I recover.
IT IS A MUST.

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I need to see a doctor at the hospital, my tonsils are probably inflammed to the size of ping-pong balls.
I've been sick for 2 days already and TOOOO stubborn to go see a doctor.
Its too late to regret now, is it Natalie?
I'm currently wondering if my tonsils are super inflammed till I have tonsilitis.
Here's the breakdown of Tonsilitis.

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Tonsillitis is an infection of the tonsils and will often, but not necessarily, cause a sore throat and fever.
Symptoms of tonsillitis include a severe sore throat (which may be experienced as referred pain to the ears), painful/difficult swallowing, crouch coughing, headache, fever and chills. Tonsillitis is characterized by signs of red, swollen tonsils which may have a purulent exudative coating of white patches (i.e. pus).

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Yup, they are inflammed, badly, swallowings tough even if its just liquids.

I went for church class today, people kept talking to me, but I simply replied them by shaking or nodding my head as mainly the questions were Yes-or-No.
Learnt things and what I'm doing now is a sin.
The Sin of Greed and Anger. (Capital Sins!!)

I didn't attend church today 'cause I kept coughing like a cow chewing on cud.
(Funny description, I know)
My stomach hurts so much because its a dry cough, each time I cough, I make my throat even more dryer.
I made a TERRIBLE mistake by buying COLD Apple juice.
My whole oesophagus contracted on the feel of something cold slushing down my throat.
I croaked over the phone as I explained to my mum why I wanted to go home, which was rather disturbing as I was getting unnecessary stares from people.

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My posts are all so long an draggy, without much sense, I s'spose?

Junior Netballers, this concerns you PLEASE READ;
The reason the seniors always shout at you girls, is not because we do it for fun.
Seniors are seniors for a reason, we have to be strict yet fun at the same time.
Its not easy to do so as some people cannot balance those 2 elements out yet.
Shaky start, but we learn.
Yet there are some that go overboard with Strict and Fun.

I've explained to you online already, on why that day the Seniors were shouting at some of you girls. Trust me, we have our reasons for doing so, hey let's stop here and think about it.
These few days, Coach joseph has been in a rather peeved mood because of poor attendance of the Secondary 3s due to medical/class reasons. Would you risk constantly having your hand on your fringe and then constantly holding it there and not performing in Netball JUUUUUST because of your fringe that keeps falling down into your face? (Boy, I'm getting frustrating just by reiterating all this! I'll stop here.) Yeah, anyway, think about it, scolded by Coach Joseph who'll most probably make you AND the whole team do suicides or runs or push-ups? Everyone will hate you and start bitching about you. (:
JUST THINK FOR US ALSO AND NOT JUST FOR YOURSELF.

Yup, and don't get me started on (blankblankblank). The other seniors and myself were THISSSSSSSSSSSS close on walking up to her and shouting at her, come on! Just fucking run and move. If you don't want to play, feel free to QUIT netball. We ask you nicely to play for less than 5minutes ('cause all of you are so easily tired) you give us some fucked up attitude.

Correct me if I am wrong okay?
But that's what I see, you may not notice it now, but you will sooner or later.

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Alright, goodbye!

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'cause we've got it like woah-oh-uh-oh.

After Exco meeting when much of the mayhem died down, I was reading Chicken Soup for The Teenage Soul and I came across this poem that conveyed a message.

PLEASE LISTEN
When I ask you to listen to me, and you start giving me advice, you have not done what I asked.
When I ask you to listen to me, and you begin to tell me why I shouldn’t feel that way, you are trampling on my feelings.
When I ask you to listen to me, and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem, you have failed me, strange as that may seem.

Listen! All I ask is that you listen. Don’t talk or do—just hear me. Advice is cheap; 20 cents will get me both Dear Abby and Billy Graham in the same newspaper.

And I can do that for myself; I am not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself, you contribute to my fear and inadequacy.
But when you accept as a simple fact that I feel what I feel, no matter how irrational, then I can stop tying to convince you, and get about this business of understanding what’s behind this irrational feeling.

And when that’s clear, the answers are obvious and I don’t need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when we understand what’s behind them.

Perhaps that’s why prayer works, sometimes, for some people–because God quietly listens, and He doesn’t interrupt.
God just listens and lets you work it out for yourself through His Word.
So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute for your turn—and I will listen to you.

Stacia Gilmer

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This funny sickness is so.... funny. :D
I can speak a full sentance at times, the next sentance that comes out will end after the first word is said.
I lost my voice, but it seems to be coming back, then going away, then coming back.
Funny ain't it?

Exco meeting today was.... productive?
Apparently, me and Liyi and the other 2 PLs don't have much to do for our own group.
So we're being busybodies helping out other people.
;D
We played "Make-words-from-a-word" after most people left.
Played with Raudah, its been aeons since I last had laughed with her, as in WITH her.

Yong Bao treated Mcd's.
THAAAAAAAANKS ALOT MAN. ;D
First we thought he was joking or something, until he took out the money.
We were like.... GOSH.
So we had our laughs, I had my emo/reading/sleeping/dozing off time.

Okay, best be off for church class now!
Toodles!

- Damn right, I miss you much love.

Raudah, don't worry about your Literature. The year's still early, you have time to buck up. Just don't give it up just yet. BTW, which essay question or test are you talking about? Got me to help yeeeah?
Take care youuuuu. ;D

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Friday, February 27, 2009 | 10:38 PM

Maturity
Maturity is a psychological term used to indicate a person responding to the circumstances or environment in an appropriate manner.
This response is generally learned, rather than instinctual, and is not determined by one's age.
Maturity also encompasses being aware of the correct time and place to behave and knowing when to act in serious or non-serious ways.
In an explicit model of personality, one's personality must be viewed from both the perspective of the actor and the perspective of the observer.
Therefore, one's maturity is not measured solely on how he views himself, but by how others view him as well.
By this definition, how an individual feels about himself is no more legitimate than how others feel about him, and so it is important that this individual gains a certain level of maturity as he grows older to earn the respect of others.

Even though I'm not matured, I have perfect sense to not manipulate people's minds, okay?
Amalina should know thisssss. (:

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Exco girlfriends ;D

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Oh someone please bite her face.
Even (blankblankblank) said that (insertnamehere) is so... immature and unattractive.
Haha, shut up, you think you got your backups just because you TRY and TRY to hang out with guys?
Three words for you bitch.
Go. And. Die.

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THAAAAAANK YOU SO MUCH MARIAM!

This girl actually bothered to accompany me to Tampines and back to school before making her way back home to Tampines again. Thank you so much, I owe you one.

THAAAAAAAAAANKS ILMI!

This boy actually willingly waited with me in the late evening for service 14. I owe you one.
And please don't kill me for posting this photo, you still owe me something ey!

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Thanks to Sofia, Amalina and Liyi yesterday for asking about me.
Yes, I was down with SUPER high fever of near 39degrees but I still stayed in school and went out and walked in the heavy rain.

"No matter how much a guy talks about butts and boobs, (AND PINKY), personality is key."

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Thursday, February 26, 2009 | 12:32 AM

Fuck, I just screwed my one and only Walkman stick.
Goodbye Music.

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009 | 10:22 PM

The ones who I've grown stronger with, I need you girls right now.

I'm not going to start a fight, I'm not going to say anything.
I'm going to lose friends again, yes I know it.
Tomorrow, I'm going to lose more.
I have no regrets about one that I'm going to lose, why?
I'm utterly disappointed in you.

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I'm probably in the midst of losing a friend already.
How was I to know this matter is going to blow up?
Let's just pause and think about this, shall I? (Fag, who am I kidding, of course I have to)
Its time for soul-searching.

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Syg, if I find out you're gonna start smoking again...
(Back off girl, who are you to suddenly pop into the picture? How close do you think you are?)

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If I don't appear for school the next day or remain quiet, then you'll know what's up.
I faked a smile infront of Coach and the other girls today, which was a hella' obvious.
Thanks to you all BTW.

I apologize a Thousand times to you, Faizul.

No worries, I'll back off, giving you space.
Maybe we're better off this way, ay?
We'll still remain as friends, just not as tight as before.
It was great with ya while it lasted.
Goodbye.

- I'm still saving the hug for a rainy day.

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009 | 9:37 PM

"Stop bugging me, stop bugging her."

I think I'm starting to enjoy Netball trainings.
Its an outlet where I can turn all my frustrations into the adrenalin for my runs and passes even though I know I'm no where near the usual starting 7 players, at least I have a place somewhere.
Don't I?
We're now down with 2 and a half shooters, why half? Coach's probably contemplating on putting the final shooter in for good. Sure, she may be good, but its her confidence and smugness on court that cost her a direct admission into the school team.
Hel-lo, that's what my coach said.
For the other girls, you can see improvement in every individual player. Even the best, can fall behind. After the Sec 4s stepping down, its up to the new team to bond all over again, can we tide through all this? Training is now a different situation, if you understand the new training format, I'm sure you're matured enough to handle criticisms on your own and down kick up an attitude with your other team mates. Understanding in one thing, applying is another.
Its like scooping up jam to spread on the bread, but you don't spread it On.

This year's squad is very very very different, with different personalities, backstabbing and bitching is sure to surface within a matter of weeks. Trust me, been there, done that with other happenings and not only Netball. If we can create the bond that will last like B Division 2008, together with our thinking minds on court, we'll go far.

That's fo' sho.

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Yes I'm jealous of (insertnamehere), see, I admitted it.
Get your eyes off My sayang. (Hahaha, possessive much?)

Ignore the person on the extreme left. *Shudders.

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NATALIE NATALIA TAN YEE NING ;D

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Thanks Faizul, love love ya (:

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Like duh, of course she has an attitude problem, ON COURT and OFF COURT.
Sucker and goodbye.

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BUG OFF, I GOT BOYFRIEND[S] ALREADY.
Hahaha, in your face LOOOOSER.

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Monday, February 23, 2009 | 10:17 PM

OI, BUG OFF YO.
I don't like you one single bit.
Ni confirm Hazirah, Azura sama Liyi faham eh?

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The issue; Pet Names.
Giving your best friend/good friends pet name is just sick and wrong.
Nah, its just wrong when you JUST START to get close to that person.

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Nawwwwh, its time to be sentimental. (Note; I left my unfinished/procrastinated homework to blog about ya'll)
I miss my mmwig looooads, yep its been DAMN long, we haven't talk in aeons, talk as in our usual hysterical laughter.

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"I tried to hold on, but its not enough, to make it all okay."

I am going through a hard time and I doubt that no one can really understand my situation.
I want to talk to someone, but that someone's the situation.
My Valentine's day prescription from my 2 lovelies; probably has taken a full effect yet.
How long more, can I put on a strong front?
That day, I just got up and walked away from you guys, taking my own quiet time.
Thinking and reflecting about the past and all that I've done, yes, tears streamed down.
If I could rewind time, I definitely would because I deeply regretted it.
My actions have been paid for dearly.

Well, its normal, its natural instincts. It'll take a while for wounds to heal. But what's done is done, for now its just what the future hols. Thinking about it will definitely make you feel depressed, uneasy or even suicidal, but its mind over matter. Keep telling yourself that you'll get over this, but first, you have to tell yourself that you believe in yourself that you'll get over it.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Maybe now you won't see it, but you will some day, just like me.

You can cry, think and reflect about it, but once you've thought about it, put it at the back of your mind.

I can only be here for advice or someone to lend my ears to listen, shoulder to cry. But its up to you to make a choice, I'll stand by your side, bringing you up to the normal Natalie, you can count on that.

Remember, it takes times to heal wounds and memories will stay as memories. Feel sad about it now, cry if you must, but once you stop, you have to tell yourself that you DON'T NEED to do it again, if your heart tells you to do what's right, but your mind tells you otherwise, always ALWAYS follow your heart.

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"Small is powerful, believe it!"

Oh on a lighter note, we WON.
Thank you supporters (:
20-24.
(Hah, in your face Springfield Netball)

Goodbye.

"No slight attempt to complete any assignment."

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Sunday, February 22, 2009 | 1:04 AM

I am definitely peeved, everyone's starting to flock to (insertnamehere).
People are starting to take notice of him, beginning of the year, it was just his ex-c/mates and his '09 c/mates.
Now its the juniors of our school, the seniors of our school.
MAUT KE PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

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I totally bit her head off during Netball on Friday.
Watch it girl, just watch it, its not only me that thinks you got an attitude.

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We're not together, let me make that clear.
We're just good friends who care about each other.
(So stop your rumours)

Its been aeons since we took a picture together.
(I miss you MMWIG)

This girl's almost everywhere with me.
(We're UNidentical twins, mind you)

I miss you loads babe.
(We shall go out soon)

The Big Orgy Photo.

AWWWWWWWWW, Isn't this picture sweet?

"Why are most of the girls suddenly swooning to him?"

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Sunday, February 15, 2009 | 6:21 PM

ITS VERY VERY SIMPLE BEING NATALIE.

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Get well soon youuuuu. :)

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That day, some of us were reminiscing the past.
Its been long since...

We Camwhored As A Group.

We Had THIS Much Fun.

Its been long since we did all that.
I miss you babies.

G'bye.

Labels: Its Been Long.

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Saturday, February 14, 2009 | 9:16 PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
Thanks for the hugs, cookies, lollies and wishes guys and girls.
LOOOOVE YA'LL.

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WATCH IT..
Its good, voice's good, quality's good.
PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS either on Youtube or my tagboard.
THAAAAAAAAAANKS ;D

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FOR SORFINA, FROM LITING & ME TO YOU.
:D

WE LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

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Friday, February 13, 2009 | 8:05 PM

I AM DAMN SAD LA.
My syg never talk to me today.

Hahahah, okay la.

G'bye.

For Siti.

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I got the Idea from the girls, Amalina and Syamim.

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Thursday, February 12, 2009 | 10:15 PM

How was I to know you were eyeing my phone My dear Syamim?
Hahah, okay la.
I'm proud to have friends who remembers me.
Don't you?

Kay la, Syamim and Amalina you guys better get your hugs from me tomorrow.
Haha, I didn't get anything for you guys or made anything.
Bear with me, I'll get you for you guys' birthday.

:D

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Dang, I wanted to borrow the laptop from mum so that I can go out to study tomorrow.
She allowed, but it was too heavy.
DAAAAAAAAAMNNNNN.
Tomorrow, intensive studying after school.
I hope.

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[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*you guys have to come to my freakin' house cause you gotta see how freakin' bigger my room looks with the freakin' double decker bed
NST. says:
*Huh?
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*laaaaaaaaawl
*ahem
your broken promise says:
*o.o
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*you guys should see how much bigger my room is without the bed
*my voice echos here
*echoes!
*==
NST. says:
*UH, okay.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*im in a bad mood
*soooooooooooo
*yea
NST. says:
*LIL, YOU ARE VERY RANDOM.
*What's up with the mood swings?
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*wahahaha
*i dunno
*you know something
*i feel like this week passed by super fast
*tmr's friday!
*yay!
*fast right?
NST. says:
*like, yesterday I was just at your place.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*yeaaaaa
*seriously
NST. says:
*waiting for the effing cab and avoiding roaches
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*wakakkaka
NST. says:
*Okay, you are mad. What's up with the moodswings?
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*idunno
*really lah
*i think like i have so many freaking tests next week i'm going abit cuckoo
*oh and my camp is like in two weeks and im going to freaking malaysia
NST. says:
*uh you're not abit cuckoo, you're VERY cuckoo.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*huh.
*really ah
*nvm lah
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*i donnwanna move house
*my mum didnt buy the freaking beds in the end
*just because she said it was shaky
*shaky!sheesh.
NST. says:
*then. now what?
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*i gotta use the freaking double decker
*damnnit
your broken promise says:
*lol.
NST. says:
*the same one?
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*yes
NST. says:
*I want to give you bed you don't want.
*its a big bed.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*that was BEFORE my mum decided she wasnt going to buy the bed
*and anyway
*she say no space
*and seriously no space
*the room is like freaking small
*how to share with lizhen and lina?
*i will freaking die
NST. says:
*everyone sleep on the bed la. DUH.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*next year o levels maybe i should move out
NST. says:
*move my house la.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*how to study
*then again
NST. says:
*just need to kick my sister out.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*huh
*true
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*huh
*true
*next year lina having psle and lizhen having streaming
*going to be crazy in the house
*i refuse to sleep in the same freaking room with two other people
*i can freaking explode lah for gods' sakes
NST. says:
*live with it.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*and my mum yesterday wouldnt budge about buying another bed
*she say no space
*and thats only because my uncles are moving in with us
*not that im not grateful for their help and support all these years,but i want my own freaking privacy and room
NST. says:
*that's why I say, move my house.

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She crazy sia, one shot talk so much, this whole conversation is less than 5minutes.

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your broken promise says:
*o.O
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*siti why so quiet
your broken promise says:
*history test tmr.
*and e-mathing.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*ok
*got it
your broken promise says:
*AND PREPARING V.DAY PRESENTS.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*huh
your broken promise says:
*EVERYONE'S LIKE ASKING ME IF I AM GIVING THERE --
**them
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*hahahaha
NST. says:
*GIVING WHO.
your broken promise says:
*my friends? -.-
*OH AND BY THE WAY,
*BANJAMIN LOOKS DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN HOT AND CUTE IN VJC UNIFORM LIKE MAD.
*HAHAHAHAHHA.
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*WAHHAHA
*REALLY
*OMGAWD
your broken promise says:
*YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. AND HIS HAIR IS LIKE GROGEOUS.
*hahhaha.
**gorgeous
*but he has hearing problems.
*i talk so loud still cant hear --
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*huuuuh
your broken promise says:
*i talked to him what.
*like face to face.
*he's so tall )':
*and reminded me of the time we were side by side on that silly date -.-
[[problem after problem]]its what outside that matters.no one cares what's inside. says:
*zzz

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Ni lagi satu.

I have supercalifragelistic weird friends.
Guys included, but they're all funny.

- Faiz-ul; I'm not gonna talk to you yet.

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"She didn't recognize that it is her in the picture beside me."
Different taste in music, colour, dress sense and in guys.
We're sisters, we stay together (:

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Good or what, I'm sorta contented with my CT1 results.
Since Liting wants to be updated on my results, here it is, make sure you read it.
Eng; 20/25 ;D (Stupid fundamental question, I could've gotten 21!)
Chem; 16/20 YAYYE.
Bio; 51.7%
Lit; 15/25 ;D ABOVE AVERAGEEEEEEE :D
POA; 1st test- 17.5/25 2nd test-25/25. IN YOUR FACE.
Math; 14/30 (Haha, oops, I could've passed, but... NAH.)
Chinese; UH, I FLUNKED IT.

Kay la, that's all.
Best thing, my english and POA is improving!

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I want to go Australia or London!
I want to go Australia or London!
I want to go Australia or London!
I want I want I want!

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I got locked out of the house for an hour today, but I sat at the stairs and did my essay.
I finally finished my "It changed my life" essay that has been overdued for WEEKS within 50minutes.
Talk about procrastination and paradox.

your broken promise says:
*wow!
*congrats yaaaaaaaaaaaw!
NST. says:
*yeah thanks, you're the only one to say that.
*others just think im boasting, urgh, so shallow minded.
your broken promise says:
*o.O
NST. says:
*its not everyday I can like score well, and you should know better.
your broken promise says:
*hey, it's an achievement!
*that's why!

Shas too said it was good. (:

CHEEEEESE! :D
I'm jealous of her perfect teeth, I'm getting there.
(Credits, Jianchao)

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Tuesday, February 10, 2009 | 6:37 PM

YES, I FINALLY DID WELL FOR ENGLISH!
First time, so let me just feel proud of myself just this once.

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Sunday, February 08, 2009 | 2:38 PM

OMFG,
YOU FUCKING CUNT, I don't wanna talk to you.
BUG OFF, stop being such a TOTAL ASS to me.
Who do you think you are to nag at me?
SIALAH, makes you even more gay.

My god, give me a break.
I hate you.
Yes, I hate you.

FUCK OFF YO.

Stupid gay-ass cousin.

- I'm supposed to be outside now, having fun.
Instead of getting pissed with my mum.

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Every now and then, one of my parents will buy me stuffs.
This time, both of them did!
Thanks mum for spending $79.90 on me.
Thanks dad for spending $238.00 on me.

WOOOOOOOOOOOH, yeah baby (:

Starbucks Friend; I'm gonna rub it in your face tomorrow!

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As I was blog hopping, I chanced upon this.

2/7/09 02:18 pm

a-math now.
stuck at question 4 -'-
i want SOMEONE! to take me out on a free ooovie trip.
*hint hint* :D

FRIENDS rocked, made me laughed my head off today.

bye.

* Leave a comment

Haha, take note on the BOLD and ENLARGED words.
In God's will, love.
(:

Okay, so I tried to make plans today, but apparently, they are super unstable.
Mum's back from market.
Sister's gone to sunday school.
Dad's.... IDK gone where.

Heading out now!
I don't feel like blogging right now.
Maybe after I get back, or something.

"Whoever said I don't need my friends is a total bitch."

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Saturday, February 07, 2009 | 2:48 PM

You and You are self-centered people, just because of higher authority and "Back-Up"s, you think everyone is afraid of you, as a matter of fact, I am not afraid of you.
SO BUG OFF.

"Muker maintain sikit ah."
Credited to Ilmi.

Go gather your facts first, just like I did.
From other sources, just like I did.
Then start the talk or confrontation, JUST LIKE I DID.

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Flirt, flirt, flirt.
Not only do I say that you're one, but other people who you thought were your friends also said it.
I am very happy because of that, you just made my day.

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Yeah, I definitely miss you all.
But the feeling's long gone, I don't feel a sense of connection with you anymore.
Maybe 'cause I haven't seen you much lately?
If you all are my friends, you should respect who I'm with.
So what if I'm not with you all for the past few days, at the end of the day, I still talk to You.
I wave to you, I say hi and bye to you.
Its all in the matter of body language, it plays an important role in portraying who you are and how you are.
Your body language can range from many different variations, so can mine.
But I can maintain a smile on if I'm feeling good, unlike You.
You plaster a fake smile on your face to me, but to others, its a whole different story.

Whatever la eh, I'm not going to make a mistake by saying "I don't need my friends anymore."
As a matter of fact, I do need my friends, but I'm just gonna say one thing.
I need my space, I have more than one group of friends, so you all don't control me on who I always go with.

So for now, I'll just be on a clique-hiatus to see how it feels like.
If you don't respect my decision, you can feel free to rant or bitch about me.
I will still acknowledge you, just not like last time.
Goodbye girls.

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I miss you much baby.

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Thursday, February 05, 2009 | 7:28 PM

Enough is enough.
I can't stand getting fucking pushed around, literally and hypothetically speaking.
apehal sama kau? asal nak tolak2 eh?
Not a joke already.
Not funny.

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My teeth one-and-a-half months ago.

My teeth a few weeks back.

A little bit longer and my braces are gonna be off.
YAYYYYYYYYYE! ;D
But the other 2 girls in the pictures have perfect straight white teeth.
Jealous. (Haha, I'm kidding)

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Kay, I feel kinda bad for skipping Biology SPA today.
It was actually during curriculum time.
I went home early today (:
Reached home by 3.15pm.
(Ya la, shocker eh, awal2 balik)

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Alrighty, I best be off now.
Essay to finish and Literature and e-Math.

G'bye.

I'm changing my blog URL again.

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Tuesday, February 03, 2009 | 10:46 PM

Gasping for air, constrained in a claustrophobic containment unit.
"We're not done, just yet." whispers a voice from the abyss.

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YEAH BABY, AUSSIE HERE I COME!
Envy me 'cause I may be going to Aussie this MARCH and I'm going to hunt your ass down brother-from-another-mother.

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My cousin is gay and I hate him but he's fucking giving me tuition.
Gay in the sense... A WUSS-PUSSY.
DIE ALREADY LA.
How humiliating.

I need to go on a diet, because I am not eating right.

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Muker tak perlu SIOOOOOOOL.

I jealous ah, hahaha.
I was blog hopping through some junior's blog, and most blogged about the game score and Ms Ng.
No mention of me. Hahahaha, nah I'm just kidding.

Firstly, congrats C Div Netball on first win of the season! (:
24-17 against PRCS (Take that!)
You guys played very well today for a team with no coach.
I was only there as a semi-coach.

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Just to keep the flame alive, I didn't rat you all out one by one.
I asked around, I heard different things from different sources.
She asked me to tell the whole truth on what happened to everyone when I explained the scenario to her.
I walked out of school today feeling very disappointed in you, tears were welling up and my voice was starting to change as I held my emotions back.
I'm sure Hidayah, Syahirah and Mariam saw that when I met them on the way out.

But its alright, I got to talk to Ms Ng, about problems that were disturbing me.
How to handle peer pressure, to control my emotions, how to sit down and talk nicely with my friends.
Now I know the right way to do it and to prevent such things from happening.
She also asked about my relationship with you, I told her everything and she said it ain't easy getting over too.
It takes time and I agree so too, yeah, so we had a little talk on my "life".

"Love and Infatuation are very different things even though they seems almost the same. You may think that its the same, but after you experience what I'm going to tell you, you'll realize that its very different.
The beginning stages of a relationship are all infatuation, where you see all the good aspects of him. Then only after that, only after the infatuation then the realisation draws in, he starts to notice your flaws and vice versa. Only if you can overcome that obstacle, then you know its love. The infatuation has died down. If a person loves you and its not an infatuation, there'll be a strong sense of communication and understanding between each other amidst the quarrels along the way.
You cannot change a person. You can help him or he can help you, but you have to change for yourself and not for him. 'cause if you do, within 1-3months down the road, you'll be back to square one."

Dare I say it? Can I say it was love or was it an infatuation, because it almost went into true love, but halfway through, both of us were cut off. I definitely miss you though.

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If my school-life could rock my socks off just just now when I got back from school, I would love it.
Thanks guys and girls (:

I screwed my Biology paper, (folds paper airplanes).
My Chemistry? Haha, forget about asking even.
E-Math was alright, until I got to Fractional Indices.

;D

Okay, best be off now.
I have truckloads of Literature homework to complete!
Goodbye.

"The day you say goodbye forever to one another, will be the day me and Amalina party/drink till we lose our virginity in the club. We've been dying for that day to come. Haven't we, Amalina?"

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Monday, February 02, 2009 | 9:32 PM

Dammit, stupid hip.
Faster get better, I want to run, jump, play ball.

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"Unlike you, I can smile and be pretty without scrunching up."
Don't you readers think so?

"A totally prejudiced game which injured all of us in one way or another."

Game time, yeah we lost badly.
Fault's on us, the opponent and the umpires.
We tried, maybe not hard enough.

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School time.
I gave up on Chinese the test as soon as I couldn't understand the passage, I'm appealing to drop the subject soon.
After I talk to my parents about it.
I did not grow up with a chinese background even though I have cousins that converse in Mandarin 24/7.
Long story short, my mum/dad/grandma all took Malay as their second language.
The English test, was... My vocabulary is deteriorating.
I need to brush up on my grammar and vocab.

All that's said that's needed to be said.
Thanks guys for accompanying me during recess.
Thanks girls for helping me and asking about me.

All I got to worry now is my semi-dislocated hip joint.
Long story short - I fell on my side, impact on the right hip first, before the knees.
Right now from hip down my whole right leg is paralysed.
Thinking to myself; How to climb stairs tomorrow?

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Yeargh, okay then.
I best be off now, to revise and finish Geography worksheets.
Goodbye.

"Now that I want you.." Urgh, forget it, you're never coming back.

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Sunday, February 01, 2009 | 8:34 PM

Achmed the Dead Terrorist.

Hahaha, funny ass, check him out.

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That day, the dead girl is tied up and her mouth, stuffed with a dripped-wet-semen-filled condom.
"Cross-Jurisdictions Baby", she muffled before she took her last breath in the arms of her killer.
No one spoke, though soft muffling moans can be heard from beyond the premises of the Strip.

To be continued.

Labels: Dead and Gone (I)

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MY PHONE HAS A DEEP UGLY SCRATCH 'CAUSE IT DROPPED WHILE ML YESTERDAY NIGHT!

"I'm turning back, but afraid of crashing right here."

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I miss my brown hair.
):
Right now, I'm just waiting for my neither black nor brown hair to grow longer before I snip it off to my desired style.

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Boy, I'm done I know, waiting this long.
There's no explanation, for letting you go and you were right all along.
I missed you bad when you're gone, I finally opened my eyes and now I'm standing alone.
And now that I want you, you're moving on.

Mum, for once, please stop shouting at us.
You may not raise your voice at Grandma, but you do raise your voice at the others. Me, the maid, Mel and Dad. Since Grandpa died, there was never a day of peace in this household. Does that actually make you satisfied? Yes, I suppose? I've been tolerating your constant ramblings for AGES and AGES and AGES. Ever since this new maid came, you have not been giving her a break. Let me remind you, she has already been here for 1month and more. You said I was the one being demanding and all, sorry to rebut, but you're the one that's being demanding. At least for me, the constant ranting from you has become part of my daily life but I still get upset whenever you shout at me for no reason. But for Her, she just came, and there you go shouting your lungs off at her. HELLO- Reality check, who's the one that's being a bitch.
Right now, as I am typing all this out on my blog, I can hear you shouting NO, NO and NO. To whatever my maid tries to explains. SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!
SHUT THE FUCKING HELL UP!
Kotek, diam ah SIAL.

Another point that I wanna add.
SCHOOL STUDIES IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN CHURCH CLASS.
CHURCH CLASS IS NOT, I REPEAT, NOT A PRIORITY FOR ME.
CCA comes after school studies WAAAAAAAAAY BEFORE church class.
Why do I say that?
I find it a DRAG to attend lessons in mid afternoon, without learning anything.
Going home without any added faith in me.

Oh, all you haters of the Catholic faith out there, yeah you can screw me with all the insults on how God is sooo important.
HAHAHA, Catholicism is THE ROOT of Christianity.
Its only when smart-alecks try to out-think God and find reason involving Science, then the other beliefs come up.
But you're not my religion, so DO NOT preach to me.
If you do, I swear I'm gonna screw your face when I see you 'cause, I know more than you do.
I'm not be the most "closest/holiest/don't sin" or whatever, but I sure do know my roots.
If you give a damn that you think I do sin like steal things, lie to people, fuck others then go ahead and call me a child of Satan.
My faith is strong within me, you can't pry it out of me.

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OKAY, I FEEEEEEL MUCHMUCHMUCH BETTER NOW.

"Cousins gone wild."

Screw it.
Teehee, I am such a bitch I swear.

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Let's play Yo Momma' jokes. (:
I got some off the Net.

Yo momma so nasty I asked her whats for dinner she jumped on the table opened her legs and said CRABS!
Yo momma so nasty I asked ya daddy why they don't have sex any more he looked at her crotch and said "have you ever tried to peel apart a grilled cheese sandwich?"
Yo momma such a ho she only wear panties to keep her ankles warm.
Yo momma so dirty she makes the hoes on the street look clean.
Yo momma so old, I patted her on her back and her titties fell off.
Yo momma so smelly when she spread her legs I got sea sick.
Yo momma so old she got a wooden bra.
Yo momma so big that they had to change "One size fits all" to "One size fits most"
Yo momma so old I told her to act her age and the bitch died.
Yo momma so fat she fell in love and broke it.
Yo momma so old she fart dust.

HAHA.
Okay, fun's over.
Goodbye.

Google them for more!

Labels: Yo Momma jokes

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HOHO; WAAAAAAAAAAAY BACK IN SEC 2 BEGINNING!

I look so different!

I need a new bag.
Haha, my strap is tearing because of my heavy Math/Chem/Geog and space-occupying ring files.
Damn, I just realised that my bag is out of the store's website catalog.
WHICH MEANS... NO MORE SHIPMENT.
HOMG?

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Let me get back to normal-what-happen-in-Natalie's-world type of blog post.

Yesterday (Saturday)
- Exco-meeting at 8am.
- Brunch with Amalina at 11.30am.
- Met up Ilmi at 1.50pm, 31-ed to Marine Parade library.
- Study date with Ilmi, Jianchao, Zul at 2pm.
- Met Siti and Liting at 4pm.
- Parkway with the guys.
- 14-ed home with the guys at 8pm.
- ML till BJ till 9.30pm ;D
- From G's to Gents Marathon at 10pm till 11pm I didn't finish it ):
- Knocked out.

Chyeah, I spent my whole afternoon with the guys doing homework/revising and slacking around cracking jokes and play "Questionnaire".
I didn't go for the picnic outing planned.

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I have an older sister, try see the resemblence ;D

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