No siree.

I'm a troublemaker. I told you that come what may, I'd stay by you, but you didn't take my word, and now you're regretting.

Natalie
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"Piss off."

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Wednesday, December 31, 2008 | 5:00 PM

TODAY'S PHOTOS CLICK HERE!

A normal human's eye and Faizul's eye.
Need I mention Sorfina?

Three days straight of Netball at 8am.
Three nights straight of sleeping after 1am.

Result?

Super heavy and obvious eyebags.

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Madness right?

I'm currently VERYVERYVERY exhausted.
My head's spinning, I can barely walk in a straight line.
My brain cells are dying out on me just before the New Year.

Netball today in the morning.
Got up at 4.30am, snoozed for 10times (5minutes interval).
Finally I got up to go and bathe and freshen up.
As usual, I fell asleep in the toilet while waiting for the hot water to come on.
I woke up again when the water got too hot and it burnt my feet.

Packed my bag, messaged to find out stuff left house at 6.30am.
I took a good, slow fifteen minute walk to the bus stop opposite block 138 to wait for 168.
I was too tired to walk my normal speed.

Bus-ed to Tampines, met Azura, Liyi and Fadhilah.
Beginning of the day I was quiet, middle of the night I got hyped up, now, I'm dead exhausted.
Had match with Marsiling Sec, didn't lose my anger/temper today though.
But I did get irritated at a few players.
(Both of-fence and de-fence)
But we won, after many matches lost to Bukit Batok.
After match, team talk.
We didn't get to bathe, Coach treated us to KFC breakfast.
I don't really fancy it though, but Coach insisted.

Walked around Causeway Point after eating.
Went home by 168, instead of going home headed to Tampines West CC to watch the Floorballers.
Fell asleep on the bus and Azura had to wave madly to wake me up.
I slept like as though as I had fainted.
Apparently, when we got there, they had already finished their match.
Ah, yer la eh ajak orang gi tengok abeh tak layan eh Amshar? Pandai ah kau.
Yeah, so decided to head to Tampines Inter Mcd's to slack and stone.
I swear, me and Liyi think the same.
If we say something, at the same time and same meaning.
We'll say it again some other time later, too much of a coincidence as it happens everytime.

So, we did take pictures today, but not that many.
I'll upload them and post the link ASAP.

67-ed home with Faizul, talked to him about stuffs.
Thanks bro (:

My sister is bugging me for to use the computer, but I have dedications to complete.
Okay, I shall complete them and hand over the computer.
Sheesh, if only I had wireless.

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I need a haircut, seriously.

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"Yes, there was a sense of awkwardness today when I was amongst all of you."

Tuesday, December 30, 2008 | 6:55 PM

"Why would they want to put the chair under the light?"

Okay, today was just HI-LA-ROUS.
Because of Hyped Natalie with her confident errors, which made Crazy Azura and Gila Liyi laugh their asses off.

Netball training at 8am today.
Only 8people showed up, the rest were sleeping.
Bukit Batok came down with Coach today.
Why am I not surprised?
Was already super tired.
Our usual routine, cool down, slack in the toilet for an hour or longer before taking photos.
Then we would bathe, take more photos after.
Then Azura would screeeeeeeeam out many versions of my name to confirm where we would be going.
In the end, we didn't get anywhere after all that screaming.
Headed to Changi Airport, Terminal 3 Popeyes.
Was annoyed by this couple, the girl had a VERY squeaky voice.
You know like how during camps we do the "Gu Niang" claps?
Yeah, and I swore I heard the girl mention "Do you know Scott and Gibson?" to her boyfriend. I was like, "Woah, what?"
Took photos as usual.

CLICK HERE XO!

Went home, I fell asleep with my contacts on.

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Skipskipskip.

Why do I feel like this now?
Is it You, or is it You? (Two different people)
Just when I thought I've put the past behind me.
It came back haunting me.

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Thanks alot Faizul. (:

Monday, December 29, 2008 | 7:58 PM

I am infatuated.
Well, that's part of being single.

I am currently just loving life and the people that I hang out with.
I don't think I've been mean lately.
(Lately referring to this past week)

Okay.

YESTERDAY.

D&D was JUST GREAT.
Sape tak datang rugi uh.
I shall just post a few pictures up on Blogger and the rest on Shutterfly.
For the mean time, I'm getting them off Facebook.
CLICK HERE XO FOR PHOTOS!

Danish; I just met him(:

Amalina; My date;

Mane cameraman?!

Okay, so yeah.
My morning was filled with hustle and bustle.
Headed to JB first thing in the morning with cousins and parents and sister.
Caught up with cousins, went for lunch.
Then I did window shopping and I immediately headed back down to Singapore to make it for the D&D.
Gosh, am I glad I made it (:

I think I'll blog more tomorrow?
I'm feeling exhausted from the hyperness, so is Azura.
We were so hyper today.

Because of me (:

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NATALIE TAN. says:
I just realised something
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
whatwhat??
NATALIE TAN. says:
Strawberry farts !
NATALIE TAN. says:
AHAHAHAHAH!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
LOLs!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
ahahx!
NATALIE TAN. says:
siaah, aku dah gila!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
zhahahahahx!!!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
LOLOLOLOLS!!
NATALIE TAN. says:
but wth is strawberry farts?
NATALIE TAN. says:
strawberries don't fart,
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
my fart smells of strawberry=)=)
NATALIE TAN. says:
wtf?!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
AHAHHXX!!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
=p=p
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
u know ashhy ryt??
NATALIE TAN. says:
Who?
NATALIE TAN. says:
Where?
NATALIE TAN. says:
What?
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
campteen.
NATALIE TAN. says:
sape tu
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
asiqin
NATALIE TAN. says:
sape? describe
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
idk how to describe her..
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
aahx!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
just take it as u know her//
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
just now i was chatting with her,then she fart//
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
i say smell of what..
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
then i say strawberry..
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
then i said i was hungry,so she told me eat her fart..
NATALIE TAN. says:
FTW?!
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
so its strawberry farts=)
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
ahahx!
NATALIE TAN. says:
GOD.
Izam- FrenchKiss - strawberry farts . says:
AHAHHX!

You tell me, giler ke gila?

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I have a hundred over photos to upload today.
Gosh, I doubt I'll finish everything today.
Let me just use the facebook uploader as it uploads pictures VERY fast.

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I miss him and I don't know why.
If its infatuation, why do I feel like this?

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Ohwell, FROG-ET.
Kay, shuddap Natalie!

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Saturday, December 27, 2008 | 9:23 PM

Me and Faizul were just sooo damn bored.

Alrighty, I just got home from church not long ago.
I feel so "angelic" today.
I managed to stay up (no matter how tired I was) to listen to mass readings.
See that hallow above me?

Okay, anyway had dinner at home.
The new maid's cooking ain't to my liking, oh well.
I guess this means I have to cook for myself, which shouldn't be much of a problem.

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Damn, I'm headed to Malaysia tomorrow and back down to Singapore in time to meet Faizul and Amalina for D&D.
RUSH BANGET!

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Okay, so I took Celey around Town, we went to almost everywhere.
We got stuffs from 77th Street and Bus Stop, both shops at Far East Plaza.
She was in love with the place, and I was in love with the pleather boots.
We had J.Co's for lunch, she was craving them.
Had 3 each, her treat.
Thanks alot love!
I could barely finish one, but for the sake of her, I forced-fed all 3 in.
Plus, I survived.
:D

A'aight, I'm starting to get that I'm-not-from-Singapore-kindoff-accent.
After conversing to Celey without the malay words and Singlish.
Holeeeeyy crap, I can't possibly be doing this.
Tongues will indeed start wagging.

Oh well, as long as I don't have to put on a front.
Town was fun today, but I saw many of those huMankinds.

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Year-end sale's are really bad this year.
The sale prices are still sky-rocket high, which really sucks.
How can I get you your VERYVERYVERY late present if the prices aren't going to drop?
Uh, I'll get you your boardies like I promised.
Its a matter of time I return you all the money you gave in a big expensive present!
You should know who you are love!

I wanted to make something for girlfriends, but given the fact that I'm not VERY close to them anymore.
NAAHHH, I don't wanna waste my resources on scouting for items high and low right now at 14.
I'll leave it till Graduation, more value.
Who knows, I may have made more enemies, I may have made new friends.

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Its single for me, going to stay that was for a loooooong time.
(Well, maybe not THAT long.)

"One day, you hugged, kissed, slept with and more with him,
another day you did it again,
the only catch now, you're not together anymore."

When your cousin buys you HOT double-shot-espresso-no-sugar and starts snapping photos of you from every angle without being in ANY.

Status: NATALIE TAN ; holy crap school's starting! Just Now.

Mood: Yeeargh!

(Update)

School's starting really soon people!
Gotten everything ready?

Well, not for me.
I'm leaving everything to shopping.

I collected.. Ninety bucks yesterday, my mum owes me ten bucks for helping out.
YAYYYYE (:
Money = Shopping!
In your faceeeee!

Daaang, this saving trick really works, of course, I can't spend everything on one day.
I have managed to save 50bucks in... 2weeks!
Shopping with Celey soon!

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(10minutes later)
AHHHHHHHHH! CELESTINE'S IN SINGAPORE!
Hahaha, we're so heading out so Town later on.
Okay, Marina Square, 12.30pm.
Find me (:

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Okay, moving on.
I just totally blanked.

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Yesterday,
Had dinner with cousins yesterday, sadly there aren't any pictures as all 4 of us couldn't squeeze into one frame.
(Get my drift?)
They introduced me to Northern Indian cuisine.
My critic, beans, beans and more beans!
Everything is very gravy-like and very strong.
Not spicy hot, but spice-y.

We were talking about my sister on her stages to blonde-rism.
"If she's like what you describe and what I see, then she's turning to a blonde."; By my cousin.
HAH, that proves I ain't blonde, or am I?
"I told her a lame joke, and she went literally Rolling On The Floor Laughing My Ass Off."
(Sheila's lame bumblebee joke which actually ain't funny at all.)
Anyway, back to dinner, ate ALOT even though everyone shared and everything came in small portions.
Alot of Tandoori chicken dishes, which was VERY filling.
But I only ate one.

Yeah, so walked around that area.
On the contrary, it didn't... have a foul odour.
Maybe because we were eating at the North Indian's restaurant and not the daaaark ones.
IDK where they're from, South India eh?
(No, I'm not being a BIGOT here.)
Walked to Tekka Mall, honestly I felt like a Tourist.
With all the pointing of fingers, (no vulgur) to different directions.
"When in Little India, CROSS like an Indian."
Which means, you just JAYWALK thru the heavy traffic coming down from Serangoon Road.
Yeah, its like all the Geylang Lorongs that join with the main road.
That big, that dangerous, that heavy traffic and THAT HUNDRED-IN-A-MILLION chance of getting knocked down.
Okay, so looked at really nice decor for the house.
Planning on a new house makeover for the new year.
I have a design/layout already planned out in my head.

My cousin's compared my face last year and this year.
They saw my EZ-Link card made last year.
Hahaha, I still remember the photo-taking.
F-A-T FACE!

Oh well, walked till about 8pm then we went for coffee and ice cream at this very quaintly designed French Stall.
Its French Cuisine, and at a VERY reasonable price.
Its very nice to just sit in and eat or talk or simply catch up.
Go check it out if you're interested, its at;
544 Serangoon Road
2 bus stops after Mustafa - Serangoon Plaza.
Closed on Mondays.
3-6pm - desserts.
6-10pm - dinner.

Then headed to Grandaunt's house.
Took 66 to Bendemeer.
Simon; "Nat, are you scared of cockroaches?"
Nat; "Huh?" *Blonde moment.
(I looked down to the ground and screamed)
Simon; "Wlao eh, I ask you so long, you look down then scream. I guess that's a yes?"
Nat; *steps on step "Later crawl over my feet I run away."
I swear to god, I hate cockroaches, SOOO MUCH.
This reminded me of Mid-Autumn Festival. Where Azura and Hazirah faked as though there were roaches and me and Liyi freeeeaked major. LOL, I think I jumped on Ilmi or something.

Okay, moving on, I got 10bucks from Grandaunt.
The first thing everyone said when I stepped in the house was how much I've changed in looks.
My mum just says its the eye-makeup.
Party-pooper.
Hmm, but I love my grandaunt and granduncle, when they compliment me I feel more confident of myself, no ego-istic, confident.
(considering the fact my mum always will rain down on my parade)

Yeah, so caught up with my sister and my dad, went home.
I had THIS (stretches hands as wide as possible) much difficulty taking out my eye-makeup.
Paul&Joe eyeliners are VERY hard to remove!
So yeah, watched House on Channel 5, god love that flick.
Then I had insomnia from drinking double shot cappuccino.
SECOND DOSE OF DOUBLE SHOT CAFFEINE!
Damn.
So I just took 2 Panadol Extras and immediately died on the pillow.

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I think I'll stop here for now.
I better go shower, get outta the house and meet Celey latest by 12.40pm.

PEACE.

"Culprits of the Photo-snapping-from every angle."

Friday, December 26, 2008 | 12:23 AM

I've changed my parting to the left side, but I didn't cut it.
So it feels heavy on one side.

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Geez, looking back at my photos I took this year, a ton of memories hit me.
Its something to cry about, then again I shouldn't cry about it.
As I am only fourteen, I have more memories to make.
I have to move on with those memories and take life in as it passes.

Alright, you readers may be thinking;
"Wow, after the break Natalie seems so changed."
On the blog, in terms of sub-conscious thinking, yes.
But physically, not yet.
I have indeed gotten worse, from the looks of how I'm dealing with my problems.

As quoted, "I can't say much now. Considering I'm sorta in the same boat as you. Somehow they told someone bad things about me. I cried but now, I'm leaving it all to God. As long as I know who I am and have a clear conscience, I'm fine. Cheer up, and try to look at the path I chose to look at okay? (: You can't really take things for granted, no matter how close you can get. You have to be on your guard 'cause looks deceive."

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Maybe these few days I have not been myself is because of the constant migraine I'm having.
If it isn't migraine, its moodswings.
If its neither, its the pain from the braces leading to my jaw, up to my temple.
So yeah, I apologize to anyone if I have accidently lost it.

Oh, I have one thing to add.
Hey, you haven't seen me since like... IDK for how long.
You constantly read my blog, please don't start assumptions on how I'm like.
If you're gonna take someone else's word for it, no matter how close/distant he/she may be.
Go ahead, its your choice, I can't say anything.
Its just a matter of trust.
You get me?

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Apparently, I "offended" people.
Uh, I don't recall staring/insulting anyone.
Well, except for the people I used to bitch about and sometimes that annoying brat and mum.
Oh yeah, and Little Miss Bingit.
Tsktsk, if only people were not that sensitive.
Hahaha, I don't recall even talking to you hey.
Don't start assumptions, maybe you may just be those type who just LOOOOVE to do all these sorta things?
(:

Melanie;
get a life, stop posing as me.
You're trying your best to be me, its not even me anymore.
LOSER!
(makes L sign and puts on forehead blowing a raspberry.)
Seriously, if I could trade a week of no computer usuage then to see your face, I would.

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Standard.

Hmm, let's see what's gonna be planned out for the week.
I most probably hafta take Celey around on.. the 26th (which is today), 27th or 28th.
Tiffany's gonna be in Singapore for I'm not sure how long so we'll most probably meet up someday soon with Shirlene.
I have Netball on 29th and the 30th, or was it the 31st?
I have Physiotheraphy on the 29th.
I have dinner date with cousins tomorrow at 5pm.
Lastly, I'll be attending the CampTeen D&D on the 28th with Faizul and Amalina.
We're going as a Three-some. :D

Gosh, I have so many things on till the day school starts.
OHDAMN, I gotta get my cousin to get me a Billabong pencilcase when he comes down from Perth which will be really soon.
(I am very brand-conscious)
Oh well, there's about 2 weeks before they're in town.

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Geez, I best turn in now.
Its late, I don't wanna turn into an owl like what someone calls me.
;]

A'aight, best be off now.
PEACE.

"Hahaha, he's gotta find her G-spot again 'cause he's lost it."
I can be such a slut at times!

Thursday, December 25, 2008 | 6:39 PM

The last time I started a brawl with you.

A big thanks to those who wished me Merry Christmas at like midnight yesterday night.
You guys/girls know who you are.

(:

Okay, I didn't collect presents, but its no biggie.
But I really would love it if someone surprised me.

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I'm off, maybe I'll blog later.

"Being in a relationship is like giving a blowie, you'll never stay still, you're either deeply in, or falling out."

Orange tights, black dress.
Compliment it with boots?

NAAAAAAH.

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!
TO ANYONE THAT ACKNOWLEDGES THIS HOLIDAY.

LOL, I'm in church, attending the Midnight mass, let's just say, today...
I was chef for the day, which was super fun!

Oi vey, I love myself.
Hahahaha, okay I'm going crazy.

Most probably from the smell of the pounded onions and stuff.
Geez, I need a shower.

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I got fifty bucks from Grandma!
YAYE MEEE!

Year-end-sale, here I come.

P.S; If you wanna reach me, text me yeah?

Goodbye. (:

Tuesday, December 23, 2008 | 7:18 PM

I loike my hair in this picture!

Status: NATALIE TAN is tired of frontin'. Just Now.

Mood: tired.

Nicole. says:
well they arent your friends dear.
Nicole. says:
friends dont do that
NATALIE TAN. says:
Well, most of my friends do it, and like I just put on a front and that everything's fine.
Nicole. says:
well its not fine
Nicole. says:
and friends just dont do that
Nicole. says:
i know its hard, but you need to surround yourself with ppl u trust etc
Nicole. says:
life is not worth bitches as friends
NATALIE TAN. says:
If you're gonn badmouth someone, I reckon that someone has gotta make sure when he/her does, it DOES NOT BACKFIRE.
Nicole. says:
yes! youre right haha

Harsh, but yes, it is true.

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Netball today at 8am, Bukit Batok came down late today.
(Yes, again.)
Started with Set plays with Shahirah, Azura, Liyi, Myself.
I ran alot today, I did all the square drills, ball work and court-work.
Proud of myself 'cause I didn't sit out much (:
(Okay, whatever Natalie)
I FELL FOUR/FIVE TIMES TODAY!
Okay, call me crazy, but its quite fun to fall hey.
Again, Little Miss Bingit made me mad.
She also mad Liyi mad, and when Liyi gets mad, she's really MAD.
The gangster in her comes out.
(Scary)
Netball ended really early today.
I was a little bummed out, as I didn't even feel like it was a training.

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Bathed, stayed in school for a while.
Okay, I do not miss you.
Amshar, Faizul and Shafiq were super weird.
Ting tings, donald and... tommy.
(inside joke)
Went to Tampines with Azura, Liyi and Syamim.
Talked to Syamim about stuffs going on with me.
She's really nice to talk to, I reckon the way we think about certain matters, is about the same.
Love you biatch (:
Talked all the way from school to Tampines Interchange.
She went off to Amalina's crib and I went with Azura and Liyi.
Went to Pie Kia, ate twice.
Somehow or another, my appetite is very big today.
Maybe because yesterday I did not eat much for dinner.
Talked about people and stuffs.
Headed to the "Kiddie Place" at Open Plaza.
OPEN PLAZA CANTEEN! CLICK XO.
Hahaha, I'm Lost, Azura's Think-alot, Liyi's I think of a name later.
So.. I got hungry and then we ate at Long Johns.
Yes, ate again.
I bought ALOT of food, I finished almost everything.
First time (:
Yeah, so we talked somemore.
Found out stuffs, was actually a little pissed off by it, but just remained composed.

I text Babylove and I cried on the way home.
The guys who were at the street soccer court were like "eh-eh, dier ngangis ah. asal ehh, confirm boyfriend nye psl."
I just said, "takde pape la, jgn k-po k-po."
Hahah, and they were shocked I understood Malay and could speak in Malay.
So they kept asking and I just showed hand gesture to "talk to the hand."
LOL, they were super funny.
Oh, I saw Marz again!
:D :D
Nyeh, but he has like mat-rep street soccer friends.

Reached home, I was too tired to eat.
My maid was so... I didn't want to talk to her though.
I didn't want to talk to anyone.

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I wanna call Love, but it 4.25/minute, flat rate.
CRAZY OR WHAT?!
Oh well, gotta wait till 27th then.

I wanna watch the Suria drama now.
Once again, the link is;
http://withthecamera.shutterfly.com/351

I miss you, love.
PEACE.

"When you assume that things are going to go fine, it will take a toll for the worst."

Kodak Moment!

"Only gonna play the fool, one time."

Monday, December 22, 2008 | 8:02 PM

I'm at Liting's house right now.

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Netball today at 8 to 11+ am.
Trained with Bukit Batok, as usual.
My knee hurts alot now, but I don't wanna tell Coach about it.
I don't wanna be benched, because of being benched during Netball, my arm strength is at its minimal now.
I can't make a proper pass 8metres away.
(HOMG!)
So yeeah, I can't do the square drill properly with fast transition players like Fadhilah, Hazirah, Shas.
(Others not mentioned, its not that you're bad, just that I can make the pass to you)
My next physio is in.. 2 weeks.
Someone help me with my knee, please?
Please, please any Netballers that chance upon this, please don't tell Coach yeah?

Sorfina came back today.
Welcome back dear!

Alright, after Netball me and Liyi helped Fadhilah with something.
You owe us!
(Joking, love)
Was stuck at the Tanah Merah bus stop deciding where to go with Liyi.
Ended up at Tampines Mall with Liyi.
Saw Coach with... Fiona.
Planned to eat Long John's but it was SOOOO full.
Bumped into more of the Bukit Btaok girls.
Headed to McD's to eat.
Liting joined us a while after.
Talked to Liyi for about... 2-3hours at Mcd's.
I couldn't finish my meal, neither could Liyi.

After that Liyi went off, then started walking around with Liting.
Tried shoes, went hunting for clothes.
Saw Mr Ghaz Jr (:
and Shirlene, and I totally "disiao" this girl asking for Particulars to join some thing la.
Continued our hunting.
Liting ended up buying 2 polo tees for her dad.
I bought a hairband after deciding to get a white one.
Gonna get all the colours hey.

Then decided to go Liting's house.
Was deliberating over washing my PE tee at her house as I have Netball tomorrow.
I ended up going home and washing everything and leaving my house.
Wrapped up the christmas present for the whole family.
Liting didn't know that I had given them a present.
LOL!
OKay, so had dinner at their house.

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Now we're deciding on what to get for Siti for Christmas present.

Nyeheh, she can't get my wallet.
Boohoo ):

OH WELL.
Netball tomorrow at 8am, (again) with Bukit Batok in school.
WOW eh.

&Siti, come baaaaaaaaack soon!
&&Fadhilah, hope everything gets better for you hey?
&&&Azura, you too, just.. follow your heart (:

Lovelove you girls.

P.S. I think I needa entertain my overseas friends soon.
Geez!

Saturday, December 20, 2008 | 11:44 PM

I'm in 3D.

With Jianchao, Fadhilah, Amshar, Faizul and... Others?

I found out I'm in 3D?
Oh well.

I'll post tomorrow.

I'm gonna get my shoes tomorrow!
YAY (:

What-the-hell?
Okay bitch, you're being unreasonable here and right now.
PFFFT.

PEACE.

Friday, December 19, 2008 | 8:03 PM

We laugh, we cry, we're MAD.

Status: NATALIE TAN. finds you really annoying. Just Now.

Mood: Hurling vulgar.

(Update)

I. Am. So. Sleepy.

To kickstart my post, let me shed some light on me "Status" and "Mood".

(Insertnamehere), I am so pissed off with you.
I really am, I was on the brink of hitting your face today. Yeah, I got a very bad-ass attitude problem with you. But its you alone, I'm not like you, when people shout at you, (its understandable to be "pissed off" or "intimidated"), but you are neither, you get angry at the person or people when they correct you in a harsh manner. For crying out loud, you are not tall and you ARE NOT THE BEST player. I am not saying that I am, but at least I don't kick up a hissy fit AND take it out on your team-mates. Please save me and the other girls, the agony of hearing your retardedly squeaky, whiny voice. Coach already said, to step up during a game. If he asks to move fast, move fast. But of course, I will start commenting on how eager you are to do or take up a certain position. PUH-LEASE, you do not do well under pressure, resulting in alot of careless mistakes that will cause us the game. Yes, I know I too make mistakes, sometimes alot, sometimes a little. Honestly, if I could voice out how I really felt about you, I would starting hurling pallets of harsh critique. Good luck on making starting seven next year (:

I don't want to waste my time on small things like this, but I'm sorry to rant on.
Its bugging the shit outta' me.

Call it jealousy, call it bitchy.
I don't give two hoots about it as its the fact.

(Oh yeah, you know what? I got others into commenting about you.)
Yaye me (:
(I know I deserve a slap.)
*PIIIAAAAKK! (:

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On a lighter note, (insertanothernamehere);
STOP USING ME, you got better people to mess around with, why me?

Nyeheh, don't get oh-too-sensitive about it.

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I know I am being a total bitch today, buuuttttt...
fuckthewhat kay?
(:

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Photoshoot yesterday was super fun (somehow, someway).
2weeks to portfolio?
YAYEEE, can't wait to see how it turned out.
I started at 5pm and ended at somewhere about 8.15pm.
LONG HEY?
Mum liked the 3rd outfit, she was being nice yesterday.
Height; 158cm. (Waaah, I grow so slow.)
Vital stats; 31", 24", 36".

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Netball today at 2pm.
Today was selection trials for Starting seven and five reserve for Netball B Div 2009.
Found out something.
(*GASP, OMG)
Bukit Batok came down for training.
Had training with them.
I can say they were not like how I imagined them to be in drills.
But on court with the tactics, FUU YOHHH, they learn fast, they play smart.
Tiring I must say, even though I didn't train much and sat out most of the time.
After Netball, ate savagely with Vanessa, Liyi and Azura.
All of us were very hungry, so we ambushed to food left behind by the Excos.
Bathed and left school.
Headed home straight after bathing.

Apparently, my maid re-did my wardrobe.
Thanks?
IDK, I was supposed to clear everything.
But ohwell, best be grateful to it being done.

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I'm tired, better finish up Facebook-ing for the day.

[S]has says:
try it uh,since ur still free,ltr wen ur sumwan's alr,u'll have th urge t do it even more MUAHAHAHAAHHA
NATALIE TAN. says:
Hahaha, not for me la.
NATALIE TAN. says:
LOL.
NATALIE TAN. says:
Ayy, I daresay I never play around kay.
[S]has says:
alah try only lah wun hurt ma
[S]has says:
omg i sound so evil
NATALIE TAN. says:
THAT'S WHY!
[S]has says:
HHAHAHAHAH
[S]has says:
nvm la,i wanted to make this yer sec 1s into sluts oso anyway
[S]has says:
bt zzz thyr ugly
NATALIE TAN. says:
Hahaha, why sia?
NATALIE TAN. says:
They slut, I start bitch-fit with them sey, all so.. step.
[S]has says:
u gt watch cruel intention?so i will rule them
NATALIE TAN. says:
No, what is it about?
[S]has says:
HAHAHAHAH,go watch seducing,lust all
[S]has says:
dun watch with ur parents around
NATALIE TAN. says:
LOL!
NATALIE TAN. says:
At where? TV?
[S]has says:
i watch when i young,cos my sis watch,thn aft tht i watch online
NATALIE TAN. says:
Hahah I see.

Tsktsk, aiyooo Shas.

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Stupid Adidas/Nike, selling their Sports bras at $42, $45, $48.
KILLER, Oh well.
I shall bug my mum for Ankle Grazers from Topshop and Adidas shoes.
PLEEEEEEEEEEEEASE.
No, I don't think I spend too much.
Recession?
BAH, people say spend hey.

OH WELL.

If only you knew how much hurt you have done to me.
Goodbye.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008 | 8:47 PM

Boy, do you know what it feels like, to be afraid to fall in love again?

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. suddenly needs you. Just Now.

Mood: To be here.

(Update)

I. Am. So. Sick. Of. Crying. Over. The. Littlest. Thing.
I really am, and right now, I feel like running away.

I'm already missing Siti Nurbuwwah.
I miss having to talk to Sorfina where she'd just remain calm and somehow or another manage to manipulate my brain to help me think straight again.
I miss Ida and her advices on what to do.
And I miss Ilmi.
Call me "bragging" or any other options but I miss talking to him on the phone about my problems and somehow or another, (just like Sorfina), he manages to help me think straight again and stopping me from running away everytime, its as though when he says "Don't do stupid things" or "Don't be so stupid and run away la" I won't.

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You know how new reports always say Maids run away because of their Employers?
Well, I'll be the first in Singapore to run away because of my maid.
I swear I will, I just gotta find somewhere to stay as I have no money right now.
Anyone can take me in for 2nights?
Please somebody.

I am so frustrated, I should show my anger towards you but I can't take it anymore.
You don't understand a single word I speak in English.
You claim to have 8years of experience, seriously, you don't even look like you've worked before.
You are so different from Lyn, SO DIFFERENT.
I treated Lyn as my real sister, someone who you could talk to about parents being stupid and idiotic and other stuffs going it.
Mark my words, on this day onwards, 17th December 2008 9:23PM, I will not, repeat, WILL NOT treat you like my older sister.
I WILL NOT.
Its idiotic and stupid when someone just smiles and laughs at you pretending to agree when actually, she does not understand anything.
Its no laughing matter, do you know that?
Do you know that if you screw up, I'll be the one to face the music?
No, right?
Why, 'cause I'm bloody hell in-charge of translating every bloody word you don't understand to Bahasa Indonesia, which I fucking bloody hell can't speak!
You have your employer on your side, if I'm frustrated, she scolds me for not trying hard enough, for crying out loud, I HATE YOU.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.
You make my day black, you make my day wet.
You dampen my spirits, YOU ARE STUPID.

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OMG, LYN COME VISIT ME SOON AFTER YOUR WEDDING, I wanna go out with you.
You have got to be serious on coming back you know!
Then I can tell you everything about the new maid.

I'm spending 15cents on thirty messages to The Philippines and Indonesia, Jakarta.

PEACE OUT.
I'll blog tomorrow on today's fun events before the portfolio.

Please call me, please..
I miss you alot, I'm not kidding, neither am I joking.
If only... I was different then.
PLEEEEASE boy.
I hate myself for losing you.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008 | 11:15 PM

Photos from Monday (15/12/08) ; Netball with Liyi and Azura.

This is so annoying.
i can barely use the computer in peace.
URGH, I'll upload the rest tomorrow.

PEACE OUT.

SITI!
If you see dickies, I want this type of design eyh and other types.
If like... almost similar.
You should know what type I like.

HOMG, I'm unsure if there's any Dickies outlet in Indonesia.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Saturday, December 13, 2008 | 5:19 PM

Recently I met up with 2 of my good, but I won't say close guyfriends at my void deck and played cards with them. It was super fun, and I definitely won't forget it.
(Psshh, Indian Poker.)

First aspect;
It takes time to get the ball rollin' with the guys, but it starts even before it begins with the girls.
Its as though with the guys, you need to find something common with them, on the other hand, with close girlfriends its as though you just click instantly.

Second aspect;
We laugh, alot on both parties.
But with the guy friends, they can be very very very crazy, and keep going on and on and on.
With the girls, you laugh at one thing, and then stop for a while, and then laugh again, then stop.

See?

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. is loving (: Just Now.

Mood: Y.E.S.baybeh!

(Update)

The fact that you're resorting to this, it makes me wonder.
What, where you actually thinking, when you "confronted" me?
When you find out that you're in the wrong, you still pursue on, just wanting to win.
Honestly, if I could record all the "confrontations" that you've done to me.
It would most probably be amounted to hours and hours of Live Feed.
Geewhiz, I never thought you could have an alter-ego.
So "lovey dovey sweety-pie" to your beloved boyfriend who means almost the whole world to you, mushy-mushy around.
Nono, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that that's wrong.
Its ALL RIGHT with your boyfriend, just..
Ugh, save it for someone who cares.
I don't mind, I really don't.. Not.

(:

Then, and Now.

Could you ever ask for more?

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. has done thinking. Just Now.

Mood: hmm.

(Update)

Its nearing 2 years now, through all the squabbles, we managed to pull through and come outta it. (Well, most of us.)
For some, life has been great, for some, life has been a downhill.
I've got so many things to say to all of your, but not right now.
Not right now when things are happening, its dejavu.
They say your secondary school friends are the friends you'll grow up with in the future.
I don't know if that's for sure, but I'm bent on the fact that no matter what, there'll always be one person who'll stay by your side supporting you and caring for you.
Oblivious to you or not, someday when you look back and think it through, you will find that reason where people always mention "Everything happens for a reason."

How blessed am I to have friends like them?

I can say I am very blessed to have friends like them who care even though its not shown physically or mentally.
Just knowing that having someone to talk to, yeah its good.

All of you,
Azura, Hazirah, Ilmi, Fadhilah, Syamil, Liyi, Syahirah, Sorfina, Raudah, Mariam, Sofia, Sufi.

Thanks a whole bunch, even though I've committed many mistakes and have always treated ya'll unfairly, I apologize, for some, I didn't do anything to you, but pardon my irritating moments, and for some, I have not done anything wrong to you, hence my conscience is clear, so I will not apologize.

My girlfriends, all 9 of us, we hang out, during curriculum time, after school, during CCAs, we go out, we eat together and we do countless of crazy things together, yeah, the whole group of girlfriends, we share one love, even though it may not be equal, but there's still some set aside for each of us. Too many of you guys to mention all of you here, but don't fret, this is not the time for dedications yet.
My guyfriends, Ilmi and Sufi, are great in school to hang out with. But what happened between us as some of you ask me. I'm puzzled for myself, why am I sometimes getting the occasional cold shoulder, but hey, like I said everything happens for a reason. My negativity when I'm with them sometimes can be a factor, also my attitude, but yeah, I thank you guys for giving me a wake up call. I can't say Ilmi WAS the best boyfriend ever because I only have had one, but he is definitely boyfriend material, just don't mix too much with other influence. Sufi on the other hand, is really great when it comes to having a guy friend to just spill your problems with, even though he may not know how it really feels like, but he never fails to turn that frown upside down.
My other girlfriends, Mariam and Sofia, I've only gotten closer to ya'll this year, Sofia's a great shopping buddy and always ready to hit town with me, Mariam's funny and I'm really thankful to have her there as a listening ear. Yes, she may be irritating and I do get pissed off, but eventually, Ill cool off and when I think about it again, its worthless getting mad at someone over so little things.

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See Natalie?
You don't realise you have people who literally "got your back" on stuffs.
Even if their expressions may show "un-supportive" don't be a pessimist.

Awh(:

I can say I miss most of them, especially RBRs, TCPs, 180&270 (or was it 360 degrees?)angle, and my guyfriends.

AAAAAAAAND...
My BABY IDA IMELDA!
She's in Bangkok with her family and Boy's family.
):

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I've got netball tomorrow at.. 1pm?

Thursday, December 11, 2008 | 12:27 AM

I swear Liting's becoming an OWL like Siti.

(coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com is online at 12.06am, 11/12/2008.)
NATALIEEEE! says:
sialah, you owl or what sia.
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
what what?
NATALIEEEE! says:
so late.
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
i waiting for 12.30 to come
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
we waiting for the x family to start:D
NATALIEEEE! says:
urgh, on what channel?
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
56
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
lol
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
you should watch on youtube
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
its damn funny
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
really
NATALIEEEE! says:
whatever, not a fan of taiwanese chows.
NATALIEEEE! says:
*shows
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
you should be
NATALIEEEE! says:
No I won't.
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
taiwan shows are eithr romantic or dramatic or comedy
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
:D
NATALIEEEE! says:
ehyuck.
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
....
NATALIEEEE! says:
I only watch the 5.30 dramas. That's all.
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
...
NATALIEEEE! says:
what?
NATALIEEEE! says:
don't give me that ... or diao thing
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
lol
coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com says:
okok
(coolgirl_154845@hotmail.com is now offline at 12.20am, 11/12/2008.)

There, I proved my point.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008 | 9:31 PM

"And deep in my heart, I long to be with you again."

Isn't this really sweet?
I was looking for vLogs on Youtube and I chanced upon this vlogger.
So sweet eh?
The girl is also very very pretty.
But its really sad that they broke up early june this year.

Brings back memories.

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. thought everything was gonna be alright. 2 minutes ago.

Mood: wrong.

(Update)

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Just when I thought things were gonna be fine, I thought wrong.
I thought I'd be okay, now I'm not.
Sigh, I need to talk to you, or I think I'll go old-school and write a letter.
Yeah, I should do that, and mail it to you.
Expect a letter soon love.

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I got my schoolbooks today.
I met Siti and Liting at Tampines to eat before Physio.
Talking about school amongst them.
Had the "Okay, you're not in this conversation." with the hand signals marking the territory.
It was very amusing as we had many topics going on.
From one, to another with no link.
Its like reciting your 123s and suddenly turning to someone and start telling them what you your hobbies are.
No link, see?

I was late for Physiotherapy today, but I came down at 4.45pm.
Sham just reviewed my exercises.
I told her about my new pain at the hip joint, when it clicks its an excruciating pain, so bad till I cannot walk.
Its as though someone forced a shard through my leg giving it a piercing pain.

OHWELL.

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Gym date with Amalina tomorrow at one forty five.
Set alarm at 9.10am and snooze till 11am.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008 | 9:25 PM

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. needs a new wardrobe. 11 minutes ago.

Mood: please.

(Update)

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I hate myself for losing you.

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Ida's away to Bangkok.
Siti's going to Indonesia soon.
Liting's a game freak.
I won't see my friends today, tomorrow, the day after.

BYEBYE.

Okay, I've done my research, and no I'm hesitant.
But I reallyreallyreally wanna do freelancing 'cause I find it interesting, just that, I don't meet the criteria.

How?
Help me shas.

Monday, December 08, 2008 | 6:09 PM

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. ; regrets 2008. Just Now.

Mood: tearful.

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IF ONLY..

I can't help to recall about what I did in 3/4 of 2008.
When I look back at myself, I feel so disgusted and angry AT Myself.
Getting angry at the slightest of things when I'm with the girlfriends of mine and with Ilmi then.
Throwing a tantrum when I feel pissed off, instead of taking it in myself.
Giving the cold shoulder when I get mad at him, when actually everything could be prevented and I just had to talk it out.
Self-obsessing over something so meager and so much more.
Picking fights with my family members, not afraid to hurt, not afraid to harm.
Bad ass as I may still be, I don't wanna be like that anymore.
I keep praying for one last chance, again and again and I was blessed to be given chances time and again, but not once, did I ever see the chance that was given to me.
All along, I've been oblivious, oblivious to the ones who really loved and cared for me, turning them all away and only paying attention to myself and the negativity that looms around me.
I've always wanted to turn back time, but what's done is done, the damage is imminent, soon.

"What's done cannot be undone, what holds now is what can be prevented in the future."

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Maybe this "I-will-not-see-my-friends-from-friday-to-friday" may just work out things for me.

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I'll do more thinking tomorrow when I'm out with Babylove.

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"Why not give her two or one hundred?"
"No-no, twenty enough."
Fuck you bitch, twenty is NEVER enough.

This is reason why I hate my mum, she's biased against me and my sister.
I bet my sister got like fifty and what will she spend on?
Maple Pre-paid.
What will I spend on?
Good-quality clothing, but sadly, there ain't enough.

Seriously, I think maple is an utterly stupid game.
Stupid ain't a nice word, but fuck care.

NEHNEH, just 'cause of money, the green monster popped out.
Deal with it bugger.

OH.
& whatever la kay?
If you're gonna tag on my tagboard saying I should be happy with $20 then suit yourself/go ahead and tag.
'cause you can never pull Me off.

OHYAH.
//. I HATE YOU AND I CAN'T STAND YOU.

I'm kicking up a hissy/bitch fit again.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
(:

Okay, I'm sleeping 0ver at Liting's place.
Just got back from bowling at Marina Square with her siblings, mum and uncle/aunty.

I suck in bowling, BIG TIME.
;D
But beginners' luck for the strikes.
The machine was n0t as good.

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I'M NOT BRAGGIN'.
Say whatever you want, 'cause I have put it behind me, I've read/listened and just like you, I'm not gonna let it bother me.
As a good friend said, "Don't let this stuff bother you."
As long as I have a clear conscience, I think I'm OKAY.

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Side-tracking;
Anyway, its my blog, so I have the right to blog whatever I wanna say/make known.

NEHNEH.

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SHAAAAAS, cepat kluar/ mkn oie, ade bnyk bobal ngn kao!
:D :D

&&You, take care aaight?
Baby, you gotta see it to believe it, apparently, the opposition doesn't wanna lose.

I lovelove you(:

Saturday, December 06, 2008 | 3:16 PM

Wekwekwek, I've got hold of my cousin's iTouch while she's doing cross-stitch!

WOOOOH BAYBEH.

I'm off to Vivo.
PEACE.

I tried to, but I couldn't.
It wasn't available.
So don't give me that foul attitude of yours.

Kay?

Friday, December 05, 2008 | 9:28 PM

I need my sleep.
I slept at 5am this morning.
Waking up at nearing 10am.
I had Netball today and I couldn't even do my passes/set plays right.
Lack of sleep, that kills you..

I have 4days, to improve my complexion.
Prove my mum wrong.

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Netballers won't see me for the whole week then.
It kinda sucks, that I won't be training for a whole week, until next Friday.
I want to get my stamina back and I can feel it building back up.

Thank god for Physio.

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"You're not pretty, you're a skank with a "PRETTY" face."

Do you think I'm that stupid?

Status: NATALIE NICOLE. ; Catch me, if you can (: Just Now.

Mood: Muse-ing

(Update)

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Again, another tiring day of Netball.
I went in for full training, no sitting out because of the pain in my knees.
Well, we had a match against a combined team.
It was obvious that our play was better now, but there are still things to learn.

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Yup, skipskipskip.
Okay Siti, these are how my niece and nephew looks like.
Cute eh?

There, I'm done.
My niece/nephew are cute, aren't they?

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I got freelancing on Tuesday.
Siti's coming along.

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This is so weird;
My mum says I have long legs since birth and so did my doctors when birth till now.
Fad reckons my legs are long 'cause we compared thigh down and I matched up to her.
Siti says my legs are waaay longer than hers and Liting's and they're legs are of normal length.
Now, Ilmi said I don't have long legs.
They can't be lying about what they observed.
Ouch, that hurt.

I think I have an issue on people commenting that I'm short, when I'm just touching the 160cm mark.

BELIEVE IT SUCKERS.
I'm not short.

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P.S.
I'm getting used again.