I have not written anything for 2 years and here I am again, staring at the keyboard; alone but aware...I am struggling to rediscover myself, to connect with the inner self of mine that I have lost in the past few years, a disconnect that has made my life so confusing...
2 years ago, I wrote about my new job and how I was lost in the beginning. Now I want to tell you how this job has shown me the true meaning of life. You may wonder, how can I say I have been shown the true meaning of life, and yet I find my life to be confusing.
Have you ever been lost at translating what you have found meaningful into the practicalities of a mundane life? That is maybe what I have found confusing. For now in order to rediscover myself, I have no way but to tell you the life stories that have touched me.. so take a moment if you have...
Monday, September 23, 2013
Saturday, August 6, 2011
The man without a face...
My life has suddenly had a big change over the course of the past few months. and big part of it has been mostly due to the decisions that I made, or better say I had to make in order to keep myself going.
A few months back, I had to swallow my pride and take a chance at a very bruised ego, to be challenged again.. I had to take an offer of a job that still belongs to one of the most controversial (not so pleasantly) branches of my field...
I have always been interested in Oncology.. for one reason or the other... from enjoying its Patho-physiology to the fascination by the huge scientific progress that we have been able to make in the past few decades.. To my naively idealistic optimism about the future of oncology and what we can achieve. I believe I can have my intellectual, and compassionate niche in this front...
With all this in mind, I devoted a year of my life to research in Oncology, and later on entered into a residency of internal medicine with the plan to follow oncology as a sub-specialty.
And of course life doesn't always let things go as planned , and it was my time to learn that lesson..
Long and complicated story, suffice to tell I couldn't get it.. not for now. not until I could take care of the logistics of my presence in this country.
There I was lost without a soul. as If I had lost the richest relationship in my life..as if I was a man without identity, without a heart....
to be continued.
A few months back, I had to swallow my pride and take a chance at a very bruised ego, to be challenged again.. I had to take an offer of a job that still belongs to one of the most controversial (not so pleasantly) branches of my field...
I have always been interested in Oncology.. for one reason or the other... from enjoying its Patho-physiology to the fascination by the huge scientific progress that we have been able to make in the past few decades.. To my naively idealistic optimism about the future of oncology and what we can achieve. I believe I can have my intellectual, and compassionate niche in this front...
With all this in mind, I devoted a year of my life to research in Oncology, and later on entered into a residency of internal medicine with the plan to follow oncology as a sub-specialty.
And of course life doesn't always let things go as planned , and it was my time to learn that lesson..
Long and complicated story, suffice to tell I couldn't get it.. not for now. not until I could take care of the logistics of my presence in this country.
There I was lost without a soul. as If I had lost the richest relationship in my life..as if I was a man without identity, without a heart....
to be continued.
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