时隔三年了。原以为已能将那黑暗影子克服。但最近在阅读的旧录中，却将当时所发生的，有如真实般，一一展现在我眼前。

旧录带给了我新的领悟，似乎让我更能猜透当事人那时的心情与困扰。对我而言，那复杂的情操中，包含了奢望，自私，执着，和不明不白的爱慕。

读后感，除了悲伤，背叛，也只有在多的失望和欺骗感。特别是那股受欺骗的感觉更是久久在我心中，难以熄灭。

原以为我会像以往怒火冲天般的盘问当事人。我多么的想责备，想将我的怨气像炮轰式的解放出来。但我没这么做。我依然努力的已和气荡然的态度面对。毕竟再多的责备，埋怨也不会将流逝的时光倒回来了。

是我不在乎了吗？还是因为我已长大了？此时此刻的我依然在摸索中。或许，只有时间才能真正的揭晓。

Girlie says cob webs are starting to growing here. Need to start exterminating work soon. But first, I will need to pack up my bag of crackly bones and get my lazy ass going.

Be back soon.

Ten Ways To Ensure You Get To Work On Time And In Style When Taking The Peak Hour Train

1. When you see the train pulling into the station, position yourself right at the doorway on the platform so that no one else can board (or alight) before you enter the train.
   
   
2. When the train door opens, look for any available floor space. The moment you spot a floor area of at least 5 square centimetres, plant your foot there and inch your way forcefully into the train. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT give way to any passengers who may want to alight as the very act of giving way may result in the loss of your precious 5 square centimetres floor space.
   
   
3. When you have successfully entered the train, whip out the daily newspapers and start reading. Reading the papers even if amidst a crowded train is a must as you absolutely have to keep yourself updated about the latest news before anyone else beats you to it. Be sure to extend your arms to as far as your papers can bring you.
   
   
4. If you are able to hold on to a metal pole, make sure you lean your entire body onto the pole as your poor, tired body needs that extra bit of support and rest, not forgetting the gravity balance as well.
   
   
5. While you are doing all these, constantly keep an eye out for anyone who vacates his/her seat. The moment you spot an empty seat, even if it's at the other end of the carriage, immediately squeeeeze your way through the crowd. Push anyone that's standing in your way, step on their toes, whatever...., just make sure you get to YOUR seat! It's definitely worth the trouble even if it's just for one stop.
   
   
6. When you are seated down, make yourself comfortable by crossing your legs (left over right, or right over left) such that the leg that is 'crossed over' sticks right out and jabs anyone that tries to stand within a radius of 20 centimetres of you.
   
   
7. When your mobile phone rings, and it's your friend asking you about your schedule for the week, recite it loud and clear enough for the entire carriage to hear so that anyone who is possibly checking you out will know exactly where to go to catch you again.
   
   
8. The train journey can be rather boring so entertain yourself by listening to music at the fullest volume. Alternatively, you may suck on a sweet but make sure you suck, chew and slurp loudly enough to let your neighbours know what delicious a sweet you are having.
   
   
9. If the person next to you vacates his/her seat, put your bag or any other stuff you are carrying on that newly-vacated seat as it is quite a chore to have to hold on to your packages. Never mind if there are other people who may want to take the seat. Your own comfort is the topmost priority.
   
   
10. If you happen to be standing near the carriage door and people are alighting at a particular stop, do not bother to give way even if they scream 'excuse me' right into your ear. Just ignore or play deaf. Giving way may mean you have to step out of the train, and that leads to the possibility that there will be no more space for you to enter again. (Although logically speaking, passengers alighting means there is more space in the train. But then, logicality does not work here. The rule is 'Better Be Safe Than Sorry'.)
    

For A Friend...

The following song reminds me of a friend....

你那么爱她
作词 作曲:林隆璇
李圣杰 林隆璇

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去
直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊

你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的
两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

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When I heard the song, all of a sudden, I could feel your pain and despair.
That of, once being able to have something so dear, but not able to hold on to it.
Perhaps I will never feel it to your truest extent.
But I think I understand it now.

When the day you are so much looking forward to finally comes,
Whatever the outcome, I truly hope that it would bring you relief and undo the notch that has been so deeply etched into your heart for the longest time.

希望那一天的到来，能够让你真正的放下那份执著
真正的得倒释怀

朋友，你一定要快乐！

49 more days....

I can't help it. Just have to say this.....

It's 49 more days to The Trip!

Can hardly wait. Even the Bobs are starting to pack.

*prances around excitedly!

A promise

In the face of hundreds of others, he promised her parents he would always take care of her, love, protect and nurture her.

Be it in health or sickness; wealth or poverty; happiness or darkened days...

But if Change was the only constant that ever existed, wherein is Eternity?

Maybe SM is right. There is no absolute in this case.

But still, I do wish very much for them to be blessed and happy.

Baby's Breath

I have this particular fancy for Baby's Breath.

It looks so small, so weak and vulnerable. Like as if it can be easily crushed and mutilated.

But the Baby's Breath has a remarkable will to survive. For a flower, it has an exceptionally long blooming period which can last from early Summer till early Autumn.

And then the purity that emerges from the whiteness of the flower. Pure, wholesome and untainted. It makes me feel happy and at peace just by looking at it.

Even when it dries up, it does so in an amazingly beautiful way. So neat, complete and pretty.

Makes me feel like I am really witnessing the change in seasons!