Tuesday, April 26, 2011
11:55 PM;
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Why do I keep having dreams of you?? Its soo strange, I mean its not just once but like a couple of times in the past 2 months. I gotta admit, you still mean something to me. But the most important person in my life isn't you. I just don't understand. Is my mind playing tricks on me, or my heart missing you? Either way, its not going to change anything now. We've moved on and I'm pretty sure we're both happy. I'm glad things are going well for you, and though we don't exactly talk anymore, I sure will wish you the best in all that you do.
Maybe a part of me just misses the past.
5:39 PM;
Thursday, January 06, 2011
You know how people like to recount and reflect on the year that has passed? Yeah I'm going to try and do that.
Firstly, let me say how The Killers cancelling their Singapore concert has made me feel like I'm never going to be able to see them live ever. I was pinning such high hopes on them starting my 2010 with a bang. On the same note, I missed The XX and Florence. How did that happen I do not know. But kudos to a couple of friends who introduced me to new music like Angus and Julia Stone, Beach House, Carolina Liar, and a whole mix of other indie bands. I also discovered Au Revoir Simone, and am in love. Katy Perry and her hotness... enough said.
The academic year was pretty alright. Nothing too tough and I think I did pretty alright. Now that I'm finally out of uni, I feel so lost because I don't know what to do. I actually had a great 3 years in SIM. Besides the fact that there wasn't much of a uni life, I had a group of friends I could rely on. Really hope this bunch will stay for a long time to come. They are a little different from me but they are one of the nicest people I've ever met. We have had alot of good times, including our multiple ktv sessions and trip to Phuket.
On a personal level, I think I was really aimless in 2010. Somehow I was constantly floating and living life as it is. I was faced with a ton of decisions and I couldn't make up my mind. I kept thinking if I was doing the right thing, if this was really the best for me, if I should go on with this choice, if if if. I felt alot of uncertainty, but it gradually got better. Especially ever since I have someone to share my life with, I'm truely thankful for that. He has made me feel like the most important person ever, and sometimes he does too many things for me that I take him for granted. I feel so terrible, but he never fails to reassure and make me laugh. Thank you J.
Nothing ends here. I'm still faced with so many decisions, so many uncertainties, so many problems that I have to eventually solve. Yet admist all this, I can find peace and comfort from God and J. I can feel like I'm in a perfect state of life that I wish time would stop at that moment. Sometimes I like to observe someone, and wish that time would stop so I could notice all the fine details of that person and think of all the wonderful things he/she has done for me. Like in a film where everything is in slow motion.
How I wish my life would be in slow motion. 2011 is definitely not going to slow down for me. But I guess its good in a way because I'm in a lazy state right now which is not going to get me anywhere. I'm going to sign up for driving this wk and continue my job search. They key is to stay optimistic right? How I wish I could go back to my old self 4 years ago. I was much more optimistic then. Oh well, time doesn't stop for anyone and life must go on. Lets just hope 2011 will be so much better.
12:42 AM;
Monday, January 03, 2011
Check out the new OPI Katy Perry Collection colours! I really want to get the last one, Black Shatter because it is so awesome. You apply one coat of it onto any other nail colour and it creates this cracked effect on your nails like the bottle cap. I am really leaning towards the 3rd and 4th colours as well. That cute pink glitter number is called Teenage Dreams!
Labels: trends
3:02 AM;
Saturday, January 01, 2011
Happy 2011 everyone! Oh actually why do I sound so excited... because in actual fact, I dont even feel like the new year has come. People make such a big deal out of it, but honestly it just comes and goes. Every year, I feel the same. Except this year, I feel slightly troubled. Like I don't know what 2011 is going to be like. For the past decade, I had some kind of direction because I had school, and a timetable, a schedule. But this year, I have nothing. I have no direction. I don't know that I am looking for, I don't know which road to take. I just feel so troubled that I'm lost, and I really need some signs in my life to tell me where to go. Yet, I don't even have the determination to ask for it.
My Dad asked me when am I going to start applying for jobs. The thing is I have been looking for the past one mth but I just don't know what I want to do. Everyone seems to have a specific goal yet I don't. And I really detest myself for this. I want to be able to know what I want. I want to be confident of myself, I want to be able to get a good job too. But I somehow just don't seem to believe in myself. I feel as though everyone around me is so much better, so much more capable.
I am so sorry if you happen to read this and dampen your spirits in the start of 2011. I am a mess and I need God to sort me out asap. I have neglected him for far too long. I just wished I have someone relevant I can even talk to about this.
Labels: thoughts/rants
3:31 PM;
Saturday, December 25, 2010
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
Have a wonderful time with family and friends, and God bless!
12:33 AM;
Monday, December 06, 2010
Oh. I think I just found the perfect nail art I want for my own nails
Labels: fashion
11:22 PM;
I cannot believe it is only 11pm and I am so bored without any US sitcoms to watch, plus tumblr is down the whole day. J is in camp due to reservice till Friday and I have no one to talk to when I'm bored!! I practically spent the whole day online window shopping. Sigh
Labels: thoughts/rants
11:05 PM;
