after the race. can also pull off as before the race right? lol.

our first night marathon :)

never knew i could stay up from 12 midnight till about 5am for a marathon. the route was really nolstalgic because part of the whole route was the cycling route cher, i and dad used to do. from changi point till ecp that stretch. cherlyn u rmbr? :) that v long stretch. where we trained for stand chart last year, and got so shagged. haha. nonetheless, really brought back good old memories <3

ran 22.195km on my own cos darren's knees was very pain. i must say that running alone was mentally quite gruelling. kept pyschoin myself : "c'mon corrine ho, you are alr ___km down, what's ___ km more to you?.. yea, basically telling myself wierd things, playing number games in my mind ;). and knowing that my sister is supporting me all the way :) i imagined her at the end line :) hehehe.paced with random pple to keep my motivation up. afterall, what wont kill me will make me stronger ;D roller coaster ride man. lol.

and i was shocked that i nvr use deep heat at all throughout the marathon. amazing. not that i dont want to use but then i was wearing tights that reached my calves. :/ yea. started strong and ended strong :D

what a race to rmbr. first time running with my bro and myself. my legs are less busted compared to the previous time. whoo. can walk down staircase quite normally. :)

next itenary on the list is probably prawning. the cluster of bars/restaurant/ whatever stuff they have there near my house also includes prawning! both brothers seem interested, makes my hyped !

<3,

corrine

the retro chick.

haha. day well spent with darren despite some emotional hiccups due to my severe mood swings. cant believe he tolerated all my nonsense.

at least he'll be gf-moodswings-free for the next 3 weeks doing army trng in canada. haha!

red star restaurant dim sum lunch was awesomeeee. worth the wait. first time having dim sum lunch with twan, getting to know his dim sum preferance was pretty intriguing. haha! cos its usually dim sum with my fav sister and we have the common preference in dim sum. lol. tried 3 new types of dim sum because of my second dim sum partner. hohohohoh!

for now i cant wait to go back to school. and when school starts i will cant wait for holidays, and when holidays come, i cant wait to go back to school.

when will the vicious cycle ever end?

--corrine

--cherlyn

it is 11.17am now but somehow i feel that i have not slept the entire night

i went to bed last night right after eating an apple and a banana. wacko combination with perhaps tom yum noodles from dinner that caused a massive stomach acute pain. doze off in bed with my textbk, woke up only to find out that i have not changed and washed up. cold... changed and went to wash up. put away my text book and slept.

woke up. raining yet again. packed my stuff. breakfast. library presently.

im looking at my textbk and wondering what on earth is all of these.

i know my exams are coming and i have to stay strong but somehow i feel this hollow space in my heart that i constantly fail to find things to fill.

while some pple may find that getting a partner will fill that gap. the thought of that just doesnt seem right for me. it just seems v pointless from my point of view because it doesnt seem like the right answer.

perhaps getting good grades could be my answer. but good is nv enough. there's constantly pressure, self doubt and self comforting that are involved.

sometimes this feeling just makes me feel miserable and i just want to chuck it under the rug

i really wanna just sleep my day away but then again...exams are coming.

read the textbk! i know that if i make myself do it, i can. but honestly...do i?

need to stay strong for 2nd yr. this is just a phase!

i always have this impression that as a temp staff/intern (anythin but a perm staff), nobody bothers about you. you are given some f*cking shit job to do. and basically your presence/absence makes absolutely no difference and a robot can take your position.

i dont know if my impression is partially justified but i think so. they pay me $4.40/h. for this whole week, a total of 59.5h excluding lunch break to do what? reading. ok i really dont mind reading but some of the stuff are like e-mails of secretary setting meeting dates with the directors and all. and 59.5h of reading is really NO JOKE.

there are some days i can just not open my mouth at all. cos there's nobody to talk to and everyone is in their own world and i just sit at my desk and read read READ READ.

i came into this internship feeling very enthusiastic about the prospect of experiencing a range of things to do. but as of the first week of work. fucked up.

mayb i'm being too impatient or whatever. and as some person told me, i'm not seeing the BIG PICTURE. nobody will ever know how i feel except myself. nobody. and that really saddens me. find somebody to talk to only to get a response saying that i should try to see things from a different perspective and all. which means i should fully accept the SOLID 8.5h a day of reading of files i have done for the past one week.

dont try to judge me or change how i feel. when will i ever not be judged? F.

i dont know, mayb this is PMS cos i just got my thing ystd but i just need an outlet to vent my frustrations. WHY WHY do i always fall prey to desk bound jobs like these?? which makes me relish and miss those days working with chang. although it was busy, at least i had a goal to accomplish, work to occupy me to justify being paid $7/h. AT LEAST I FELT USEFUL.

also miss working with cherlyn at SVC. i rmbr my second day of work. worked with cher&celia. i will never ever forget that day of work which made time fly by so fast. because of the awesome company i had.

i know that its very naive of me to think that work environment will be like that. i know obviously it WONT. but i just hope that i can grow up faster. and prove myself wrong, that the working world is closer to what i expect it to be.

i can only hope and pray. sigh.

please God. make next week a better one for me. help me not feel that there's no purpose in what i do because i thrive on purpose.

--corrine

back home in sunny singapore after a 17h flight! beat that. jet lag kickin in but i will overcome it ;)

had an abundance of warm hospitality from three lovely families. rachael and family, uncle roy& aunty ivy, uncle daniel and aunty olive. made this trip such a memorable one, knowing that such good hearted pple, even strangers, exist.

pictures first before i continue ;)


wescott! super hyper boy. we went swimmin at the aquatic centre. its like this wild wild wet concept kind of thing. killer slide. v awesome. and i had to take care of this boy. energetic like crazy man. haha


he got his hair cut. rachael and i too.



dinner feast whipped up by aunty jessie. thats vanessa and sarah over there. young ladies alr.


she brought me for a very scenic-viewed jog. awesome view.

rachael! glad that i had the chance to get back in touch with her after so long. and i just realised she's my childhood friend. we were talking about how lame we were last time. my sis and i were her mid-wife cos she was giving birth to polly pocket. lol. good old memories ;)


theresa, aunty melissa's(aunty jessie's friend) baby;she's one big food lover btw, ursela.
they look alike right? haha. pretty young ladies too;)


view from the apartment that aunty jessie bought. very amazing view. see=breath-taken=downpayment for apartment. haha.

aunty liza, aunty ivy, uncle roy and my mom.

so hospitable pple you know. although 99% of the time they were conversing in cantonese/hokkien/teochew/ malay, they were still really fun pple to be with la. haha. wise pple with lots of experience and knowledge to share with the youngest in the group, aka me! lol.


david and i. at some fishermen's place thingy. awesome view again. he is now taller than his dad. *gasp.

at our lunch place by the bay.

yupp. that basically sums up the pple who made this holiday very special for me. for now its back to reality. they have this phrase at the changi airport-- CIAS. we call it come in and suffer. lol! but it's good to be back. need some time to get out of holiday mood cos work officially starts on monday. today is slacking and packing day. rhymes! haha. i'm super exhausted now. need a break.

<3

corrine

--cherlyn

i am sick of everything

sick of conversations surrounded by marks

sick of how i am stuck between 2 worlds of different pple

sick of just wanting to nail my assignments

sick of being so tired

sick of the lack of sleep

sick of the erratic weather

sick of having to study

sick of how it takes so long to reach the end of week

sick of how i cant find a real person to talk to other than marks marks marks

sick of having to worry about my airtickets

sick that the price of the air ticket has risen

sick that i cant do anything about

sick that my dad will get uptight bout the rise in price

sick of everythingggg

sick of human body systems and everything i have to study

sick of hostel life

sick of everything!

--cherlyn

Hi everyone. Guess where am i right now? at the library. fortunately i have internet connection and a good view from my individual cubicle. slight complain....the sun is shining from behind me. Good thing is that we are allowed to eat in the library. i packed my lunch so im good.

exams are really coming way faster than i thought. really gotta pull through this stretch. then next sem i wont have to do cell biology every again and i will be happy once more

oh ya it has been a week into boot camp. shud have totally been called sprint camp. basically it is at 6am every mon wed thurs and i hav been attending all three despite having 8am lecture on mon and thurs. the in charge of PE students on the ground floor organises every session and he is pretty intensed and does not waste any time at all. on top of that he is perhaps one of the most good looking guys in cumby. but dont get me wrong...if u know me..u will know that i wont wake up at 530am every morning over some guy. its just that i have to GET FIT.

im like totally experiencing sports culture shock right here in NZ. cant tell the difference between the girls and the guys cos all of them are so damn fit. sprint so damn fast. really admire their goal-getting attitude. or mayb its because they are PE students and have gymnastic and dance as one of their subj papers. so they must be pretty fit pple. and for me... as some of u might alr know...my sprinting is like -.- so yeh i really have to keep going for it and improve on my sprinting! haha. yep. after effects are not really pleasant. my entire legs are pretty much gone and shoulders are aching like hell. the kiwis are looking perfectly normal!!!! zzzzz. oh wells. i dont care. im just gonna keep going for it. guess im learning new things everyday.... one note: im really impressed by the girls at boot camp. its amazing.

anw its been really cold over here in NZ although there's no snow. everyones like getting really really hungry and i personally feel sleepy very easily. so studying when i get back from lectures (after dinner) is really getting v tough esp in my miserable room. gotta come up with a new strategy alr.

get through this sem AND I WILL BE SWEET.

cant wait for nov to come..... boohooo!!!!!!!

back to studying! bye!