--cherlyn

Just got back from lunch from pow sing. Food was very very very good. Finally settled chicken rice 2 times in a row. But two times in a row have garlic breath before starting work. not good not good. anw sometimes i wonder why on earth did i request for work on sunday. haih. then again if i dont work i will be bored to death. and guess what? i spent less than 2 days to finish an entire season of a drama series. thats like 13 episodes. major panda eyes right now despite having like 11 hrs of sleep? no motivation to exercise. full as hell now. work in about 40 minutes. not looking forward

boredboredbored. then i go into an illusion where im roaming about SG seeing all the stuff that i have missed out in the past 8 months. then 1 second later i just shut down and lose all motivation. sedentary lifestyle once again. vicious cycle la i must say.

oh wellss.... pictures time


Brother's birthday


murtabak


prata from cassuarina


eating in action


very good prata. had to go for seconds


me prob going " wth!" dont take anymore photos"





finally home!


big relieve. my travelling schedule was insane!

--cherlyn

ok i think it is time for a post for all you fans out there. lol.

it has been almost a month since i have been back in singapore. life's been pretty good so far but i'm kinda hating work cos some of my favourite collegues are no longer around or i dont work in the same shift as them anymore. so boring! ah but then i get to meet new people and thats pretty awesome too. guess what...im doing redemption this time and sometimes i see so much ugliness in people that i dont know how to look at the goodness of human nature anymore. it just digusts me right to my bones. sometimes thats what i feel like in singapore... where people constantly judge one another, find faults, nit pick. i mean... c'mon... life isnt just that alright. being here just makes it a little tougher to see the goodness in people... i dont know. mayb its just me. im trying hard to see the good in people. i donno, im just gonna stick to being myself and try to accept people for who they are i guess.

good and bad memories evoked when im back here in singapore. bad = im no longer living in kovan! rah. and good = im back here with family and friends + good food

talking about food. i have been craving for sardine curry puff every single day. in fact, curry puffs in general. rah! not good. i just feel v compelled to eat and eat and eat when im in singapore. but when im in NZ three meals seriously suffice alr. no idea what is going on at all man. oh i alr asked my mum to cook chicken rice for us tmr for lunch. yum yum yum

looking forward to my sister's exams to end. she owes me a lot of "hang out" sessions i swear. everyday see her study until i bored alr. and for goodness sake i need to have a night's sleep without the freaking lights on cos she's studying. it is getting kinda irritating alr.

* i miss NZ's milk, bread and plump juicy apples* - we always want things we do not have but when we have it, we do not want it. life is ironic man-

--cherlyn

today is the 3rd time that i have been to crystal jade since i got back. holy shit. overdose of dimsum

life's been treating me pretty good lately. i mean...FOOD has been treating me v good. seriously, i miss the food a lot a lot x1000 when i was in NZ. food has been such a big part of me. i donno. thats like 70% why i wanna come back to singapore. LOL. and of cos to see my chubby sister la. when i see her cheeks = reminds me of food. same difference.

oh wells. not too sure whether i will be coming back next year. but as of now....i hate the weather but the food is making up for everything. woohoo!

working. chilling at home. gosh. sounds boring right? dont care la. thats what i do during my holidays. me time. me eat and me slack. i do what i like.

going to be in my own world. i dont care!

bye!

--cherlyn

my room is in a MEGA huge mess. it's so messy that i cant even enter the room without slamming myself at the small corner beside the heater, slam the door back before i can enter the room! but that was so yesterday. i moved the boxes to another corner of my room already.

i have absolutely no motivation to start packing right now. ah. there's just quite a bit of packing to do! and im lazy. maybe im just waiting for the rest to be done with their final epi paper then when they start packing, i will get motivated. just like how when they study, i get motivated to start studying too. wonder what im gonna do next year man. seriously. my flatmates arent exactly v v study kind and next year i have to up my game alr. no more fooling around.

ah shit. my body aches so bad = no mood to do anything.

im sleepy too. argh.

--cherlyn

omfg. im FINALLY FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE! and i can finally say it is time to get down to some shit ass serious packing to go back to singapore. it's like right now right here right this moment that i finally feel that i have done my part as a student for 2009 and i rightfully deserve to fly back to singapore. damn. my friends on my floor deserve it more i tell u. they work so damn hard. im so proud of them. words cant describe how i feel about these people. they helped me to survive 2009. i owe them so much. they have changed me; to see what is it like to be that person i never thought i can be and never would be able to become. perfection is so hard to achieve. life is like that, you see the good in people, love them for it. embrace the goodness. reflect on how insufficient i can be and then move on....happy.

im going to go get ready for shopping alr. find boxes to pack. ah damn i feel so happy now!woohoo. but everyone hates me now. boohoo!

i am starting to take more control of my life nowadays.
trying not to let my life spiral out of control due to stress.
cos life's much more than that.

anw intitally twan told me that he was interested in going overseas to study.
if i say i am not affected by that, i am lying.
but i told him that i will support whatever decision he makes ultimately.

due to financial issues, he told me that studying overseas may not materialise after all, and that studying in singapore would be better.
makes me think about the importance of money. hard to accept but true, no money no talk.

sometimes it makes me rethink my choice of uni course. you know the usual "what if" questions. i ask myself alot of these sort of questions.

life's filled with so many uncertainties but all i can do is to try my best and see what comes.

<3
corrine

--cherlyn
Whats the worst thing that can happen during waitressing? For me, it was when I was reading out the customer order and all of a sudden I just went into a retard and panic state that I could not read my short form. I was just stumped and was this close to showing the customer what he ordered (he would not have known because it was in short form). GOSH. Worst case scenario for me. Felt like a walking retard. Ah!

Seriously think that I have been studying too much in the library and then straight away go to work. A bit cant focus. But today’s business was good then boss cooked extra yummehhhh kimchi combo stew. Awesome. Working with the other Korean girl was just great cos her washing skills are fantastic and she did all the washing. But that means that I have to take orders (oh no I don’t wanna recall what happened) and do other stuff. And another thing is that I am slowly degenerating into a math retard. I find it so hard to do like a 40 – 27. When im typing it out it’s so easy to say 13. But when the customer is right in front of u and gives u cash instead of eftpos I just wanna kick his/her ass man seriously. Life is easy with eftpos. Everyone uses it please.

Ok off to do more studying! Library again today. Library again the day after and the day after and then no more library for 3 months. Awesome or what? Simply cannot wait.

--cherlyn

i understand now that i am not stupid. i just need to study more. use more time to study and memorise then BIO wont be that difficult. there were so many things that i just cant remember but i know i that i have seen it on the lecture slides. which means if i took that extra hour of gymming into cramming those stuff in, i wud have known what to write.

but guess what???? my fate is sealed and i hope the other health science people fucked up the paper so there will be moderations. then my grades wont look so bad. thats all i can hope for now

one paper left. time flies right? im gonna miss new zzzeeeelaaand. the freedom of doing anything i deem fit. actually this place isnt that bad except for exams and the food. other than that it is pretty sweet. but food is major component of my life so sucky food cannot be tolerated let alone condoned. looking forward to going back to singapore. things to do:
1) bounce the roundy's cheek
2)get a sun tan so i wont look like a white duck
3)eat eat eat
4)sleep
5)watch tv
6)bum around
7)WORK
8)learn to cook
9)bake
10)train like a crazy woman
11)do some studying? wtf? thas last on the list.

cya!

--cherlyn

Can somebody summarize the entire renal stuff into 1 A4 paper so i can read through it and go to sleep?

I still have 2 more modules to cover and it is officially 10pm. sigh. exam tmr morning.

I officially hate bio. SCREWS THE MIND BIG TIME!

ah!

I'm grappling with so many things right now, i think i am going to get a potential nervous breakdown.

i dont know what's wrong with me. I go through this vicious cycle of
1) comparing myself with smart people
2) get stressed
3) work harder
4) still compare with smart people
5) get stressed all over again

today was a very mentally trying day. I had presentation and the prof apparently misinterpreted my group's presentation. He asked some questions in a chim way that caught us off guard.

so my group members and i are basically trying to clarify the issue with him via e-mail and i feel VERY VERY stressed about this. to others it may not be a big issue but to me it is.

so i made myself think so much today about how to explain his queries, leaving my brain practically fried now.

and i got back my quiz results.

PS* the vicious cycle kicked in at full force.

someone get me out of this. take me away to anywhere but here.

this is a depressing post despite the cheery new blogskin.

<3
corrine.

--cherlyn

i officially declare corrine as the most efficient bitch on earth! wtf i just sent her a facebook message and next moment this blog looks like a million bucks. seriously!!!

great way to start off my day. damn im beaten and left with nothing but fear. i can never be more honest. statistic paper tmr. i have done only 1 exam paper and all i gotta do now is to memorise the steps cos they repeat the same method over and over again

day after tmr. bio. im so fucking screwed. zero exam papers done (no answers given anyway. whats the point man?) absolutely no practice for mcq whatsover (dont return mcq test cos wanna recycle questions. wth). not a single tutorial attended this semester. im so screwed. all im doing now is to spot questions. wtfff. urghhh. im so so screwed. i deserve to be scared.

i will see the light in one week or so. pray for me. that i survive this roughest time. feeling so alone but i know im not in this by myself. cos yesterday i saw this girl doing massive highlighting of the bio book (the book looked pretty fresh). lol.

outttt.bye!

SHIFITING HOUSE DAY!

wow today is one huge roller coaster ride. i woke up to the sound of my dad taping cardboard boxes. continued to laze in bed for 1h.

woke up with a spread of different types of pao for breakfast! juice was in this mini fridge. i was totally impressed by the efficiency of my parents. the meticulous arrangement that they made to make everything smooth flowing.

so now i am alr settled in my new room. mostly packed BUT my clothes are still ....

gave up halfway cos the cupboard is about half times smaller than my old one. SAD AND DEPRESSED.

twan came down to help with the packing today. dont know what i will do without him man. I OFFICIALLY DECLARE THAT i am the world's luckiest girl :)

current state:
in air con room
noise totally BLOCKED cos of the dust
motivation to pack = 0%
motivation to swim = 100%

i wanna hurry settle in and wait for the arrival of my beloved sister :)

btw to cher:
there'll be no space for your clothes, i have no idea where u are going to put it. and we'll be sharing a "queen-sized bed" (two super single join together). i cant wait to see you soon!
xoxoxo

<3
corrine

omg i was blown away today.

i ate the MOST SHIOK home baked brownie today. my student's mother baked.

it was so gooood. moist, fudgy, not too sweet. and taste better than awfully chocolate cake.

i still have the lingering taste of it in my mouth.

i will never forgot that beautiful moment.

bliss.

<3
corrine

can u believe how fast time flies?

i am shifting this coming friday!!!

not yet into the panic mode of being unprepared yet. still lazing around, speed of packing clothes v v slow, so many things left around. this is unbecoming.

360 degrees change will take place on thurs night. i swear.

off to pack.

<3
corrine

traumatised for the second time.

this time not as bad as the other time because it was caused by maths for econs midterm quiz.

tikam-ed at least 5 questions cos its those kind of dont know means dont know kinda questions. sucks man. many questions that were linked to each other. fortunately at least could do some of them.

for now i shall just pray for whatever comes.

after hair-pulling test, i headed down to jurong safra for a destress swim. I was having this queer back ache after the test. (*you can imagine how much focus was involved such that i nvr move my body much for 2h).

sometimes i would just close my eyes while swimming and i take my mind away from reality into another world. (*no i am not psychotic) but don't everyone have some urge to break free from reality and go into a self-defined perfect world? even if it lasts for a while, having that imaginery thought just makes me feel better :)

to a world that intimidation dont exist.
to a world that you can simply be yourself without being judged.
to a world where your loved ones will always be around you.
to a world where hair-pulling incidents dont happen.

for now, i am back to reality. my back hurts. sheesh.

<3
corrine

i reallly cannot keep this bottled up any longer.

i am TRAUMATISED.

this was what happened... read on with your own discretion.

last night on my way home, i was on the train. (*ok this still dont sound too bad).

there was this light indian couple (*call me racist i dont care). they were carry a toddler and SUDDENLY, another pair of couple sitting opposite them (*who were their friends) starting laughing. one of them even whipped out a camera and took photo.

THE HORROR.

i turned around and saw that A PIECE OF SHIT dropped out from the toddler's diaper and landed on the floor(*ok DURH where could it have landed)

after photo snapping, laugh laugh here and there... THEY LEFT WITHOUT CLEARING THAT PIECE OF SHIT.

holy.

what is the world coming to? civilisation where are you?

for a moment i just wished that i was blind for that few minutes and didnt see anything.

my trauma will heal. i just need some time.

<3
corrine

went to swim at chuan park for the FIRST TIME today :)

In 2 weeks time, Chuan Park will be my home for the next 1 year. The house seems rather non-traditional, as in the layout is not the usual --->step in -> living room->another section for dining-> kitchen -> rooms upstairs -> attached toilet.

there are basically two entrances and the layout just makes me confused. there's no way i can describe it here unless i let you see it physically.

sort out got the layout of mine and cher's room fixed.

its gonna be a long 1 year.

but as i said.. its worth the wait for a brand new house. a whole floor of room for me. attic-style. how cool is that? ;)

time flew past today. i cant even rmbr what i did in detail and its 3pm alr.

off to do some work.

<3
corrine

i am battling this huge ass ulcer i have for the second time. PIAK A WHOLE LUMP of salt on it again. and boy boy boy. I started tearing. :( the pain is making me have morbid thoughts like tearing my mouth off my face.

i swear to eat properly and not bite my lips anymore.

watched singapore idol just now for pure entertainment. and i realise that cool guys that can sing are quite attractive. but singing aside, i suddenly realise the importance of physical appearance.

i am not being superficial but watching a good looking person on tv sustains my interest... at least to a certain extent. (*this is human nature)

this was what happened:

1) good looking + sexy voice = i will watch the whole performance

2) good looking + plain jane voice = i will watch first 10s and subsequently put on mute. Read textbook.

3) not good looking + so so voice = mute the moment he/she steps on the stage. Read textbook.

PS: for 2) and 3), i will umute to hear the judges reinforce my judgement.

you cant blame me. the camera keeps zooming in on their face the whole time. and coupled with that face, is what i hear.

corrine's bitchiness unleashed. whoops.

<3
corrine

there's seriously something very wrong with me but i can't help it.

yes i can be motivated to work but the motivation comes largely from the amount of pay i get.

seems kinda unhealthy but why wont anyone want to make their time worth while?

i think this sort of motivation will stop only when i truly find the passion in doing what i love to do.

no matter how i psych myself to promote something that i dont have v v v strong interest in to begin with by saying, [oh.. corrine this will be a good learning experience BUT you get paid low... its ok. you can work around that fact... ] there'll be this unease inside me. because 2 criterias are not met: interest and pay.

sigh i feel kinda sucky right now. sometimes i just dont know what's wrong with me. i keep weighing the pros and cons in whatever i do.

its true i will go all out for pple/work i think deserve my attention but i will just retreat into the wilderness when pple/work that dont deserve my attention comes by.

the problem is: is my evaluation of the "deserving-ness of my attention" appropriate?

i dont think so. although i am not a big shot in my social environment as a whole or what but self-evaluation always hits me the hardest. when i go into self-evaulation, its me facing myself. and i am the biggest shot of my own world and that's when the ugly truth is revealed. not v bearable but i'm trying to handle it.

God i need a light to guide me out of this.

<3
corrine

feeling angsty right now because my student postponed tuition to a later timing yet again. and that means next lesson extend by one hour.

tolerate corrine. tolerate tolerate tolerate. this is a true test of my patience.

anwww. today i spoilt my image in school! i was running down the slope, friend waiting for me to pass her some stuff. hair untied, wearing flip flops and basically looking like a siao char bo.

spotted by another friend. haha! it's embarassing when u dont expect urself to be spotted looking like a maniac.

before that was having a nice swim at the SRC pool again. so jealous of this girl who made swimming free style look so BREEZY AND EASY. seriously. she lap after lap. like a fluttering angel. haha. ok i am starting to sound stalkerish and wierd. but i am not. dont worry.

hehe. yea. so apart from school. that basically sums up my day. 18mins more b4 my student is suppose to arrive.

i really doubt so. because she has n e v e r been punctual.

<3<3<3
corrine

--cherlyn

Sometimes i wonder whether im in university or am i back in primary school. Why? Because everyone around me gets 90% and above for all their papers (one person got 98%). Obviously, i'm no where in that league but im facing that league day in and day out. You must be wondering who are these people. basically majority of my hostel friends are on scholarship; people who have worked their ass off to be where they are today, here in new zealand and getting awesome grades. well it is not that i want to compare with them but it's like day in and day out will see them kinda thing? maybe some of you will be like...yeh there's this guy who's really smart somewhere out there in the same course as i am. well for me, that person is two doors away from me, two floors below me etc. gosh i just feel so out sometimes. SIAN. not helping when i have a bio test coming up and i dont even know what a nephron or a renal corpuscle (cant even pronounce it properly) is till yesterday and today respectively. SIGH

feel so frustrated sometimes. wish i was smarter. wish i could be like a sponge and absorb information with a snap of a finger. wish i knew all of these bio shit stuff before i came. wish wish wish...wishful thinking. cant believe im left with only 1 more month thereabout here in NZ. damn im gonna miss this place when i get back to singapore. breakfast, the weather, friends, gym, cumby's dessert(damn good). oh wells. i really need to get my ass down to studying. motivation motivation. AH!!! c'mon!

today marks the day i am going straight into recess week(aka holiday) mood. completed a 20% cognitive psychology quiz and feeling relieved that i rmbr-ed some random pop mcqs (that i hell didnt expect to come out) from lecture 1.

eg: 1) how many % of our brain do we use? 1%,10%50%,100%
2) computer/neuron faster?
3) which of the following has the largest brain? human, dinosaur, elephant, chicken

make an intelligent guess on the tagboard and i will give u the answer :p

oh well. many other confusing questions along the way. after the quiz Dr patterson(the prof) told us that the finals will be much more challenging. so encouraging. :(

lunch-ed with a small group of friends. i realise that i prefer small group gatherings instead of those rah rah big group kind. because i can get to connect with each and every individual in the conversation rather than ending up NOT TALKING to someone during the whole big group outing. lunch was my usual wednesday jap lunch. after that headed down to SRC for a swim. the changing room seriously needs a big over-haul. glad they are making that come true on 28th sept. but which also means i have nowhere to bathe if i go for a swim during the period of renovation. shucks.

today is those kind of days that i coop myself at home. basically home alone. toggle between studying and using the computer--dinner--tv--computer--study... chit chat a bit at 9pm when my parents come home.

gets kinda lonely some times but oh well. at least my dad brought me GOOD NEWS this evening. apparently the construction of the new house (expected to commence after CNY) will be 2.5 stories. and the 0.5 storey is bascially a whole room for me (and cherlyn when she comes home). big balcony, plenty of space, attached toilet, not near to kitchen. totally fits every part of my checklist for a dream room :)

construction will take prolly 6 months. that means we will only move in next year national day! worth the wait worth the wait!

back to the vicious cycle--after computer= study. life life life.

<3
corrine

--cherlyn

With a blink of an eye (ok not really that fast...but still!), it has been 9months since i have been here in new zealand. It feels like a long time to me so the number 9 does not bring justice to what i have gone through during my time here. Well, it has been a truely humbling experience to be out of my little tiny world back in singapore where all i do is aimless studying, eat, exercise, watch tv, sleep and basically laze around. All these were done during the 1 year break that i had. Perhaps thats why i must say that i'm really pretty ill prepared for new zealand! The least i could do was to google Studying in New Zealand, or student life in New Zealand. But guess what? Close to nill preparation was done. That's what i get for being so ill prepared. That being said, coming to this country with absolutely no pre-formed ideas, perceptions have really changed my mindset tremendously. It's just so hard to put everything down in words.

Maybe i can start off by the notion that "asian people will tend to clique together". Well, that may not be entirely true because people from other asian countries are ultimately still different. In actual fact, i would say very different and there's just so much to learn and explore from their diverse backgrounds. But they are the ones that I can actually have a conversation and feel as though...ya..this conversation is going somewhere. That being said, i have made a conscious effort to get to know the Kiwi culture. Some have surprised me by their colour-blindness and simply tried to connect. On the other hand, i can totally understand why some people just simply will not talk to me because it's like the exact same behaviour that i will display when i see for example an Italian dude in a campus in singapore because firstly i can't really speak italian and most importantly, WERT AM I GONNA SAY? Fortunately, over the past 9 months i have somehow roughly and weakly grasp the idea of the varying topics that people here talk about. bottom line = i have so much to say but it is so hard to put everything down in words. I am just so intrigued by everything. No time to get emo over petty stuff already. Need time to firstly focus on my study and study with the right mindset AND get out of my box one step at a time. i know i want to... but it will take a while..one step at a time.

i've been on a long enough hiatus.

school has already kicked in at lightning speed.

just had my first quiz for the semester. went so so i think.

kinda stressing up over school. feeling kinda insecure and worried that what i read cannot be retained in my memory for as long as i thought it would. or maybe i am just overwhelmed by the sea of information of 3 core modules.. only.

aftermath of attempting a tutorial assignment that is apparently suppose to mimic exam question. essay style kind, 10marks, 5 marks, 3, 2 , 2.

gosh. i am kinda academically-orientated now. course schedule and time table right smack in my face as i am typing this cos its pasted on the wall infront of my computer. lol.

i should seriously stop rambling about school. i am sure i am not alone in this. just got this strong feeling of wanting to do better than last semester.

finally getting a break tmr. lecture cancelled. f i n a l l y. going out with twan and then back to studying again.

i'm out.

gonna run my stress away tmr morning! rahhh.

<3
corrine

--cherlyn

8am now and in the tutorial room...trying to figure out why i have to know how many cell layers are there in epithelium. hmmm....

this week is going pretty fast. while the others are having an epi test this fri..im -test free- for 1 mth. somehow still v stress cos there's always assignments due. just have to keep telling myself to keep going cos there's simply no other way out

updates on my end
my exams end on 28 oct! holy shit...earlier than all the other health sci pple. AWESOME. so im trying to change my flight date from 17 nov to 3 nov.

only got 6hrs of sleep yesterday and almost died while running with my mate. seriously. he went to whack slope somemore...i ended up walking up the slope. then guess what was the first thing i did when i came back? chomp down a date cake. keep my energy up.

but yeh... now im good alr cos i slept at 6pm- 9pm then 12am to 630pm.

gosh my sleep pattern can get really random when staying in the hostel

oh ya i can never have enough to say about how sucky hostel food is. the food can make me go into depression i swear.

still thinking whether to go out on thursday.... then friday i will be so zomged out to go for lectures. ah.

looking forward to the weekends though. healthy lifestyle in the first part of the day and get wasted in the second part of the day. :)

back to respiratory system. like a care a hoot. -.-

bye all!

--cherlyn

just got back from malaysian cultural night.

2 of my corridor mates performed so i had to be there to show moral support

but i guess performances are really not my thing. if i did not sleep for 10hrs today, i bet i wud be sleeping alr cos i actually slept through parts of the latest harry potter movie

things that i do not like = museums, walks in the park (except with my sis), shopping, watching boring movies, anything to do with arts or performing stuff (ohhh but i like watching girls dance hip hop, think its kinda interesting)

lately i have been trying vvvv hard to study but it just aint working out well. whats best is that one of my friends actually reminded me that the upcoming test is only 5 marks. so encouraging.

im officially booooorrrreeeeeed in cumby, in new zealand, bored of studying. completely senseless. seriously. just going through the motion.

and i ate so much during the day that i cud not eat dinner and basically went without food for like 7hrs? and thinking about the same old food tmr for breakfast, lunch and dinner just makes me sickkkk.

sigh i wanna go back to singapore where i can just revert to my sloth self. pple have been telling me that i will be bored when i go back to singapore. well.... life of a sloth have always been me. and i wasnt really bored with it to begin with. just need to earn money to support myself to some extent next year. screw my current job ok... the boss dont even need people after the holidays. screw her. urgh. i dont care alr. waitressing will nvr be my thing.

i am boreeeeeeeddddd. urgh. and sometimes i hate being this nice girl. cos i know myself as the -cant be bothered- person and although sometimes i question myself...i love myself for myself.

i want to be bo-chap and dont care even if the world crashes down on me

i want to be in cherlyn's world.

november....im silently counting down.

need to get through this. roar!

--cherlyn

I am finally updating!!!! Apologise for the massive MIA-ness. This will be quite a massive post. i promise. First and for most...i hate taking pictures alone. but while i was in christchurch...i had to take pictures solo most of the time. boring!

Me up at cashmere hill.. this place looks like a castle right?? it is actually a restaurant.



just beside this cross thingy there is this little cafe where auntie asmah and husband and me had tea. i had carrot cake which was so huge but more towards the light side. it was heated up and so yum!




ok these are pictures from queenstown! it was a good thing that my friend took control of the camera cos otherwise i wont even be bothered to take any pictures.

shen... the in charge

me...waiting for the rest to get their skiing gear

the girls' skii gear. we had to carry this shit stuff from bottom of mountain to top of mountain...fortunately there was a bus to send us up.

the place where the guys rented their snowboarding stuff

shen and nicole having packed smoked salmon sandwich and subway respectively before heading off to skii

group photo: jo, shen, joon, christina and nicole

matt adelyn and tony.






me and adelyn...the only person that i knew out of the entire group!!!! the whole bunch of people were so energeticcccc! i feel like an old lady















this is the thing that brings people up to higher mountains to skii or snowboard down

this is the starting point where i skiied the whole time.







evidence that i skiied and not bumming around...!

i must say that i enjoyed my holidays shit loads. being in auntie asmah's place is so homely like crazy that it made me feel weird! then queenstown was like holidaying with a bunch of strangers whom i got to know better (they made me feel old). lively bunch. all thanks to adelyn... she's such an awesome girl la. nothing else to say about her but she's just v nice.

the place that we stayed in at queenstown had a glass window smack in the living room with the view of mountains and the kitchen washing area also had glass mirrors. my ideal kitchen. v pretty place we stayed in. loved it lots!

ok the good part ends here. while in queenstown having my nice and relaxing holiday... i received a call from my friend who was suppose to flat with me together with her other friend. GUESS WHAT... just because another 3 girls needed 2 more pple to sign the lease for a station apartment...(five room only)...she just pang sei me and went ahead with the three other pple. gosh... this feels like being so dumped although i have not been dumped by a guy before. but it feels so shitty. we kinda made a pact that we wud be flatting next year and just cos the three girls are need 2 more pple to close the deal then join them? like wth...the two of them are not even close to the three of them. just neutral kinda thing. guess finding a place is more important than who they live with, im kinda mad but i appear to be ok... zzz!

just glad that my friends actually stood up for me. so the plan now is that i either find a studio apartment and live by myself or staying with another bunch of pple. the thing about me is that im kinda fussy with food with cleanliness stuff...so i wud rather live by myself than go live with complete strangers who r short of a flatmate...oh wells these kinda things cant really be explained unless u are in the situation urself. its just not that easy to live with people because everyone is different and have different habits and stuff? so many shit stuff involved.

its times like this where i just wanna live with corrine ho!!! i mean like if i were to cook like almost anythin..i know she will still say it is nice. but seriously...whatever i portray myself eating is not usual for everyone here. its just abnormal. i feel weird and like a big alien. my friend kinda assured me that it is just me. thats just me. seriously...the food i cook is sometimes quite bland but i find it acceptable. im going for brown rice of which most people will freak out. im gonna explore a lot of veg stuff but mayb less of meat and thats gonna freak people out too. whats wrong with brown rice and veg??? ok i will do meat but i really dont know how to cook nice meat which taste good? the only thing i can rmbr is boiling breast meat in water? thats like the only thing in my vocab? arghh...and thats freakish to pple too..apparently. i dont knowww...im not gonna like eating beef bologniase spaghetti and oily stuff everyday right? and like weird oily stuff with weird stuff... (flat cooking). like people will cook stuff that i dont like and i just wont eat it. pardon my brattishness...but seriously...5 mths of cumby and having to eat whatever is presented on my plate even though its shit stuff .....IM DONE WITH IT alright. i cant stand the food at all but i have to eat it. otherwise i will be hungry. so... next year i wanna be in control of what i wan and feel like eating. i dont wanna be obliged to eat what is presented in front of me. unless of cos someone cooks relatively healthy food for me then i will be sweet... so yeh. pardon my whininess.

so now i donno whats gonna happen. and did i mention that im kinda clean kitchen freak? cant stand like food sediments and unwashed dishes lying ard. its just so disgusting. so yeh... im seriously an alien. URGH. will see how things go....

lessons have started. statistics was boring. i have stat tutorial tmr! 2nd day of school! and biochemistry im blanking out like hell. feel v panicky alr. need to studddddyyyyyyyy!

i miss home and i wanna go homeeeeeee! wont be long... where i just have to lie in bed and dont have to plan this and that. and this weather is like freezing my ass off as well. i cant wait to get hommmmmeeeeeeeeeeeee! few more months...!!!!

today i am very ambitious and adventurous :)

i put my foot down and decided to bake pineapple tart for the FIRST TIME in my life. WITHOUT CHERLYN around. (*PS. usually cher bakes, i eat :P) That seemed really self handicapping for me when i first started. cos i was so blur, dont know the sequence of making the mix and all. omg.

at that point, i missed cherlyn so much, and i missed just staring at her bake.. few hours later got pineapple tart in my mouth alr.

hahaha! but it was a gd experience for me :)



i decided to take everything related to the baking part in my own hands.


so i basically like ordered my maid (*in a pleasant tone) to do stuff. hahaha!


the oven has not been touched for quite awhile. my mom, maid and i all gabra. cant find the user manual. actually it dropped behind the oven. gosh.


TADAAAA. colour is looking quite good


i seriously losed quite alot of calories from those 4h of baking. sweat like an oink oink man.


meticulously placed into the container


looking yummy! this container is for godma :)


my maid :) dont know what pose she doing. lol.


graduated from solo pineapple tart baking stint :)

my back is aching. i didn't know taking things in my own hands can be quite tiring. but lucky got maid to help me wash stuff and role pineapple balls. hehe.

and i have no idea why i still look so round even after losing so many calories after baking. grrr.




and honestly, i miss the good old days.







i am glad there are still photos that i can look back on. makes me reflect and appreciate what i have more :)

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oh ya! another big newsss. my parents sold the house. this is official. and we are moving out within 3 months. or if cant find house, will seek extension from the buyer.

this is another life-changing move for my family. once again, i trust that God always has a plan for us. :)

cheers!
Corrine