f***king annoyed today.
irritating boy sleeps in class.
absolutely wasting my time, his time, his mother's money.
he doesn't care, so why should i care?
i must say my patience has been pushed to its limits.
its not about money anymore, its about wanting to help someone but that person is like a dummy.
i think if i let go, there's no way u're gonna get me back on track.
like for example work. i totally died out near end June. my mind strays, i'm thinking of what would it be like if i'm not here. but luckily marianne chang is always there to keep me company and sane.
messaged his mom and told informed her bout how i feel alr. didn't want to but i feel thats the only right thing to do. its just not right to shut up and do nothing.
second half of my day just screwed. i'm home now and trying to chill. i just want all this nonsense that started long time ago to end. to end. to end. why can't i just teach an angelic kid who wants to learn, appreciate my presence and be attentive during lesson? i've always treated my tutors with respect, with appreciation, with enthusiasm to learn cos at the end of the day is those five f***ing alphabets that matter right? the deciding factor to your future. no matter how much we try to deny the fact, its true... everythin about education is results orientated. if its not an A, it'd be a B, not a B, a C, not a C, a D... simple as that.
so if you don't work for it, you'd just get nothing in return. cos nothing comes without hardwork. roar!
sorry for the emo post. just needed a venting outlet. dont want it to be a human being cos that wouldn't be very nice. i feel much better now.
--corrine--
Monday, June 30, 2008
--cherlyn
guess its time i post an update.
this morning at 2.30am my dad and i went to kovan macs to catch euro cup 2008, germany against spain! SPAIN won. 1-0. torres scored the goal. believe he's the striker cos throughout the whole game he was mainly the one trying and trying to strike the ball in.
while watching the match halfway, one girl randomly said: "SO GOOD LOOKING!" pretty much could guess who she was referring to! he's really fast, and goes ALL OUT. think if he didnt chiong the ball before the goal keeper catched it, spain would not have scored that 1 goal that saved the day. ok im totally not talking football terms here. nonetheless, sometimes pple may take it for granted but i think its really really not easy to bring to ball so near the goal post for the striker to make his move. sometimes the ball just never gets there to even try to score! oh wells.
ok basically im slacking away at home as usual. toggling between using the com, reading newspaper, eating, watching oprah winfrey show, lying on my bed, climbing stairs up and down. gosh. feeling quite wasted. but then again, im v lazy to do anything else and the weather is so hot. my bro wants to go swimming, i say yes. but mouth muscle at action once again. later lazy then dont wanna go alr. plus so hot! i dont rly like the sun. have you experienced the sun shining directly at ur face whether running or swimming. that feeling sucks. not model glamorous or sunshine babe feeling. to me it sucks.
honestly im aching all over and whenever i climb UP the stairs i imagine there's a bed at the ending point for me to collapse.
ok corrine is also rotting on her bed. we are both rotting away. too lazy to even talk to each other. just occasionally asking her to "go away" or "shut up" cos she's either trying to irritate me or making weird noises.
anw have been reading this book about the brain of a female
few interesting facts to share with all of u
-it is natural to be attracted to good looking males. in the book it's referred to males that are symmetrical. why? cos females will infer that mating with these males will produce good quality offsprings which females definitely want because they are innately tuned to want to provide the best for their offsprings
-same applies to males other qualities like income etc because it means that females can be assured that their offsprings are well provided with food etc.
teenage:
-nvr hug a male for more than 20s unless u are ready to trust him.
this is because hugging for >20s produce a certain thing in the body etc. cant rmbr the details.haha!
-aft approximately 6 mths into the relationship, females -stabilization- hormones will increase. and the high feeling has alr stabilised (cant remember exact terms). females will tend to be in search of other males. in other words, cheat on their partners!
-by nature, females can read minds. so dont get high when your partners tell u that: wow it seems like u are psychic/ can read my mind". basically females are tuned to read every emotion, expression, body gesture and discipher from there
-ok im kinda lazy recalling what i read. lastly, when u get pregnant, your brain will decrease in size. BUT NOT TO WORRY! it will increase back to normal size at the end part of pregnancy!
ok im off alr. my leg is cramping up.
take care pple!:)
guess its time i post an update.
this morning at 2.30am my dad and i went to kovan macs to catch euro cup 2008, germany against spain! SPAIN won. 1-0. torres scored the goal. believe he's the striker cos throughout the whole game he was mainly the one trying and trying to strike the ball in.
while watching the match halfway, one girl randomly said: "SO GOOD LOOKING!" pretty much could guess who she was referring to! he's really fast, and goes ALL OUT. think if he didnt chiong the ball before the goal keeper catched it, spain would not have scored that 1 goal that saved the day. ok im totally not talking football terms here. nonetheless, sometimes pple may take it for granted but i think its really really not easy to bring to ball so near the goal post for the striker to make his move. sometimes the ball just never gets there to even try to score! oh wells.
ok basically im slacking away at home as usual. toggling between using the com, reading newspaper, eating, watching oprah winfrey show, lying on my bed, climbing stairs up and down. gosh. feeling quite wasted. but then again, im v lazy to do anything else and the weather is so hot. my bro wants to go swimming, i say yes. but mouth muscle at action once again. later lazy then dont wanna go alr. plus so hot! i dont rly like the sun. have you experienced the sun shining directly at ur face whether running or swimming. that feeling sucks. not model glamorous or sunshine babe feeling. to me it sucks.
honestly im aching all over and whenever i climb UP the stairs i imagine there's a bed at the ending point for me to collapse.
ok corrine is also rotting on her bed. we are both rotting away. too lazy to even talk to each other. just occasionally asking her to "go away" or "shut up" cos she's either trying to irritate me or making weird noises.
anw have been reading this book about the brain of a female
few interesting facts to share with all of u
-it is natural to be attracted to good looking males. in the book it's referred to males that are symmetrical. why? cos females will infer that mating with these males will produce good quality offsprings which females definitely want because they are innately tuned to want to provide the best for their offsprings
-same applies to males other qualities like income etc because it means that females can be assured that their offsprings are well provided with food etc.
teenage:
-nvr hug a male for more than 20s unless u are ready to trust him.
this is because hugging for >20s produce a certain thing in the body etc. cant rmbr the details.haha!
-aft approximately 6 mths into the relationship, females -stabilization- hormones will increase. and the high feeling has alr stabilised (cant remember exact terms). females will tend to be in search of other males. in other words, cheat on their partners!
-by nature, females can read minds. so dont get high when your partners tell u that: wow it seems like u are psychic/ can read my mind". basically females are tuned to read every emotion, expression, body gesture and discipher from there
-ok im kinda lazy recalling what i read. lastly, when u get pregnant, your brain will decrease in size. BUT NOT TO WORRY! it will increase back to normal size at the end part of pregnancy!
ok im off alr. my leg is cramping up.
take care pple!:)
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Sunday Sunday Sunday :) good day. Saturday was good too. met up with...
yupp:) wen swimming in the afternoon, the sun was BLAZING when i left my house but when i reached the pool, it was super SHADY. haha. sorry for the bolding but i was so shocked, apparently darren said that the sun moved slightly away from the pool. but everywhere else was so sunny. haha. how fascinating mother nature is. the infrastructures blocked out some sun too. but anw who cares, i didn melt;) so all's good. hee. swimming helps me relax alot i must say. get my mind off taxing stuff. so does any other exercises (*not training) haha. training is JC days were much more demanding. so many things to consider, whether i meet the coach's and fellow team mates' and my own expectations. bad trainings bring paranoia. yea. but i must say the experience toughen me up alot. and the friendship forged will never be forgotten:) but now, any runs/swims i do are at the pace i set for myself. great company too:)
hope to keep this momentum gg even when i go uni. dont want life to revolve around just studying la... right? :/ like what one of my seniors told me. she told me ask god why he brought me to NTU. i'm sure he has a purpose for doing so. she asked me to know my purpose of gg uni. if its all bout studying, most probably i'll lose all my hype by the end of semester one. lets see how. have to do some thinking for the last two months before uni starts. need to strike a balance.
and hostel life too. bunking with chin pei... quite hyped. but i've never stayed out of home for more than one month before. super sheltered kid la i know. haha. so guess i can gain some form of independance from this hostel experience:)
back to my day... i later had some function at home organised by my parents and their friends... adults gave alot of views on uni and other stuff.. whole new perspective, conservative i must say... but it wont make me waiver.. i'm just gonna make full use of this opportunity and make the best out of it:) glad my parents and sister are so supportive too.
as for today, it was nice chilling around. churched for 1.5 hr, super long. then lunched. i renewed my craving for dau sar pao! i like! but i hate small and ex pao. so annoying. why cant pao makers just be generous?! sigh. mayb next time if i open a pao shop i'll make big fat paos bursting with fillings:) hee. for my own consumption :p lol!
tmr would be a good day too. two lessons to teach. no driving lessons. and did i mention my driving test is 14 july?! kinda nerve wrecking. i so wanna get it over and done with man. but i must say i quite enjoy driving. just that i quite nonchalent sometimes...
there was once the instructor suddenly swirl my sterring wheel, i was like 'what happened what happened? (*in a chilled way) ' then he diao me and say i almost bang cos too close to the car beside me -.- errrppss. but chill is the new 'in' thing right? :)
10 july my bro gg tekong! dad say whole family must go tekong to see see. kinda excited. cos its my first time to tekong, missed out on darren's. :/ work work work :/ i'm v hyped for my unemployed life for bout one more month. hopfully can catch up with friends, revitalise my social life and spend some time wif love ones :) off to bathe.
--corrine--
yupp:) wen swimming in the afternoon, the sun was BLAZING when i left my house but when i reached the pool, it was super SHADY. haha. sorry for the bolding but i was so shocked, apparently darren said that the sun moved slightly away from the pool. but everywhere else was so sunny. haha. how fascinating mother nature is. the infrastructures blocked out some sun too. but anw who cares, i didn melt;) so all's good. hee. swimming helps me relax alot i must say. get my mind off taxing stuff. so does any other exercises (*not training) haha. training is JC days were much more demanding. so many things to consider, whether i meet the coach's and fellow team mates' and my own expectations. bad trainings bring paranoia. yea. but i must say the experience toughen me up alot. and the friendship forged will never be forgotten:) but now, any runs/swims i do are at the pace i set for myself. great company too:)
hope to keep this momentum gg even when i go uni. dont want life to revolve around just studying la... right? :/ like what one of my seniors told me. she told me ask god why he brought me to NTU. i'm sure he has a purpose for doing so. she asked me to know my purpose of gg uni. if its all bout studying, most probably i'll lose all my hype by the end of semester one. lets see how. have to do some thinking for the last two months before uni starts. need to strike a balance.
and hostel life too. bunking with chin pei... quite hyped. but i've never stayed out of home for more than one month before. super sheltered kid la i know. haha. so guess i can gain some form of independance from this hostel experience:)
back to my day... i later had some function at home organised by my parents and their friends... adults gave alot of views on uni and other stuff.. whole new perspective, conservative i must say... but it wont make me waiver.. i'm just gonna make full use of this opportunity and make the best out of it:) glad my parents and sister are so supportive too.
as for today, it was nice chilling around. churched for 1.5 hr, super long. then lunched. i renewed my craving for dau sar pao! i like! but i hate small and ex pao. so annoying. why cant pao makers just be generous?! sigh. mayb next time if i open a pao shop i'll make big fat paos bursting with fillings:) hee. for my own consumption :p lol!
tmr would be a good day too. two lessons to teach. no driving lessons. and did i mention my driving test is 14 july?! kinda nerve wrecking. i so wanna get it over and done with man. but i must say i quite enjoy driving. just that i quite nonchalent sometimes...
there was once the instructor suddenly swirl my sterring wheel, i was like 'what happened what happened? (*in a chilled way) ' then he diao me and say i almost bang cos too close to the car beside me -.- errrppss. but chill is the new 'in' thing right? :)
10 july my bro gg tekong! dad say whole family must go tekong to see see. kinda excited. cos its my first time to tekong, missed out on darren's. :/ work work work :/ i'm v hyped for my unemployed life for bout one more month. hopfully can catch up with friends, revitalise my social life and spend some time wif love ones :) off to bathe.
--corrine--
Friday, June 27, 2008
hello!
mia for quite a while. anyway ystd was my last day of work. very sudden cos i tot i'd end at the end of June. but some saviour came and took my place ;) relieved from admin work, only have to go back to teach some classes.
the other day i got a random message from olivia who found a roommate for me! she's darren and olivia's ex-classmate so that's something in common for the both of us. we know darren and olivia x) lol! fine, i shall stop being lame. but anw, i'm excited:) hopefully everything will fall smoothly in place:)
and guess what happened to the busy girl at work (aka ME) ? i forgot to matriculate before the deadline. goodness. i did it three days after the dead line but luckily still on time.
signed up for HSS orientation camp. dont know what to expect. hopefully i can break free from my dao and anti social camp syndrome. haha!
for now its spending some time with the twin and chilling for the time being:)
--corrine--
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
cherlyn--
It's my off day. FINALLY FINALLY! :) three days more to the end of work in singtel. I guess only people that have experienced leaving a job after being stuck in it for several months can really feel the RELIEVE of it all. Totally cannot wait. :)
Anw it's confirmed alr. If application is successful( results out in 1 mth's time), I will be off to NZ(Dunedin)University of Otago to do:Bachelor of Consumer and Applied Sciences (BCApSc) majoring in Human Nutrition. That's the course man. Hehe. Then it will be applying for student visa,looking into accomodation...etc. I heard from the edu agency that it is a five room fully furnished apartment, so have to do own cooking. Well i dont mind that:) Anyway application done. Now will just wait for news.
After applying today, went to meet up with Dad to eat at Amoy Food Centre. My Dad is one excited man; when he saw the both of us, immediately said there is this peanut pancake that fun bun likes to eat, want to chiong there to buy for us. -.- but anyway the dessert store was pretty disappointing. The yam inside the tang yuan was not fully melted, it was still in a ball form. GOSH. also i wanted four different flavours of tang yuan but the shop vendor gave me 2 sesame. AH. cant do a one to one exchange. i wish. so although the tang yuan's were handmade, no big deal. not that good. but corrine said mayb it's just one of their off days, the other time she ate v nice. where's the standard of good food going to?ah! luckily the pong bia from that store still taste good although smaller in size.
Bumming around at home now. Was watching a little bit of Speed Racer while having lunch just now. But since i was too busy eating my lunch, i couldnt catch what was going on in the show at all, bored by it. OH WELLS
This could potentially be my future for the next few months you know. super slack. but i have to fulfil my yet acheived dream. that is to do waitressing. my mum supports the idea. I was totally shocked because previously she had the idea of me doing internship at a hospital till DEC. CRAZY idea. so will start looking for a waitressing job if time permits. cos top priority at hand now is to settle uni stuff and do some reading up on the course. see how things go i guess.
ok im off to watch tv and rot my time away before it's back to work tmr again.
bye!:)
It's my off day. FINALLY FINALLY! :) three days more to the end of work in singtel. I guess only people that have experienced leaving a job after being stuck in it for several months can really feel the RELIEVE of it all. Totally cannot wait. :)
Anw it's confirmed alr. If application is successful( results out in 1 mth's time), I will be off to NZ(Dunedin)University of Otago to do:Bachelor of Consumer and Applied Sciences (BCApSc) majoring in Human Nutrition. That's the course man. Hehe. Then it will be applying for student visa,looking into accomodation...etc. I heard from the edu agency that it is a five room fully furnished apartment, so have to do own cooking. Well i dont mind that:) Anyway application done. Now will just wait for news.
After applying today, went to meet up with Dad to eat at Amoy Food Centre. My Dad is one excited man; when he saw the both of us, immediately said there is this peanut pancake that fun bun likes to eat, want to chiong there to buy for us. -.- but anyway the dessert store was pretty disappointing. The yam inside the tang yuan was not fully melted, it was still in a ball form. GOSH. also i wanted four different flavours of tang yuan but the shop vendor gave me 2 sesame. AH. cant do a one to one exchange. i wish. so although the tang yuan's were handmade, no big deal. not that good. but corrine said mayb it's just one of their off days, the other time she ate v nice. where's the standard of good food going to?ah! luckily the pong bia from that store still taste good although smaller in size.
Bumming around at home now. Was watching a little bit of Speed Racer while having lunch just now. But since i was too busy eating my lunch, i couldnt catch what was going on in the show at all, bored by it. OH WELLS
This could potentially be my future for the next few months you know. super slack. but i have to fulfil my yet acheived dream. that is to do waitressing. my mum supports the idea. I was totally shocked because previously she had the idea of me doing internship at a hospital till DEC. CRAZY idea. so will start looking for a waitressing job if time permits. cos top priority at hand now is to settle uni stuff and do some reading up on the course. see how things go i guess.
ok im off to watch tv and rot my time away before it's back to work tmr again.
bye!:)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
this morning i was overwhelmed with so many little surprises!
brother came hme from beautiful but expensive australia and brought back so many goodies.
sugar glazed nuts
raisins still hanging on their tiny branches (*can you believe that? finally get to taste fresh raisins)
famous aussie doughnuts (*totally kick ass. s'pore doughnuts cant even compare pls. )
nice sweets
tons and tons of noughurts (*duno spelling)
yea. how i wish i can fly to a foreign land and experience a different life style. just get away for a while thou i just came back from smashing bkk trip. i'm still craving for more! haha!
alr informed my boss that i'd like to leave by end June. she kinda went hysterical. i rmbr her saying...' you cannot just want to leave tmr then leave you know'... me: (*blur look), did i say i wanna leave tmr?... erps. kinda wierd conversation but i guess its a rather sudden thing which explains her reaction.
but anway, i need a break before i dive into uni life. still considering whether or not to live in hostel cos the NTU is freaking far. i rmbr taking 1.5hr to reach there. and my driving test is in july. u have no idea how much i want that license. hee.. then i can drive fun bun around and go for food trail! whoohoooooo. maybe to tampines cos mchang said there got NICE FOOD!
time for work alr. man. my butt dont wanna move. roar. bye peeps.
.corrine.
brother came hme from beautiful but expensive australia and brought back so many goodies.
sugar glazed nuts
raisins still hanging on their tiny branches (*can you believe that? finally get to taste fresh raisins)
famous aussie doughnuts (*totally kick ass. s'pore doughnuts cant even compare pls. )
nice sweets
tons and tons of noughurts (*duno spelling)
yea. how i wish i can fly to a foreign land and experience a different life style. just get away for a while thou i just came back from smashing bkk trip. i'm still craving for more! haha!
alr informed my boss that i'd like to leave by end June. she kinda went hysterical. i rmbr her saying...' you cannot just want to leave tmr then leave you know'... me: (*blur look), did i say i wanna leave tmr?... erps. kinda wierd conversation but i guess its a rather sudden thing which explains her reaction.
but anway, i need a break before i dive into uni life. still considering whether or not to live in hostel cos the NTU is freaking far. i rmbr taking 1.5hr to reach there. and my driving test is in july. u have no idea how much i want that license. hee.. then i can drive fun bun around and go for food trail! whoohoooooo. maybe to tampines cos mchang said there got NICE FOOD!
time for work alr. man. my butt dont wanna move. roar. bye peeps.
.corrine.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
cherlyn---
quite a lot of things went wrong today
1)i did not hit 60 calls for a 2nd day running. oh my gosh. guess i have been slacking too much, walking ard too much to chat and talk cock. and i have been to distracted doing other stuff on the com and making phone calls!.
2)no one is wishing me luck that my wish to resign by 15th june works out. Lingwei isnt saying much cos it's her freaking last day tmr.ok that shall be elaborated on the 3rd point. and the guys keep saying stay till 3rd week of june. are they out of their minds.AHHHHHHHHHH! i want out.totally
3)it is lingwei's last day tmr.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! im gonna miss her badly la. no one to hear my rants and whines and complains during work. roar
4)uni stuff is driving me nuts. i was writing the appeal while taking calls/waiting for call from staff service with regards to my resignation/trying to clear all the outstanding activities/trying to hit 60 calls/chasing away boredom blues.going nuts alr.
ok that is the bad that happen today. so much frustrations man.
sometimes i just wish i had a carefree life. dont wanna bungle myself with so many things. i just want a free mind, carefree life, nothing to worry about. FREEEEE! i dont like my mind to sink down with things that are so troubling. life is short! why are there so many things to worry about
anw i just hope nz food sci works out. really want to give that course a shot. although it means leaving many things behind for 4 yrs. but yeh, for one most impt thing is that after 4 yrs i will come back and find my FUN BUN. i will come back for my fun bun.thats for sure.
ah ok gotta watch tv alr.bye!
quite a lot of things went wrong today
1)i did not hit 60 calls for a 2nd day running. oh my gosh. guess i have been slacking too much, walking ard too much to chat and talk cock. and i have been to distracted doing other stuff on the com and making phone calls!.
2)no one is wishing me luck that my wish to resign by 15th june works out. Lingwei isnt saying much cos it's her freaking last day tmr.ok that shall be elaborated on the 3rd point. and the guys keep saying stay till 3rd week of june. are they out of their minds.AHHHHHHHHHH! i want out.totally
3)it is lingwei's last day tmr.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! im gonna miss her badly la. no one to hear my rants and whines and complains during work. roar
4)uni stuff is driving me nuts. i was writing the appeal while taking calls/waiting for call from staff service with regards to my resignation/trying to clear all the outstanding activities/trying to hit 60 calls/chasing away boredom blues.going nuts alr.
ok that is the bad that happen today. so much frustrations man.
sometimes i just wish i had a carefree life. dont wanna bungle myself with so many things. i just want a free mind, carefree life, nothing to worry about. FREEEEE! i dont like my mind to sink down with things that are so troubling. life is short! why are there so many things to worry about
anw i just hope nz food sci works out. really want to give that course a shot. although it means leaving many things behind for 4 yrs. but yeh, for one most impt thing is that after 4 yrs i will come back and find my FUN BUN. i will come back for my fun bun.thats for sure.
ah ok gotta watch tv alr.bye!
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
hello peeps. corrine here. mia for way too long i realise.
anw, settling well in newly renovated house:) just came back from smashing bangkok trip w marianne wong, marianne chang, huayshan, sis and parents:) totally awesome company, shopping and food. we couldn't bear to leave all that behind in thailand... oh well. now i'm back to reality, i think i need a break before uni starts. yes. today is an off day for me:)
last night was spent watching kite runner dvd with sis till 5am! eyes were semi closed but show was superb :) i cant wait for yet another trip with my buddies. teehee! but when will that be???.... ah. ok shall go see how to slack today. happy birthday dad!
anw, settling well in newly renovated house:) just came back from smashing bangkok trip w marianne wong, marianne chang, huayshan, sis and parents:) totally awesome company, shopping and food. we couldn't bear to leave all that behind in thailand... oh well. now i'm back to reality, i think i need a break before uni starts. yes. today is an off day for me:)
last night was spent watching kite runner dvd with sis till 5am! eyes were semi closed but show was superb :) i cant wait for yet another trip with my buddies. teehee! but when will that be???.... ah. ok shall go see how to slack today. happy birthday dad!
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