Last night , after my usual basketball session , went with a friend to watch the "Sky High" band playing at PJ Hilton. It was nearly 12 midnight. She also introduced me to a few of the band members. Well, I can say that the singers' voices are good.... I did enjoy the music they played.
Promised to sleep over at her house. Came back at about 2.30pm......with about 3 hours sleep, no wonder it was tough waking up to go to work today. I even took a 'power nap' during lunch. Thank god work finishes at 4.00 today.
Ohh!!! I almost forgot - got to pick Lizzie up from KLIA at about 6.30 pm today and another basketball session at 10pm tonight. There goes my beauty sleep.....
And tomorrow....will be another full day that I look forward to. (GJC Dinner...yup!)
Friday, March 31
Wednesday, March 29
The journey continues....
Well, after a day of celebration, receiving lots of emails from other sisters regarding on the victory of the team, I think its time to continue the journey. Not that we've stopped, but more of a pause to reflect on the history and also on the effort , time and money spent to achieve this. There is another half way more to go. I did not reply to any emails congratulating us on the victory because I feel that we have not completed the journey. So, to all who sent the wishes and their gratitude - thank you. Hope you will continously support and pray for the team's success.
Last week, on Tuesday when I went for my basketball session, I was not in the mood to play. Let me rephrase that - I had maximum basketball during the previous week spent with my gals for their intensive camp so I really had enough of basketball and didn't feel like playing. But today - I'm back on track. I was quite eager to play and run as usual. Did not manage to put in any balls( how can I when all these guys jumped like Kobe Bryant!) - but at least I managed to put up a good defense for my team. Thanks again guys for letting me play.Eventhough we may have very minimal conversation, but I do appreciate it.
Before I forget - thank you to MC Cagers for 'lending' their coach to us. A lot of time spent by Sir during the intensive camp to help the gals instead of his own team. Without your understanding, this won't happen. Thank you.
Sunday, March 26
We are the new champ!
Alhamdulillah, all our prayers are answered and our hardwork has shown its results. After 7 months R-2-V team 'stepped in', one motivation camp and 4 intensive camps for the players, we managed to win this year's Southern Zone PPM title after 15 years always being behind the same school. Well, the best thing is, we did not only win, but we won 'smartly' .With well dressed players who followed strictly to the basketball rule - which is to make sure their top was always 'tucked in' , our players also showed that they are fit and they are one tough team to fight for this coming National Level PPM.
The sad part was to see all the other teams' performances. Their basketball fundamentals were really, really weak. Some of them can't even dribble neither can they shoot the correct way. Others do not know the back court violation. It was really sad. These are some of the things which a player needs to know when they start playing basketball. It looks as if the teams were formed because the school needed to send a team for this yearly tournament. The coaching part might not be taken up seriously. As long as they know a bit about basketball, then they are told that they are ready. Well, I myself is not qualified to be called a coach yet but I am definitely trying my very best to learn as much and as fast as I can for one of the best coach.
To my team, congratulations to all of you. Its not easy to be a champion, you got to have the attitude of a champion. Its all in you whether you want it or not.If you forget how it feels like, just remember the movie 'Remember the Titans'......
Wednesday, March 22
Our loved ones...
Yesterday evening, stuck in the traffic jam, I suddenly thought of something. It just came across my mind. Last week, a friend told me about her plans of going back to her hometown for a wedding. She planned for the whole family to go back as it was during the school holidays. Her eldest hinted that she refused to go as her excuse was to stay at home and rest.
Then my friend told me this - it was not because of the wedding that they were going back and she's forcing the children to go with her, it was more of visiting the elderly i.e. the grandparents. She wanted her kids to be close to their grandparents and aunties and uncles as these are the important people in the family tree.
Suddenly the song "You raise me up" by Josh Groban was on the air.It struck me. My apartment is about 5 minutes away from my mom's house. My mom is currently staying with my sister and her husband and also their newborn baby whom now is the heart and soul of the family. 5 minutes away by car is not far at all. But, for the past 4 weeks, I've only went and saw her twice. Once when she organised a luncheon for some of our cousins and the other time was a week ago - dropped by to get some letters.
When I think about it, yes, she might be waiting for me to visit her. Maybe not expecting much from me but just to go and have a chat with her, to tell the updates in my 'life'. Before the baby was born, she kept calling me up every other day to check where I was. These went on quite frequently for some time especially after all the things that happened to me. Now, no more. No more calls from her for the past 2 months. Only I had to call her up and ask a few things.
Yes, I know I am guilty of treating her this way. But then again, I think she knows me well enough to trust me with the things that I do now. I admit that I do not visit her that often. Who does not love their own mother? I do love her its just that I am used to this situation. I am used to being on my own. All this while, she has been really close to my sister -since my primary school days. Being a single parent with 3 kids, it made me feel that I should not burden her with my problems especially when my brother and sister needed more attention than me. Maybe another reason this happens now is because when she sent me to the boarding school earlier, she only went to the school to send me and took me back from school after my final year exam. She was too busy with my brother and sister and could not afford to pay me a visit at all. I did go back home during the school holidays but I guess that made a big difference. Almost everybody else received visitors expecially their parents to visit them.Its tough to admit, but I think my teenage life played a major role in who I am now and how I behave.
Lately my life is full of responsibilities towards other people.Towards the kids that I am taking care of.I know my mom is doing well with my sister and her family. She is well taken care of. Its not that I am putting everybody else more than my family but my mom has my sister around. And she also knows at times, when she needs something she can always call me. I guess if my sister is not around - that there will something big missing from her life.
We only live in this world temporarily and our lives are sort of being lent to us by the Mighty one.My purpose now in life is to contribute and help other people.From 100% of my free time now (minus the working hours , ya), I can say that 80% of it are being spent for other people. Its more of helping other people to solve their issues or to make them happy. I am assuming my mom is allowing me to do all these and she knows that I did not visit her because of these reasons. I know that she supports me all the way and she definitely trusts what I do.
Like my brother mentioned to me last year, sometimes he feels sad that a big portion of his life is spent away from his family and relatives in Malaysia. But, he said, being far away also provides the advantages of giving him more free time to do social/religious work without hurting anybody's feelings by not attending family functions, visiting relatives house etc. It is good to tighten the family values but at times it will also lead to something else. When you do not spend time with your family, you can either spend time loitering around with friends, or ....make full use of it by contributing to the people who needs you most.
One thing I do know......I miss going back to Terengganu to visit my grandma. I miss the smell of the sea and the sound of the waves. Time is to limited for me to go back. Maybe sometime in June.....yeah...maybe.
Then my friend told me this - it was not because of the wedding that they were going back and she's forcing the children to go with her, it was more of visiting the elderly i.e. the grandparents. She wanted her kids to be close to their grandparents and aunties and uncles as these are the important people in the family tree.
Suddenly the song "You raise me up" by Josh Groban was on the air.It struck me. My apartment is about 5 minutes away from my mom's house. My mom is currently staying with my sister and her husband and also their newborn baby whom now is the heart and soul of the family. 5 minutes away by car is not far at all. But, for the past 4 weeks, I've only went and saw her twice. Once when she organised a luncheon for some of our cousins and the other time was a week ago - dropped by to get some letters.
When I think about it, yes, she might be waiting for me to visit her. Maybe not expecting much from me but just to go and have a chat with her, to tell the updates in my 'life'. Before the baby was born, she kept calling me up every other day to check where I was. These went on quite frequently for some time especially after all the things that happened to me. Now, no more. No more calls from her for the past 2 months. Only I had to call her up and ask a few things.
Yes, I know I am guilty of treating her this way. But then again, I think she knows me well enough to trust me with the things that I do now. I admit that I do not visit her that often. Who does not love their own mother? I do love her its just that I am used to this situation. I am used to being on my own. All this while, she has been really close to my sister -since my primary school days. Being a single parent with 3 kids, it made me feel that I should not burden her with my problems especially when my brother and sister needed more attention than me. Maybe another reason this happens now is because when she sent me to the boarding school earlier, she only went to the school to send me and took me back from school after my final year exam. She was too busy with my brother and sister and could not afford to pay me a visit at all. I did go back home during the school holidays but I guess that made a big difference. Almost everybody else received visitors expecially their parents to visit them.Its tough to admit, but I think my teenage life played a major role in who I am now and how I behave.
Lately my life is full of responsibilities towards other people.Towards the kids that I am taking care of.I know my mom is doing well with my sister and her family. She is well taken care of. Its not that I am putting everybody else more than my family but my mom has my sister around. And she also knows at times, when she needs something she can always call me. I guess if my sister is not around - that there will something big missing from her life.
We only live in this world temporarily and our lives are sort of being lent to us by the Mighty one.My purpose now in life is to contribute and help other people.From 100% of my free time now (minus the working hours , ya), I can say that 80% of it are being spent for other people. Its more of helping other people to solve their issues or to make them happy. I am assuming my mom is allowing me to do all these and she knows that I did not visit her because of these reasons. I know that she supports me all the way and she definitely trusts what I do.
Like my brother mentioned to me last year, sometimes he feels sad that a big portion of his life is spent away from his family and relatives in Malaysia. But, he said, being far away also provides the advantages of giving him more free time to do social/religious work without hurting anybody's feelings by not attending family functions, visiting relatives house etc. It is good to tighten the family values but at times it will also lead to something else. When you do not spend time with your family, you can either spend time loitering around with friends, or ....make full use of it by contributing to the people who needs you most.
One thing I do know......I miss going back to Terengganu to visit my grandma. I miss the smell of the sea and the sound of the waves. Time is to limited for me to go back. Maybe sometime in June.....yeah...maybe.
Sunday, March 12
So many things to write...
This past few days, there are so many things hapenning and so many things to write in my blog yet so little time. Things which happened unexpectedly or maybe we expected the least from it.
Firstly, an email, written by me with the help of K.Ana( it was her 5 seconds craxy idea), amazingly answered by a number of Srikandi's out there. We wanted to purchase 2 sets of jerseys for the players and had to come out with a small business to finance it. Then came an idea to spam emails to ask anybody out there who would like to 'adopt' the jerseys based on the numbers. Well, it was only opened to the 1st set of the jerseys. Then the demand suddenly went up crazily - so it ended up both sets were sold like goreng pisang panas! Its so funny to see this for the 1st time - some of them even 'fought' for the same number! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you to all who had supported and adopted the jerseys.
Friday night, me and my UM + Cempaka bball gang, played at Sports Barn, PJ. This was our first session after a few weeks (months for some of them) who have not meet each other. Especially for some who is busy going in and out of the country, working)It was really, really nice to see the familiar faces again. (hey! I mean this, ok). It does not matter whether it was only 1/2 court . We did enjoy the game and the company ! I did!
Saturday - attended a wedding dinner in a hotel in KL. This was my first ever chinese wedding dinner and first wedding attended after my separation. Saw some familiar faces from my old office esp. my beloved department mates. I thought I was strong. Well, watching their slide show of their lovely wedding photos and with the beautiful love songs as the background music - I almost teared. Especially before leaving the dinner, my ex-HR manager asked me, "aik, sorang je ke?". Thank god before I answered, she asked another question. I believe it will take sometime for me to attend another wedding after this. I really, really need to move on first.
The next few days is going to be really hectic. And again, 24 hours is just not enough in a day. I will only be working on Monday as I need to go down to JB the rest of the week to help the gals - preparing them for the battle which is only 10 days away. I don't know about them, but I am having butterflies already in my stomach. Oh yeah...not mentioning about loads, and loads of sunblock which I need to put on.....well..... I don't think it will work...hahaha.
To the boys team - I'm happy that your intensive camp is on! Sir Liew is definitely going all out to help you boys - so, don't waste his effort and energy!
Hopefully I have some time in JB to get myself online and update on what is hapenning. Until then.....
Firstly, an email, written by me with the help of K.Ana( it was her 5 seconds craxy idea), amazingly answered by a number of Srikandi's out there. We wanted to purchase 2 sets of jerseys for the players and had to come out with a small business to finance it. Then came an idea to spam emails to ask anybody out there who would like to 'adopt' the jerseys based on the numbers. Well, it was only opened to the 1st set of the jerseys. Then the demand suddenly went up crazily - so it ended up both sets were sold like goreng pisang panas! Its so funny to see this for the 1st time - some of them even 'fought' for the same number! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you to all who had supported and adopted the jerseys.
Friday night, me and my UM + Cempaka bball gang, played at Sports Barn, PJ. This was our first session after a few weeks (months for some of them) who have not meet each other. Especially for some who is busy going in and out of the country, working)It was really, really nice to see the familiar faces again. (hey! I mean this, ok). It does not matter whether it was only 1/2 court . We did enjoy the game and the company ! I did!
Saturday - attended a wedding dinner in a hotel in KL. This was my first ever chinese wedding dinner and first wedding attended after my separation. Saw some familiar faces from my old office esp. my beloved department mates. I thought I was strong. Well, watching their slide show of their lovely wedding photos and with the beautiful love songs as the background music - I almost teared. Especially before leaving the dinner, my ex-HR manager asked me, "aik, sorang je ke?". Thank god before I answered, she asked another question. I believe it will take sometime for me to attend another wedding after this. I really, really need to move on first.
The next few days is going to be really hectic. And again, 24 hours is just not enough in a day. I will only be working on Monday as I need to go down to JB the rest of the week to help the gals - preparing them for the battle which is only 10 days away. I don't know about them, but I am having butterflies already in my stomach. Oh yeah...not mentioning about loads, and loads of sunblock which I need to put on.....well..... I don't think it will work...hahaha.
To the boys team - I'm happy that your intensive camp is on! Sir Liew is definitely going all out to help you boys - so, don't waste his effort and energy!
Hopefully I have some time in JB to get myself online and update on what is hapenning. Until then.....
Friday, March 10
KL's night life..
Woah!!! Today is the last day of the 3am shift for this week. Phew...what a relief. But before the end of my shift, I hope I could stay awake the whole shift as the last sleep that I had was between 5-7pm yesterday. From 9-11pm , played basketball with my 'new' friends. The best part was I spent the rest of the hours, from 12.30am to 2.30am meeting 2 more friends in Bintang Walk and after that straight went to the office.
We had a chat about coming up with ideas, or more like a plan for a small business. Can't say its a business plan, but more of a dream for me. While chatting away, A , showed both of us one of the signboard for tourists in the area. Yeah, he was right, I didn't feel as if we were in Malaysia. The signboard was written in Arabic, and we can see majority of the people walking up and down the street were Arabics themselves. Seems that the area are famous among Arab tourists. They will stay at the hotels surrounding the Golden Triangle. And some of them even took some famous 'international' models back to the hotel. Well, this part, I didn't get to see it. Maybe one day.
And, that is Kuala Lumpur's night life for people who do not know.....
We had a chat about coming up with ideas, or more like a plan for a small business. Can't say its a business plan, but more of a dream for me. While chatting away, A , showed both of us one of the signboard for tourists in the area. Yeah, he was right, I didn't feel as if we were in Malaysia. The signboard was written in Arabic, and we can see majority of the people walking up and down the street were Arabics themselves. Seems that the area are famous among Arab tourists. They will stay at the hotels surrounding the Golden Triangle. And some of them even took some famous 'international' models back to the hotel. Well, this part, I didn't get to see it. Maybe one day.
And, that is Kuala Lumpur's night life for people who do not know.....
Thursday, March 9
24hours and 2 hours of sleep
In a day, we have 24 hours.
This week, I notice, 24 hours is not enough.
3am-11am Work
11am - 4.30pm Dynamites issues
5.00pm - 7.00pm Sleep /rest (have to coz I'm working at 3am!)
9.00pm - 11.00pm Basketball sessions
3.00am Start working again.
I only had 2-4 hours of sleep, and rest and travelling in between places.
Well, I had remarks earlier, somebody said I kuat tidur. I think this week proves that I can go on with only 2-4 hours sleep a day!
And I noticed - I don't even have time to blog!
In reality, I can't wait for Friday to end this shift!
This week, I notice, 24 hours is not enough.
3am-11am Work
11am - 4.30pm Dynamites issues
5.00pm - 7.00pm Sleep /rest (have to coz I'm working at 3am!)
9.00pm - 11.00pm Basketball sessions
3.00am Start working again.
I only had 2-4 hours of sleep, and rest and travelling in between places.
Well, I had remarks earlier, somebody said I kuat tidur. I think this week proves that I can go on with only 2-4 hours sleep a day!
And I noticed - I don't even have time to blog!
In reality, I can't wait for Friday to end this shift!
Tuesday, March 7
Dikau Teristimewa
I am actually sleepy - this week I'm doing 3am shift. So, as a 'selingan', listened to this song and kind of like the lyrics and melody of it. It is Zahid's song. Penyejuk hati...memang betul. Selamanya...maybe no.
Semerdu kicauan
Burung yg menyanyi
Mendamakan semua keresahan
Seketika daku memikirkan
Kehadiran rindu
Terbayangkan wajah ayu yang
Semakin menganggu
Engkaulah dewi penyejuk hati
Hadirmu seumpamanya mimpi
Lalu kau menggembara dan mengenali
Keinginan senubari yang daku ingini
Bercahaya
Cinta yang terbina
Kini
Cuma ada
Bahagia antara kita
Seandainya
Daku yang pertama bertakhta di hati
Setiap masa
Kau teristimewa
Selamanya
Akan ku pastikan
Abadi sentiasa
Tanpa penghujungnya
Seindah pelangi senja
Tiada bandingan
Kau teristimewa
Engkaulah dewi penyejuk hati
Hadirmu seumpama mimpi
Lalu kau mengembara dan mengenali
Keinginan senubari yg daku ingini
Kerana mu
Aku pertahankan
Kesetiaan ini
Tiada berbelah bagi
Sekiranya
Kau jauh dari diriku
Tiada ku mampu
Menepis kerinduan
Dikala kesepian
Dikaulah kasihku...Oooooo
Semerdu kicauan
Burung yg menyanyi
Mendamakan semua keresahan
Seketika daku memikirkan
Kehadiran rindu
Terbayangkan wajah ayu yang
Semakin menganggu
Engkaulah dewi penyejuk hati
Hadirmu seumpamanya mimpi
Lalu kau menggembara dan mengenali
Keinginan senubari yang daku ingini
Bercahaya
Cinta yang terbina
Kini
Cuma ada
Bahagia antara kita
Seandainya
Daku yang pertama bertakhta di hati
Setiap masa
Kau teristimewa
Selamanya
Akan ku pastikan
Abadi sentiasa
Tanpa penghujungnya
Seindah pelangi senja
Tiada bandingan
Kau teristimewa
Engkaulah dewi penyejuk hati
Hadirmu seumpama mimpi
Lalu kau mengembara dan mengenali
Keinginan senubari yg daku ingini
Kerana mu
Aku pertahankan
Kesetiaan ini
Tiada berbelah bagi
Sekiranya
Kau jauh dari diriku
Tiada ku mampu
Menepis kerinduan
Dikala kesepian
Dikaulah kasihku...Oooooo
Thursday, March 2
Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart
Last night, went for a drink with a friend. It was not a planned one. Called him up to ask about the CCs in SJ coz I needed to print something out. Then, when I was in my own world, surfing, got a text from him asking if I wanted to go out for a drink afterwards.
Frankly speaking, I did not feel like it. I didn't feel comfortable. But then again, it has been quite sometime since I meet him for our basketball sessions, so I agreed. And there we were, at Pelita SJ, 30 mts later, having our sup kambing and ayam, chatting away.We chatted about life. About things which had happened for the past 1 year. Then only I noticed that I have not been seeing my regular basketball friends for about a year. I did see them about a month ago, but just strictly in the court as I had to rush back and had turned down the usual lunch with them.
One of the topic we talked about was our circle of friends. At this age, and with the same group of people around you, to think about it, it looks quite pathetic. Instead of getting more friends, our friends are getting lesser and lesser and for some of us, our life becomes more empty.
Then I came up with my own life equation. My life equation is as below:
My life = 100%, partner = 70%, basketball friends/sessions = 15%, office colleagues = 5%, my gals team = 5%, other friends = 5%
Mathematically, it goes like this :
previous years
My life = partner + basketball friends/sessions + office colleagues + my gals team + other friends = 100%
this year
My life = no more partner + no more basketball friends/sessions + office colleagues + my gals team + other friends = 15%
What happened to the 85% - well, that explains how free I am during the week nights now. Its either I'm at the CC (like now) or at home sleeping. (well, I tried to watch TV but ended up the other way round..heheh).
I think , maybe, to fill in my time, I should ambik anak angkat or adik angkat, maybe from one of the rumah anak yatim ke. At least I can help out by motivating him/her, be his friend, sister or even as 'mak angkat'. (yup..I know it does sound that old). Yes, I do have one in Terengganu - a boy whom I got to know during the PLKN camp last year. He had done pills, glue, lumba haram, met with an accident until his leg broken into 3 parts when his bike hit a cow, under 'remand' for a few days and others. At first, when he told me his experience, what he's gone thru, it did not occur to my mind. On the last day of the camp, then only I realised that he needs the attention. And maybe because of lack of attention and love from his family, he got involved in all those activities. Once in a while we do sms and call each other. I kind of glad to be there for him and he promised me that he will not get involve with all these nonsense again. He is currently waiting for a college offer to continue his studies. I'm really proud of him.
It shows that some people,when they are lack of attention and love, and they do not have strong values, they turn to other people whom they think its their 'true' friends. And here I am , instead of wasting my time , should look for more people like them to spend time with, to care for them.
Yeah, maybe I should spent more time, looking for people like this. I would love to help them out. I have this strong feeling, maybe, after the end of my contract with this company, if the PLKN camp is still on going, I would love to take the full time position there. And that I believe, is my objective in life.....to be with the people who needs me rather than I need them.
To my friend whom I met last nite, thank you for listening, thank you for giving me some fresh ideas, thank you for motivating me - eventhough you might not realise it.
Frankly speaking, I did not feel like it. I didn't feel comfortable. But then again, it has been quite sometime since I meet him for our basketball sessions, so I agreed. And there we were, at Pelita SJ, 30 mts later, having our sup kambing and ayam, chatting away.We chatted about life. About things which had happened for the past 1 year. Then only I noticed that I have not been seeing my regular basketball friends for about a year. I did see them about a month ago, but just strictly in the court as I had to rush back and had turned down the usual lunch with them.
One of the topic we talked about was our circle of friends. At this age, and with the same group of people around you, to think about it, it looks quite pathetic. Instead of getting more friends, our friends are getting lesser and lesser and for some of us, our life becomes more empty.
Then I came up with my own life equation. My life equation is as below:
My life = 100%, partner = 70%, basketball friends/sessions = 15%, office colleagues = 5%, my gals team = 5%, other friends = 5%
Mathematically, it goes like this :
previous years
My life = partner + basketball friends/sessions + office colleagues + my gals team + other friends = 100%
this year
My life = no more partner + no more basketball friends/sessions + office colleagues + my gals team + other friends = 15%
What happened to the 85% - well, that explains how free I am during the week nights now. Its either I'm at the CC (like now) or at home sleeping. (well, I tried to watch TV but ended up the other way round..heheh).
I think , maybe, to fill in my time, I should ambik anak angkat or adik angkat, maybe from one of the rumah anak yatim ke. At least I can help out by motivating him/her, be his friend, sister or even as 'mak angkat'. (yup..I know it does sound that old). Yes, I do have one in Terengganu - a boy whom I got to know during the PLKN camp last year. He had done pills, glue, lumba haram, met with an accident until his leg broken into 3 parts when his bike hit a cow, under 'remand' for a few days and others. At first, when he told me his experience, what he's gone thru, it did not occur to my mind. On the last day of the camp, then only I realised that he needs the attention. And maybe because of lack of attention and love from his family, he got involved in all those activities. Once in a while we do sms and call each other. I kind of glad to be there for him and he promised me that he will not get involve with all these nonsense again. He is currently waiting for a college offer to continue his studies. I'm really proud of him.
It shows that some people,when they are lack of attention and love, and they do not have strong values, they turn to other people whom they think its their 'true' friends. And here I am , instead of wasting my time , should look for more people like them to spend time with, to care for them.
Yeah, maybe I should spent more time, looking for people like this. I would love to help them out. I have this strong feeling, maybe, after the end of my contract with this company, if the PLKN camp is still on going, I would love to take the full time position there. And that I believe, is my objective in life.....to be with the people who needs me rather than I need them.
To my friend whom I met last nite, thank you for listening, thank you for giving me some fresh ideas, thank you for motivating me - eventhough you might not realise it.
Wednesday, March 1
Malu, segan or perasan? Realiti kehidupan.
Last night was an excellent night. Me and my team manager, enjoyed the night by watching the clear sky and the stars from the swimming pool of her house. Yes, we went swimming. Ok...let me rephrase that, we we not swimming, it was actually more of having a dip or 'berendam' because both of us do not know how to swim...hehehe.......looking for volunteer to teach us how to swim.
The pool was lovely, not that deep (not deep at all actually) and the water was not cold. I managed to practise my 'floating' and 'diving' techniques. (hahaha...tu je yang boleh) Thank god we didn't change our plan just because some young boys were swimming there last night. Mula tu malu jugak....not that we are wearing 2 pieces swimsuit or something like that but its just more of maybe sharing the pool with other people. Tapi , lepas dah warm up, we didn't even notice them. It reminded me of a conversation with a friend an hour before that,
A: kau gi mana malam ni?
Me: Gi swimming at my friend's apartment
A: Fuyoo...ada banyak 'chicks' tak? Yg cun-cun ler..
Me: entahlah. tak tau lak. We all nak swim pun later at night.
A: Laa..apahal pulak? kau pakai bikini ke apa yg segan sangat?
Me: Giler apa kau ni....
Mana tak segan, belum gi swimming orang dah tanya ada minah cun tak kat situ. Definitely people like us are ' aware' yang orang memang akan memandang. And that is the reason why we want to swim later at night hopefully with nobody around or less people. So that nobody will give us that 'look'.
This part, I respect the mat sallehs regarding this. They just don't care. Rupa cantik atau tak, badan sexy ke tak...they don't mind. They just wear what they want to wear. As long as their beloved partners see them as somebody they love and they are comfortable with what they wear. Bukan macam kita kat sini, mesti ada rasa 'concious' (macam bebudak stf cakap - i'm not sure on the spelling too). Here, in Malaysia, they want everything to be perfect. Not to say to everybody but majority. Nak yang cun aje, badan macam Maria Sharapova, rupa macam Aiswarya Rai and the list goes on. Kesian la kat my friends yang single mingle out there....definitely no chance to get a partner for some of them. (bukan ape, aku nak tolong try promote my friends here)
Touching on this subject, me, being a malaysian lady with my height at about 5'10", huh... tak payah cakaplah...everytime I go somewhere mesti orang pandang samada macam kenal or ...macam kite ni pelik sangat. Maybe they all tak pernah tengok malaysian ladies as tall and as big as I am. If I am thin, than I think I don't really stand out.Sometimes, when we go to a new place, or gerai, my friends will ask me, "kau biasa ke datang sini ke?" or " do you know them coz they look at you as if they know you". If anybody has the experience walking with me, then they'll know. And this is also one of the reason kenapa I jarang buat 'jahat'. People might just recognise me ....dari jauh ke, dalam gelap ke..sama je.
Compared to when I was in the UK for a few months last year, I felt right at home actually. Nobody cares how I looked like. Eventhough I pakai tudung, orang kat sana tak tengok pelik pun. Ni , in our own beloved country, orang tengok and treat us weirdly. When I was there, I went to a happening club in Ashfield - 'Liquid' wearing a headscarf, and nobody looked at me weirdly! The truth is, I miss UK so much because I feel that the people there accepted me better than my own country. They don't care what you do or what you wear actually. And most of them also don't judge the book by its cover. Yes, people will always say that but they don't do as what they said. Konon, don't judge the book by its cover, tapi belum apa-apa lagi your action speaks louder than words.
p/s: It reminded me when I was in school days. From form 2 till form 5 , when I represented my school for the yearly basketball tournament, the boys from other school called me "giant".As a teenager, I was really hurt, and because of that I really, really, I mean really hated boys. Thank god for the desire to win, they can call me with whatever names they wanted.....at least I've got what I wanted - playing for Johor and helped my team to win.....
Oh ya...until now, there is also a famous school coach who still calls me giant....the difference is now....we are friends .
The pool was lovely, not that deep (not deep at all actually) and the water was not cold. I managed to practise my 'floating' and 'diving' techniques. (hahaha...tu je yang boleh) Thank god we didn't change our plan just because some young boys were swimming there last night. Mula tu malu jugak....not that we are wearing 2 pieces swimsuit or something like that but its just more of maybe sharing the pool with other people. Tapi , lepas dah warm up, we didn't even notice them. It reminded me of a conversation with a friend an hour before that,
A: kau gi mana malam ni?
Me: Gi swimming at my friend's apartment
A: Fuyoo...ada banyak 'chicks' tak? Yg cun-cun ler..
Me: entahlah. tak tau lak. We all nak swim pun later at night.
A: Laa..apahal pulak? kau pakai bikini ke apa yg segan sangat?
Me: Giler apa kau ni....
Mana tak segan, belum gi swimming orang dah tanya ada minah cun tak kat situ. Definitely people like us are ' aware' yang orang memang akan memandang. And that is the reason why we want to swim later at night hopefully with nobody around or less people. So that nobody will give us that 'look'.
This part, I respect the mat sallehs regarding this. They just don't care. Rupa cantik atau tak, badan sexy ke tak...they don't mind. They just wear what they want to wear. As long as their beloved partners see them as somebody they love and they are comfortable with what they wear. Bukan macam kita kat sini, mesti ada rasa 'concious' (macam bebudak stf cakap - i'm not sure on the spelling too). Here, in Malaysia, they want everything to be perfect. Not to say to everybody but majority. Nak yang cun aje, badan macam Maria Sharapova, rupa macam Aiswarya Rai and the list goes on. Kesian la kat my friends yang single mingle out there....definitely no chance to get a partner for some of them. (bukan ape, aku nak tolong try promote my friends here)
Touching on this subject, me, being a malaysian lady with my height at about 5'10", huh... tak payah cakaplah...everytime I go somewhere mesti orang pandang samada macam kenal or ...macam kite ni pelik sangat. Maybe they all tak pernah tengok malaysian ladies as tall and as big as I am. If I am thin, than I think I don't really stand out.Sometimes, when we go to a new place, or gerai, my friends will ask me, "kau biasa ke datang sini ke?" or " do you know them coz they look at you as if they know you". If anybody has the experience walking with me, then they'll know. And this is also one of the reason kenapa I jarang buat 'jahat'. People might just recognise me ....dari jauh ke, dalam gelap ke..sama je.
Compared to when I was in the UK for a few months last year, I felt right at home actually. Nobody cares how I looked like. Eventhough I pakai tudung, orang kat sana tak tengok pelik pun. Ni , in our own beloved country, orang tengok and treat us weirdly. When I was there, I went to a happening club in Ashfield - 'Liquid' wearing a headscarf, and nobody looked at me weirdly! The truth is, I miss UK so much because I feel that the people there accepted me better than my own country. They don't care what you do or what you wear actually. And most of them also don't judge the book by its cover. Yes, people will always say that but they don't do as what they said. Konon, don't judge the book by its cover, tapi belum apa-apa lagi your action speaks louder than words.
p/s: It reminded me when I was in school days. From form 2 till form 5 , when I represented my school for the yearly basketball tournament, the boys from other school called me "giant".As a teenager, I was really hurt, and because of that I really, really, I mean really hated boys. Thank god for the desire to win, they can call me with whatever names they wanted.....at least I've got what I wanted - playing for Johor and helped my team to win.....
Oh ya...until now, there is also a famous school coach who still calls me giant....the difference is now....we are friends .
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