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Journalist Profile

Name: Lijing aka Lynn
Birthdate: 14th March 1988
Horoscope: Pisces
Loves: wFL, DBSK
School: Ngee Ann Poly
Course: IT
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06 August, 2010, 11:41 PM

Changed my blogskin. Feel like writing out how i feel but i don't know where to begin with. It's about my emo side and why i'm always emo. I didn't like feeling emo but i can't help it. Just like baby said, i'm not strong enough. Or maybe i should correct that sentence... I was never strong. Maybe that's why?

I never felt good about myself. I saw nothing good about myself. A useless and worthless girl that even if i was being thrown to a brothel, nobody would want me. I feel inferior. Maybe that's why i emphasize too much on everything i do even if it's something relaxing like games or shopping. I get agitated so easily like i have a loose button that activates anger. I know it's definitely not adrenline that's behind all these.

Every little thing affects me. Even though there are some times where i don't look like it. I don't expect people to understand me either because it will just all goes down to one word - emo. I don't want people to think that i'm having a relapse of my depression and start treating me better just so to cure me. I know it's hard to get along with me. I also know that being with me makes anyone hard to be natural around with me. Everything have to think twice on what to say.

I wish i can just take things easy...
18 November, 2009, 11:08 PM

I gave up on blogging in here. =.= My life seems so screwed.

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16 September, 2009, 11:23 AM

Nothing to do so come and blog abit. Sick for more than a week. =.= Fever, fever and more fever. And i got stupid cold. Then yesterday don't know what's wrong with me, cannot eat anything. Eat whatever i vomit whatever. So in the end, yesterday i ate nothing. End up so weak when i went to class. =.=

Sigh... why am i always sick? I feel like a liability.
26 August, 2009, 8:22 AM

It's been a long time since i blogged. Don't think anyone cares anyway. Well.. hey~ it's my blog anyway. Who cares?

Most people who i'm close with already knows i've got a new boyfriend so i guess i don't need to say much about it. Why is it when i thought i can have a brand new fresh start, he just have to step in to disturb my life? Why can't he just ever leave me alone? He's haunting me.

Why is it so hard for me to start everything over again? Why can't i stop thinking and emo-ing for a moment and enjoy every moment i have?
25 June, 2009, 1:31 AM

Starting school next monday! ARGH! Start of my no life kind of life. T_T No time for meeting up with friends. *Sigh*

Baby~ thanks for everything you did for me. It's the sweetest thing any guy has done for me. I never expected you to make my fantasies come true. I'm really happy. I know i've said it before but i still want to say it. I know it's unfair for you and it's gonna be tough on you but give me some more time.

<3 baby~
18 June, 2009, 1:10 AM

Sigh... alot of things happened lately. I feel so darn tired out of everything. Quarrelled with deardear on sunday when i brought him to the arcade to "introduce" him to my arcade friends. The following day, we broke up. And... monday was my first day of work as a web application developer. Sigh... how to concentrate on working?
Thought i wasn't as upset as i was in the past but maybe what i thought was wrong. Cried yesterday at lot 1.

Bryan (one of my arcade friend) is really sweet for accompanying me through this rough week. Don't think he'll see my blog anyway but thanks so much for lending me your shoulder, your ears, your time and your tissues. =x
31 May, 2009, 7:16 PM

Went to look at houses just now. Yea, my family planning to buy clustered houses. Anyway we bought one clustered bungalow at potong pasir. Sigh... it's a nice house but i'm not happy about the location though. It'll be hard to meet my friends especially when almost everyone is staying at the west side. Unless i drive and have my own car. =\ The house is not built yet, so by the time i move might be 3 years later? From the model, the place looks nice. 2 storey and 1 attic and 1 basement. A common pool and a private jacuzzi. Don't think there's a BBQ pit though. *Sad*


My brother is asking me to work as the same job as him so that he can keep his clients and i can help him out with his workload. I don't mind helping him out with his workload but i really hate shares and finance. Which was why i never chose any of that course when i was going poly. I want to work a job relating to IT. *sigh* I rejected his offer but apparently, it wasn't an offer. It was more of a you-do-not-have-a-choice thing. So darn frustrated.

My life is so messy right now. Don't know how to handle.