Rely on no one but yourself
Believe in no one but yourself

Plan for the worst , hope for the best

No longer holding on , seeking and going for the alternative

There will always be ups n downs

Heated moments when some actions or words said are not what they meant

To resolve or will it take too much of their pride to want to even attempt to.

Do u even know me??

Do u even wanna try to??

A bit tired of doing things without getting recognition. Seems to be the trend wherever I go.

Do u even see what I'm doing and do u see that u are killing me bit by bit.
Only hope u'll realize it one day soon before I run out of options

cuz u will lose me , make no mistake , without a trace or sound.

same story , different book .

Dun hold ur hopes too high ,
Dun dream or hope for the best , reality is cruel

People will disappoint you , time and time again . its proven itself one too many times through time.

Unbelievably self centred . Eventually time will show, time will prove all my theories right.
Say what u wan to defend or justify urself , I'll let time prove everything.

We shall see

Coming out of a long relationship, a guy refused to leave work or home for any activites. Despite all efforts from close friends, all the coaxing , all the pleas of "Its just dinner , why dun we just catch up " did nothing but fall on deaf ears to him.

A year plus after the breakup , he finally gave in to loneliness and need to reconnect with the outside world. A close group of buddies brought him out for dinner.

It was the most cosy of places , found in one of the forgotten heartland places in the west. The ambience terrific and he fell in love with it immediately.

One of the dishes that was recommended to him that night was the famous curry rice, a specialty at this heartwarming, family owned business.

The first mouth of this curry rice , melted away all the sadness and brought a silly grin to his face.
"This is really good..." he muttered under his breath as he shoved another mouth of curry , quickly trying to swallow as fast as he can.

Unknowingly this simple japanese dish has become something special that will warm the heart of this weary guy who has seemingly lost faith in all everything.

It didn;t take long after that for the guy to start up his life again , running , going on trips and meeting new people.
On a very impromptu trip, he met this very beautiful girl , and with lady luck shining on him , they manage to get together.

But it would be so incomplete if the girl didn;t share his passion or understand his feelings for that very special dish that meant to so much to him. So he did bring her there to try the curry rice, the first 3 times they went , it was completely sold out.

Not to be disheartened , he tried again . Only to find out that upon ordering the special dish that the girl voiced out that she didn;t have a particular liking for japanese curry rice.
His heart fell , not knowing how to tell her the story behind the dish that seem to have lighten his load in the darkess of days.

The dishes arrived within a matter of minutes and to his surprise , the girl request to have a bite of his curry rice. The look on her face when the curry melted in her mouth was priceless. It was such a blissful feeling and she was smiling, saying that it tasted fantastic !

=)

From then on , it was known as a love story of a guy his gf and curry rice

If you knew the ending , would you still stay for the ride?

If you knew everything u think u knew , was a lie .

You were merely a puppet in the hands of the manipulating public , would you still continue to be the person you are .

The face you once trusted , was a mask , would you still be able to pick up the pieces and say that you feel the same?

how well can you say that you understand someone ? Or perhaps able to label urself as a understanding partner ?

I feel the quality of being understanding boils down to a simple fact, to be there when your partner needs u. All of us face issues n problems throughout our lives , be it career , family , friends , issues dealing with life and death , issues dealing with the interpersonal relationship between one party and the other, etc etc.

When I am faced with such issues, there is no doubt I could hold everything to myself,keep it all bottled inside, wait til darkness of the night to surface before attempting to resolve such issues. But most of all , when in such a time when I am lost and without direction, I want to be able to turn to my closest love one, not to ask or seek for a solution, but instead to seek comfort in knowing that someone is there .

Sure I'm guilty for having this compulsive need to seek that same love one over and over in this time of lost direction. But correct me if I'm wrong , but isn't this how partners shld support each other? which I've always thought of as the basis of any relationships

Being able to give your partner independence,being able to be there for the fun and joy and the laughter , i believe these are bonuses , more like perks to the relationships. Which i don;t believe that any relationship can be just based on perks.
Instead , a meaningful relationship is measured by the hardship it has been through , the times which no one wants to go through yet people stick together and endure through it all.
Army kinship is afterall forged in this manner and there are plentiful examples of frenship founded in army , which is to last a life time.

I'm not expecting u to give me any solutions , nor am i looking to u to seek for a meal kaki. i am looking to you as a place of comfort . a familiar place where i can hide from the worries of the world . My own little piece of heaven where the world just seems right despite all the on going battles which must be fought in time. All that matters is that for that few moments we are together , things become simpler.

What's the point of having all the love you could possibly wish for, only to find that the one next to you crumbles like a piece of paper when you lean on them for support Or look to them for comfort. With how you treat or always seem to be the center of support for all the people around you , you are the last person i expected to fumble and run in times of a distress call.

"you're suffocating me" never has words sound more heartbreaking. or cause an icy shiver to run down my spine faster.
Perhaps i was just looking up to you for a safe harbor , did it ever crossed your mind?

只想让你知道，我一直以来都没有放弃我们

我会等你。

The most romantic thing you can say to your other half this valentines days

God saw me hungry, he created food.
He saw me thirsty, he created water.
He saw me in dark, he created light.

He then saw me without problems, leading a carefree life

there is where he created YOU.

Been running again recently , after a 1 month plus lapse.

Oh gosh ... its so hard to run , so hard to breathe .. .. Oh Gawd , why do ppl have to be so vain,
Here is a thought , it everyone was fat , and fat was the norm, i would be norm. hahaha

so all u skinny ppl out there ... go on , start eating .....

Wonder how much i can try to lose prior to new year ... count down 12 days . LOL

praying for a miracle

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...




the song is so soothing, calms me down. Lyrics not so much .. hahaha but at times we all feel like that don;t we? The feeling of not belonging to any place.

在这个没有一丝乌云的晴天中，微风徐徐，树上的片片树叶在风的吹拂下，微微而起，禁不住风的小叶子，从树上飘落而下，随风远去……。某天，在这棵茂密的树下，在这个城市的某一个角落里，有这么一件感人的爱情故事正在发生着……
“加油！小树！加油！！”XX高中的各位“疯狂”女球迷们对着篮球场内的某个身影又蹦又跳的叫嚣着。但是其中有一个叫得最大声，跳得最高的女生，同时也是树最忠实的球迷--叶子。
叶子是树的儿时玩伴，两人更是青梅足马，所以他们俩人在彼此的心里都占着一席之地，有着相当的分量。但是不同的是…叶子对树的感情是浓浓的爱情，而树对叶子的则是纯纯的友情……，树是学校里最帅气的男生，喜欢他的女生多到数不清，虽然叶子心里很明白的知道树是不会喜欢上自己的，但是她依旧默默的等待着…，在叶子的眼里树是最棒的，但优点虽多……缺点也不少，而最大的缺点就是--迟到！当然！这一天也不例外！
“可恶！怎么还不来？！”这样的等待对叶子来说就像是一场长期的耐力赛，考验着叶子的耐心，也考查着叶子对树爱得有多深？
焦躁的叶子此时完全没有注意到，在她的背后有一双疑惑的眼睛正在注视着她，身影还逐渐靠近着她。
“你…在等人吗？”来人很快走到叶子身边，柔声到。
“你…你是谁啊？我们认识吗？”叶子被来人吓了一跳，白了他一眼，但近眼一看原来是一位俊俏的男生。
“呵，我们不认识。”男生露出了标准的帅气笑容回声到。
“既然我们不认识，我应该没有回答你的义务吧？”
“呵呵~！”男生被眼前这位有趣的女生逗笑了。面对此时暴躁的叶子，男生不再搭话，悄悄的离开了。而叶子看着男生离开后，仍没有离去，而是继续等待…直到天黑……

[翌日]
“小树！你昨天怎么迟到了？竟然放我鸽子！”叶子指责着眼前这位让她白等了一整个下午的罪魁祸首--树。
“哎呦~！我昨天有约嘛~好了！不和你多说了~我还有约，先走了~拜拜！”显然是不知悔改，树自顾自的收拾好书包后，就匆匆离去，只留下这么一句话就溜得不知去向。
“哼！可恶！一定又是和女孩子去约会了啦~~~~！！”叶子气急败坏的跺脚朝树跑去的方向叫喊着。然后望着树离去的方向，她的脸上露出了哀伤……站在原地久久不肯离开……

今天早上的事虽然让叶子很生气，但是叶子还是放不下树，仍依照惯例在校门口等他出来和他一起回家，可是树去迟迟没有出现……而这时出现却是另一个人，他就是那天和叶子搭话的男生。
男生骑着自行车走到叶子面前问到：“你又在等人吗？”
“怎么又是你啊？”
为什么又是他啊？他到底是从哪来的啊？叶子心里疑问到。
“呵呵~。我也是这个学校的学生啊，会遇到我也不用那么奇怪吧？”男生好象看透的叶子心中所想的事似的，微笑着回答了她的疑问。叶子被他一时的回答镇了一下，但连瞬间又凝固起不悦。
面对这样的叶子，男生则依旧微笑着：“你还是一样有趣耶~，你明天有空吗？我想约你出去。”
正当叶子想开口回绝时，不知何时出现在他们身后的树却出声到：“叶子，难得有人约你出去，你就答应人家吧！”
最可恶的‘迟到王’不识相的出声了，让叶子气从心里来，气愤的叶子不知该说他些什么，总觉得一时间没有了反驳他的理由，最后叶子竟自暴自弃得朝小树喊到： “要你多事啊！哼！” 叶子别开脸，看向身旁的男生：“喂！你明天几点约我？去哪？要约我可以，但是你绝对不可以…迟到！！！听到没有？”叶子向男生发话后，转脸朝树办了个鬼脸就生气的跑掉了，只留下两个男生在原地不知所措……

[后天]
叶子和男生坐在那茂密的树下乘着凉，微风徐来，叶子那乌黑的长发随风飘起，在空中反复的交缠着，翻转着。
“叶子，你知道吗？你真的是一个很特别的女生。”男生打破了寂静，看着叶子感言到。
“是吗？”
“恩，可是……我每当看到你的时候，你好象都在等人似的，你…到底在等谁啊？”男生试探的问到。
“……。”叶子沉默，许久后：“你…喜欢什么样的女生啊？”
“我？……那么你又喜欢什么样的男生呢？”男生反问。
“……。”依旧换来一段沉默。
“我想……你喜欢的人是……。”男生没有道破，而是拍了拍旁边的[树]，暗示着。然后微微一笑，站起身朝前方走去，背着叶子的男生，在他那微笑的脸上悄悄地添上一抹哀愁。叶子没有看到，而男生自己也没有察觉到……。
他指的是树吧？叶子心里默念着，仰头看了看身边的树``````。
那天，叶子终于得知男生的名字，他叫风，人如其名，风总是说来就来，说去就去，但却让你感觉不到他的离去，仿佛他一直都存在似的，这阵“风”虽然来得突然，但是它却给叶子带来了温暖和……一种很不可思议的感觉。
隔天，走在林荫路上的叶子正巧碰上了正和女朋友约会的树，看到了这她最不想看的一幕，伤心的叶子漫无目的的跑在林荫路上，怎知半路又遇上了骑着自行车的风，风看到了叶子匆忙的样子赶紧停下车，追上前去看个究竟。
“叶子，叶子，你怎么了？出了什么事？”风抓着了叶子的手，迫切的询问着
“……。”叶子慌忙的甩掉风抓住他的手，但是她却没有得逞，反被风抓得更紧了。
看清了叶子布满泪痕的脸，风更是心急了：“叶子……你怎么哭了？？怎么回事？”
“不关你的事！”叶子再次试着甩掉风的手，此时的她不希望让风看到她这狼狈的样子。
“叶子…，是小树吗？是因为他吗？”
“……。”叶子沉默```
“我去找他！”看到风一副要在树寻仇的样子，叶子赶忙阻止了他。
“…你不要去找他！！你、你管我这么多干嘛？这根本不关你的事嘛~，你是我的谁啊？我的事不用你鸡婆啦！你走啦！你走！”叶子摆脱不了，也回答不了风的一再追问，最后她选择了最苯的方法--逃避。
闻言，风顿时镇住了，但心里却清楚的明白他在这样继续追问下去只会让叶子更伤心，于是他选择了沉默不语，静静的一步一步离叶子而去。
但是叶子此时也清楚的知道，风其实没有走，他一直都在，一直都在默默的守护着她。这种感觉是那么的温暖………
后来，叶子拭去了脸上的泪水……转身望着风离去的方向…………才知道…风```他一直都在```

[几日后]

这天，树打电话约了叶子，他们在那棵大树下见面了，树犹豫着，最后终于坦然面对叶子说到：“我…我和她已经分手了，我想……。”
“我和他已经在一起了！”叶子在树未说完时打断了他。
“…………。”两人沉默了片刻。
随即，树明白了叶子的意思，他低着头，失望的转身离开了……
叶子的一句话，决意的挥断了那条线，他们之间还存在着什么，还剩下些什么，他们都很明白…………


结束语： -- --[叶子]的离去，是[风]的追求？还是[树]的不挽留？

Hey darling,

on the last day of 2009, there are some things which i want to give thanks to.
Some issues to be mentioned , some memories to be mentioned again.

Lets start from the beginning of the year and work my way through in chronological order.

Starting of the year was a period of learning , long nights and meeting new people for me, having just joined my current company. A huge learning experience , a big step forward moving on from my the seeming stagnant phase of my life.

Tried to step out of my comfort zone to start dating again, apparently the idea of the ppl i tried to , lets just say things didn;t work out. So its back into my work. And it has been about work ever since.

Up til the moment i was leaving for perth, it was still abt work.
The trip itself, was more then just an adventure , it was really about me getting away from everything. Finally letting go and being myself again.

I swear i never laughed so hard since i couldn;t remember when.

During the trip , so many things happened, emotions were stirred, and unknowingly in a time when i wasn't looking for anyone , i found you.

And that is more then i can ever ask for.

The things which i promised u, it will happen. No matter how much u might like to believe otherwise, behind all the funny wise remarks u make , every time you try to change topic to some other thing like the weather etc ....
i don;t want to get ahead of myself by saying this , but i'm quite sure that you feel the same way.

I love the way you drive, argue , the way u wiggle ur nose when your specs are about to drop, the way you get all excited when you believe that you can win at a game, the smirk on your face when u see something delicious, the small curl of your lips forming into the tiniest smile when u find a note i leave for you, the way you let me hug you so tight and let me hold on to you for as long as i want to.

Love the way that you are such a snug fit in my arms, the way you look at me when we are across the room and flash me that ever dazzling smile that just melts me away.


You are the

cutest,

most adorable,

funniest,

tolerant,

extroverted,

ambitious,

determined,

enthusiastic,

Passionate,

spontaneous,

thoughtful

....
*static*
*Blog owner has to stop adding words, due to the violent email and sms protests recieved*

=p

Have a good one people, best wishes for the upcoming year.

To you my darling, i love you , ever so much . More then you can ever imagine.

There's a time and place for everything, for everyone
We can push with all our might, but nothin's gonna come
Oh no, nothin's gonna change
And if I asked you not to try
Oh could you let it be
I wanna hold you and say
We can't throw this all away
Tell me you won't go, you won't go
Do you have to hear me say

I can't stop lovin' you
And no matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop loving you

You change your friends, your place in life
You can change your mind, we can change the way we say
And do anytime
Oh no, but I think you'll find
That when you look inside your heart
Oh baby, I'll be there, yeah

Hold on
I'm holding on
Baby, just come on, come on, come on
I just wanna hear you say

I can't stop lovin' you
And no matter what you say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop lovin' you

Oh, I'm so twisted and tied
And all I remember
Was how hard we tried
Only to surrender

And when it's over
I know how it's gonna be
And true love will never die
No, not fade away

And I can't stop lovin' you
No matter what I say or do
You know my heart is true, oh
I can't stop lovin' you

And I know what I got to do
Hey Ray, what you said is true
I can't stop lovin' you, oh
Oh, I can't stop lovin' you

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.

比想象中更痛, 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走, 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了, 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客, 因为路有些曲折
是美的

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你
深深的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间, 不知所措
你温柔的双手本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

its true that the best things are left to the memories .............

the one thing that no one can take away

Just breathe & smile andy ^.^ you'll be fine

Breakfast .... homemade ... delicious!



Trail Map



Careful of Trees and Branches , haha just afraid i might get hit



The Trail . . .



Us



Her Smile . . . . for me

Started off with the HSBC tree top walk , we had breakfast in the car , home made sandwiches.

Fabulous walk, great scenary , quite the work out for the early morning.

Lunch of tim sum and bak chor mee , den headed off to sembawang park for a relaxing afternoon.

Ended with dinner at buckaroos.

Learnt alot about each other today.

Gotta be more positive =)

Its quite funny how the simplest gesture can invoke such great feelings.

A stroke on the face, a touch on the arm , even the simple words and the even silences in between.

its easy to get lost in them . .

I just don't understand how hard it is to try to understand someone.

When i ask, i get answers like to go figure it out myself. When it was clearly stated before that when in doubt, just ask to clarify and everything will be reveal. Sure it was carried out in a joking manner , but that doesn't mean that the issue has been addressed.

Contradicting .... to say the least

At least i've learnt something , well i can't ask for clarification anymore can i? well , ha ha . . . nice one, what am i suppose to do den , seek divine help ?

Radio played the song

"Goodbye" Kristinia DeBarge

"Am I supposed to put my life on hold
Because you don't know how to act
And you don't know where your life is going
Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying?
Pardon me if I don't show it"


on another note , can;t imagine that bad dreams could haunt you back to back 2 days in a row and you know the funny part?

First thing , i couldn;t remember the dream the moment i woke up.
Second thing, on the second night, which was last night , the bad dream resumed where it stopped the night before.

OMG!!! WTF!! GO AWAY ....

Tolerance level for crap?

Surprisingly i found mine to be quite high .... at least high by my standards.
Time is 12:46 am Saturday , just completed work.

Sometimes i really wonder why i bother

Guess the song ?!



I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide



no difficult to guess really ..

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

back to basics ..... i'll find a way to make it ... some how

虽然经常梦见你
还是毫无头绪
外面正在下着雨
今天是星期几
But I don't know
你去那里

虽然不曾怀疑你
还是忐忑不定
谁是你的那个唯一
原谅我怀疑自己

我明白
我要的爱
会把我宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏
你要的爱
不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

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有时候 风太急
禁不住 挂念起你
这一刻 离我遥远飞行
有时候 夜太静
拦不住 回忆的心
于是泪
每个夜里如繁星

我多么羡慕你
总可以 转身飞 远远的
我的爱是你 沉重行李
绊住你追新梦的决心

我多么想念你
当时间 都失去了意义
穿越思念后 等成信箱
让你需要的时候可以 投递
告诉我 沿途中 想与我 分享的心情

These are words i feel that no one should be on the receiving end of.

"I'm just waiting for you to dump me"

Seriously , i think it is quite comparable to a minor heart attack.

Sure u survive it , but u will definitely remember it for life with evidence as a side effect for proof.

Firstly , i believe congratulations are in order for winning the title. So , Congrats ! ^.^

Next on the agenda , is it just me , or does anyone else out there thinks that she might have slept with the entire panel of judges?
Photogenic? Seriously guys ... i can hear penguins mocking us as they try to pronounce Hospitality.

Come on fellow Singapore citizens, lets do the RIS LOW
say

it slow with the pause in between

HORSE ~~~ PEE ~~~ TALLY ~~~ TEE~~~

U know for sure that we are gg to get mocked , might as well have a few laughs. Cuz now i'm very definite that anywhere i go or travel to , i'll get some smart ass who would try to talk to me with that idiotic pronouncation

As for her criminal phase and the part on forgetting to take the notes out from her pencil box, thats just a load of bullcrap. Its like listening to a primary school kid trying to lie her way out of getting trouble.

U think annabel chong put singapore on the map ??
All you guys are gg to love Ris Low.

i know its cheap shot but haha u gotta love the videos

You gotta experience hurt in order to know,
fall in order to grow,
lose in order to gain,
because most of life's lessons are gained through pain.

Which makes it right to assume that the only thing constant in life is pain.

Welcome to the world .