I've got a mail.



Initially by looking at the letter 'i', i guessed a particular person then my kor and mother was rather impressed by me. BUT then... the moment i open and peek inside. I've made a wrong guess ! The mail was kinda expected tho. Thanks ya? But then regarding the issue that u've mentioned also, inside the card, i can only say...Well, i also 孤军作战 right now. But then i'm not being rigid and live only in that particular boundary liaoz...cannot always wait for heaven to give me that 'fate' that i need. Anyway, there are always others ard. (i hope u get wad i meant... spread all my freq over.) Anyway this type of thing is also hard to blog or say out so literately for the whole world to ponder. SO ya... lets wait till we meet. Just did a rough count... In just few days time (2007) , it'll mark our 10 years of friendship. So lets have a dinner soon ba. Perhaps just the 2 of us first.

Enough abt the 'details' of the card... i shall update the others abt my 'first day of work' .... hahaha not exactly first 'first' lar... its just returning back to work after a real long rest of 1 mth. I always say , i work for 4 mths but i get 6 mths of salary(includes the everyone sure get de 13th mth bonus that is.)Anyways not trying to 'boast' abt wad i 'get' frm my job, i just want to say, this is still, and will remain to be a 'shitt-est' job ever.(pardon me from my language...wont be using it in few days time anymore.)

My kor asked: 'so u accept ur job already ah?'
Me: no.
My kor: So.... u enjoy teaching le la?
Me: no.
Me: i worked becos i need to. . . Income...

Anyway i just think it is a job whereby i can 'still' handle frm day to day basis. Stress is stress but i hope 船到桥头 will always 自然直. I think i want that NIE dip.(izzit a dip or a degree huh? think its just a piece of paper ...) May I ? hahahaha .Please bless me. Let me go NIE in june and then serve my 3 years bond. Then, get married and do other things that i shld in life.(maybe i'll quit then, provided i dun get kicked out my moe lar... let me finish serving the bond...pretty please?)

Anyway i shifted my place frm lvl 3 to lvl 2 staffroom. Same 'corner' but yea! i dun think i'll need to 'open' the door that often. Frm a AM teacher to a PM one. I think teaching wise shld be okie la... but Pri 1 hor... still have alot of responsibilities that i need to bear ya? Furthermore, i am a form teacher.FORM TEACHER LEH...kinda scary =X ...and , the kids are just 7 year old. Alot of things we need to teach and yet cannot really expect too high frm them. Firm but not fierce to them. I am a night owl so afternoon session is fine BUT! it means that i have lesser time leh... Last time morning session i have whole afternoon to do my stuffs... UGH. I teach everything.U name it . PE,MU,SS, AC,maths,El...wad else u want? LOL all the english speaking stuffs liao... In fact i just need to face 1 class.... that is 1/2... Looks like i am rather fated with the no.2. Well, it happens to be my fav number too, besides no.7. I've gotten a mixed class.(but well i always hope to get a pure chi class) ANyways it doenst matter to me. I dont have to take science anymore but i think i'll miss those students frm 4/2 and also my other AM collegues.(Apparently my P4 grp of teachers are all separated to diff lvls...) Haiz... when i've created a rapport with some of the AM teachers, i am now down to PM. Need to get to familiar myself in a new world again. BUt its okay... u know why ? HAHA if i really get back to SHPS after training...muahahaha i know the whole world liao. Whoever is my mentor now, will have hard time i think. At work, i am definitely not a pai seh person. I'll ask and double ask. LOL ...If GOD ever existed, please bless my 2007. I promise to do wad i can... but i hope everything was smooth sailing for me. Heeheee

Eh... but actually i dunno y hor, i still dread going to sch tho i sounded alright. LOL (oh and i do feel alright in sch too...) Anyways i just dread it lar.....

After a long rest... Jin is finally...




Sigh . . .

Jin, is a N.E.R.D

Alrighty, i think Jin is a nerd. Her interests/hobbies are rather boring. Instead of going to movies, playing pool/bowling, mahjong-ing, chiong-ing clubs, doing water sports blar blar blar which most pple will do in their early 20-s, Jin is more like a bore. Out of the above mentioned, Jin likes none. Jin prefers watching meaningful/cultured plays/musicals. Jin prefers reading in a big bookstore,listening to music at home, surfing the net wholeday without knowing wad she has surfed. She prefers to sleep in a lazy afternoon, or she might bump into a cosy cafe if she has the kakis. Tho she likes alcohol but she simply hate loud music and smoke, so she prefers cosy environment while enjoying her cup of beer(say no to tiger please.)

Anyway i posted this entry is becos that day someone suggested a game of pool.(then i realise i didnt know how to play/start at all) So i tot i am a nerd. Then i realise i enjoy reading, thinking and ysd, i just went esplanade theatre to watch 地方戏曲.So i concluded that i am really a nerd.

Damn... Jin is an evil nerd !

*recently Jin might be encountering something called 'pms', cos she attitude almost everyone and her usuage of language was rather crude that her friend had to remind her to watch out for her lang. =( Jin is an evil nerd who is 'sick' currently too.
Easily frustrated.

Just in case i forgotten to blog abt it,


My 'MAOMAO猫猫' is back !!!

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无缘卡

Ysd was playing ard with tarot. Of cos i didnt really 100% believe in it but i tot its always fun to see how it is. If its good i believe. If not then i dun. Haha in the end, i didnt know if its good or bad. Well, after the general predictions, we did a romance prediction. The obstacle that i'll encounter is :'无缘' . In fact, somehow i really agree to it. Its always at the wrong timing for the wrong things. Anyway, the last card that was revealed, was a good one tho. 'Wheel of fortune' card. I hope this is for real. Ha... if i nv rem wrongly it meant 性情相投. We shall see ok? Lets put away everything that has happened in 2006.

i realise, some things/pple/wadever. If its meant to leave u, it'll ...eventually. So, same theory applies. If that thing/pple/wadever, belongs to u, ultimately it'll still be urs...

good catching up session.

Tho i wanted very much for a reunion for my kge kakis, i didnt want to organise cos i tot it might be a failure due to the low and ai mai ai mai responses. Thank God and you audrey. I guess they give u the face and probably not me.Dang! When i tot XY would be busy,she turned up altho she is having some 'unknown pain' somewhere below her ribcage,Ls-ed and almost vomit. I'm happy for myself that altho i am discouraged that we might have some tortoises who might not turn up afterall, i still turned up with a lil slight sore on my throat. Haha... and i think Aud almost, eh ... ya a-l-most 'dieded' of heart attack after the multi blows of sms abt 'i not coming' . 'will be late' and stuffs liddat. Hahaha... but anyway all did managed to turn up, at diff timings tho. (actually that day i was rather kan de kai... lol i didnt really bothered who's coming and who's not... liddat also good lar, at least i wont get angry..heehee..but then jin is still evil cos she initially encouraged aud not to pick up any more calls . Those will come will. Those not will not. Evil jin.)

I think maybe this entry is abit no link to the title but the reason y i set the title as above becos i tot it was a rather good catching up session for xy and i. At least we are 'burden-less', both holiday-ing. We(xy and i)haven been k-ing or in fact haven been going out tog for like 6 mths so naturally we will feel like singing Jr's songs more.Also, to test the mo qi between us. Well, we did it again.lol,not the singing improvements wise but its as in the normal laughters, and the 'compete to eat snacks one piece after another till its empty'. Didnt really take photos like before (becos my skin SUCKS.) While we are actually lili-lala-ing.... the other 2 of them are enjoy k-ing songs. Vice versa...cos later on thru our recordings, when we are singing i can hear them talking ...lol ... then when they are singingDuets i think,Tats when i told xy , maybe we shld dian 'wu yan de jie ju' . But decided not to cos its a cursed song. So shant hai anyone.Oh oh...btw ysd my first song was a male singer de song.... Lee Hom's kiss goodbye.(btw, to those looking at this entry, pls dun ever sing this song to anyone, esp those u love...cos this is a cursed song too.. lol but of cos u can choose not to believe.)Oh Oh Oh before i forget, this is the first time that i kept on refilling the tidbits. XY... U hor ....eat and eat and eat and eat.

After k-ing we kop-ed some JR's kbox poster but was not in a good cond tho. BUT! better than nothing.Then w/o knowing wad to do , we went vivo. Candy empire to buy munchies. Eh then we nua-ed at page one for q long time. I really love to spend my time with books. Alright u can call me a nerd then. Finally decided to buy 2 books. Then eh i dun really recall wad we did but then i dunno how time passes that we can actually miss bus 963. luckily, there was an extension of MRT service i think. We still managed to catch the train near midnight. We took all the last trains and finally reached at marsiling safely.

Cannot rem wad we did at aud's hse too. flip photo albums.tarots. laughs. fei-huas. we didnt sleep until 4am. Vefore we really sleep, i was really laughing away. Till i got tears. I'm wondering wad i was really laughing at. Maybe xy can ans that for me. Anyways ya , we hear the recordings we made earlier on during k ge and realise our pai-zi really got big prob. rushing like nobody's business. Laughs... Yea then i didnt really slp la... then 6 plus decided to wake RY up to go home. That XY is a piggy. she was sleeping in between us but didnt know a thing about us packing la, waking up lar, leaving up etc. Btw, she slept till 3plus at aud's hse. See? She's a pig.

i think my entry is in a mess.lazy to read thru. shall post it as it is . if i miss out anything ah ...bu hao yi si, old liao cannot rem... hahaha

Merry christmas all.

Photos...






The 2 books, the gaiban(finally!) and the poster.



Oh btw....Cruz came up with his own eoohoo bear this christmas as a gift to his friends...then i tot ...hmmm i have a jinyu bear few years back... LOL CCA pple made each of us one. BUT then my jinyu bear is not as cute and pro as woohoo bear la. Just wanna post this pic to show that...heh heh cruz has wooho, i have jinyu bear. LOL.

I'm missing them too...

Last night was just ha-la-ing with xiaoying via msn. I told her that recently i 'feel' alot when my playist happen to play those songs in lian ai li liang album.Those songs in Lian Ai Li Liang album makes me recalled those times we had in 2004 period, the time where we just met and the time where we stumbled into fishdream. Everything is just so fated. Full of coincidences,full of laughters... hahaha.Cant rem wad exactly was the content, but we xiang-ed alot of funny and stupid things that we used to do and used to laughed/teased at and it is, still as funny. Anyway, we are just trying to push the chek ark blames to one another... HAHAHA. But actually both of us are equally chek ark cos our freq runs tog... just that i still feel xy is a bit.. a bit more chek ark than me.(A)

Today, i browse thru my dvd-r and i realised we didnt really take alot of photos in the past. If we had, its probably not with my camera. But those were the days whereby i think we are the MOST innocent. Cos, we are all new to everything, including newly made club friends. We dont have so many pple in the past, we dont get alot of priviledges before, jingru dunno who we are then ... but , we are still happy. Haha. Just a wave, we'll rem it till this day.(hor xiaoying?) Probably that time , earning a wave of 'acknowledgement' is very nan de so it left a deep impression on us. Those were the days...

Looking at the photos, sad to say, most of them are still supporting Jingru,but in more passive way. Probably how the club has changed and advanced, they couldnt adapt to it. Sometimes i like the way it is now but sometimes i'd prefer to keep it more like in the past, dan chun de kuai le is enough. At least we dun always look forward to more. Well, humans are never satisfied in any situations.

Then i started to link back to how xy and I used to discuss every detail of every song,every sentence that jingru had sang. Sometimes we are impressed by ourselves, for that kind of mo qi we had. Laughs... (recalled wad we did when the 2 of us went ktv)We recalled all the conferencing at night whereby keith will suggest that we play jie li chang , to test our knowledge on jingru songs. Ha... so fun then.

I guess right from the start, XY and I had been lai-ing (relying) on one another... No no, i shld say it in nicer way... its hu xiang fu chi. Haha...all the way till now.We had lotsa fun then and we cont to have alot of fun now. We were grateful that we went for the lian ai li liang autograph session that has started our 'jingru journey' till now. I guess, it'll be hard for both of us if anyone of us is gonna leave FDsg one day. SO, lets not leave man ! We con't to spread fish effect k? Bi jing we have gone thru alot of hard times tog and learned from it. We must cheng zhu and jian chi xia qu ! =) We started the 'fish effect' , we shall cont to double it.

Before i end.... hehe ... photos...





Wooooohooooo ... fishdream sg goodie. Jingru goodie. Her songs more goodie.

冬至 ，吃汤圆



Lazy to type alot ... hee think the photos are self explanatory ...

It's back?

Finally , i think i have the 灵感 in writing something ! U know, i've lost that momentum for months liao. And, the worse thing is i do not know how to find back that feel. Hmmmmm sometimes i stared at my sketchbooks, stared at my computer screen, wanting to type something but my mind is in total blank. Somemore i dont really want to 为了写而写。 My sketchbook turned rusty, my 'chinese articles' folder turned mouldy. When i lost the feel to write since a couple of months ago, whenever i read those old chinese 'articles' that have been stored in my pc, i would be so impressed by myself. Really. Then slowly i realised my chinese standard really 退步得很厉害。 I like the 写作的自己。yay! i found my that self back! But no worries... i know most of u out there hates me blogging in chinese characters so i wont torture ur eyesight. I write but i store in my pc.Anyway ...Yay.

Someone else's

Just now chanced upon someone's blog. A stranger. He loves listening to love ballads, esp Jingru's and fan fan's, just like me. While i was reading, i saw some entries where he questioned his presence in this world. Everytime before he starts a depressed entry, he will always say:'listening to the love ballads now, made me think alot.' something along that line.(Maybe its just coincidence, i always think that love ballads make us more emtional and gives us more sense of 'feel'. Ever since i 'fell in love' with jingru's songs,or rather slow love ballads, i realised i am more able to feel.)

Anyway ya before i digress, i remembered him saying that he wished that he was never born into this world, if not it would still be better off being a not-up-to-date countrymen living in the most insignificant rural part of world whereby nobody knows exactly how technology is spelt. I dont know y this individual is rather depressed altho he had alot of supportive friends ard(as can be seen from his blog) However after much thought, i think i understand what he meant. I think, i was just like him. Thats y i am so attracted to his entries. The kinda of loneliness whereby noone understand becos u always have a smile when u meet others. The kind of feeling whereby u cannot express ur 'true self' in front of others becos by nature, u tend to hide it. Sometimes u can end up crying without really knowing wads wrong and without really knowing wad u are troubled over. That particular him, has the tendency of going into isolation, which was pretty much similar to me tho i think i can better managed it well after all the downs.

This person knows wad he actually wants in life but he find it difficult to attain. It is not becos of him questioning his capabilities but many other factors affecting. Somehow he feel that he shld just dump all his so called goals and live like an ordinary pple instead. He never meant to be extraordinary but you know, he gave up 'extraordinary' dreams which seems unrealistic. He dont understand alot of things that is happening but he is rather amazed by how others can cope it. I guess he is just like me. Easily affected by things happening ard us while other pple out there can simply bo chup. He feel as tho he is trapped. The world is big, he is small. The existence was not needed. Forest of concrete, even if he has a pair of wings, he cant reach out for the fresh air in the sky.

Just a feel more info abt this person.
He, is well educated. Not genius, but gone thru local uni.In 20-s. He leads a pretty normal life. Working. Good family relations, good friendships. Well-mannered(can see frm his style of writing.) Appears to be an extrovert but i guess he is an introvert inside.

Anyway i blogged as tho i knew the person. I dont. I just feel that he seems to be the male version of myself that made me hooked to his entries. I think it will be interesting if i get to know this person. Meanwhile i shall eat into his archives.


After reading i recalled wad i've written to be used as the 'profile' for my blog but till now i've decided to 'hide' it under my 'source' and not use it...(For those who had tried retrieving my source page might have seen before). Haha those who know how to read 'source' might find hat actually i hid q alot of stuffs in my blog that is not visible to the public.Anyway, blar blar blar.. I shall Just paste this down here... hmmmm ... I feel that wad i've written is similar to his thoughts.

In the hidden corner of my blog:

I am just like any other ordinary human trying to gasp some air in this big contaminated tank. I would prefer to lead a simple life ,
having my loved ones living together with me in an isolated island whereby we can get so close to the nature. i'm easily contented, i think.
People says i am talkative and definitely an extrovert but I prefer to see the quiet side of me where thinking process runs. I like to pin down my thoughts and thus
i have this blog. Of course , too personal feelings will not be shared here but to my beloved sketchbooks. I am easily to comprehend , yet difficult to see through thoroughly.


Dang!

Degree M



Last night i thought it would be easier if i have a logo for my 'meltinglemon's ' instead of always writing it in full. Then since its melting, i thought of degree M instead of the usual 0 degree celcius(melting point). I have my own 'definition' of melting 'point' here and its subjected to change from time to time(up to my mood) so i shall give it a Degree M. We have fahrenheit(K) then we have celcius(C) now we have melting (M). Since i am a rather 'cheena' person, i used chinese characters ning meng instead of lemon. Ning meng sounds nice too... Nowadays always zhong xi he ping you know? HA... nothing much liao... i shall go nap cos someone just reminded me about 'pimple outbreak' .. yea...nights.

Lyrics to my blog song

First when i heard of the title, i tot it was special. Then i know the male singer and i guess it would be good. When i first heard it on 933 , i didnt rem how it goes. After my friend sent me this song, i love it at once. And... here goes.



梁山伯与茱丽叶
词 曲:曹格
专辑:习惯

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you

我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

Jin is evil

Lol ... i am a meanie. When someone calls me at night say ard 12am onwards, i wont let the other party hang up the phone until i myself am tired.(But normally after talking for like 15 mins or so, Jin will get high-ed over the whole convo and becomes energetic...its hard to get tired) , HAHAHA. Today my friend asked me:' So wad time will i be sleeping.' I replied loudly :'nowdays normally 3-4am liddat.' The time happen to be 3 plus am and y i still dont want to hang up. The reason is... Jin is saddistic. Seeing that the other party is so eager to hang up the phone, Jin just refuses to give in .(Same thing applies when the other party wants to go toliet,i will drag that person till the other party really get urgent...LOL) Evil Jin. But is it stupid or is it stupid...normally the other party will give in to me...wait till last min then bo bian rush to toliet. ..drag for another hr until cannot tahan then zi ji hang up....LOL this shows that they still love the evil jin and give in to her altho she is evil.

Evil jin ...
Everytime sure liddat but calls still come in.

aiya altho with the aboved para... normally jin happens to be chatting with goodie friends de la...only goodie friends can get this type of 'VIP treatment' lor... Only goodie friends dare to call late at night. Only goodie friends give in to jin. Only goodie friends still call Jin even they get 'tortured' by her everlasting energy. Laughs...

like one of my friends said ...

my 'hello' determines my mood.

1)Hello in energetic mode... cfm can chat for more than 3 hrs,u will have hard time hanging her phone...shucks...
2)Hello with deep tone... jin is sian. If convo is interesting, jin gets warmed up, can also chat for more than 3 hrs, most of the time when she gets high, its hard for her to know that its time to sleep. Tone will get louder and louder as tho the whole world can hear her.
3)Hello in a deep and quiet tone. After few sentences also bo chup. Ok... its always better to hang up cos ms evil is not in good mood.

Normally ms evil will welcome all calls after midnight(If its purely for leisure and entertainment, nothing else. No work/responsibility related...oh and no unknown numbers will be entertained)

However ms evil phone is in slient mode most of the time. Thus before calling pls let her know earlier that u will be calling or else whether or not ms evil picks up, depends on luck. Most of the time ms evil dont know that phone is ringing becos she is too engaged in slacking ard over msn.

Its nearing the end of this year...

Alot to talk about,alot to recall on. It's definitely one lousy year for me that i couldnt recall about anything that i think was happy. Seems like i've been through yet another 'darkest' moment of my life. Glad that i did managed to survive. With that said, of course there are many pple who pulled me up during that period and thus, i'm q. fortunate. Athough i look cheerful on the outside, i am in fact rather affected over things happening ard me. I'm glad that some of u, becos of ur good observation , care and concern, i did not turn to isolation which i am on the verge of.

The first thing i would like to mention is always my family.Sometimes i really feel proud for being in this family. I know of pple who cannot get along well with their siblings and or, not much communications with their siblings. Proud to boast that i definitely have no problem with that cos i can call my sibilings nicknames without having to see their black face. Nicks like 'piggy piggy pig piggy pig' (ya i know its a bit long) but thats how sometimes i call my korkor. Obviously my didi has alot more nicknames . My parents did their part in cheering me too. When i hide myelf in the wardrobe when i am mentally not-so-stable, my mum sit by my bed to calm me down. When i am depressed, they fetch me up mount faber becos i like good views of scenery.Fetch me ard for supper when i am in no mood to eat. Family support is really important that i think i am q. attached to all of them. Sunday, thus, i choose to be at home instead of going out. Like wad my kor once said that my didi was the magnet that holds all of us tog, i agree on that too. Now that my didi has been enlisted, i feel weird sleeping alone in my room. He is definitely the center of attraction that he is the prince of the whole entire family, including my relatives.With that, he is the nua nua prince now, going into army to learn how to be a knight.Before i move on to the next segment, i also feel that i shld thank all my relatives too. Esp my 2nd jiejie and my biao didi.

Moving on, i think friends are equally impt. Special thanks to Pingping(which i dun think she will get to read this tho) and audrey for the effort. Pingping sent alot of letters to me and i dun think i did reply to any. Thanks for the care and concern rendered. Somehow she always appear when i'm not feeling good. Thanks audrey too. Thanks for the effort in creating the rapport between the 2 of us and i'm glad that we do feel closer now than before. For the rest who has shown concern in one way or another, thank you. Not to forget my 'best-est' buddy who always tot i will forget having her as a friend. Well , this just show how much you've put in while my input was near to zero. Anyway, thank you to huiyin too who has always been there for the past 8 years. Of cos i wont forget u! (i doubt she'll see that too tho).Besides all the thanking, i also have lots of sorry to say. Becos i am emotionally q.unstable thruout this year, plus i cannot attend any red or white. I've pushed away frm many many many gatherings and outings. Esp to those peeps in TLT and Vgang, hmmm sorry for my absence for this whole year. Thank you xuelun too, for organising A4 cosy gatherings frm time to time that i still get to keep in touch with the usuals. Before i forget, i think 2 more pple is worth mentioning too. My warrior junior Xiaofan. Tho i know u thru xy, i feel at ease with you. Thanks for hearing all my long grandmother stories and always laugh at the most nonsensical comment that i've made. Shane too, hmmm altho not really having real convo but thanks for all the cold lame jokes when i requested u to entertain me. Thanks for allowing me calling u names one after another and by letting me win always. Btw, where are all my treat-S ?

Family.Friends. Wad else? My career as a teacher. I think i've learned and changed alot. I know how interaction is about with the kids. I really know how it is like, to worry abt own students altho probably the pri sch kids wouldnt really know how to appreciate. Being in this sch, i also feel that i am more flexible. I know wad exactly was school spirit. I learned to be more compassionate and more appreciative towards things that happen ard me. I've learned how to make initiative, how to be a leader leading students who are 10 years younger than me. I get to know that i am not very knowledgable and capable afterall so i still have alot to improve on. I learn alot of things becos i get to experience it. Learning is a lifelong journey and so i am learning.

Lastly, Jingru. I dont know why but i just know that i shld talk abit abt jingru too.Everytime hearing anything abt her, it really can liven me up. Whenever i flip thru the photo albums or when i looked thru all the grp photos, i will have a wide smile on it. Thanks to fishdream sg too, for giving me that little bit of happiness that i think was lacking. I feel totally stress-less when i'm with fishdreamsg. Every now and then we have new pple joining us and also pple leaving us. But wad we have with us are all the happy gan-changs and all the loud cheerings. Thanks esp to ski,kel,mas,keith,jito,xy,sherry,huimin,darren,esther,edde. u pple make me feel good with all of u.

Before i end this long entry ...

I've failed but i managed to walk out of failure. I've avoided but i managed to learn how to face reality. I've been thru a period of emotionally and mentally not-so-stable but I've managed to clear things up.

This year, i've been down for almost everything but glad that it's going to be over soon.

Being a free thinker, i thank ALL GODS for looking after me and thanks to everyone who has stand by me.

Enjoy this festive month,
Merry Christmas.

Rainy Thursday.Aud.Rock Records.SPCA.Vivo.Visma

Finally managed to get aud out from the others whom i've cc-ed.Tiring day for the both of us due to the amount of travelling and BIG RAIN POUR... esp for dear aud, i think besides tired , she might get a bit pek-chek? hahahaha. (due to her numerous display of her suayness...um-chio-s)However we still managed to enjoy each other's accompany and spent some good time tog. And... aud always like to give me surprises out of nowhere... which is so sweet of her. (even my kor is envious of me... i'll touch on that later on)

First we met at TPY and took a bus to SPCA. She wanted to buy something and since i haven been there before, i tagged along. Well, she did managed to get some stuffs but we couldnt go in to 'visit' the animals cos its a Thursday. Its open except on thursday. Next, since SPCA is very near to ROCK RECORDS, its within walking distance, we decided to walk there considering that it was only drizzling. Its only that area that we were at were covered with heavy grey clouds and without warning, we really get to see 'cats and dogs' ..(Its raining heavily!) We decided to move on since we had already walked q. a distance. Due to the construction of the circle line, that place was horrendous and it was flooded almost everywhere... Eh ... not so exaggerating as in flood flood but ya u know its those roads whereby u know ur shoes will definitely get soaked. I tot i was rather careful enough to try my best to avoid those big puddles of muddy water but it still sipped thru those new socks of mine. Anyway i was much fortunate i thought as aud almost got 'drenched' when a double deck bus drove pass when we were at the junction. We laughed and complained all the way till we finally reached rock.

I went to collect my singles, i told them i won it thru 933 contest. Then while flipping thru the stack of winner's singles, i spotted 'Jin Yu'. Immediately i pointed out, thats it! But the IC number and tel number all not tally at all. Puzzled and at first we tot it was a mistake. Then flipped thru the stack again and found another piece 'Luo Jin Yu' . Oh MY !!!!! Buy 4d also not so zhun. Tat person has the same name as me and won the same thing too...(does that mean that person likes jingru too? Laughs...) No wonder lar. there is one day i rcved an sms frm someone whom i cannot recall who it was frm, saying that he/she heard me on air winning the singles. (but that wasnt the day which i've called in..) Without giving it much thoughts, i merely replied thanks and said that actually i won it during monday's slot. LOL ... NOW i know... the person must have mistaken that 'Jin yu' for me. Hmmmmmmm ... after knowing huimin who shares the same birth date(exact year too) , i'm curious in knowing who is that 'jin yu' who also won that cd. Hmmmm interesting. Anyway we continued asking about mayday stuffs but there wasnt any confirmation as the mkting pple not there... Think its aud dai suay la... lol

After leaving rock which a drenched arm, a pair of soaked foot, i realised i am hungry as well! Chop chop we took a bus to paya lebar and anyhow fill up our stomachs before we embark our journey to vivo.

Dang! First time going there via the NEL so i didnt know there was a B2. I think i sounded a bit sua gu. (cos the other time i went , its drove in so i didnt know there was a b2 since b1 was a carpark)Then it start drizzling again lor. everything we step out , we can feel the beat of the rain. but then we yi si yi si pai some photos... didnt have a chance to bump into the cafe since we were both rushing for time... walked a while before we left that place(thinking that we will be back soon) and went over to outram to look for cds.

I wanted the Jingru Gai ban cd but it wasnt out at visma yet so i bought yanzi's since my mum wants it and i have been dragging it too. Aud also bu cuo , she bought 3 cds but 1 of them happen to be creased....actually she was very careful and picky liao...i think its the suayness again... After that we parted ways and aud sms-ed me the list of suay things that had happened to her that day (which i didnt state here) , there was i think ...erm... about 10 big/small incidents. Hope her luck had gotten better today. HAHAHA

Before i end...just some photos...















Finally got smaller version of this liao. Its ah don and ah din de siblings - ah dang. Orangie... bought 2. 1 for me 1 for ben daughter.


1st xmas present. Must be due to the huang se kai xin guo that aud decided to give me this(which looks pretty much like her too). Oh my brother was saying, this friend very goodie... will surprisingly mail me a 'dont worry be happy' cd when i am sad. will blar blar blar alot of things lar... he is just envious that i have such a thoughtful friend. (heehee actually it is a goodie feeling to know that someone had me in mind ..heehee... i need to learn that kind of thoughtful-ness frm her)


*i miss my maomao already ! i bet my bro will come home and laugh at me when he sees this...

Star awards-not that fantastic anymore

Hmmmmm , used to look forward to the one-of-the-most-impt entertainment awards in Singapore. Used to know all the variety shows and all the stories behind all the drama series inside out. Used to be so interested in who's IN and who's OUT . Yesterday,like previous years, i do look forward in the dressings and the funny thank-you speech by our local artiste although half of the time i dont even know a certain drama series ever existed(U know, they just have so many pple to thank that is so funny...i guess they only miss out their pet dog that they didnt mention.)

Anyway, bleah, i guess its me, that is turning away from tv entertainment that i really didnt enjoy watching yesterday's show. Probably recent years i've turned into one out of the million slaves of the internet that i dun even want to watch tv. As years passed, maybe partly becos i already get sick of the same old tactics, i dun watch taiwanese variety shows anymore either.(thanks to Jacky Wu and zhong yi da ge da ... i dont watch any anymore... its lame and its hmmmmm LC? Its just like how we get bored and frustrated and irritated when we see jack neo and mark lee... u get wad i mean? LOL and recently that jiu kong is getting out of my nerves with his not-so-fantastic mimicking of rain,richie ren,fei yu qing ,fei xiang...Its time for some innovation. )

With all the negative opinions about those not-so-related stuffs, i still haven really get into the topic of the star awards yah? I hold my admiration towards Bryan Wong and his programme bai jia le. Ha if not for the not-so-competent co-host mark lee, i coud have glued myself to the tv every monday.Bryan is really capable. Dang! Oh and i'm q. surprise that li nan xing won the best actor award... Hmmm i tot his 'speech n acting' wasnt as good as probably compared to 715. Adrian pang to me is good too. And the popular female artiste, hmmmmm jacelyn , michelle chong and joanne peh was'nt in but flona xie was actually in. LOL k lor, its always competitive on that side... hmmm thats all ba...they didnt give out alot of awards mah... and wads with their venue ysd? So squeezy and not-so-pro...although i like the idea of combining it with 'Tiger Live'. Haha...

Oh !!! before i end....eh did u realise Shi Xin Hui was so exaggerated when Chen Wei lian won... I think she cried becos she didnt win, not becos weilian won....LAUGHS.... (just for laughs, joking hor...) Eh then all the adverts, she appeared once. Really salute to 'play music' style of marketing... LOL my kor enjoys the mimicking of her abit-av-style of posing in the mv 'cong taipei dao beijing'. LOL...
nothing much liao lar...lazy to type more ... sleepy...

Sing to the dawn.

Just for 1 night.

Bro's TJC night @ Fullerton

Not an easy task...

If u're wondering wad i could be refering to... well i tell you, its christmas cards. I'm suppose to write 6 cards and post it by tomorrow but i've only written 2. Haha ... This shows how hard it is to churn out 1 card. (especially so when all my pens are in school, i left it on my desk.) Oh and for some of u whom i often see, this makes my task doubly hard cos we see each other almost everyday? (that includes msn-ing of cos) Not to trouble myself so much, i think i'm only posting those whom i have their home address de. (nowadays ah, its hard lor, we befriend but dun ask for address-es like wad we did in the past. Well, now we simply MSN... hahaha ) Then its kinda weird to sms someone, 'hey wads ur addy?' then no surprise element liao. Laughs. So i think i gonna send out 6 cards this year. (limit myself...lol) Lucky chaps, check ur mailbox soon if u think i have ur address and have high poss of sending u. (Whoops for those who nv receive cos i dont have time and brain to write or i dun have ur address-es yet u're still rather close to me ... ... ...hmmmm... secret. i'll try to think of something lar, i think. hahaha)

黄色开心果

This is called '人家有，我也要有' . Haha saw a pic of 粉红开心果 over at Audrey's blog a couple of days ago. The moment i saw it, i liked it alot. Probably cos since young i like anything that has a WIDE smile on it. (Think i'm a happy person thats y)...Anyway, its just so cute that i think i shld own it. I find pink nice too. So sweet. Lime green not bad too ... Ysd i went out to buy photo albums.(my mum wants to sort her taiwan pics), then i walk pass some capsule machines and MUAHAHAHAHAHa haha i saw the 开心果-s. I got the yellow one. HAHA i think maybe cos i am too sunshine that they decided to give me yellow. Quite okay lar, before i fell in love with the orange colour, yellow was my fav color. laughs... i sound like a kid. NVM , it just shows that i am young at heart. =D

After so many days...

IT IS STILL AS MESSY !!! I threw, donated,recycled,kept away ALOT of stuffs le leh ... sigh... nvm tho it looks messy but it isnt...its cosy ...HAHAHA

Merry Merry Christmas !

Tie the Knot.

Recently i've been hearing friends/cousins talking about attending wedding dinners. Aud had/will be attending 2? or 3? wedding dinners ... My cousin will be attending 2. I myself will be attending Peggy's. Woooo. Looks like christmas season is also a romantic season to get married. Hmmmmm or rather, to hold wedding dinners. As we grow older, we'll rcv more and more red bombs. Just like the talk i had with Twinny weeks ago, mentioning that last time when we were much younger , marriage seems to be a very FAR thing from us but nowadays, its just so common already!( this implies that we are growing old.)

Yesterday i just happen to watch a play - a secret of bridemaid's business, at the esplanade. Let me ask you this... hmmmm ... if on your wedding day, u realised that ur fiance have had an affair with one of ur good friends, hmmmmmmm will you still agree to marry him ? Initially i tot it was easy to answer but now i think its really difficult to make a decision... hahaha well, if there is a day (Choy! Touch wood!) I'll prefer my friends to cover me with a white lie. Laughsss... Sometimes ignorance can be a blessing cos that might just be an accidental mistake. After watching the play, i really feel that getting married is a big womanly goal. I shall go witness Peggy's dinner. It'll be great.

K Box Dinner Buffet
Cool way to kick off the december festive season eh? Hee lazy to type so might as well show photos right ? Haha ... of cos my fav pic has to be ---> (the one i've chosen to be my dec photo... i jue de hen nice...)

More Photos!

Initially i really wanted all photos to be in before i do anything. But then, time wait for no one, esp snails. I shant wait for ah snail, I shall post some nice photos contributed by Mas.Ski.Edde.Esther.Darren/Sherry. Thanks folks !
( Appreciate the time and effort in giving us efficient yet not sloppy quality. )

Enjoy!

鱼瘾发作、开心无比

我看我的鱼瘾是没根治了。每当发现‘Fish Effect‘又再度严重起来，我都有种复杂又难以形容的感觉。有种失落感。我的朋友说那是叫做‘withdrawal symtom‘。但话要说回来，虽然觉得失落，但我的心情却很不错。我可以开心一、两个星期，甚至一个月！我看我中毒真的很深了。但中毒的也不仅仅是我一人。哈。静茹啊，你的美丽、号召力、影响力还真是大。我们很多很多的人为你着迷。（嘿嘿，家人刚刚从台湾回来，虽然我没去但我只要‘静茹’有关的东西就够满足了。）

静茹说她很喜欢唱歌。锦瑜说她喜欢一直就这样听静茹唱下去。=D身边常有人问我说我到底为什么那么的喜欢梁静茹。老实说我根本达不上来啊。喜欢一个人本来就很自然的。你接触过他的歌吗？有仔细地去感受吗？有直接很亲近的接触过静茹吗？也许如果以上经验，我想你就自然会有答案。（I feel it. I breathe it. I smell it. It was there.)所以啊，静茹在每一个地区的哪一个地方，都是很受记者媒体朋友们的爱戴就是因为她的好人缘、歌艺和品格。我也是在不直觉中， 和大伙一样，被这邻家爱唱歌好女孩所吸引了。能做自己很喜欢很喜欢的工作是一种幸福。我不介意静茹一直唱下去。我很一直默默的追随在后,做永远的听众。（当然我也希望经如何爱她的每一个人能找到生命中另一半的幸福）我想我说的这些，也正是FishdreamSg朋友们的想法吧。我们有着共同的热诚、一致的想法，共同进退!

现在正在听‘小手拉大手’，让我慢慢会想起刚过去的精彩——‘live' showcase @ expo。虽然静茹唱了将近九首歌，但感觉上还是不够。也许美好时光永远都像骏马般飞奔而过的缘故吧。这一次也是我第一次尝试Ushering.第一次就可以帮滚石、帮静茹服务，我们都是满足的。不要求回报，只希望大家都很开心，忙得也很值得啊。还是想说，没有我的笨女儿——蔡晓莹培在我这笨妈旁边还是很不适应。也许因为少了一个人陪我一起‘笨’吧。 哈哈哈，都是‘习惯’这两个字在作祟。*笨晓莹：你的笨没礼妈老了，以后静茹的宣传尽可能陪陪他吧。=P

好啦，说回正题。那天啊，其实我很意外的听到’我还记得‘这首歌！静茹真的很贴心=D 上次来宣传上一张专辑时，曾经有根静茹说新加坡的歌迷最喜欢‘我还记得’这首歌，因为很有Feel。这次他竟然记得唱歌我们听！我简直是沉醉在其中。至于这张新专辑呢，我越听越是耐听。每一首都好喜欢。=D 除此之外，在唱’销售拉大手‘时，静茹跑下台和歌迷互动。Goodie.而且在唱‘勇气’时。我们几个走到中央，跟着唱、跟着摇摆，就像上次‘爱的大游行’的情景一样。到了最后唱宁夏的时候，就很多人用到台前，想目睹静茹的风采，纷纷涌上来拍照。我们当然没有冲上前啦。我们很规矩的。现在对我们而言牌照不是作重要的。享受静茹的歌，欣赏静茹的人才是重点。我们很容易满足的。我们就站了起来，高声合唱。

能个这么多爱静茹的人闹在一起，真是好玩。细节我很难形容。除了疯狂的开心，还是疯狂的开心。当静茹在签专辑时，因为排很长的龙，我们便成绩拍拍照啊、耍耍宝。听见播放的歌曲，我们还在台下跟着唱。到了‘小手拉大手’时，我们还跟着跳了起来（MV里的静茹不听的在跳啊）。和平常一样，我们等到了最后才上台。我们还有了机会和静茹合照。我们这一批‘幕后工作人员’还作了亲亲的嘴巴一起合照，好可爱！当然没忘了大合照啦。之后我们看了看时间就荒了起来。我们得赶场!需要以最快的速度到达新传媒的摄影棚。静茹将在普威之夜献唱。我们差点进不去。还好他们通融。不过迟到当然也就没有很好的位置啦。当一切结束时，我们都累坏了。我请大伙吃Roti Prata. 大家都辛苦了一整天。

第二天我赖床，就是舍不得起来。起来了后还从忙得给静茹写了一封信。反正决定要坐计程车了，我也就慢慢来咯。哈哈哈。后来还下大雨，还好没有住当着我们。哈。到了以后就不停的拍照耍宝的等静茹。就这样，第二天没什么，静茹唱了三首歌。之后我们六个人边吃晚餐，还有说有笑的。在那里呆上了两个钟头吧？哈哈。之后回家了，也结束了一切。

*在Cenosis event 上也看到了灵芝。看起来气色不错、也过得很好。为他开心。

锦瑜

JingRu = Cute

Now no inspiration to write so just post some of the photos. I am waiting for some of the 'shua bao' photos... I.E after the concert pai de , before jingru appear in cenosis de shi hou pai de lar .. etc etc de.... so meanwhile, just in case i have alot to blog later, i shall blog slowly, bit by bit...so now its just photos...

Jing Ru is really VERY CUTE ! Cuddle...

Tai-Tai Vacation




After the tiring yet fulfilling weekend with Jingru, monday marks the start of my official tai-tai life. Some of you must be wondering y haven i blog about the Jingru events but well , i'm still waiting for the others to send me photos. I want the complete set before i start choosing and blog. Hope that the PRO (*winks at those FD pple) wont delay my timing to blog lor ... HAHA. Anyway, ysd was rather bored @ home and i happen to msn audrey and decided to go out for high tea. Then me myself isnt attractive enough for audrey to travel to tampines. So i included Ry and initially aud wanted to pass vcds to Ling... then its worth the ride... LOL but in the end RY late, then Aud and Ling miscommunicate. Laughs...

In goodie mood now. I think its Jingru. =D JING RU ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I'm old too

Saw Twinny mentioning about him being old, i realised i am too. Esp so when i recalled wad Jinwei said ysd :'once u reach 21, its considered old.' I'm a timid person since young. There are alot of things that i dont dare to do. Or rather, i shld say that there are alot of things i wont do when i am left alone. I wont want to eat alone, i wont want to go somewhere alone. Perhaps i am just someone who needs accompaniment in everything.

Now i realise that i really can live alone. Perhaps cos i'm old le

Staff Dinner

Our school provides transport for us teachers to Hotel Corthorn for our end year staff dinner and the bus leave sch at 6.15pm sharp. LOL i reached at 6.14pm. HAHA ...teachers are really punctual. The bus left at 6.15 SHARP ! Phew. It was close for me. HAHAHA ...

I was seating with ms Yio , one of the chinese teacher who will be retiring this year. Chatted throughout the journey blar blar blar. When i reached the hotel, i was rather 'anxious' of the table they assigned me to. Well, i'm teaching p4 but i'm definitely not the form teacher. So i knew. I knew i would be seated with another group of teachers. Muahahaha can i say its fate? I happen to sit beside ms yio again ! (and the whole of the AM chinese teachers.) Laughsss. So, i feel easy there.

As usual, the food wasnt nice and filing. Since it was also a farewell dinner for our dear principal, we had alot of 'presentations' going on. Just like a wedding, the principal go around taking photos with each table. I like the door gift. a 'cow' soap. Well they have 4 patterns. Cow, Sheep, Pig and teddybear. It didnt take me long to decide. The first thing i come to the mind is :'i want the cow'. Laughs.

Then after the dinner i sms-ed twinny cos i feel like drinking alcohol. But he didnt want. In the end we just bump into the mc that is opp my sch.

I think this entry is boring cos i'm just narrating wad happened ysd w/o much excitement.

I still feel like ending with this...

I think i like my job and beginning to enjoy it.
Thank God for sending me to St Hildas.

Chinese Vs English

I think i've made another mistake by choosing to be an english medium teacher. (Eh i am not doubting my own capabilities hor)I feel that i am still pretty much a 'cheena' person, as in my spoken language, my 'culture?' and beliefs. Therefore, heh, i can click well with all the chinese teachers in sch.( I just went out with 2 other chi teachers for a quick breakfast)Those who know me long enough, would have observed that actually my usage of the chinese language is much better than the english language.Probably i am just more confident when handling the chi language. I am such an irony, as usual. Or rather, i can say that i am a ultra-stubborn-die-die-also-stick-to-my-initial-decision kind of person. If u still dont know wad i am trying to say, hmmmmm , its actually that i feel very much to switch to be a chi medium teacher but i will still stay put in teaching english. Blar blar blar. I always like to create troubles out of nowhere for myself. (I recalled how i struggled when i was in uni taking economics and the reluctance to switch major.)Aiya after grumbling and rumbling so much, actually i dont really have a problem in teaching english medium subjects.(I'm still a bilingual individual afterall.*angelic smile with a bit of blushing effect)

When i am having short conversations with various teachers in school, the more i realise where my real interest lies. Well i do see a possibility that i will stay put in this education line for at least 3-5 years.However, i still dont think that this is what i really want. I dont feel like a superhero afterall.(*to me all teachers are superheros. They're just like angels that make things happen)With that said, i think this is just a stopover , a platform that allows me to really think through and at the same time earning an income.

Another useless entry. Going for a workshop at 11am.So ...i'll be back to blog MORE later on. =/

Slack-ie Day

Today is one of my slack-iest day since i entered the school.(*the long hours of seating makes my spine feeling sour again =/) Well, today i did nothing, really. Besides eating and lazing around at my 'cubicle', i really cannot recall anything meaningful that ive done. I had teabreak at ard 9plus am? or izzit 10am? Then i had lunch at 12 plus pm and just now at 4pm ,there was yet another tea break!(But i didnt go down to the canteen cos i really feel like a pig eating non stop for the whole day. Anyway today, I just spent hours and hours online. Not exactly surfing others' blog ...hmmm i guess i am just ston-ing. Becos i am q. free, so i've decided to make shane a blogskin.


Shane's blog.

He had switched to blogger for at least a month already but my 'links are not even updated even till now. So lazy to change the template so i shall wait till i change my nov photo for the dec photo then i'll do everything at one go. Hmmmm ... i began to feel that this entry is q. 'extra'. Type for the sake of typing?

Nvm i shall continue on since i still have 40 more mins before i can officially knock off.

Do you know that christmas is drawing near again? I wouldnt have realised it until i've heard so many christmas songs over the radio. I no longer feel the urge to celebrate for christmas. Anyway i am contradicting myself cos i still like the feeling of receiving christmas presents. Whenever christmas draws near, we are looking forward to a new year. Sigh. That makes me 1 year older. =/ It doesnt make a difference to kids when u tell them :'hey u will be 1 year older soon'. BUT! there is a vast difference when u tell a lady in their twenties that she is going to add another year to her age.

For friends who had grad tog with me had already worked for at least 4-5 mths already. How fast eh ? I remember how we used to spend time tog before all of us started work.

Going to check gmail and continue to stone. I got nothing to type liao. I left my brain in the freezer this morning.

Approaching to the end of a hectic month

*grins. Finally i am one more step closer to hols but! my backache relaspe again. (I cannot sit still!!! Grrrrrr looking at the amount of pills i am poping into my mouth, put me in a risk of having liver problem =/ )

Initially i thought its only the exam markings, keying of results etc etc that i need to worry about but its not so simple. Ha

This is no doubt the first time that i am feeling that i am 'constructively' busy but yet i feel as great. Last week was my busiest week since i stepped into SHPS. The schedule was something similar to this:

Monday - P1 orientation till 6plus pm.
Tuesday - P4 to P5 classing day and i worked till 6plus too.
Wednesday - Amendments to the classings and also the 'musical' night whereby i need to accompany the students to the national lib. I enjoyed the musical very much. Reached home at 10plus pm
Thursday - Sch started late at 10.30 but teachers need to report at 8.30. This is in lieu of the musical previous night so as to let the students get adequate rest.
Friday - Closing service.
Sat and Sun - Spent whole day lying on bed cos backache relapse ... so irritating. Couldnt stand for more than 5 mins T.T

Today - I class briefing. Free tea break , free lunch
Tomorrow - I class again

Weekends , JingRu time !!!!

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Do you remember that when u're young, you always like to ask if ur teacher has a bf/gf/married? So now i face with same problo. But when i speak the truth, they choose not to believe? Strange eh ? I said no.They said cannot be and made all the assumptions themselves.Ha. So probably when next time my students asked , i will just say a 'yes'. (But anyway my kids said i am so kind therefore there is no reason y i am not attached) *angelic smile* (Kind)

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backache..i am going to walk/roam around the school to do 'exercise' for my dear sour spine. Now i am really 'sourtea' liao

Overseas? yes?no.

This year(2006) itself, i've been to Hongkong and Bangkok already. However, somehow i still feel that dec holidays are meant for everyone to really have a long trip outta country. I feel like travelling but where? and who? In fact , after much thought, i dont think i would want to go Bangkok or Hongkong this year liao. Probably next year if i need a short break. Actually i do feel like going to cooling places say Korea and or if i am rich enough, Japan. =D But then... Kaki leh? (Sigh at my own anti-social-'ness' and my small social circle heh) I am forever contradicting myself. On one hand i grumble for not having a travelling mate but yet on the other hand, i worry about burning a hole then i will hesitate and hesitate. BUT then i can be a rash person.(I think its in the genes...)Can just go online and book tics and fly 2-3 days later. LOL

As i am typing, i suddenly recalled something. HEY! My parents have been travelling thruout this year ! Hongkong with me, Bangkok with me and kor, Hainan islands(themselves) and next week taiwan with my didi. Full of envious ... T.T
I also want ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

No title cos i dunno how to give it a title.

Nothing much to focus into. I'm tired and sleepy almost everyday so you dont see me online that often now. Perhaps coming online really is an addiction to me in the past. Thanks to the dying of my lappy, my addiction is gone all together. Even when i'm at work, i'll sign in to online messenger but nowadays i dont do it already. Oh man, i sounded as tho i am so detached from all my friends. (Hmmmm... actually i do feel that way.) I guess i know why when one grows up, your social circle will become smaller and smaller. Everyone is simply too busy and tired with own work. I admit, i do prefer to slide into those warm blankets of mine than to spend a night chilling out there worrying if i'll be able to wake up on time the next day.

Anyway, feel days ago during contact time, i was being 'sabo-ed' to do a real short 'presentation'. Well its not really a presentation lar... its just a discussion ...someone from each grp will have to tell everyone the ideas they had churn out. Well... then Mrs Chu, the Science HOD, mistaken my name to be Jin Ru. Hmmmmm initially i tot i heard wrongly... then, few days later, i rcv-ed an email frm english HOD(i think) with my duties on it. MY name was written as Luo Jin Ru . Probably cos my name YU in english is not pronounced as the chi word Yu2... but rather , its pronounced as 'YOU'... SO its Jin 'You'...I think they could have mistaken the 'you' as 'ru' cos it rythmes. Wad an coincidence eh? That my name has been 'amended' to the extent that it is so similar to Jing Ru's. Laughsss. Eh but i prefer Jinyu than Jinru...cos the word'jinru' looks rather ugly. JingRu is ok but JinRu is really ugly.

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Yesterday i finished a book that i've kop-ed from my cousin house. Its 第一次的亲密接触. I know this is not a new book and it has been brought up to plays before but its the 1st time that i really get to 'touch' this book. Ever since my Jc chi teacher told us about this book, i've been curious, wanting to read more into it. I tried searching from libs to libs but it seemed that it is forever on loan. That day, I went over to my cousin's room and DANG! i spotted tis book. I read it within 24 hrs. Its hard for me to really describe the book cos the plot is nothing really very unique. But to me, i still feel that it is a good book. Its the feeling that the book is giving u , not exactly the plot. Usually when i read, i imagine that the scene is just in front of me. I picture everything in my mind. The actions, the surroudings and everything.So its easy for me to finish up a not-so-thick book.

After reading it, i started thinking about making friends online. I know its something really really common now. But, how many of you really keep in contact with ur online friends?(As in during offline-times). One of my friends once told me that she is so impressed that i have the courage to meet up with online pple. Not one, not 2 but a few of them. Well, i dont think i have that kind of courage when IRC was a 'hot' thing.All i remember was that IRC to me was something that i can go but cannot trust. The only nick i remembered frm the IRC days was Starhub84.. simply becos we are still friends now. We know each other for ard 6 years but we never meet up. This person is truly an online friend. Wad i think surprising was, i nv tot of meeting this person up. And we can still keep in contact after so many years. As far as i know, this person wasnt using IRC now either. I guess thats outdated already and our regular online conversation also 'died down' together with the IRC trend. We do communicate but its once in a while.

After the IRC era, we have the msn, yahoo grp and friendster. It is thru all these that i really get to know more online friends in reality. I.e, we do meet up face to face. Its really good to have msn i think. When we feel that this particular person seems chatty or have something in common(friendster, yahoo grp, forum, watever engines), we can simply add this person to msn. Thru msn, we can really chat everything under the sun. When there is a chance, there will be a time to meet up. Thanks to Jingru also, i've made so many friends, out from strangers. Sometimes u just have to believe in how fate brings pple together out of nowhere.

Anyway, in this book, the 2 characters befriended each other online. They started chatting and get hooked up with each other. Or u can say addicted to coming online at a certain timing just to wait for the other party to be online and chat. When i read about this part, i can really relate it to myself.

It does happen to me before. As in really get addicted in seeing that particular person online. When i see that person online, it sorta brighten up my dull life by abit. There will be endless conversations and i will be laughing most of the time. Thats when my lappy will always tremble and thats when i always worried that i might get a nightmare.(My mum always say laugh too much at night will get a nightmare) When that person wasnt online, i will tend to think wad the person was doing at that moment that i tot shld be online. But i guess everything will have a peak and also have a time where it topples down frm the peak. Probably typing whole night for almost everyday, missing the person for not onlining was a peak then. But slowly if it doesnt follow up in one way or another , the addiction, the feeling start to slide down. Eventually, that nick who used to be so attractive to me, became a nick which only parks in my list.

Anyway i digress. Fortunately in the story, the 'sliding' part didnt happen to the characters lar. The ending doesnt even give the characters a chance to slide. BECOS, the girl died when they are on their way in reaching the peak. Almost there already, the girl died. . .

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Bleah... i dunno wad i am typing about already. Lets bring everything to my work ... Hmmmm today, we(p4 teachers), had a talk with our principal about the EM3 and EM1 students.(Alright we dun have 'streaming' now but we still prefer to use the old terms) This time round for my class, one person qualify to study HMT nx year.(kinda happy cos i didnt expect my class will have pple who qualify for 'EM1' class) Then we have 1 confirmed em3 student frm my class. The other 3 borderline cases were given an option to opt up to Em2. Anyway this student who is confirmed going to EM3 becos i think it is better for her to. There was a discussion earlier on. She had always been very weak in class . Assignments that i gave out, more than 3/4 she doenst understand at all. Not that her attitude was bad. She is just weak. So i feel that it would not do her good to place her in EM2. It would be better for her to do her foundations, so i recommended that she should go to EM3. Dont think that i am not saving her. WRONG. I am doing her good. Dont think too bad abt it.


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Since the post is already so long, i might as well make it longer... Got this from aud's blog

Your Element is Fire

Your power color: red Your energy: hot Your season: spring Like a fire, you are full of power and light. A born leader, you easily draw people toward you. You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous. You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.

What Element Are You?

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Boo Boo-ed... i am sleepy... Time for a short nap ! If we have fate, we will meet online.



Told u my entry is in sucha sense that its difficult to have a title. Am i right?

Job Satisfaction

*Edit... all my 'Bands' are spelt wrongly.... heh ... i just realised it while i was reading it...

Alot of deadlines.School musical coming. Post exams programme and the TIMSS thingy, some students of my class have been selected and they did the test today.(Random)So i spent half a day at the 'testing room'. Have to key in results into OPM (Actually i am counted lucky le. Since i am not a form teacher, i have much lesser work than the others )Just finished marking P1 maths paper.(Initially was down with marking the P4 together as the same grp as Noeline, since she is the setter...BUT! Due to lack of teachers, i'm being 'invited' to join the P1 marking) Dont think that P1 marking is easy. It is not. (cos they dont have OAS...everything have to mark manually.)Anyway, the PM session teachers are nice to give me 3 good classes to mark ! Hee...

So far, English and Maths results are out already. (Am still waiting for my class's science results.waiting for sectionB) Okie tho i know that the papers are slightly easier (on purpose cos of 'streaming'), BUT! my class improved !!! Yay! They did much much better than CA2 and even SA1. When i first came into SHPS, their CA2 results were really horrible!Worst ever. This time round most of them improved! I am so happy! Actually i am really not trying to 'grab' all the credits to myself. I feel that the credits should be given to my students and not forgetting their tuition teachers too! Esp so for my students. I've seen them putting in efforts. Esp for Jessica, Darius and Yee ning. That day when i know that Jessica passed her maths , i jumped up from my seat...i went all round to tell all 4/2 teachers! AND... When i know that she has gotten 19/22 for her english OAS (2nd highest in the class), i almost fainted. However, she didnt pass her overall english. She failed by 1.5 marks. (HAIZ...cos she failed her oral!!!If only i happen to be her tester, she would have spoken out... according to her tester, she was unwilling to speak up...But its alright. During our review and classing with the principal, i will definitely speak up for her.) Darius, although he didnt get band 2 as i had expected of him, but he is really very happy with his results. Becos this result is the best he had ever achieved. Yee ning, i am really very very happy for her ! I dont know how to describe the feeling i am happy. I am truly happy for her. I guess this is so-called the bond i had with the class that i am truly concern about every single one of them. And And And .... SOON JIE PASSED his MATHS TOO!

Of course, not forgetting colin and shawn. Both of them picked up frm failing results to bend 2 ! (76 and 73) respectively. Colin's efforts really paid off !!!! His father couldnt believe it and almost fainted.(eh quote from colin de lar...)Oh oh oh since i mentioned so many of my kids le, might as well mention a few more... Sabrina did goodily good too. But i am really disappointed in Adiel who i tot would have done much much better than Sabrina(oh sabrina and adiel are goodie friends).

Hmmmmmmm and Stephen chew was the only person who cried after receiving the results. I expected him to top the class with his maths. Bend 1 or something. His parents as well as his tutor tot so too. I guess all the confidence on him, backfired. I feel so sad to see him crying. He is really a very good student. His maths dropped frm no.1 to no.16 ! Q. a big blow to him i guess. When i was reading out the top 16 pupils (Bend 1 n 2-s) , the whole class all hope to hear his name. When there was 1 last name left, and stephen was not called yet. The whole class 'stephen chew,stephen chew, stephen chew'. When i really called out his name, everyone cheered. Touched by that scene. Few of them missed bend 1 by 2-3 marks only. How wasted ! Esp Priscilla... she is definitely a Bend 1 student material ( she scored 38/40 for section a...dunno wad happen to her section b...HAIZ)


Anyway... i think i really need to get something for particular few. Woohoo.Tho my class management is still very lousy, but i really love4/2 as a class.


Monday i still have 2 more class de social studies paper to mark/rush. Lack of sleep!

Lets all pray that my class did well for section b science and overall science! Please do put them in ur prayers ! =)

I think thats about all lar... lazy to re read again... ignore any errors lar... i sleepy and tired le

Something 'Fishy' is going on...


What what?













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'哇！你们人少少，声音大大'

Allow me to put quote the above phrase as my title of this entry. Well, i quote it frm Carol, the ROCK xuan chuan this morning @ the airport while sending our dear Jingru off.Hmmm then i recalled our 'Renci' spirit. The reason i used 'renci' spirit is becos ,there was an event some time back whereby we got our tics to watch the renci live @ NUSCC. Jingru was there and thanks to EDDE, we got 7 tics. They were really lousy seats actually. BUT! We were 'attention seeking'. First, we hung the banner.(Which was later complimented by jingru @ top fun event that our banner was striking.) Then, tho there were only 7 of us, we were louder than any other FCs. *PROUD*. Ever since then, we always remembered the 7 pple miracle-Our loud cheers.

Alright lets switch back to the topic. Well, yesterday we only had 10 FD pple with us and then, we unite and cheered real loudly.(We were standing @ a distance frm the stage and crowd. So, we have to be loud.) In fact i kept on thinking that maybe Jingru didnt hear us... But after what carol had said this morning, i am so much relieved.

Yesterday's award wasnt fantastic at all. 1, the red carpet. Disappointing. The coordination, the speakers , everything. Not up to standard at all. Messy. Next , move on to costumes. Refering to the 'NEWPAPER' article about the awards, i totally agreed with it man. Nothing special at all. Boring. My top 3 favourite = Jingru (She is REALLY pretty), Joey, Twins . No offence to any other FC de fans... my last 3 goes to(I feel that either they didnt bring out their character or they are simply Ugly.) : Tanya Chua, ALL the cheena singers, Sun Yanzi.

Nx to the awards. So boring. I'm like paying to watch a massive Cheena concert with i-have-nv-hear-before-until-yesterday de singers singing songs which i had nv hear before and i dun think its hao ting. Almost feel asleep. Really. Anyway this just show how big the cheena market is. They influence the whole of chinese music lor. Kinda unfair actually. They have such a vast population. Anyway ... partly also ah, all the awards are so PREDICTABLE. Everyone knows who will get what blar blar blar... Boring. Some of the winners ah ... the way they say their thank you speech is as tho there is no more tomorrow. Goes on and on and on about unrelated stuffs. Trying to be 'action'. And the most Xia Suay and Sua Gu thank you speech goes to Guo Mei Mei... I really feel like digging a hole when i see her performing.(I cannot believe that she is a Singaporean) She's just like a kid performing in front of the PRO-s. The worst thing is her speech la really. Everyone is talking abt her speech.=.='''(Anyway maybe this is the last time she get an award i think...so let her say all she wants lor)

Ok enough of negative comments. Shall talk more about Jingru. Thruout the concert, XY and I, we had our eyes set on Jingru and Jingru only. We see her every moment. SO CUTE. The head small small de...(Anyway, we are not bian tai-s ok...its cos the concert is so damn boring that we might as well just sit there and watch jingru)
Anyway,haha she went up the stage to collect her prize at 11pm...ARd that timing. Before that , Edde, XY and I we are really going crazy becos of the long wait. LOL ... Anyway i believe tat its worthwhile lar...Dua PAi-s (Big cards) always come out later than noobs de mah...(Even at red carpet Jingru also came in VERY late...2nd last,together with Tanya..Last was Andy and Yanzi.)...Jingru always very de lar..GOODIE...Ysd when she thanked the fans, she looked over to our direction.(According to my didi). Then when she sang, she stand nearer to our side and did look at our direction.(According to my cousin). To me, whats the best was that moment lar...(I am an ulitmate Jingru dan afterall)

*All my comments=how i feel, not personal attacks on any artiste. I only pin point the behaviour and how i think abt the whole event.

I reached home at 1 plus am last night. This morning sent Jingru off and I started missing her already. 3 more weeks! I'll get to see her again. Excited.Looking-forward.


Photos to be uploaded later.
Lazy to re read my entry, so long. If there are any serious sentence structure or spelling prob ah ...just ignore it lar...

天下没有不散的宴席

Today is the last day of hosting of my fav dj- Lingzhi(yes93.3fm)
I missed the last recording cos i'm working.
I really enjoyed those days whereby i will rush home just in time to tune in to Lingzhi's programme.

I've left a very long comment @ Cruz's blog so i'm lost for words now. Although i kinda expect Lingzhi to leave the DJ career, i was caught in surprise that the news came too sudden.

Its always so hard to express our own feelings.

Anyway all the best to Lingzhi.

Weekend with JingRu !

Muahaha Jingru is in Singapore NOW ! Although i didnt get the chance to go airport and welcome her, tomorrow i'll be seeing her le ! Yay ! Edde, XY and I will reach early at the stadium tml. We hope to get a nice place while waiting for the xing guang da dao. Ha (But then frm past experience, its hard to endure the xing guang da dao. The crowd and everything. Maybe we can stand far far and use our LED. LAUGHSSS...

JingRu ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Fish Effect has always been in a special corner of my heart.

I dont want to lose you.

This phrase surely has a very big impact on me. I saw my ST today, then she suddenly asked me :'have u applied for job?'. Hmmmm i am q. stunned but i said i still have 1/2 a year's contract.(Apparently she knows that i have the plan of switching job)

Then... I said that although i am really enthru when i first entered the sch but i have to admit that my class management is really not good. She said that its becos of that the class has switched far too many teachers(i'm the 4th or 5th ) so the class dun really have their 'rule' or 'momentum'. In fact no one can really control them. But anyway i told her my enthrusiasm slowly eroded.

Then... i really like her reply

She said q. alot with an ending sentence :'I dont want to lose you', with a pad on my shoulders. Hmmmm i think its really giving me q. an impact.

The 'i dont want to lose you' really assured me alot of things, cleared up alot of my confusion and at least, give me the drive to complete my 1 year journey.

You know, i really feel that my kids are q. attached to me. Just that, WHY cant they behave well in class? (anyway the best way to shut them up , is to make them stand. It works everytime. Laughs... but i also soft hearted , i wont make them stand for long de.... cos i scared they legs will get tired.)

Since when i became so kind hearted? Since when i love to hang ard with kids? Since when i am so tolerant? Since when i am so 'motherly'?

Since ... the first day i entered St. Hilda's.

This morning...

Normally in the morning, when i reached office, i will say 'morning' to whoever i saw. BUT once i settle down on my seat, i will be so busy with the preparation.(Setting up laptop la, take out stuffs la, pack la watever de) The other collegues will also be busy too. So after the 1st greeting, all of us will be very busy. Then this morning, Noeline was about to leave the staff room for the 'flag raising' in class. She paused. Turn at me and say :'hey Jinyu'. She left and i just 'hi-ed' back and bury into my 'search' for sci stuffs. Eh... normal greeting eh ? haha nvm lets continue...

Then i went into my 4/2. First lesson. :'Teacher teacher, you cut ur hair ah ? y so short?'I smiled and reply:'Eh. isnt that obvious? I looked handsome now right?' Some of the girls :' NO! Long hair better' .... I sweat and continued on with my maths lessons.

After 1st period, i went back to the staff room to mark some work. Mrs Yee who is on her way to toliet or staff lounge i think. She too, paused at the door. 'Hey, u permed ur hair?' Eh... i only replied:'well, i merely cut it short thats all'...Then we started a short convo abt 'natural curls'.Then back to work.

After a 'not short not long' break, i went to 5/2. The moment i stepped into the class, i created a 'commotion' yet again. Ha ... anyway i replied the same way as i did to 4/2. Then today this sheryl from 5/2 is so funny. Kept on following me ard... even 'sent' me all the way to my nx class.

After that i went back to 4/2 again and the focus was again, my hair. Lalala...

When sch ended. Noeline finally came to my table. 'Did u do anything to ur hair?' ....'Oh well, i cut it. But it was a mistake that it became liddat.' Ha... her reaction was funny. 'OH! This morning i tot it looked different. Then i tot probably its still wet. So... Now i see....' *interruptions by some other teachers... then the convo went off liddis. Ha.

When i was walking my way out together with 2 other students, i saw samuel along the way. From afar , he said :'EI ! U tie ur hair ah?!'..... LOL ... i simply reply :'WEll, its just a failure product, or u can say its a disaster.' He laughed.


SO PPLE , NOW you know y i keep on complaining abt my hair le lor !!!


BUT! on the other hand, i'm q. happy when i'm at home !Cos it had been q. a long time since i had my short hair. Sorta miss it too lar... The combing was so much easier(eh ya ! i can use a normal comb now! hahaha)

Lets see how long my hair takes to grow and how much SPRAY i needa use before my hair grows back. AND how long it takes me to wash away all the spray.

My lappy down so i cannot infra my pic frm my phone to the com. HA...

爱琴海

Yesterday i went to music dreamer. It was my first time there actually. Well, its rather similar to Muchuan but i think i still prefer muchuan... haha cos i'm more familiar with the singers there. So now, besides the Tues muchuan slot, i add in a fri music dreamer slot. HAHA

Jingru is EVERYWHERE

Hahaha most of u know that my lappy RIP liao so when i'm online, i'm using my didi's pc. Guess wad? I invaded his pc. I change his desktop background to the above picture. I think its very nice... hahaha

looking forward to the weekends and countdowning to GCMAA , can see Jingru ... haha