Bead Work

I'm into beading. I'm so loving it. Made a few bracelet. Very pretty!

It started when company conducted a jewellery making class and then BAM! I'm at Peoples' Park for hours, browsing beading books, ogling at those shiny beads with different colour and burned a hole in my pocket. Yup bought lots of them.

I'm going for jewellery making course in Jan and Feb and hopefully by then I have new designs to play with! So exciting!

Haha.. finally found something practical for me other than comfort reading...

Pirraahh...

Ok I'm upset. I have always felt left out. Every single time. Can't you just update me? Ok I'm going to bed right now. Gosh it's so easy for you right? Why ah have to become like this? Maybe because I'm boring. No life. Nothing intriguing. If not I would still be in the loop. WTF! Arghhh whatever lah...

Diana

Diana left us yesterday. Like what she said it's a bittersweet experience which was what I felt too. I hope that she is going to greener pastures. Truly I will miss her. Things will not be the same without her. I would not be able to call her "Di!" everytime when I see her. I would not be able to share my hugs and stories with her. She is one of the closest colleague and I felt a part of me is missing. Gosh it wouldn' t be the same...

Guide to Cooking Dishes for Amallia

When comes to cooking daily dishes I am an idiot. I have to confess that what my mum said is right - Nanti kalau dah kahwin benda-benda yang Lia tak tahu semua jadi tahu. Up till now while staying with my mum-in-law I have cooked 3 dishes in a period of 2 months. Failed right? But my mum-in-law was supportive and mention that it is a learning stage and that is also how she began.

Spurred by her motivation, I was ambitious and wanted to cooked something exotic. So I decided to cook a crab dish. Yup crab and I was a virgin to begin with.

So on Sunday morning I happily went to the wet market and source for the crab. Without any knowledge I choose any four and paid $10. Went home and then I thought to myself how am I suppose to cut and clean the crab? Called my grandma on handfree and she tried, really tried to describe to me the process of cutting the crab. I almost gave up until I finally found the part that she was describing to me. Then I put down the phone. I was so damn happy when I finally cut and clean the crab.

During the process of cleaning the crab to cooking the crab, I have called my grandma a total of 8 times. My uncle who picked up the phone on the other side teased me - Nak apa lagi? (Shouting to my grandma) Mak! Lia nie.. Ketamnya dah jadi batu! Haha!

Overall the result? My husband tambah nasi 3 times exclaiming - My wife can cook!

Ah Well....

I'm still thinking what to write after 3 month hiatus. Married life have been bliss and hopes it will linger. Though at times we do have tiny arguments...



Ishq is getting married in Dec and i'm sure she's pretty excited about it.



I just finish reading one of Anis Ayuni book titled Bayangan Rindu. The story was really sticky and I hang on and read till the end. Next will be Kau Kekasihku.



I have just started the 5 day work week and the long hours are really xian.. well can't really complain cos the job is good.



I got my 3G today and it's quite good. Still experimenting with it.



Lulu's gonna have a baby probably next week. I can't wait to see the adorable him!



Well with my eyes about to close, i'm gonna stop here. Gd nite.

10 Things I Will Miss After July 20

1. Singing out loud during vacuuming and mopping sessions
2. My room
3. Me, Syafiq and Sairi get together in my room sharing stupid jokes and riddles, laughing at each other before bedtime
4. Kissing my mother everytime I leave the house
5. Having my brothers to share my things such as my bag, socks, shampoo, MP3 player and my digicam
6. Always calling up my mother asking her what did she cooked for that day
7. Ordering my brothers to do things I dislike
8. Being conned by my brothers to buy whatever they like
9. Fighting over the phone with my brothers at night
10. Having some me time alone in my room

Kekata Hati

Slowly but Surely.

It's the exam period and people are flocking to the library like nobody business. Inconsiderate behaivour is prominent anywhere in the library. These people have been so manja that things are taken for granted. Ada bila orang suruh shift kat tepi jangan block the shelves, jorang boleh jawab "later if people want to refer to the books then we will move". Hello, though this is a public place be responsible lah. Dah lah baring2 kat atas lantai tu macam orang tak bersalah. So what I do? Play the broken record and stand there for the whole 5 minutes to move their butts. Morons...

Could Someone Please Tell Me A Joke...

Please make me laugh. I haven't done that in a long time...

Tell Me

Tell me that I'm not needed anymore.
Tell me that I'm just a waste of time.
Tell me that you hate me.
Tell me that all those times spent were meaningless to you.
Tell me that you wish I disappear from this face of earth.
Tell me that even I cry a river for you, you will still be as cold.
Tell me that I don't belong to you.
Tell me that you have given up hope on me.
Tell me that you don't want to talk to me anymore.
Tell me that what I am doing is just for nothing.
Tell me that you are right and I'm wrong.
Tell me that I should know where I stand.
Tell me that I don't mean anything to you.
Tell me all of these and I'm gone for good.

"No."

I said "No" to a few people this morning at work. Usually I'm a "Yes" person.
Would you buy lunch for me? Yes
Would you cover this for me? Yes
Would you join this project team? Yes and yada yada yada...

I said "No" to my boss and my colleague.
"No I cannot attend the meeting tomorrow and I cannot change my night shift."
"No I cannot change my counter hours with you."

After I said "No" there is this disturbing feeling telling me that I should have said "Yes" instead cos what if they really needed my help.

But then it's my right to say "No". At times you really need to be every women for herself.

Only Him

Only Him who loves me the most.
Only Him knows how I really feel inside.
Only to Him I can pour out my woes, my happiness and my sadness.
Only to Him I ask for forgiveness.
Only Him can put my soul at ease.
And only to Him that I will go back to....

It's Good to be Back to Work

Just came back from a 5 day hiatus and discovered that the work desk has been piling up and I'm very thankful for it. Some colleagues are glad to see me made it back to work. Yup it's back to work and a bit of stress. Hopefully this FY will be better.

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Thanks for your wishes. It's quite an okay day for me. Though some events share with my birthday such as end of another FY, closing date for some contests and the audition for Anugerah. Now at library@esplanade supporting colleagues in their performance. This is my last time celebrating my birthday as a single. It's gonna be double next year. Cheers!

Flower Arrangement Part 2

" So funny.." that was my first reaction. I think I do not I have the hands for flower arrangement. There goes my dream of becoming a florist (not!). Hehe.. Maybe because the roses were not bloom nicely that's why it's funny. So you can see my pix of the flowers that I arrange on the 1st day and the roses bloom later on the 3rd day. Now it's wilting... Haiz...

Stay Compose

Diam tak bererti salah.

I have low tolerence level. RedOpium told me to leave my feelings at home. I can't. Now there is this nagging voice in my head. Telling me to calm down and shut my big mouth up. Whatever happens just stay rooted. Do not react before thinking. Keep cool, don't let it get to you. Look at the big picture. Don't let those trivial matters affect you. I know I will recover from all this.

Ya Allah, ambillah segala kemarahan ini dan berikanlah aku kekuatan untukku tempuh dugaanMu ini.

Yasmin The Storyteller Blog

I was surfing around and stumble upon Yasmin Ahmad (the Malaysian director) blog. I put it up as one of the link. Her blog gave insights of the films she created. A good read.

I Will Have My Wedding How I Deem Fit

Four months and counting. Haven't start a single thing. External parties are talking. Prices of having a wedding nowadays. Why are you bothered? It's not your money, it's mine and what I do with it is none of your bloody business. Why do you care whether I have a gala wedding or just a small reception. It's not the question of how the wedding is gonna be or how big my reception gonna be or how much do I spent. If given a choice I wouldn't want to through all these customary stuff. Kenapa nak kena besar-besarkan pasal semua benda-benda nie. Hairan betul. I'm seriously pissed. No, I'm not stress because I haven't prepared anything. I will not listen to anyone. I will do what I deem fit.

Flower Arrangement Part 1

I went for flower arrangement on Thursday. It feels great to get out of the office. The course was conducted by Far East Floral/Creative Workz.
Check the website ---> http://www.fareastflora.com/creativeworkz/

Me being a minah bunga went gaga seeing all types of flowers. See below of my humble masterpieces....

Part 2 will commence on 15 March so watch out for that. Hahaha!

Deprived Childhood

Sometimes I miss my dad. The attention that is given to us (me and my brother) seems short. I hate to say this but dad played a small role in our life. I hungered for his attention but it didn't came. My relationship with him is ok on the surface. Sometimes it difficult to strike a decent conversation with him.

My mum on the other hand is not the kind of lovey dovey and bake cookies kind of mum. She got me being independent since I was in primary school. While she work the graveyard shift, me and my brother (who was then a toddler) stayed at home.

Sometimes when I ponder about it, I felt like I'm missing something during my childhood. Possibly the laughter of a family, family outings or just being able to spent some time with your parents which I don't have a memory of it. What I remember is that me watching my brother during the night while mum is working. Me trying to understand why dad doesn't live under 1 roof with us anymore. Then mum out of sudden got married. Tot I would turn out to be someone who would rebel and stuff but didn't.

Compared between me and my brother, the latter didn't get both when he was growing up. We relied on each other a lot. Come to think of it, we were luckier than others cos we still have mum to take care of us.

Foot Message

I had foot reflexology last week at the Relax Room. So much for the name, I was squirming in my seat to 'tahan' the pain. The messager said that my immune system is not good. The more painful it is, the more you want them to message. Really shiok. After it's done they give you a glass of warm water to drink and mention that you would have a good night sleep. But I didn't. Thinking of too many things.

Opposites Attract

The Difference Between SourLime And RedOpium(let's see whether I got this right)...

SourLime:

1. Loves eating Chicken Chop from Tenderbest outlets.
2. Hates dressing up.
3. Owns a pair of Levi's jeans.
4. Drinks tea.
5. Has 4 brothers (my life is surrounded by men).
6. Believes in saving $$$.
7. Not really into arts but gets drag along...
8. Sleeps at 12am latest.
9. Loves breakfast.
10. Jogs like a snail.

RedOpium

1. Loves eating Asam Pedas and still searching for "The Asam Pedas".
2. Is a metrosexual (in my point of view).
3. Owns 7 pairs of Levi's jeans and counting..
4. Is a coffee addict.
5. Has 2 brothers.
6. Believes in spending $$$.
7. Appreciates literature like poems and plays.
8. Sleeps at 2am, 3am, 4am, 5am latest.
9. Hates breakfast.
10. Jogs like himself.

Dealova

I'm digging this song right now. It's by Dewa's lead singer (dunno his name). Dia punya lagu macam best gitu kan. Leh buat lentok. Macam floating2 gitu. Aku nie dah merepek! Heh.

Not sure how to load the song on the blog. Dunno whether it is possible. Will ask emeryn. Anyway the lyrics is below....

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu...
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu....
Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu...ooohh..
Karena hati tlah letih....

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh...
Aku ingin kau tau bahwaku selalu memujamu....
Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati...oh
Bayangmu seakan akan....

reff
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu..ooohh
Kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada....

**Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang...
Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang..........dan sepi......
back to reff

My Writing Sucks..

I have a mental block. Can't think of anything to write. RedOpium said my blog is more style than content. I have to reluctantly agree with him. You see not everyone is a writer. Definitely not me. I have a problem expressing myself in words. Unlike my cuz Ishq....like the way she writes.

Anyway....Hmm ok what is interesting this week. Hah...I went for a dictionary course which is something different from the customer service courses that I attended. Telling you what pisses the customer and what don't and how to salvage the situation and all that. I realise that my customer service is downgrading. Usually my smile is my weapon. Smile when you are unsure. Smile when you are angry. Smile when you are sad. Yeah that is what I do best.

Back to the dictionary course, it's like primary school where you learn how to pronounce phonetics for the first time. Learnt that my English is 'fantastic'. You will be saying all the long and short vowel and the consonants. How they sounded and how to read the phoentics. You learnt how to use the dictionary and how to select them if you are buying. Yeah and what else.... Oh... how to use the dictionary effectively.

Hopefully whatever that is learn in the course would help me. Gotta think of a theme for my next post...

Kwang3....!

I LOVE MY NEW SPACE!

Reality Check.

Have you ever felt that you are so small, so inferior?
Things that you do doesn't seem right.
Felt like screaming out loud but you can't.
Trying to reach out but no one would take your hand.
Trying to distract yourself but it keeps lingering in your mind.
I just hope that I can get out soon before time is up..

Levi's Engineered Jeans

Haha I got my 1st Levi's engineered jeans. Sweeeeet! Gotta lose some weight!

P.S. RedOpium best lah ada same-same jeans.....

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Detachment without limits...that's what you are good at.
But I'm different... I can't be in denial all day long..

Ibnu Sina

Below are an excerpt taken from a book which was given by my ustazah and she wants me to translate it to Malay which I have difficulty doing it because of the medical terms. With the help of Encik Hussain, we made it(Thank you!). I hope you like the article below which tells the brief biography of one of our Islamic scholars, Ibnu Sina.


Abu Ali al-Hussain Ibu Abdullah Ibn Sina dilahirkan pada tahun 980 C.E. di Afshana berhampiran dengan Bukhara. Semasa muda, beliau telah mendapat ijazah dalam bidang perubatan yang dikenali di merata tempat. Ketika berusia 17 tahun, beliau telah berjaya menyembuhkan penyakit Nooh Ibn Mansoor, seorang raja Bukhara dimana ketika itu banyak lagi ahli-ahli perubatan lain yang telah berputus asa untuk menyembuhkannya. Beliau kemudian berhijrah ke Ray and Hamdan dimana beliau telah menulis sebuah buku beliau yang masyhur bertajuk Al-Qanun fi al-Tibb, sebuah ensiklopedia perubatan yang mengandungi lebih dari satu juta perkataan. Beliau adalah seorang doktor, ahli falsafah, ahli ensiklopedia, ahli ilmu hisab, ahli ilmu falak yang termasyhur pada zaman itu. Sumbangan terbesar beliau dalam bidang sains perubatan ialah terbitan ensiklopedia al-Qanun, juga dikenali sebagai "the Canon" di Barat.


Ensiklopedia falsafah beliau, Kitab al-Shifa, adalah satu sumbangan hasil kerja yang begitu bersejarah. Ia merangkumi bidang ilmu yang sungguh luas meliputi ilmu falsafah hingga ke ilmu sains. Selain daripada memberikan penerangan berkenaan cara-cara perubatan, kitab tersebut juga turut menyebut tentang 760 jenis ubat-ubatan yang lain. Ini menjadikan Kitab al-Shifa sebuah risalah perubatan tulen yang terulung di zaman itu.


Ibnu Sina juga merupakan orang yang pertama membuat rumusan tentang “meningitis” serta membuat sumbangan yang bukan sedikit kepada bidang anatomi, gynaecologi (perbidanan) dan bidang penglahiran bayi.


Beliau meninggal dunia di Hamdan pada tahun 1037.

Starbucks 2214 130107

This is the 1st time I'm doing WIFI with RedOpium. Lame rite....

Borrowed the laptop from my bro, Compaq Presario B2800. Bila nak dpt laptop sendiri....

I got myself hot choco and RedOpium's daily brew. Me not a coffee fan...

Surfing thru YouTube, seeing music videos... Reading blogs... What to surf on the Internet nowadays...

RedOpium complaining that blogs are not suppose to be general stuff rather it should be personalised... I dun agree. Opposite attracts.

I'm working afternoon tomorrow. Sucks. But still ok cos it's with the good people.

RedOpium trying to ask me to go Hoobastank or Eric Clapton concert. I'm thinking...$$$

Today...Could be Better..

Ok let's see the happenings for the last few hours:

6.00am
Alarm rings. Put to snooze for another 9 minutes.

6.09am
Alarm rings. Put to snooze for another 9 minutes.

6.18am
Alarm rings. Put to snooze for another 9 minutes.

6.27am
Alarm rings. Turn off alarm.

6.43am
Wake up and get ready for work as well as breakfast.

7.45am
Walk towards bus stop. Wait.

8.05am
Wait. Bloody bus is late!

8.11am
Finally the bloody bus arrived. Not 1 but 2! Hah.

8.27am
Arrived Woodlands interchange, quickly rush to office.

8.30am
Haha... Punch card in time! On computer, load Survivor Cook Islands Video on YouTube.

8.42am
2 of my colleagues on MC. So instead of 3 hours counter, now got 5 hours. Thanks ladies....

9.00am
Shelf reading.

9.48am
Level 1 counter. Announced library is opening.

10.00am
Library opened. 1st hour counter. Stomach grumbling... Lemer....

11.00am
2nd hour counter. Surfing. Discarded 17 books. Stomach grumbling... Lemer....

12.00pm
3rd hour counter. Writing this post. Waiting for lunch at 1. Stomach grumbling... Lemer....


P.S. Lub and Anis how did manage to put those message boards in your blog? Must let me know ok. I not IT savvy. One of these days we get together. Love you ladies...

:-P

I was roving around the library and observed secondary school students chit chatting, laughing and dating in the library.

As far as I can remember when I was in secondary I was not so much into library but some of the 'stupid' things that I did was to take all feeder buses at choa chu kang interchange cos at that time it was concession, going to raffles place and sat by boat quay and play with the water by the river, staying back after school for badminton sessions and attend my band practice.

As far as I can remember I am not loud, look awful with short hair as well as long hair, i dun snapped at people and make fun at people. But kids nowadays seems to be different.

Just look at my youngest brother....

Who would like to be in my shoes? Any takers?

Heart-wrenching

Divided

Blur

Not in the right mind

Reluctant

Painful

Confused

Miserable

Complete Idiot

Selfish

Discontented

Regret