I hate myself. For saying things without thinking. For doing things without thinking. And for putting myself in a perpetual state of guilt for saying and doing those things. I'm an idiot.

YEEHAW! Oct to May, real long break from blogging~ *slacker alert*
Very surprised at my A level grades. Can't wait for uni to start. >.<

Well I'm on facebook to once again catch some mice ( always the same few kinds) , commit some criminal acts ( I'm kinda bored of Mafia war) and most definitely maintain my lovely food haven ( I remembered to feed my workers regularly).

Besides having fun, I do a little bit of part time tuition to earn some money for my bike lessons. It's really expensive considering the fact that I'm a slow learner and i repeat almost every lesson. So if there's 10 lessons, I would have gone for about 18 times. Ultimate epic loser. Oh well, that's me.

Today I found out that the guy I secretly liked has gone for my best (girl) friend. Dunno whether I should be sad or happy. Sigh...

My mid year results are back. Ultimate failure. Buying DVDs to de-stress certainly made it worst. I finished 6 DVDs during the June holidays, reducing my study time by half or more?

Aims for Prelims: ABC AD (math, physics, econs, geog and GP respectively)
I know its a very large difference from my mid year results. So I'm following Mr Dennis Yeo's suggestion to become a nun. Meaning I'll give up my worldly pleasures or lack there of.
I have decided to let my Facebook account rot until after As. Goodbye to Mafia War(my Cuban businesses), Farmville(my poor plants), Knighthood(all my gold coins will be raided by then), Triumph(thank God there will be UN protection), Mousehunt(lucky you mice out there) and Restaurant City(my poor workers would need food and rest).

Good luck to all muggers out there. I will not be touching my laptop unnecessarily. If you need any help from me, provided I am capable of helping and not too time consuming, please feel free to contact me. ^_^
Goodbye Facebook! *sobs sobs*

It is easier to endure discipline than regret.

The hols just eh? Where's my hols??????!!!???
June is almost over. Sigh....where's my one month break?
School has started. Had a great start with H2 Physics P3 and H2 econs P2.
Wah! Almost late for physics morning paper today. Phew! Reached just on time because the whole hall still taking temperature. Thank you flu pandemic.
Tmr there's econs and math. What weird exam timetable is this?
2 papers a day. Killer!! ARGH!!!~

Actually doesn't really matter. I'm Carmen the Awesome. No la. I'm Carmen the Stupid. But I'm clever enough to think of stupid answers to put in my exam paper to make the teacher think I've tried very hard. I'm so sorry to my teachers for not studying smart during the holidays.

Gomen.

Cannot take it anymore!!! Got zero motivation to study. Although Geog paper was okay but still very guilty because i hardly studied. I want to pass everything but i realise its quite difficult for econs. After donkey tests this year, i finally passed one case study. Nothing to be proud of. Just one which was simple. Today's revision lecture made things worse. Super low morale. Half the time i dunno what the teacher is saying. God help me! Why did I even choose to take econs? And ever since I failed common test physics, I have been very worried about Physics. Also super low morale le.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Can anyone get me out of this mess?

Haven't been updating in a very long time. Nothing much happened really. Just school, home, school, home and school again. School>home. Anyway, school is very repetitive. And my class dreads GP. We always walk at God-like snail speed to GP classes. I think the only fun left in school is math lessons. My math teacher is awesome. He never fails to irritate me. But he is really a jolly old man. Physics is kinda fun too. Not the lessons, since my physics teacher doesn't really tell stories anymore, but more the topics. Quantum is really cool. Especially when you understand it. Geog is getting boring, Mr Osman doesn't tell jokes anymore, he just keeps saying the periphery of the LDCs "cannot make it". It's funny when you first hear it. But not when you are hearing it for the nth time. Econs is getting more and more confusing. When the teacher asks whether we have any questions, I don't even bother. How can I possibly ask a question when I don't even know what the hell it's about?

I hope I can find joy in school again.