Friday, July 27, 2007.

Never Heard Of It - Alone


She had Screeching Weasel

Playing on her radio

Her windows down she looked at me

And then she waved hello

I smiled back and thought about

The time when my dad said

There'd be a lightning bolt

And it'll hit you some day

And I've never felt that way

That's when we met and I knew

That we would stay together

From that moment on

but I messed up and I know

I was wrong

I miss that smile

When I'd sing her a song

I feel so alone cause now

It's all gone



She's always talking in her sleep



I realise now more than before

That I'm for her and she's for me

I know that her and me can't

Be hurt by this tragedy

The way she'd laugh and cry

And look me in the eyes and

Feel the same way as I do

I'm here all alone

There's no one

Around but I'm being blinded

By the sound of her voice

Sitting here on the ground

I'm laughing out loud

Realising how stupid I am

And I know I was wrong

I miss that smile when I'd sing her

A song I feel so alone cause

Now it's all gone



Sometimes I'd like to try to

Try moving on without you

Maintaining composture is so hard to do

Confrontations is hard

When your hearts filled

With doubt and I can't seem

To form a sentence with these

Marbles in my mouth

{ 5:45 AM }

Wednesday, July 25, 2007.

i created this : [im lying in my coffin,staring at the stars,thinking about what we've been through.i sit up in my coffin,start to cry my heart out,thinking about all yous empty promises.i stand up in my coffin,feeling the pain no one can omprehend,holding up my left hand and my right with a blade][the crumpled piece of paper in my hand reminding me of our confessions,broke my heart even more.the teddy bear you bought for my birthday are just tools for toying with me.the coffins here represent my love for you][the colours in my coffin is fading.everything is trembling.i took my heart out and bury it in my coffin-six feet under the ground we used to date]

i was just bored in class then my hands just took the pen and scribbled on my foolscap.is this "poem" too sad for you to read?
anyway,recently the weather is getting colder since it kept on raining.tonnes of things happen but im not going into details.no,im not even going to try and recall what the are.what for?it will only make my blood boil.
so,i have to write an essay about "Change" for english.what should i write?so difficult...

exams are around the corner but i just dont feel like studying.just no mood to study.seems like a chore.

i have to go now.bye

{ 3:34 AM }

Friday, July 20, 2007.

went to meet for dinner&shopping with mom last night.we went to Ang Mo Kio hub and Junction 8.these pictures above are taken at Junction 8.haha.so funny right?
i was waiting for my mom to pay for her shoes then i browse through some hats and picked out these two.haha.a red cowboy hat and a purple stripes hat.so hilarious.i dont think i look good in hats,huh?

this is me being "zi-lian"[self-obssess] on the way to meet my mom.
*please take note of the straight hair*

no,there wont be any wedding dinners to attend tonight.haha.i permed my hair!permanent!
what do you think?
weird?
old?
matured?
cute?
funny?
haha.whatever.i cant straighten it now even if i dont like it.it will spoil my beautful,gorgeous,beloved hair.hahahaha.
anyway,i shall get going now.[show off my new hairstyle.although it looks rather similar to my mom's]
=)))))

{ 11:07 PM }

Sunday, July 08, 2007.

I LOVE THE SIMPSONS!
[pictures taken at Tamp-mall,outside Popular]
i know some of you don't like it,but i love it!
its so funny,and takes all my stress away.
so anyway,on Saturday,we went to Escape Theme Park[me,pearline,joel,hanwei]
it was abit not worth because we paid Shiyuan 10 dollars for the free tickets and we only sit one ride[the kiddie ride].pearline dont dare to sit those "challenging" rides,so i accompany her.and when i accompany her,the rest also dont want to sit because they "hum-ji".LOL
are joel and hanwei reading this?
haha.
i was also not feeling well,so never take other rides.
so we went Tampines Mall for our dinner,but could not find any seats.it was damn bloody crowded.so we had to go to the Malay foodcourt in Century Square.recalling it just makes my blood boil!
there's a pair of couple occupying a four-seater.damn inconsiderate.worse is the man is drinking a cup of coffee and the lady is slowly sipping her "humongus" bowl of cheng teng.
then another four seater was occupied by a family of three.guess what?they were taking their own sweeeet time sharing ONE bowl of chendol!
sheesh! Singaporeans really need to exercise some good habits,stop being so "guai-lan"!
we went to the flea market under the train tracks between Tampines and Simei too.
i bought a brown bracelet.and only cost me $2!haha.so happy.
me and pearl saw alot of t-shirts which are really nice too.
but couldnt bear to part with our money.so we controlled ourselves since we had already overspent.
im still thinking about those tops though.sigh.


i did not go school today,i was down with slight fever and sore throat.
hope i get well soon.

till next time!

{ 7:53 PM }

Tuesday, July 03, 2007.

o3/07/07

Hie peeps!There's so much to going on these few days.i just cant quite remember all of the events.haha.silly,huh?Well,thats me!!!By the way,this Sunday,im going to the goat farm,i think it is near Choa Chu Kang area.im going with my father's side.they say they want to spend some time together.Well,im pretty looking forward to it though i know it's going to be rather stinky.'Cause i want to try goat's milk! i know,it's disgusting to even type it out but,we only live our lives only once so why not just make full use of it and try out exotic foods(im not referring to eating endangered animala okay,i LOVE them and swear i will not hurt them).Maybe the goat's milk will taste great right? Afterall,it is scientically proven that goat's milk are healthier than cow's milk.but then again,healthy food usually sucks big time,dont you think?LOL.Gosh,im contradicting myself.Whatever the case,im going to try it out.[hope i dont run to the toilet the minute i drink it.=x]

In addition,my mom has already wrote a letter for disallowing me to OBS[Outward Bound Singapore].im just so happy that i dont have to go OBS.its a relief for me though.the course is from 20th-24th August and is taking place at Pulau Ubin.For your information,Aug is the 7th month(ghost month)in the chinese calendar!And its at Pulau Ubin,neither M'sia nor S'pore!feels deserted.Most importantly,there is no bed,no air-con,no proper toilets and i highly doubt there's any reception!!Do i sound like a spoilt brat?LOL.=) Maybe i am just not adventurous.wait a minute,it is not maybe it is definitely!!haha.i hope i really dont have to go and that the teachers accept the letter[which is not some cooked up excuse,it is actually true.]my mom is actually quite worried that i might get dengue since the dengue cases has been rising recently.There's a part that i dont quite understand though,the actual OBS course is actually not compulsory,but our school[act special?] makes it compulsory.the worse part is they are actually forcing us to fork out money for the medical check up which cost $10-$15.i know its a meagre sum of money,but shouldn't the money-giving part be optional for the students who are really interested?i mean,if you force students who are not interested to go,then they wouldn't benefit from the whole course right?it would be just bullshit for them,since they wont want to participate in those programmes laid out for them.worse still,they use threatening! they actually have the cheek to say that those who are excused from the OBS will have to stay in school till 5.30pm!!! when we end school usually at 2.45pm!!! Look at how much time they have deprived us from when we could use that precious amount of time to go home and hae a bath to refresh then revise homework or going tuitions right?nad the reason for us to stay back in school is to do CIP or some class work will be given,unfortuantely,it is not confirm.for all you know,you might just sit in school from morning to evening doing nothing and nothing at all![because teachers may be too busy to give you private tuitions or give you classwork]
Gawd,isn't there justice in Singapore?!?!

{ 7:37 AM }