i'm so gonna close this blog thing down. hah!

and so they called me babat.. or was it just din?

hey i love my babat k. i mean it's not as if it's blocking ways and acting like a barrier in buses and trains... it's just a barrier for myself. haha.

happy happy happy = eating non stop. well i love to eat. and things i eat are simple stuff. i love the mee mamak.. they're like damn nice la.. well i adore other exotic food and western plus french plus mexican plus italian cuisine but simple food satisfy me as well. esp when i am having a hectic day.

i am fine with anything as long as the place i am eating is free from pests. tt's all. cause i got weak tummy.. anything dirty i will surely puke or shit out. haha. basically food poisoning.

speaking of which, i did have that during raya. so suay! dont know what rubbish i eat but i think all the mixing of food and various beverages just make my poor tummy confused and had to puke it all out. sometimes it feels nice to puke everything out. but it's so tiring! haha

enough of food... let's talk abt sch.

many things happened to deary. which i wont elaborate what cause it's none of my business. yea rite. haha. well, sch's first sem is ending. i still cant believe that i am gg to finish 2nd year very soon. i didnt quite notice first sem has gone so much. it's like blink. and gone. one last paper on wednesday and tons to read. i wish i cld have this power where i can just dream of things to memorise.... i mean how the hell do u remember mor ethan 50 sculpures. so i'm gonna to happily choose those nice and odd looking ones to remember and hopefully they wld fit the essay qns that day. oh well. randomness. so does my grades. i dont wanna care abt it but i have to care abt it. cause it concerns my 4th year. i know tt sucks.. thinking of future when my hobby is never to think. but on the contradictory i have to think a lot in the end. what the hell..

k k getting confused and muggy now already. i shld stop.

by the way...

hmm i miss playing in rain.

ice cream

lays

just being stupid.

and oh ya.. playing soccer. maybe cause now i feel fat. bleargh.

here i am in the school random lab. hehe. now we got the access card.. we can go to any lab or any private room we want so that we can do work... oh dear... i am dying la...

had to do presentation next week. can u imagine i had to do work on raya so that i can present on thursday. a lot of things to do... plus helping at home. to take things easy, i am trying to do more quality work with minimum time spent.. but a little hard isnt it.. cause design evolves... u cant just stick to that one or two ideas u sketched out one night..

hai competition sucks. i mean i am the laziest pppl u can ever find in class... i dont bother doing extra. well in graphic class yesterday, i was supposed to put up my toilet symbol to any toilet door ard sch.. but that silly old crap teacher was like saying.. "oh we can only have 8.. and we have 9 now" she who is like he just scanned ard the room. so i raised up my hand and said i dont mind not displaying mine. yea i can be out. so u guys can have 8 now. and i roll my humongous paper away. well i dont care if my work is publicise or not.. it's my portfolio tt matters more now. i dont care la.. cause some other works selected are like.. hmm shit? nah art is shit. they're just not what i wld do to achieve some kind of a standard. bias and favouritism. urgh.

save me some space man. i can puke already. i am like seeing that silly he/she twice a week for lesson where all we do is wait around. how annoying. so i am like doing other work in her lesson whenever i can. seriously waste time bugger.

datelines after datelines and projects after projects..

tell me how to destress.

my friends are all dying with their film. everyone's knocked out cause of work. not surprise. think the sch system sucks la.. why the hell must i take 3 science subjects just to fulfill my honors. rubbish in garbage biN!

singapore is like damn kiasu.

my fren was telling me she was watching this youtube video of a typo class in some country la.. and they're playing ard with the metal blocks used for early stages of printing! isnt that more cool and beneficial?! LIKE THAT KINDA CLASS ACTIVITY WILL MAKE ME WANNA GO CLASS EACH WEEK! so interactive and hands on.not like now...keep using the goddamn computers to do exercises.. and that sily she/he told us in thebeginning we wont be using much computers cause she wants us to actually draw out letters so we can understand deeper. come la.. she fucking lying. only one pathetic assignment is drawn. the rest are computers. go and eat shit la.

i wish i can change teachers, but i am sure that julie wont let me cause she didnt allow me this sem. kao. i hate my year 2!

i cant wait to get out of this fridge after lesson ends. trust me it's fucking cold in here. and empty.

my inspiration is running dry... hai

down with fever each time i have giant projects to hand in...

my body clock's a little haywaire now, do work till sahur.. then sleep for a while the go sch. what the hell. well at least i handed in most of it. left one giant one to go. it's the silly type in motion. well i love it but to animate 26 goddamn letters is a little tiring man. supposed to have 13 yesterday but i didnt so yea i didnt go class. but hey i did cont doig it when i got home ok..

cheeseburgers or gerburs can do u wonders. it makes u smell the food before you put it into your mouth and when you bite it... oh.... the tastiness. and cheeseburgers can also make you lose you last bus. silly deary can just stare at his last bus leaving cause he wanted to wait for his burger to finish cooking. he ordered two but there's only one in queue. irritating shit right? and he happily smile while i worry how he'd get home.

silly gobshit.

i dont know sometimes he makes me mad at him but i cldnt really scold him. but sometimes he's just so nonsense i would just laugh with him. it's just him la. dont know but he's just so random. haha. and the fact that he cld hum and sing a made up cheeseburger song on his own after he lost the bus. hai. queer boy.

man it's almost 2 weeks of fasting already. very fast. i just cant wait for this semester to be over man... gosh i am so exhausted already.

definately ice cream soon.

can u believe it... i am blogging again after so long. well about 4 months since my last entry. reason? hmm well couldnt be bothered simply because my life was getting a little twisted at some point so i did a lot of journal writing instead. i mean you guys shld know how techno- or nically idiotic i can be with computers. yea sarah or for short meet techno idiot. besides panicking almost instantly when my laptop hangs, the poor monitor screen always taste the slap of my fingers. urgh. i better stop that habit. oh well things are different now cause.... i finally found someone to have ice cream with. and you should know how i love ice cream to death. so yea.

it's not exactly that i'm together or we're one but u know we're getting close and i like that closeness. it made me feel at home. and it's comforting to know when u know that. u know what i mean. well things are gg the way we wanna it to be, so let's just say i am very grateful for this phase in my life.

so a couple of things that has been happening in my life.

i'm in year 2! wow! i still cant believe i am turning 20. like what the hell... the number seemed so big.

i got myself a nice new all black desktop! weee! all for my stupid projects and what my dear friend sais.. all for that piece of paper... hey... its for my future ok..

mr chen, my jc form teacher... is getting married! congratulations! finally he's settling down with someone and not some papers to mark. haha still remember his face when i collected my a's results. haha. of course i didnt do well in his subject he taught la. the grit!

well my parents esp my dad is super alright with me now. very happy. =) and as usual, my mum's constant reminder of cleaning up my wardrobe. its beyond imagination man man.

well fasting month just started. i am thrilled to get thru it.

29 days to go...

hmmm i will post pictures when i feel much brighter.

ten days and i am back on my own bed. here typing all this while missing those days i was in bangkok.

whole dang crap of fabulous fun and screw-ups. ya when i mean crap, i mean it good ya. hai. i am missing those aimless random spontaneous days. waking up just in time to eat breakfast and then zoning off with channel v while deciding where to go, planning our routes which most of the time... didnt exactly go as plan.

but those random sightseeing was fun.

i swore i inhaled a whole lot of diff gases and fumes. not to mention ayul's own share of his carbon monoxide. i thought my lungs wld be so black that it turns white!! the amazing amount of exhaust each vehicle happily farts off. i swear i dont know how those pretty ladies took care of their flawless faces.

well we took all kinds of transport. first, the taxi, then the tuk tuk then the trains. both underground and sky ones. happily laughing at the way the station announcer announces the names of the stations. we dread Hua Lampong Station, for that is the station we got off to get to our hotel for most days. frequently lost on how to get back, avoiding those chinatown smells and the longkang... we finally figured our way to many places.

"i'm not thai!" exaclaimed ayul.

yea it wld help if u dont have that look. hahah. corny bugger.

while he got his dreadlocks on, i had some three silly extensions. i took one off already when i got back. that one just had to go away. my mum was staring at me like some animal exhibition. took her 10 mins just to realise i am her daughter and not some nepal kid trying to sell things.

shopping was crazy. food?... hmmm i dont know. some are shitty... but the kebab in pattaya was awesome. real eygpt kebab alright. right smack in the centre of the streets.

well both of us got sick. took turns. i came down with fever and then a whole drama of tummy ache. and then ayul had his fever and whole drama of vomiting. almost bullemic in nature. no wonder he is so thin. hahah.

well money issue there... is something we hate to think abt. each night calculate how much we spend or ought to spend. and the whole scenario of fucked up white orchid admin. and also the dumb us.

i bet ayul still fret abt his baileys tho he seems to be ok with it. well i still fret about my lychees in the fridge that they cleared away! i bought 2 kgs k! and poor ayul hasnt even tasted one.

i kinda enjoyed the whole random planning trip. floating to one place to another. and the first street vendor meal i had at khaosan road was simply one of those sweet memories i wanna cherish. the pad thai was one of the best i tasted. haha.

hai. how ten days flew.

really glad we covered the whole of bangkok. plus a day trip to ayutthaya using the railway, 2 day trip to pattaya. and we sorta spend within our budget.

got ourselves a nice treat to thai oil massage. for really low price! like only 300 baht. that's like 13 bucks. friggin insane! but i think the highlight of all things, is the riding of rented motorbike in pattaya. ayul sure had fun going ard licence-less and not to mention helmet-less cause his hair wont fit... so i was at the back praying i wld be alright. haha

and i tell u, riding or driving in thailand is insane. no signals, random u-turns, random pedestrians and sudden pop-ups of vehicles at junctions. we almost got hit tho. and we almost fell.

but it was all fun for just 8 bucks to rent a bike the whole day! i guess all the random routes and decisions we made adds up to the fun. tho too smooth a journey wld be boring also. the screw-ups certainly taught me many lessons. at least a future backpacking trip will be better.

and now, i better start planning what i wanna do for the rest of my holidays. any job anyone?