i'm Sorry
i'm Sorry
i'm Sorry

so many things i wanna say ...
but no longer know how to ...
take care .

not only the race is lost ...

just like a little kid ... i need love , care and support ... this road is too long to walk alone ... i am worn out ... no longer able to walk by you ...

OUCH OUCH OUCH
i'm aching all over
head to toe ... inside out ... heart to beat ...
darn ... dunno when i injured myself ...
my ribcage hurts when i cough ... bruised also ):

stupid sophie ):
i hate A level
i hate everything around
i hate myself ...
... for not able to ...

has sophie grown by a little ?
maybe she has ... maybe not .

i love mummy and daddy
i love jiejie s
<3
they are my everything now

不要你什么 只要你快乐

Taylor Swift
A Perfectly Good Heart lyrics

[Chorus 1:]
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall.
And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall.
No matter what you say, I still can't believe
That you would walk away.It don't make sense to me, but

[Repeat Chorus 1:]
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

It's not unbroken anymore.
How do I get it back the way it was before?

[Chorus 2:]
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart,now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break, would you wanna break a

[Repeat Chorus 1:]
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

...Time can't erase a feeling this strong...

I'm just a bitch
and a piece of shit.

Thanks for making me ...
... hating myself more each day .

hahas today sophie is super-ultra highh !!!
she crazy crazily ... hahas
i wonder why ...

and i carried my new bag today ^^

went studying at mac with Yikuang
haha paiseh i very noisy ...
... and said alot that i shouldnt have ...
thanks Yikuang ...
that i can pour every stupid thing and ...
comfortable to talk to ...
cos he is trust-able :)

later Calvin came ...
nice spending time chatting together (:

next time wont be so nosy le =P

had 4 and half lessons straight
the last lesson was Ms Aminah's lecture

OMG ! after her lecture ...
me and gin were super good mood and high lahh
we went to the book shop
and found new collection of SIGNO pens
bought 2 each ... and started to show everyone we met

i goes ...
" HEY HEY ... do you know OMG there are new colours to SIGNO pens !! "
( then i wave my pens at them )
then gin goes ...
" and these ... "
(then she wave her pens )
then we goes
" Wahhhhhh "

hahas we continue with crazy acts
singing ..
elmo songs , banana in pyjamas and if u happy ...
hahas then we high-ing around =p

thanks for supercat-kitty for worrying for me ^^

later we sat outside library do work
junyi and yikuang came back (:
so nice to see them

ohh me and gin did this
see how can A levels do to 2 "little" girls ...

see how childish or bored we became ...

then i went to do PTD duty with Sumaiyah
hahas the food they gave
seriously not that good
wasnt in the mood to eat ...
so stole a few mouth from childhood sweetheart
and gotten an apple

thanks childhood sweetheart for being such a sweetie ^^

me , wendy , yi jing , melissa , royston and some others
did foyer duty ...
it was nice to meet all kind of parents ...
the 'bo caph ' u kind , the super nice kind and others

was quite disappointed with myself lahh
cos everyone commented i looked shag and haggard ...
wasnt really feeling that well ...
so was not functioning quite well ...

sorry to parents that i didnt manage to usher them ...
or wasnt polite enough ...
or maybe even ushering them to the wrong place ( if i did )
haiz ... i contribute to bad service sia
disappointing ...

xinku le

to everyone who played their part for PTD

rest well !!!

then i left school around 9
my stupid legs gave wway ...
had to drag them (--) sian ...
yesterday my knee gave way

settle myself down at MAc at a corner
did abit of work
intended to stay till 11 plus de
but my legs and head hurts ...

on the way home met jolene (:

nice to see u girl ^^ tC

home

wait wait i need to recall ...

ohh
monday had Econ ASP

Tuesday had Geog ASP

before that was healthy diet talk
they showed the unhealthy food and calories
which intended to make us cut down in consumption
but instead
it made us feel like eating more ...

after Geog ends at 615
rush home and went dinner
with erjie , samuel kor , dad and mum
to AMK tian wai tian

sucky i loathe bad service (-- )

then later we went to PaSA malam
hehe cos i wanted to get a bag badly
but they didnt give me concrete suggestion
so i started whinning
and whinning and whinning
until about to go home ...
the one hour ...
i acted like a total spoilt brat ...
( prefer to be known as well taken care off =p )
in the end i didnt get the bag :(
still considering thou

Wednesday had GEog Consultation

stayed in the library
with sai gin for a while
then meet up with yikuang
yikuang and john gave me moral support while i did my run
complex feeling while running
remaining : 479 .
told myself to delete and delete
no matter how hard i tried ... it still ...
maybe that the different btw human and machines

then later Calvin drove us to N.P.
Yikuang , John , JiaJie and MSB had dinner at B.K.
had a crazy time laughing
until jaw pain ... hahas .
nice to spend time together (:
then Calvin and YiKuang send me and MSB home
^^ thanks alot !

Thursday had CLL ASP

stayed in school for cll test
wahhh dunno how to do lah ... sianzed
JC1 had their listening compre
so JC2 had to be stuffed in the library

stayed in library with Stephanie and Gin and Gin's "family"
attempted to do some work

OMG !! JC1 had their extra physic at 7pm
wahhhhh so scary la ...
some JC 1 are working harder than some JC2
like me ... no.1 slacker

was so paiseh paiseh paiseh ...
today rush for lesson ... went into lecture hall ... everyone inside le ... teacher started le ... then me and Maya rush in ... and sat down ... everyone was looking at us ... then we REALISED we are in the H1 lecture ... we WENT IN TOO EARLY (-- ) was so paiseh !!! then the lesson ended 5 mins later ... we stayed while everyone left ... ( -- )" ... hahas

i tried to lie to myself and realised it doesnt work . went for runs , buried myself in books and loud music , rot myself in bed and everything else ... and realised i'm still trying to lie to myself . everything around ... just reminds me ... the days ...and those were all past tense now . no matter how hard i tried , still failed to get rid of the emptiness inside ... hollow , bare and broken. staring at the notes and get nothing inside ... make me even more depressed ... i dun need anyone to tell me how near are the exam dates ... still ... i am totally hopeless . in the end who am i trying to lie ... that i am fine ?

i got a new hobby - sky watching . its give me a sense of living ... uhh dunno how to explain that . its just nice and peaceful .
just stole some time here while printing maths . awwww you dont know how much i loathe maths .
anyways had a mini chat with min wormy . nice (: it has being long since we chat.
anyways i'm quite sad about not able to spend time with my cliques . i missed kenny's birthday and yesterday i missed irwin pre-birthday celebration and the mini bbq session ): awww i miss u people . lurve lurve lurve .

cant wait to change my blogskin ... after As ): ... no time for it now .
ASP official starts next week . haiz .
jia you Sophie jia you People !!!

ends here (:


MINYI. no one. says:
yupps yupps. please jia you

MINYI. no one. says:
need more you can ask from me

MINYI. no one. says:
i can go & cheer you on!

MINYI. no one. says:
afterall im a cheerleader! :D

so sweet of my wormy (:

and she put this in her PM
" SOPHIE IS THE BEST ! (: "

lovees u too my wormy
muack ! thanks thanks thanks :D

went to school today
hahas enjoyed econ lectures today

few people to thanks

thanks
sai gin
for accompay me to run and
all the times in school

thanks
yi kuang and sharon
for being by my side

thanks
john and jiajia
for all the craps
muhahaha

thanks
the naughty kitty
who pon school ( i also )
thanks i'll be fine (:

and many many
although i didnt mention names
but i thanks u people



few days ago
i was completely broken
and sorry
for my attitude and ignoring msgs

thanks people
i'll pick myself up soon

sorry yi kuang
shouldnt have vent my anger on you
i'm sorry

sorry people
thanks for the effort
but i'm already too tired to smile ...
give me time ...
thanks




yesterday 12
today 14
and its still not enough
how much more then can i ...
... forget ?
tomorrow 16 ? how much more needed ?

sharon dear
thanks for everything ...
i'll be fine ... please dun worry .
i will pick up the pieces myself .

I Was Reminded
by Alicia S

As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts

As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

Feeling so melancholy now ...