i wanna scream, i wanna run and hide, i wanna be strong, i wanna quit, no i can't quit, i can do this, it is me? or is it not me?, its so out of control.....
can one felt so out of control, so overworked so stressed out your brain just go blank and numb and all you can do is to wish that the earth would open up and swallow you in alive? can one also wish that one be transformed into a speck of dust so that the wind would blow one away in one guff and be vanished?
this is exactly what is going on inside my brain.
the expression on my face is deceiving, the tone of my voice does is deceiving, it does not reflect what im feelin'. inside me...argh! go away, don't disturb me, leave me alone, im busy, stop calling me, i wanna finnish my work and go home...
feelin' like one is all alone in an ocean drowning screamin' and no one would hear. this is insane, i can't work like this...something is not right...is it the system? or is it me?
"how is your learning process?" "she is a good teacher, but are you a good student?" dammit. what a crap. one is just learning to crawl and one is expected run.
paper work, work flow, write-ups, pointless reports...argh ! please give one a break...

in spite of all this...one actually believe one can make it through. One only need a think skin, a 'deaf' ear, a fake smile, a positive attitude and a belief that whatever bad things that happened it is a sign that great things are coming your way.

UOB Gala Dinner 2006 (6-7th Jan)

This year's Gala Dinner was held at Genting Highland. The theme for this year is Floral Night.

Teambuilding and Motivational Workshop on Saturday.

All set. Photo is taken inside Millie & Mei Lee's room. From left: Kar Mun, Millie, Rozie, Me.

At the Genting International Showroom where the Gala Dinner was held.

A performance by our colleagues from Southern Region Branch.

Christmas in Kuching

This year's Christmas was celebrated in Kuching. Arrived in Kuching on X-mas eve and checked-in to Kuching Hilton at about 1.30 pm. Hmm....Kuching is rather similar to Penang in a way cos there are lotsa green and blue (trees and ocean). Roads are bumpy, especially when you travel away from the city where the lands are swampy. I have to mention this cos my trip to the croc farm was the bumpiest ride i've ever had ! felt as though my inner organs gonna detached itself from my body. Anyway, it was a pleasant trip. here are some pics.

On Christmas Day. Getting on board a coach that will take us sightseeing for the day.

Sarawaks Cultural Village. Tourist's get to see and experience the long houses stayed by the different tribes. And this is me getting ready to cross the "bridge" to see all the houses. This bamboo bridge reminds me of my girl guiding years. Each of us are given a 'passport' to be stamped after you have entered the long houses. Each stamped will earn you a "kaki lang" status.

A wooded statue. Taken at the cultural village. Actually I have no idea what it's suppose to be and why is it so.

This photo was taken at the 'back yard' of one of the rumah panjang.

Going up to the rumah panjang. The stairs are quite steep. Actually a tourist crash landed on her backside while going down the stairs. These houses are not user friendly la.

At the crocodile Farm. This baby could be almost 10 feet long.

Cultural performance at The Cultural Village. It's a 45 minutes show showcasing sarawak's major tribe.