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i dun see the point for me to continue posting. so i shall just stop. lest there are new friends nex year and blogging is some topic for striking a conversation, i shall not delete :O

happy bdae to my beloved tuition teacher. in advance! :D last bdae in singapore before heading to aussie.

IM SO PROUD OF SINGAPORE! first asian idol comes from singapore!!! :DDD i got a strong feeling singapore will win cus hady is the most good looking! :x YES! :D

went to christmas gathering at xz's church in DHOBY GHAUT (i spelt correctly finally after someone corrected me -.-)
PLEASE HELP. i realy need to. REALLYY. :( sobs i cant stop thinking. i hope my prayers are heard. but normally is other ppl pray then effective rite. HELP!!! :( sobsob... i dunwan to go tat pae :((( dun wan.sob. its so ass far. blame it on my darn results and cca.my mom kinda regretted not letting me join the cca i wanted at first. MUSIC. i love music since small. my dreams were shattered wen my mom forbade.0 dear o dear ... cant blame anyone anw. she wanted me to concentrate on studies. i believed her at first tat olvl oni results show everything. but NO. sobsob. sobsobsob. duno wad to sae liao -.-

so today, i was yet again, mentally prepared to receive those funny looks of theirs. "HEY QY, u got go for pae? wad sch ah?"
my reply "**** lor"
others "oooh."
ask them wad sch "anderson" "catholic" "temasek" "ny lor"
actually i shd be happy for them. but im unable to. wenever i tink i m going to a school strangers all around. and not a gd one indeed. sobsob.

i oso dun like ppl spreading whr i went. ok maybe i did tat myself.but tats becus im proud of them getting into that particular sch.if anyone wanted to noe ask ME. if i noe anyone does tat, (i alrdy noe some) i wld be deeply disappointed. i alrdy am. duh. but forget it. i noe if i had gotten into some gd sch, i wld be showing off now and not begging ppl not to spread arnd. i wld love them to spread. if its gd of cos. sobsob. i wun be sobbing so mani times here if i put in my best. and not waste time for nothing. i wld have done better.

im blaming myself. look, its me.

i dun wan to think back anymore!!!!! once i tink of ch i wld think of geog n ss. wen i tink of geog i totally lost confidence. at first i still have. but i tink more n more my bit of confidence was gone. now i thought the whole paper was disasterous (spell?)..ss oso. at first i still gave miss zaiton a thumbs up. now it seemed like everything had gone into ash. ok at least i noe i can do it for maths n am. i tot my eng can get like b4. now i tink a c6 wld be the extreme.why i become like that!!! omg.

i hope i can exchanged all my maple goodies n audition for my pae n results.i got a feeling i wld get into the same sch as my bro AGAIN.but not IT of cos. sob. but i dun wan.but im the least confident in my english. GP!!. sobsob. how many times mus i sob u noob. arse. sry readers. tis blog is jus for me to vent everything tat i wanted to sae.i roughly noe who are those regular readers too. thanks anw for visiting and letting me noe theres people who wanted to know abt me.or maybe see how im dying? haha.if i realli die then too late for u all to pity me man. lol. :)

RAH

everyone thinks my results are good jus becus my overall mark is gd. but i wan the L1R5! so saddeddd.

saddedd

sadded

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pae sch.. sad ~~ :( sadded. first day. strangers all around. im such an ass. i shd have taken higher chinese in sec 2. i shd have beg for more points in my cca . jus one point away to 2 bonus. i shd have invest more time in studies. i shd have i shd have! all those shiet. i shd have my own mind. i noe its jus pae and its not olvl. pae is important to me. !!sadded. what shall i do. seeing my peers getting into good schools. if my result come out bad (NO!), ppl will think how i predict that they will be thinking.

~~~~~~~~ :( how am i to go for my holiday.with this freakin ass mood. my target dropped day by day. perhaps i might as well go poly in the end. take up accounts or finance or wadever tats it. u see poly has a lesser risk of retaining. while jc, once u fail ur gp paper, which i most likely will, u get retain... poly also has lesser stress than in jc. poly can wear home clothes and dye hair.poly i can go to the course i like i presume.like calculating stuffs. then i dunid to face those languages. poly oni last year then got napfa test. jc i most likely will die during pe. like how newspapers reported on numerous deaths when running 2.4km. i might be the nex one. who knows. i oni know i dun haf tat motivation to get out and jog.

i dun like ppl to pity me or look down on me or keep saying i can do it and all those.i understand myself best. i noe whr i stand. i dreamt i had a 15 or 16 point for l1r5 and that dream had colours. cc told me coloured dreams are real. i rmb wearing my green watch while holding on to a paper. with a big printing L1R5 : 15/16 (cant rmb)

im going to prepare for the worst. i knew i din do well for humanities. but pls dun fail me. if i fail i wld be dead. i rather receive my results and haf that WOW impression and (pretend) that i duno i cld get such ' brilliant' results than to have a OMG impression in a bad way, as in having too much confidence, taking ppl's advice tat i can do it and break down in the hall infront of ppl. i wun be tat vulnerable duh. u ppl wun get to see tis. :) which im glad to say.

im glad home is well again.last minute bookings were made so we cant get to the place we wanted. awww. anw. gah

sadded. this is NOT an emo post. ha. its a SAD post. duh. isnt it the same? i doubt so. DOUBT. wad a strong word i see frequently.

o.o wah everyday also got ppl come my blog . :O and its the same old person. for the sake of the anonymous visitor i shall update once again! :D

did i say i quit my job long ago? i worked for like 2 days? hha. but ive gotten my 80$ pay anw :D not that i dun like this job, its the fugly boss that made me quit! torture ! abuse! no lunchbreak for that two days.no break at all. my mom said at least mus haf two breaks de. zz. then cc is working at the thomson plaza! rah how i wished i snatched her job in the first place.

pae results out tml x.x i lost like 90% of my confidence for my olvl already x.x actually my target is 10, then 12. now 14 x.x hais

i wan to go pooling again. and tis time i wan many ppl!

okay now its photo updates.randomly.


tat time after ms lew's wedding de arcade photo :D


tuition outing at prinsep minds cafe :D funn!! :DDD
from left: charmaine, me, amanda, michelle n samuel!actually got more ppl. but we were the last ones left :P



bdae gift by cc > snoopy stamp!


billards table aka drawer XD made by cc :O



CD of love songs. lol. i will try to love them x.x



snacks she brought from korea :D the snoopy chop above look cool! XD


big bdae box ! hee


QUACK!




























MY NEW CASH AVATAR!! :D

woootzz tats all!

i wish i can have a good boss in the future. otherwise i go be boss myself. HAHAHA :x tolerance! i thought im good at this. but im wrong. so wrong! i cant tolerate her unreasonable barking orders. nvm i shall complain to one person. write here oso useless. i played ms in del world today n im finally a magician -.- lol! added jooudesu. hee. see my mom nags again. make potato salad for everyone, all i got back was blahblah. zzz. cus i made the wok chao ta accidentally. and all my potatos. u noe wad? not that they din eat. they threw all away. scared got poison blahblah. my 3hours of efforts. just like that.

take one more pac of small green bean (saw mom taking one too) she sae 'we're different. u cant eat' i asked why! she said " ur weight **kg leh! still eateateat"

u noe. during the two days of working i wasnt offered any lunchbreak. no u dun. no one understands how i feel. cus everyones pink in health. im not. if i din quit the job by the end of the month i wld be in the hospital bed.

i wonder why all my efforts ALWAYS GO DOWN THE DRAIN! i can use tis sentence if i get poor olvl results. again. still sae wan to be my friend. talk to u awhile then wun greet back. bo sim.

i dun look forward to anything somehow. im playing everyday and thats how i spend my holidays.

torturous days these two days had been.come back soon!!! ive got soo sooo much to complain! :) u dun believe i actually went to work! haahaa. but sucks. i got backache all over now and leg pain. hands scratched as if ppl wld tink i emo. haha. 80bucks for two days. in return of those pain and agony. not worth it! carry so many books! heavy boxes! bend down for so many hours and sort out papers! rmb dnt we nid to draw figures on somewhat look like graph paper? that whole packet! i sort out, counting the paper ONE BY ONE! and put in the plastic and seal it! omg now everyone must treasure ok. haah. and the booklist. u noe how much effort i have to put in to staple for the whole school? yes amkss! and zhonghuasec! how much strength needed to staple one! imagine more than 500! no wonder anna dun wan last minute! luckily u din take! haha. its jus great coming back on my computer screen and chat with peeps like charmaine. hahaa so funny. XD

:D i hope my mama is fine. ooh ooh im gonna make potato salad again tml! XD my tuition teacher loves it and shes going overseas to study nex feb :( no more tuition no more seeing her. 8years of teacher! omg . :D i wonder if all jobs are like that. :/ no bah. oni mine. sucks. :D come back!!! tml 1am! awaiting ur return. heehee. omgg im gona eat jap food @ MOF on mon with yiyi XD woots. and help auntie sell year end books in the morning tgthr. heee. gd girl! XD omg my right ear hurts abit. is it infected?!?! but ive waited for two weeks before eating seafood! grad nite is the first nite i eat seafood! im a gd gal! dun let me get infected! :( I CANT PULL OUT MY EAR STUD SOMEONE HELP!!! my mom pulled till my ear almost tore. x.x i cant figure out how to get that thing out. darn! :D lol. maybe she pulled too hard thats why my right ear kinda pain! :x lol. nah.

SO DEAD BEAT! Zzzz

this is my 300th post! woo!! lol. i shdnt be getting worried for nothing wen the report is not out yet, so i shd play to the fullest .. ... z. ytd is ms lew's wedding! today is her bdae! happy bdae! XD ytd's wedding ceremony was a successful and kinda funny one :D luckily no nid invitation card or else xueyi gotta be somebody's imposter in our invitation card. lol! and on the way back home, i got on bus 165 and coincidentally met anna, dave, alvin n binghong. i went up with xz n xy. lol. then i accidentally go amk hub with them cus anna wanted to buy clutch. and i bought my hp pouch and casing too! XD after that we went up to the arcade and play those kiddy games and won loadsa tickets!!! heehee for more prizes go to anna's blog. >_>

i may be starting work tml! heehee. its kinda faraway! its at the building down lorong ah soo i tink >_> goodness. i going with xz!!! heehee. 9-5pm.. hard work. x.x omg cant go out play liao!!! nvm! oso not going holiday liao.. cus of mom. x.x

heh. this is my side look of my hair. see my mom on the left. shes lying down with 3 days of mc...
she said my hair looked gd. at first i thought its not tat gd till she said. :)! she wanted to do make up for me. eee. rita is a good hairstylist and conversationist!



in the car. so shaky. woooo!



lifang xingzhi and xueyi. omg the first time wen xy walked towards me i was like so shocked. ha. totally different. i thought xz looked nice in tis outfit. similar as mine!



black black. without flash. ha. my bag was huge so mani squeezed their belongings into my bag. XD



weiting looked cool! ^^



jin cheng and jasper. tablemates. the pathetic 8. quiety. haha. but not awkward at all :)



cladys xueyi and me. in the toilet. i thought the six star toilet was cool! the mirrors look like the national library toilet! hahaha.



kaili!!! my ex-tablemate in 2/5. hahaha!!!



rachel!!!! she looked super rocky! o.o wad word is tat! stylo! cool!



peixuan! tio shock! hahaha. looked different too!



jiaying! heehee



this two dave and alvin -.- see my face! hahaha



kinda lame pose. but ahahahaa!!!



OMG which nerd is this!!!! so sickening!! HAHAHA



posing on the stairs!!!



stop wrapping u with ur shawl 24/7!!! haha :x



one level above the ballroom! seats!



puijun huh!



weiliang looked kinda constipated beside me -.-



umph.. funny photo.cheryl tan! brave woman!!



stop pushing me lydia!!



ok tats better



with waffles!



cassandra looked pretty !



yunxi dressed up very well!! so cool man! :D



hey whos this mad woman.



haha but i love mad people! :D muahs!

how can i be happy now! omg. i mus slap myself.