i have one more week left :(
really been having mixed feelings about in especially after since it struck me a few days ago that i've been in denial about leaving. i kept thinking i had a few weeks left :S
nonetheless...during the past month i've managed to catch up with a few people, church in particular and suddenly i learn to treasure them all and i'm really gonna miss all of them loads esp after the massive amount of time we spent together.
OH PACEYYYYYYY!!! i miss you loads!! ever since we stopped work we've barely seen one another :( :( :( OH WOE IS US!!!!!!!!! WORK IS EVIILLLL! I WANT TO COMPLAIN TO THE MINISTRY OF MANPOWER! IT IS RIDDING YOU OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME WITH MEEEEEE!!! :( :( :( :(
with everyone else at school and with my dear pacey at work...all i have left is chrystal and her dog tasha to entertain me now and then. oh chrrryyssstttaaalllllll now i'll remember u as my tall friend who walks super fast who is very wise and dragged me around comex like a little rag doll.
AAAHHHH-NEEEE-WWWHHHEEEEYYYY... i have discovered abit of myself too during the past few days of trying to shop for all the stuff that i need including clothes. oh somebody kill me.. for one...i realised i hate crowds and they make me all panicky and stressed. like i'll go abit haywire and i reckon if i do not restrain myself i may go mad and start screaming like how fann wong does in the current 9pm chinese drama. [YES I AM A CHEEENAAAPOK] or maybe i'm just a drama queen who likes making a mt everest out of my molehill boobs. HAHAHA. I AM STARTING TO BECOME A PERVERT...all the fault of art school. well you see..everyone else is doing cool stuff like analysing stocks (ok..this ain't very cool..but it's grown up) or reading case files like the bunch of lawyer buddies that i already have..WHILE IIIIII..will be drawing nudes -___-''' i'll never see people the same way ever again. BEWARE!!!!!!!!!! i may strip u down naked but all in the name of art. i'll never see a hot guy and say he's hot in a lustful manner. but rather..perhaps i'll judge their hotness based on how proportionate he is, or how nicely sculpted he is, with his muscles at 28 degree angle chiselled off each ab. hahaha. I'M BLABBERING NONSENSE.
oh..that's nothing new nothing new...
thus as i lay in bed every night and think (YES I DO THINK...much due to chrystal's influence and encouragement to use more of my brain..like why is the earth round..which i have found an answer to that! it's got to do with the falling of light from the sun on the earth. art is amazing. i got the answer from imagining the white blocks of spheres and cylinders we do from still life practice)..i can't help but fear and wonder what will happen if i regret doing art just the way i did in high sch? after watching crimminal minds the other day and some other drama, i noticed i'd like to work with kids in dysfunctional family, or simply kids that are hurt and need some love. i just have this soft spot for them...ah well...i sure hope i'm not going into the wrong profession by doing art :(
then again....i am so easily inspired...like how as i watch Army Daze and some channel U 11pm police academy drama, i am very much tempted to sign on with the army cos their life don't seem so bad after all. but i BET...if any of the army boy friends i have read that..they will say YOU THINK SO FUN AHHHHHHH. meh....u'll never know until u try ;p
Friday, August 29, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
i'm so bored i'm watching my schoolmate's introduction videos on Facebook. it's pretty interesting what you can get. so far there's only one dude that i reckon i would consider hanging out with. everyone else is just..S-T-R-A-N-G-E and W-E-I-R-D. they're either all over the hoodie thing or acting all emo and cool :S idk.
i reckon the videos are pretty art school kid style. you get your typical gay fashion dude that's pretty disgustingly floppy. there's this white dude who is really like those gay designers on project runway, with your atas hat and scarf and vest. not that i stereotype...but u really can't help it...IT'S REALITY! male fashion designers are GAY!! hahahaha. and then there's another black dude. he didn't say what his major was...but i assume it's fashion or smth along those lines. though he looks NORMAL at first in plain tee and jeans...the moment he started talking..i knew it was wronnggggg...to fully demonstrate how he is like...think JAY ALEXANDER on america's next top model...the black guy known as MS jay.
yep. i'm still unsure whether to do one. i don't want to be famously known for smth embarassed and have no one wanting to befriend me cos they think i'm weird. ah well..to do or not to do..that's the question. haha
i reckon the videos are pretty art school kid style. you get your typical gay fashion dude that's pretty disgustingly floppy. there's this white dude who is really like those gay designers on project runway, with your atas hat and scarf and vest. not that i stereotype...but u really can't help it...IT'S REALITY! male fashion designers are GAY!! hahahaha. and then there's another black dude. he didn't say what his major was...but i assume it's fashion or smth along those lines. though he looks NORMAL at first in plain tee and jeans...the moment he started talking..i knew it was wronnggggg...to fully demonstrate how he is like...think JAY ALEXANDER on america's next top model...the black guy known as MS jay.
yep. i'm still unsure whether to do one. i don't want to be famously known for smth embarassed and have no one wanting to befriend me cos they think i'm weird. ah well..to do or not to do..that's the question. haha
Thursday, August 21, 2008
going to SCAD gives me the impression of going to hogwarts. minus alot of stuff like magic of course.
somehow i wished there'd be really magic involved. I wish i could ride a train instead of flying over. it'll defintely be more fun and perhaps..during one of my breaks i will do that. to add to the harry potter-ness of SCAD would be the old historical buildings we're having classes in, coupled with crazy art students who are bound to pretend they ARE in hogwarts, and then there's the wacky PROFESSORS which i still reckon it's pretty cool to call them PROFESSORS like in Harry Potter and then there;s smth called my SUPPLIES list. which other class in college will you get a SUPPLIES list? you'll only get a list of texts to get right?
haha. you can't beat art schoo man in hogwarts-dom.
nonetheless, i'm still shocked at the list. i mean..there's so many things that i've never heard before and what the hell..i even have band aid as part of my supplies list. NOW WE KNOW HOW DANGEROUS ART SCHOOL IS. hahaha. i still reckon that's pretty cool :)
the stuff in my supplies list sound as foreign and as magical as a toad foot and polyjuice potion. what on earth is a 9B woodless charcoal pencil??? i always thought 8B was the DARKEST..and now there's 9B?!?!
oohhh..excitingnesss :)
somehow i wished there'd be really magic involved. I wish i could ride a train instead of flying over. it'll defintely be more fun and perhaps..during one of my breaks i will do that. to add to the harry potter-ness of SCAD would be the old historical buildings we're having classes in, coupled with crazy art students who are bound to pretend they ARE in hogwarts, and then there's the wacky PROFESSORS which i still reckon it's pretty cool to call them PROFESSORS like in Harry Potter and then there;s smth called my SUPPLIES list. which other class in college will you get a SUPPLIES list? you'll only get a list of texts to get right?
haha. you can't beat art schoo man in hogwarts-dom.
nonetheless, i'm still shocked at the list. i mean..there's so many things that i've never heard before and what the hell..i even have band aid as part of my supplies list. NOW WE KNOW HOW DANGEROUS ART SCHOOL IS. hahaha. i still reckon that's pretty cool :)
the stuff in my supplies list sound as foreign and as magical as a toad foot and polyjuice potion. what on earth is a 9B woodless charcoal pencil??? i always thought 8B was the DARKEST..and now there's 9B?!?!
oohhh..excitingnesss :)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
it's a happy day :)
life is so much more fun when you throw away all it's complications and live it simply :) we went back to the old day activities of sandcastle building and kite flying. WHEEEEE :)
the 2 pairs of paceys, each half doing one activity each :D bobo and chrystal started off kite flying until the wind blew the kite down into the water and i guess it got too wet to fly. it was a really funny moment cos it was really something to be expected and yet they still did it. haha. laughed like crazy when it did. OH FUN ;)
then they joined cheryl and i in the process of sandcastle building :) cheryl shall be now known as MOATY cos she was soooo mad about her moat :S it was quite dumb of us to put so much effort in the moat cos in the process of building up the middle we kinda ruined it. so there she was screaming "MY MOAT!" all the time as we kept stepping and kicking sand into it and breaking the moat walls down while we built up the middle. Sandcastle building is srsly rather tiring and my leg muscles kept spasming which made it even more tiring. haha. nonetheless...we managed to complete our sandcastle in about 2.5 hr -3 hrs and we're damn proud of it :) THE MOAT CAN ACTUALLY HOLD WATER OK! for a while at least. haha
Front view:
Side view:
we were sooooo proud when people including photography enthusiasts came to take pictures of and with our sand castle. it was attracting sooo much attention :D now we know how God feels about us. SOOO PROUD AND PROTECTIVE of His creation.
chrystal and i left shortly after bumming around for an hour to chill at gelare. Since it was tuesday...it's WAFFLES DAY :D so the 2 of us had a waffle each and then we went back to check on it. it was still attracting photo takers and SOMEONE WITH ITCHY FINGERS SCRATCHED ON "I LOVE YOU" BLOODY HELL! vandalisers!!! GRRRRR
then we overheard the giggling china girls woo-ing and ah-ing and then one of them claimed to build the sandcastles. LIKE HELLO! IN FRONT OF US! DAMN YOU! now i know how it feels for someone to plagarise work. GANASAI! CURSES!!!
Monday, August 18, 2008
packing is such a chore!!! oh goodness gracious. i'm thankful for my 2 roomies who have been so cooperative in volunteering to bring the bigger stuff like a printer and tele and car etc. YAY. we've settled everything that we need to settle. hahaha. happinesss. FACEBOOK IS SOOO USEFUL :D
bah. but packing here on the other hand is a headache :( i was digging around in my cupboard for warmer clothes to bring over and I REALISED SOMETHING! all along i thought my cupboard was full of my ugly clothes that i'm hiding in there cos i totally hate them. BUT TODAY...WHEN I SEARCHED THROUGH MY WARDROBE, I REALISED WITH A HORROR THAT 7/8 of my wardrobe belongs to my younger brother!! I AM IN SUCH A PATHETIC STATE OF BEING CLOTHELESS. hahaha. shopping time ;D
shucks..i feel quite lost. shopping is a foreign word to me. let alone an activity. i need to go shopping for more clothes. hahah.
bah. but packing here on the other hand is a headache :( i was digging around in my cupboard for warmer clothes to bring over and I REALISED SOMETHING! all along i thought my cupboard was full of my ugly clothes that i'm hiding in there cos i totally hate them. BUT TODAY...WHEN I SEARCHED THROUGH MY WARDROBE, I REALISED WITH A HORROR THAT 7/8 of my wardrobe belongs to my younger brother!! I AM IN SUCH A PATHETIC STATE OF BEING CLOTHELESS. hahaha. shopping time ;D
shucks..i feel quite lost. shopping is a foreign word to me. let alone an activity. i need to go shopping for more clothes. hahah.
Friday, August 15, 2008
only the super pro in language like su hui can express things fully well...taken from her blog..
"...But if there's something I realised on Sunday, when we were semi-sprawled on the concrete SMU grounds, it's that a little bit of distance is not going to take away what we've built for 7 years (wow, come to think of it, that IS a long time, considering we're only 19). For sure, we're not going to be able to do all the silly thing we all love doing together for a while, but hey we've been doing stupid things for years, which means that fortunately (or unfortunately) being silly, embarassing and completely retarded are intrinsic to who we are and nothing --not even law school, art school, math school, engineering school and computing school, and fashion school is going to take that away from us. And when we come back together (God knows when that will be but soon I hope) there will be time for us to be goofy again. I'm not so naive as to think that we can pick up where we left off, and of course I know it's going to take a lot of effort to constantly include each other in our separate lives, more so because we are not a phonecall or busride away from each other anymore. But I've always believed that all things happen for a reason and that everything is going to be ok in the end. Although I must admit I wasn't too sure about this just a week ago, when everything was crummy and about to fall apart.But things are going to be ok. The people who will stay in your lives, will stay no matter what. And the people who don't, I'd like to think they felt their time was up and it was time to go away.Now let's stop taking ourselves too seriously and laugh the whole thing off. It's only three years for God's sake, not three decades. And in this age of skype, web cams and facebook, what the hell is three years but a flurry of superpokes and muffled internet voice calls in the weekends?"
from su hui the wise. this is the difference between the future lawyer and the future artist. the lawyer expresses herself in a way most people understand and to some extent, feel the way she feels..the artist here is super vague and i think only she herself is able to understand and feel what she is feeling. i'm so pathetic. haaha
nonetheless...the whole going away is teaching me to treasure my friendships. i used to take forgranted the time needed to invest in such relationships, but now i try to suck in every second, to take in every single memory so when i'm over in Savannah and i feel all sad and lonely, i can always pull those wonderful memories out that will make me smile again :) Despite all the emo-ing, i'm thankful for it because now i make the effort to spend not just time with people, but quality time to talk and to share and to know them better. and now i realise...i've been missing out on so much. nonetheless..better late than never :)
been contacting with my roommates daily and i'm thankful that everything is awesome so far :) judging from our self introductions, we're really pretty much the same in our habits. none of us are neat freaks but we will keep the place sanely livable, all of us listen to all kinds of music but we enjoy musicals and disney soundtracks like all nerds and kiddies do and we're all super laid back people who tend to go mad now and then just for the fun of it :) it's awesome. as we chat online and try and settle things, i believe this will all workout well and we're gonna have a whale of a time together and maybe...just maybe...stay roommates for quite some time :)
life is good to me :D
with great friends around and God to take care of every single detail in my life..what more can i ask for?
"...But if there's something I realised on Sunday, when we were semi-sprawled on the concrete SMU grounds, it's that a little bit of distance is not going to take away what we've built for 7 years (wow, come to think of it, that IS a long time, considering we're only 19). For sure, we're not going to be able to do all the silly thing we all love doing together for a while, but hey we've been doing stupid things for years, which means that fortunately (or unfortunately) being silly, embarassing and completely retarded are intrinsic to who we are and nothing --not even law school, art school, math school, engineering school and computing school, and fashion school is going to take that away from us. And when we come back together (God knows when that will be but soon I hope) there will be time for us to be goofy again. I'm not so naive as to think that we can pick up where we left off, and of course I know it's going to take a lot of effort to constantly include each other in our separate lives, more so because we are not a phonecall or busride away from each other anymore. But I've always believed that all things happen for a reason and that everything is going to be ok in the end. Although I must admit I wasn't too sure about this just a week ago, when everything was crummy and about to fall apart.But things are going to be ok. The people who will stay in your lives, will stay no matter what. And the people who don't, I'd like to think they felt their time was up and it was time to go away.Now let's stop taking ourselves too seriously and laugh the whole thing off. It's only three years for God's sake, not three decades. And in this age of skype, web cams and facebook, what the hell is three years but a flurry of superpokes and muffled internet voice calls in the weekends?"
from su hui the wise. this is the difference between the future lawyer and the future artist. the lawyer expresses herself in a way most people understand and to some extent, feel the way she feels..the artist here is super vague and i think only she herself is able to understand and feel what she is feeling. i'm so pathetic. haaha
nonetheless...the whole going away is teaching me to treasure my friendships. i used to take forgranted the time needed to invest in such relationships, but now i try to suck in every second, to take in every single memory so when i'm over in Savannah and i feel all sad and lonely, i can always pull those wonderful memories out that will make me smile again :) Despite all the emo-ing, i'm thankful for it because now i make the effort to spend not just time with people, but quality time to talk and to share and to know them better. and now i realise...i've been missing out on so much. nonetheless..better late than never :)
been contacting with my roommates daily and i'm thankful that everything is awesome so far :) judging from our self introductions, we're really pretty much the same in our habits. none of us are neat freaks but we will keep the place sanely livable, all of us listen to all kinds of music but we enjoy musicals and disney soundtracks like all nerds and kiddies do and we're all super laid back people who tend to go mad now and then just for the fun of it :) it's awesome. as we chat online and try and settle things, i believe this will all workout well and we're gonna have a whale of a time together and maybe...just maybe...stay roommates for quite some time :)
life is good to me :D
with great friends around and God to take care of every single detail in my life..what more can i ask for?
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
24 days before i leave for scad...and counting
as the days i have left in singapore dwindle, i can't help but feel all emo about it. i lie in bed at night and look around me and the fact that i'm gonna leave this familiarity behind soon scares me. i've never been by myself before, never slept alone in a room...yet soon all this will come...scares me to think that i'll have to sleep in a big strange room all by myself for a few days before my other roommates arrive at scad. :S ah well...i'm going to miss alot of people. :(
nonetheless...it's a change i must undertake, a season in life i must go through. it will all come to pass...and i will come out stronger. yes yes. i will survive.
my rooming details are out and i'm thankful that one of my roommates request has succeeded. i'm thankful that we got to know one another through facebook and ya. thank God for a strong christian roommate. Although we have no clue who our 3rd roomie is cos we can't find her on facebook, we're all contacting one another so we can settle things soon :) quite excited to meet them :)
ho hum... :D went ice skating with my cg on saturday and YIPEEE..i can finally ice skate..i used to put doing such things off and my excuse was that someday when i get a boyfriend he will teach me. it's a good excuse to be caught in his arms and all that. haha. i live in a fairytale world. nonetheless..i've thrown aside all these ideals and have gone ahead to explore my limits. ice skating is funnnnnn! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
had quite alot of fun with my cg during national day. i was all patriotic with the red shirt and ndp song singing with cheryl. ironically we ended up not watching ndp but the olympics cos we caught sight of hot guys in the gymnastic segment of the olympics. hahaha. MARCEL NGUYEN from germany is pretty cute...but just eye candy...and it melts after a while. not exactly something that will mesmerise me. nonetheless..all the girls were oogling at him. haha. i'm gonna miss my cg too. ah well...emo emo
went out with the brudders for picnic on sunday. it was supposed to be at fort canning. but the moment we said it was a great weather to picnic in..it started drizzling. we ended up picnic-ing under SMU, in front of the fort canning sign, in full view of the beautiful national museum. haha. only the coolest friends are willing to do such rubbish with you. I don't think I have any other friends that are willing to do such rubbish and insane things with me. i'm thankful for my brudders. who else will i do picnics with? or lie down on the grass patch at the national museum? or do stupid shadow poses? only the brudders. while most of my friendships have gone on and off or withered away...our has stayed strong and i do hope it remains this way :)
binh, a vietnamese who's attending SCAD is here in Singapore and i was supposed to meet him if not for the inability to contact him until night. quite sad but i'm not exactly someone who is a good host. so i guess it was all good. we chatted on the phone twice and ya..i'm looking forward to meeting him. :)
as for now....lemme rot at home..boreddddd..it's funny how i can think of so many things to do but i can't quite be bothered to start. haha.
as the days i have left in singapore dwindle, i can't help but feel all emo about it. i lie in bed at night and look around me and the fact that i'm gonna leave this familiarity behind soon scares me. i've never been by myself before, never slept alone in a room...yet soon all this will come...scares me to think that i'll have to sleep in a big strange room all by myself for a few days before my other roommates arrive at scad. :S ah well...i'm going to miss alot of people. :(
nonetheless...it's a change i must undertake, a season in life i must go through. it will all come to pass...and i will come out stronger. yes yes. i will survive.
my rooming details are out and i'm thankful that one of my roommates request has succeeded. i'm thankful that we got to know one another through facebook and ya. thank God for a strong christian roommate. Although we have no clue who our 3rd roomie is cos we can't find her on facebook, we're all contacting one another so we can settle things soon :) quite excited to meet them :)
ho hum... :D went ice skating with my cg on saturday and YIPEEE..i can finally ice skate..i used to put doing such things off and my excuse was that someday when i get a boyfriend he will teach me. it's a good excuse to be caught in his arms and all that. haha. i live in a fairytale world. nonetheless..i've thrown aside all these ideals and have gone ahead to explore my limits. ice skating is funnnnnn! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
had quite alot of fun with my cg during national day. i was all patriotic with the red shirt and ndp song singing with cheryl. ironically we ended up not watching ndp but the olympics cos we caught sight of hot guys in the gymnastic segment of the olympics. hahaha. MARCEL NGUYEN from germany is pretty cute...but just eye candy...and it melts after a while. not exactly something that will mesmerise me. nonetheless..all the girls were oogling at him. haha. i'm gonna miss my cg too. ah well...emo emo
went out with the brudders for picnic on sunday. it was supposed to be at fort canning. but the moment we said it was a great weather to picnic in..it started drizzling. we ended up picnic-ing under SMU, in front of the fort canning sign, in full view of the beautiful national museum. haha. only the coolest friends are willing to do such rubbish with you. I don't think I have any other friends that are willing to do such rubbish and insane things with me. i'm thankful for my brudders. who else will i do picnics with? or lie down on the grass patch at the national museum? or do stupid shadow poses? only the brudders. while most of my friendships have gone on and off or withered away...our has stayed strong and i do hope it remains this way :)
binh, a vietnamese who's attending SCAD is here in Singapore and i was supposed to meet him if not for the inability to contact him until night. quite sad but i'm not exactly someone who is a good host. so i guess it was all good. we chatted on the phone twice and ya..i'm looking forward to meeting him. :)
as for now....lemme rot at home..boreddddd..it's funny how i can think of so many things to do but i can't quite be bothered to start. haha.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
ever since i've stopped work, i wake up every morning feeling abit lost if i have no outings planned. it's abit of a loss where you go "...what now????" feeling quite sad cos now that i've stopped work i'm not used to not having bobo around or at least..not having a companion. it's getting quite lonely now and i have to go on loner outings which is quite pathetic and loserly if u ask me. I MISS YOU MUCHOS PACEY!!!
lunch date with pamela was alright. it wasn't superbly awkward cos pamela is such a talker anyway. there were a few moments of awkward silences..but i guess it ain't that bad. realised that after you grow up you dun quite accept everything your mentor says. you take it with a pinch of salt and though i didn't quite agree with some of the stuff she said i just nodded my head. i guess the whole misunderstanding between the 2 of us and the whole separation thing was good on my spiritual walk. dun think i would have grown much if she continued staying on in bartley cos i guess i was in some sense very dependent on her and my walk wasn't quite my own. yeah.
off to ikea for a loner time. i love ikea i tell u. i get very happy there. but it was so sad that pacey wasn't with me. there's no one to share my ikea joy and everytime i walk past certain objects like the baby bib and the cushion with hand warmers i couldn't help but recall the previous time we went there and laughed our heads off at the ridicularity of those objects. couldn't help smiling at the recollection either and then it made me all so emo that very soon we'll be miles apart :( paceyyy come with meeeee
oh pacey :( withdrawal symptoms is bad...the doctor is obviously handling it better than the artist who expresses herself more freely. hahha.
anyway..this period of time away from school has been rather good. learnt alot of things about myself and got to try out different stuff like rollerblading, playing the guitar and stuff...got to get closer to friends like chrystal and pacey and nat wee and learn more about myself like how i'm really quite simple minded and kiddo-ish, how i'm quite a social being otherwise i feel quite xianed and depress..haha not really...just xian...figured that i actually do like outdoor things cos it brings about building relationships...figured that i hate intruders into my close grp of friends..figured that i rather bum around and talk then to sit around and watch a movie marathon...etc etc.
this has been such a wonderful period of self discovery and i'm saddened at the fact that it's coming to an end soon :(
lunch date with pamela was alright. it wasn't superbly awkward cos pamela is such a talker anyway. there were a few moments of awkward silences..but i guess it ain't that bad. realised that after you grow up you dun quite accept everything your mentor says. you take it with a pinch of salt and though i didn't quite agree with some of the stuff she said i just nodded my head. i guess the whole misunderstanding between the 2 of us and the whole separation thing was good on my spiritual walk. dun think i would have grown much if she continued staying on in bartley cos i guess i was in some sense very dependent on her and my walk wasn't quite my own. yeah.
off to ikea for a loner time. i love ikea i tell u. i get very happy there. but it was so sad that pacey wasn't with me. there's no one to share my ikea joy and everytime i walk past certain objects like the baby bib and the cushion with hand warmers i couldn't help but recall the previous time we went there and laughed our heads off at the ridicularity of those objects. couldn't help smiling at the recollection either and then it made me all so emo that very soon we'll be miles apart :( paceyyy come with meeeee
oh pacey :( withdrawal symptoms is bad...the doctor is obviously handling it better than the artist who expresses herself more freely. hahha.
anyway..this period of time away from school has been rather good. learnt alot of things about myself and got to try out different stuff like rollerblading, playing the guitar and stuff...got to get closer to friends like chrystal and pacey and nat wee and learn more about myself like how i'm really quite simple minded and kiddo-ish, how i'm quite a social being otherwise i feel quite xianed and depress..haha not really...just xian...figured that i actually do like outdoor things cos it brings about building relationships...figured that i hate intruders into my close grp of friends..figured that i rather bum around and talk then to sit around and watch a movie marathon...etc etc.
this has been such a wonderful period of self discovery and i'm saddened at the fact that it's coming to an end soon :(
Monday, August 04, 2008
i feel a great sense of accomplishment today :) went to east coast today with pacey in the morning and she was supposed to teach me how to blade. God wasted our money :( we paid like 10 bucks for 2 hrs...but within the first hour the weather turned gloomy and it was super dramatic...like the weather in last night's channel 5 weekend movie - the day after tomorrow. it was all super windy and leaves were just blowing everywhere and it was cloudy cos the sand was being blown all over the place too. ack. it was so sad that by the time we returned our skates the sky cleared up. GRRRR..STUPID! maybe God was just protecting me from more serious injuries from learning how to rollerblade.
ah well. perhaps it was all planned out by God well. We met chris teo at macs and he happened to be there for his retreat and we crashed in. heh. he shared with us the different struggles that christian army guys face and i have this new found respect for them. He shared about his walk with God and a few of his friends' and seriously...their discipline in their walk is really very admirable and something that really really encouraged me. Once again i realised the importance of mentoring and spending time with the older ones at church to learn from their walk. so inspiring man :)
anyway, i side tracked. we met chrystal and cheryl later on and all 4 of us rented bikes to cycle. we cycled from the skate rink all the way to changi beach..that's like 3 whole hours back and forth and we covered bout 20km of cycling. haha. yep. SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna spend the remaining time in Singapore exploring Singapore and soaking in the atmosphere and time with friends. it's really quite sad that during this period of time i'm just growing closer and closer and closer to them..can't really bear to leave them....
on the other hand....my family is pissing me off and it's making me even happier that i'll be leaving this family soon. my mum once told me she got married to my dad cos she wanted to get out of the house. now i can't wait to get out of my house...and i'm not going to follow in her stupid footsteps just to get outta here. if it's not because i am financially dependent, i would really get my own house and move out of this stupid place. i will earn my own money and pay them back for my studies so i won't owe them anything and they can't use it to threaten me. urgh. they complain why we don't come home or spend time with them and yet they are stupid enough not to know the reason why and it's damn irritating when they act all pitiful and desperate and hurt and ask you what the hell is bloody wrong. urgh...______-up group of people related by blood. i wish i could sever it.
ah well. perhaps it was all planned out by God well. We met chris teo at macs and he happened to be there for his retreat and we crashed in. heh. he shared with us the different struggles that christian army guys face and i have this new found respect for them. He shared about his walk with God and a few of his friends' and seriously...their discipline in their walk is really very admirable and something that really really encouraged me. Once again i realised the importance of mentoring and spending time with the older ones at church to learn from their walk. so inspiring man :)
anyway, i side tracked. we met chrystal and cheryl later on and all 4 of us rented bikes to cycle. we cycled from the skate rink all the way to changi beach..that's like 3 whole hours back and forth and we covered bout 20km of cycling. haha. yep. SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna spend the remaining time in Singapore exploring Singapore and soaking in the atmosphere and time with friends. it's really quite sad that during this period of time i'm just growing closer and closer and closer to them..can't really bear to leave them....
on the other hand....my family is pissing me off and it's making me even happier that i'll be leaving this family soon. my mum once told me she got married to my dad cos she wanted to get out of the house. now i can't wait to get out of my house...and i'm not going to follow in her stupid footsteps just to get outta here. if it's not because i am financially dependent, i would really get my own house and move out of this stupid place. i will earn my own money and pay them back for my studies so i won't owe them anything and they can't use it to threaten me. urgh. they complain why we don't come home or spend time with them and yet they are stupid enough not to know the reason why and it's damn irritating when they act all pitiful and desperate and hurt and ask you what the hell is bloody wrong. urgh...______-up group of people related by blood. i wish i could sever it.
Friday, August 01, 2008
i am physically and emotionally and mentally drained from trying to be a grown up -___- zzzzz
I'm very much thankful that visa application went smoothly even though on my way there i got lost and i realised i forgot to fill up one form : panicked like mad and i was sooo nervous about the interview and all. it felt so awkward cos the counter was quite high all the way up to my upper chest that it was quite uncomfortable for me to speak to the person at the embassy. i was so drained by the time it was all over and i got the ticket to collect my passport and visa next tuesday :) PHEW....
second grown up thing i did was to go cut hair all by myself. hahaha. OK..i sound like such a loser noob. but ya. i felt quite good cos even though it was painful to get my hair cut...at least for the second time in my entire life i am satisfied with the haircut. hahahhaa. usually i feel like shit and i feel like burying my head in a hole until the hair grows back to normal. thank God for Wendy! i'm going to stick to her as my hairstylist from now on. hahahaha.
yay yay. post internship celebration tonight with brain and chrystal!
whoot whooootttt
I'm very much thankful that visa application went smoothly even though on my way there i got lost and i realised i forgot to fill up one form : panicked like mad and i was sooo nervous about the interview and all. it felt so awkward cos the counter was quite high all the way up to my upper chest that it was quite uncomfortable for me to speak to the person at the embassy. i was so drained by the time it was all over and i got the ticket to collect my passport and visa next tuesday :) PHEW....
second grown up thing i did was to go cut hair all by myself. hahaha. OK..i sound like such a loser noob. but ya. i felt quite good cos even though it was painful to get my hair cut...at least for the second time in my entire life i am satisfied with the haircut. hahahhaa. usually i feel like shit and i feel like burying my head in a hole until the hair grows back to normal. thank God for Wendy! i'm going to stick to her as my hairstylist from now on. hahahaha.
yay yay. post internship celebration tonight with brain and chrystal!
whoot whooootttt
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