i've been pretty much carried away by the preparation of the exams that i was so tempted to just reject all appointments with friends because i was so afraid of the time that i'd waste away.

Yesterday's meeting with the brudders to celebrate Clarissa's birthday made me realise how selfish i was at wanting to put myself first above my brudders...and of course other friends. After all, i 've been missing out on so many of our gatherings because of my many commitments. we finally managed to have a proper gathering and take a complete photo.

it's scary how time flies and everytime we gather to do up our photo collage for one of our birthdays, many memories come flooding back and we can;'t help but laugh at our sec 2 pictures and what nots...even if we've been seeing the exact same photos for every birthday. haha. when it comes to mine i'll have the latest and most updated ones. YAY. haha. isn't it cool to gather together and look back at the old times and stare at wonder of how cute/ugly/stupid we look in the past. i think it would be quite fun to continue doing so when we're all old and wrinkly and going blind to sit down and re-look at our pictures like we used to.

i really want to thank my brudders for always wanting to continue keeping in touch. i realised during yesterday's long bus ride to denise's hse of how unsociable i am. while i cherish my friendships, i don't quite bother to make the effort to make it last. i've seen countless of my friendships just fade off into the background and then finally disappear. even with my SFC mates. after not meeting up for quite some time, no longer studying with them and stuff, it seems like i've just drifted from them and i'm afraid to confess but i barely have anything to say to them. it's like all of a sudden we're back to square one and there's nothing to talk about.

God has blessed me with many wonderful friends, but i'm afraid that like life, it will all just pass by. moving on with life and not getting stuck in the past. will i continue to still remain friends with my 6 other brudders as well as my other 6 close friends in class???

i don't know. it's sad to think of losing them though. i mean...we already miss each other when we're absent from school. sigh........**emo music plays in the background...**

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studies wise...things hasn;t been very good. even my goldfish memory isn't retaining much of what i've studied and i feel the least bit of confidence for my exams. God give me the faith i need to pull through, to trust and rely on You and not in my own strength.

it's just abit more glory!

MY GOD IS BIG...
MY GOD NEVER SLEEPS!
HE KNOWS OUR THOUGHTS
HE KNOWS OUR STRUGGLES.....















AND HE COMES AND RESCUE US :)

yeeps. just when i was getting all worried about my work and stuff, fretting about how i'm going to screw up my results...God comes and saves the day...when i least expected it.

while i was studying at the study room this afternoon, just when i looked up, i caught sight of this eagle flying in the sky. i used "fly" instead of "soar" because it simply wasn't soaring as eagles usually should. in fact....it was errrr...i don't know what word to describe it. haha. it was kinda errr..trying to soar but it was such a pathetic attempt. HAHAHA. i don't know. it kinda reminded me of myself. struggling and stuff to keep afloat...to keep everything going well so i could soar above everything else. still...the fact that i caught the eagle in such an unglam moment reminded me that while God helps us to soar above our problems, we do hit the rocks at some point in our life but once it's over...we can return to soar in the skies majestically again :)

and then...during QT, God surprised me even more! he gave me Matthew 11: 28-30

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-30

and through it and in other ways as well, He reassured me of how we'll go through this tough A level journey together :) He didn't tell me about not worrying because He provides for all our needs, or how i should be working hard to glorify Him or whatever people tell you when you tell them that you're stressed and stuff. He knew me well enough to reassure me with the knowledge that not only will He bring me through this, He'll also be walking by my side, at my pace and help me when i'm tired and burdened.

my God's so sweet rightttttt???????

He superbly rocks :)

15 more days to prelim and thus, exam stress piles on and i'm freaking out.

shucks. i'm feeling superbly demoralised now that i dun wish to do anything related to school...apart from what i'll do after i get out of it.

i thought i was studying pretty fine and i was kinda happy with how i was doing until the teachers happily piled up the different schools' papers for us to do...not having studied finish i spent most of my time wasted looking up my notes for the answers. but that's not all... i realised what a horrible memory i have. all that i studied i couldn't remember and i struggled through the trail papers. esp. chem. it didn't help that my chem is already so badddd....shucks....

i'm screwed. YIKES. only a miracle can save me.

Dear God....

my GeePee belongs to the toilet bowl for it's shittiness

my Bio has somehow or another been attacked by viruses and bacteria and is currently returning back to dust

my chem has errr...remained sort of non-existent. Oh God..gimme some chemistry with that stupid subject...grrrr

and my maths....errr...ok...so i can integrate my formulas and differente them all.....but....oh Lord...why stats???????? stats of Gloria understanding stats is negative...which i dun think exists in Stats....aiyyyeeeeeee

dear Lord. the one who hears His children cry out in anguish. the one who never sleeps and slumbers. HEAR MY CRY AND SAVE ME FROM THE DEPTHS OF ACADEMIC FAILURE!!!!

all this i pray in Jesus' name.

AMEN.

anyway....i saw this picture online and it reminded me of my new half ang-moh neighbours in my condo. haha

no kidding....they really have hair like that. haha

oh. and my latest new neighbour hails from land of the rising sun....JAPAN...i shall go over and make friends so that i can get free sushi. :)

YIPPPPPPS

kk hospital

before i blog about my near hospital stay today, i just WANTED to blog this down.

last night, just as i was sufferring from the side effects of lao sai-ing, i saw a silhouette of my elder bro dancing from the after effects of orientation. funnily, against the bright toilet light, he looked strangely familiar. ok ok. he looked like a dinosaur dancing. more specifically....a t-rex. it was realy amusing. and now, just as i'm reading this out to annoy him..he is burying his face into the cushions and continuing his photowhoring with my HANDPHONE. sooooo...if you people are interested to meet my dear weird "sister" do tell me and i will show you some really "pretty" and "cute" pictures of him her in my phone. :)

ok. back to my episode. haha.

sooo...after lao-sai-ing for like ......eh......10 times in one night? i was BADLY dehydrated. but drinking water just made me feel like puking. ah wellz. i spent so much time shitting that i managed to finish the entire 200 plus paged fox-trot comic book that i borrowed from the libary. THANK GOD FOR FOX-TROT for making my lao-sai-ing episode less of a pain.

i thought i could survive the night..besides..it's just lao-sai-ing. the only pain involved was the soreness of my asshole. but halfway tru the night my stomach was like wringing itself i wanted to perform hara kiri. urgh. i couldn't take it anymore and i finally puked everything out. you could seriously smell the acid from my stomach. yak...

so my mum tried to find a 24hr clinic around my hse and lo and behold...despite having like at least 4 clinics just around my hse...none of them was 24 hrs and so we travelled all the way down to kk hospital. i'm embarassed to say that my mum couldn't decide whether or not i was supposed to go to the children's department or the women's department but whatever it is...i still got sent to the children's department.

haha. apart from a lil embarassment....it was such a WONDERFUL experience. man...those nice cartoons all the wall would make any sick person feel loads better :) my doctor was this nice PRETTY and SWEET young lady who made me feel so nice and loved and she took all the pain away **BEAMS** (i'm so inspired to be a pediatrician now) haha. it feels awesome to be spoilt in a hospital. even the nurse was great. apparently they wanted to put me down for observation since i've been losing so much body fluids from all that lao-sai-ing and vomiting so i dun die from dehydration. they gave me some medicine that had to go somewhere else other than your mouth..which i dun exactly want to go there. (and because of that i am totally convinced that i do NOT want to be a nurse) and made me waiiiitttt for an hour for the medicine to take effect before i was fed glucose solution....black current flavoured..YUMMMMM...tasted exactly like your 10 cent popsicles. :)

so i was spoilt sick at the hospital and now i'm perfectly normal. and i'm VERY THANKFUL that i dun get disgusting medicine. for one..i have really yummy medicine that i don't have to torture myself swallowing pills because they are all liquid form :) whoooot. my medicine includes my yummy popiscle-like glucose solutions to replenish my body fluids :) YEEPS YEEPS :))))))

i'm actually thankful to God for this entire thing cos the period of sufferring was really short and now i feel so loved by all my classmates- ebeh, peehui, mel, yinxi, charlene, rach as well as my fellow SFC peeps eunice and anthea. mann....it's during such times when you realise how loved you areeee...so touched :) thankewsssssssss

soo...should i be a pediatrician??? hahaha. oh wellzzzzzzzzz. me fickle minded womennnnn..blarh

time flies really fast. the prelims timetable is already out and i realised with a shock of horror of how close i am to the prelims and the BIG As. oh dearies. anyway, ever since the syllabus is coming to an end and all is left is quite boring and dry topics (minus bio), the grp of us mad mouses have decided to make our lessons more interesting. today was some fun day :)

during bio, i realised that it was quite an evangelistic lecture. HAHA. i'm saying that because the topic that we're going through now is evolution. ironically, all the bio lecturers are Christian. soooo...you see...the whole thing about creation vs evolution...though it's not in our syllabus our notes still have stuff that refutes the evolutionists theory and has bible references about creation and a link to http://www.answersingenesis.org/ haha. cool eh????????????

anyway, since we were so bored, ebeh, peehwee and myself were going mad and laughing at dumb stuff in the documentary that we were watching. it was on stuff on microbiology and evolution and the different ancestral links. we were laughing at how come the sunflower and dog were somehow linked on the same branch of the ancestral line, the weirdo diver guy who is mad about bacteria, the anti-climatic music, the emo/dramatic transitions in a dumb bio film etc. haha. ohh.. fun. and of course, since some of us sneaky peakys didn't do our chem tutorial...we came up with this plan to stall time so that mrs loi won't be able to reach transition metals today. HAHAHA. the plan was to frown and ask as many questions as we can. hahaha. of course...since mrs loi is worried about my chem results, naturally i'm the "CHOSEN ONE" to frown and look confused. HAHAHA but of course 3/4 through the lesson we realised all that we did was wasted cos she didn't even complete the previous tutorial on Grp 7 elements on time and even dragged for about 10-15 min. BAH. nonetheless...it was such a fun time doing it. HAHAHAHA.

okays...to make me feel positive about the upcoming exams...i shall state the stuff that i want to do after the As...
1. rachel, ebeh and i have decided that we will work together to complete a 1000 piece puzzle for each one of us. haha. that makes 3000 pieces.
2. sell my books and notes (WHOOOOOOOOOT!! burn recycle them!!!)
3. ehh....go with mel and charlene and ebeh to the SPCA/ASD to volunteer
4. tidy up my room
5. WATCH DVDs/MOVIES
6. Sleepovers
7. do up my portfolio
8. go overseas to shop. hahah (makeover)
9. download games to play and make me comp so full with them that it lags (haha no. i don't want me comp to laggggg)
... and many more (ok la. i can't think of anything else) hahahahahhaha

back to studying..... :)

go glory goooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!